Did I miss something?

Today I had my first counseling session so I can transition. It went very well. I am happy that the counselor doesn't want to dwell on the past, because neither do I. I am tired of doing counseling where I relive all the past traumas of life. Let's leave it in the past where it belongs and live in the now. I am not disassociating with my past, I'm not saying it didn't exist or that it happened to the boy I am not, but I'm tired of being depressed about things. The counselor is an F2M which proves body swapping should be legalized and we can all find the body we are happy with.

How do we define forward? Is it based on a long term goal? On a short term goal? What's the difference between lurching steps and smooth transitions? Why use terms like this?

My name change application has been approved and am now Erin Amelia Fletcher, still with the silly M in the sex section, but the guy at the counter was soooo kind omg he has been doing this forever and even gave me a hug about that silly M, he said he knew a woman from britain a former cop that immigrated to canada, and then after all her procedures decided she had to move back to britain to settle things with her family. made me soooo sad, i hope whoever that woman is found what she was looking for.

C’est á¨crit

Elle te fera changer
La course des nuages
Balayer tes projets
Vieillir bien avant l’á¢ge
Tu la perdras cent fois
Dans les vapeurs des ports
C’est écrit…..

Et ses ombres qu'elle te
Dessine autour des yeux
Et ces ombres qu’elle te
Dessine autour des yeux

I should write more, but for some reason I'm finding it hard to actually do it. I want to improve my writing skill, do something creative and constructive instead of just consuming the stories here, but I've always put it off because I've felt that I can't live up to my own expectations or that I can't match the intricate and clever plots of the authors here or other silly excuses. Maybe I should just write from the heart.

I settled down to reread some of my stuff, partly to keep a consistency in the characters I am writing. In 'Ride On' I refer to a Vanessa Redgrave film, 'Second Serve', and as a bear of little brain I had never looked it up.
It is on You tube.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mgYxHYJ5H80

Hey all,

I'm flying from NJ to Toronto, ON tomorrow to meet some customers at their site. I've never flown into Canada, and never been without my wife before. Should I be nervous about packing Kristy's clothes? Should I just basically choose to be resigned to travel without any of my things for the evenings? Who has had experience with Customs? I've only been a few times, twice while on a cruise, and once we crossed at Niagara Falls. So this is a new experience for me.

Thanks for any advice...

Kristy

Well I am back online, Girl lesson 941 never spray any thing on with lap top open.
Being homeless with the internet as my only connection with the outside world, (I have no phone) I Feel the internet should be free and not cost anything to be on line. I am on most of the time because I know the system and can with my macbook connect to wifi any were using various methods. That being said (were I am going with this is), I love letters and connecting with people, and will write back as soon as I can.

So my roommate Tanya asked me to help her out while she does a girl scout cookie booth. Well my job is less glamorous. I'm watching the 6 month old child she babysits. It's been an hour and I'vs changed a diaper that caused the dog to run in terror. Now the little ball of joy won't stop crying. I am not a child person. I will be glad when she is done, of course that's four hours from now.

Things can get complicated at times.

Work is finally back to a (relatively) sane level, and I'm *finally* able to settle in and start pecking away at Maureen's 'to-do' list.

I'm finding that, for Amazon's Boot Camp chapter, there are too many things going on to keep everything on track without first writing each thread separately and then weaving everything together. Far more time consuming, but 'ya gotta do what ya gotta do.'

My little sister is not what you would call the most computer literate person in the world.

Nevertheless, when she said she had a "really good" computer that a friend had given her, I let my hopes get a bit up that it was something I could use, since I'm trying to build a gaming machine at the mo'.

The only downside, even if it didn't work out, seemed to be that attached to the offer was a whole slew of other computer parts and fiddly bits she didn't want to have to mess with, that I would have to take off her hands.

My week has sucked immensely because from Tuesday until Friday I was in a VA hospital being treated for kidney stones. I had one that was moving, that was really huge and a veritable zen garden in my kidneys, just not trying to get out. I had stents put into place and they are trying to find a time to put me on the surgical schedule. Loads of fun.

Just wanted to give a public thank-you to Tels who took time yesterday to talk to me by phone. Thank you hon.

It used to be that my internet passwords were simple, something easy to remember. After being victimised by unknown people in the last couple of years, I now have a book where I record my passwords, but in the last few days, something seems to be happening with several of my accounts. It is almost as if someone has gotten into some of my accounts and destroyed their password files, because accounts like Facebook, and several others, my passwords have stopped working.

That's what my daughter just said about my hormones.

Can I cry now?

Well, I managed to hurt my shoulder pulling skids at work last night. I'm starting to worry I'm not up to this job physically, and if I lose it, then what?

The Family Girl Blogs (aka "The New Working Girl Blogs") Blog #35: Imitation of a Regular Life (2 of 2) To see all of my Family Girl Blogs, click on this link: http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/book/28818/family-girl-blogs

I am a post-op TG girl, as many know, and I have had to make adjustments over the years - from the simpler, visible side of things, like the way I dress and act and sound (and even smell heehee), to more complicated things like learning new ways to live, to relate to others, and to be happy.   No choice, really, especially after I had changed what my therapist calls my "basic physical parameters," which is 21st century doctor-speak for HRT, SRS and the other plastic surgeries.

It's real difficult adjusting to a feminine life.   That's not to say it's unwanted - after all, these are the things I needed to do to accomplish the magical transition that I had desperately wanted, and eventually  have the life I have dreamed about - to have my imitation regular life.

Ok, a few thoughts on expanding/extending my Transformations essay. Just noodling around, but I will be describing things that are "mature" (including genitals), so beware.

Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday dear Laika....
Happy Birthday to you!

After reading AoifeM's latest Wyld chapter and reviewing the Wyld Universe Rules Page I realized I goofed! I'd mentioned somewhere, probably in one of the 'Wyld Conversation' blogs, that Wyld transformations are instantaneous. They are also supposed to be without pain and usually accompanied by a flash of light. I totally forgot to include that in the rules page, so I've now added it under rule #9. Since I goofed on that, I'm giving AoifeM a pass for Ryan.

As I move towards transitioning to full time I have certain things that I see as small milestones. It would be nice if I could just start wearing dresses and be beautiful, but everything is a process. I don't want to force me being fem on people, but right now the only place I am not fem is at work (where I am androgynous).

Here ya go, like his hair.

http://music.uk.msn.com/whats-hot/jennifer-lopez-has-a-male-...

Angharad

For those of us who were abused as children because of our various gender variances and/or sexuality differences. This just a note to demonstrate that paedophilia and other related crimes enjoy a healthy protection within the Scottish legal system.

If anybody is interested just visit this site.

http://www.ukcolumn.org/

It seems that the lady Elish Angioloni has a lot of explaining to do.

Beverly,

A bit of a follow up on my previous blog and an explantion to why it's weird.

Most of us, I believe, have very stylized ideas about what it means to be a woman in real life, and I must admit that my idea of a woman's life is vastly different than it was back in 1990, the initial start of my journey to my true self.

I had a good session, with one of the things I did was have an exercise where I pretended to punch my rapist, taking time to see how my body moved, what muscles I would use, and so on. Being given permission to be angry at him in a safe place felt pretty good.

According to an article in the Guardian, St Petersburgh is following other right wing local legislatures in condemning 'Gay propaganda'. I wonder if we've seen the pendulum start to swing back to the right after the recent increase in liberal policies around the world.

Looking at the way the church in Europe and America is increasingly trying to undermine personal freedoms and various governments seem intent on the same agenda, are we starting to see a reversion to old hypocrasies, double standards and totalitarianism?

Lulu is having a sale--the headline says it all. Through March 15th--that's this Thursday!--buy three books and get a fourth free. The code is "FOURLEAF".

This is also a shameless plug for my "On the Road-Again" series of, ahem, four books ...

Karin

I had forgot to mention a little incident that happened between my ex and my mom on Thursday night. They had a open house at the school my daughter will attend next year, and after a presentation, they were supposed to take a tour in small groups starting with the people at the back of the auditorium. My ex, my mom, and my daughter were at the front, but my ex grabbed my daughter and ran to join the first group, leaving my mom behind. Unable to keep up, my mom decided to skip the tour entirely and went to her car to wait.

Yesterday afternoon i gave a talk at the local Metropolitan Community Church. It was for a Gender education outreach ministry they called Gender 101.

I posted the full text of my talk at my Blog, Looking Forward, Moving Forward( Latest Update ).

It was scary, it was wonderful and i feel in my own little way, i am helping others Like so many of ourselves.

Hugs,
Diana

Just a heads up, Alandria's song is not discontinued, I just can't seem to get into writing it right now, I've lost something somewhere in the story, every time I open chapter 5 I stare at it and start to cry because I can't write it, Once Sarah Book 1 is complete I plan on writing again on Further (Miss)Adentures of Sally and Susan, The Final Fantasy Series is a 4 part series, I may or may not write more, The Punisher Series I'm writing who knows depends on how well I like to write in the Retcon universe, everyone who's in it has been extremely helpful that I've talked to so far.

Just wanted to leave a little note here that the projects I'm involved in will be a bit slower for awhile. Specifically stories I'm co-authoring with Ashly (DarkKitten) or editing for her might be a bit backlogged, as I'm currently recovering from oral surgery. Every day is hit or miss. Like tonight I felt great, and helped her edit Punisher 1 in no time :-) But last night and this morning I could barely see straight. :-)

I've got some good painkillers though, and HOPEFULLY recovery should be pretty quick, but I just wanted to post a li'l update that I'm not being lazy or anything. :-P So look for ESWS some time next week maybe, and the rest I'll try not to slow Ashly down too much on :-)

~Zoe

After looking at my stories page, I notice there is still some interest in my Assassin series. I know it's a shameless plug, but it is available on Kindle. I also tried to have it done in print with Createspace at Amazon, but the story is to long by six or so pages, 828 is the maximum and Assassin runs at 834 so I have to find a way to edit it down to their maximum if I want it in print. The concept at Createspace is interesting, but you pay for each page printed with no up front money. The only problem might be the length will make the book so expensive no one will want to buy it.

Hi again

The first Talmuld Torah is "Time," considering it is "Daylight Savings Day" in the U S. It is being discussed in the Forum (see top of "Home Page")

I was hosting/emceeing an anime event at a mall yesterday when one of the contestants in the cosplay (costume play) segment asked, while waiting for his turn to go on the catwalk, whether I had joined any pageants because I was pretty and had a good voice. Though I agree on the voice part I didn't believe the pretty part. I know I look okay, but not good enough for pageants. The guy asking has had some fame (or infamy) in our country because he has had multiple surgeries to look like Clark Kent / Superman. He also happens to be a trainer / coach in beauty pageants.

I had sort of noticed this phenomenon in that my most recently posted story had only received a fraction of the hits which I would have normally expected, but I shrugged my shoulders and put it down to the fact that I had just not connected with the audience or I had a bad authorial day when I wrote it.

Then another author bemoaned the same effect on her latest posting and wondered if it was to do with the recent up-grade. So..I went investigating, a la Nancy Drew or Susie and Jeffrey, but more cerebrally and without the mayhem.

I've been thinking about the surgery, and I realized a sad truth. Even if somehow I could magically afford it, who would be with me through it? And after it was done, what in my life would actually change? Plus, I might end up losing my daughter if I were to go further than I have, which would not be worth it.

Ah, well, just another day.

Hi!

This is a repost from a little over a week ago to make sure that everyone got a chance to see it.

Due to the number of inquiries I've been getting as of late...

A number of people have been asking about writing characters that have already been chosen. Sadly, I have to tell them that those particular ones are unavailable at this time, because other people have chosen them.

There are a number of authors/potential authors that have chosen characters and after a number of months, and in some cases over a year, have posted nothing.