Several weeks ago, I added a quote to my signature line here; a quote which I remembered from my youth. A few people have inquired as to the origin of the quote, so I felt the need to explain it.

I was raised as a Lutheran - the church of my mother’s family, something for which I give thanks regularly. My father’s family were Baptists, and I give thanks that I was NOT raised in that church! It has been my experience that all churches have their share of hypocrites, but the percentage amongst the Baptists seems to be considerably higher, as does the number of assholes.

And first, I would like to wish everyone a Happy Easter. It is a beautiful day here, and we will be having dinner with all of children and their spouses. I hope that those who read this are having as good of an Easter as I am.

After seeing and hearing so much hate and gloating on the TV and radio (mostly from women), I'm wondering how they think they will enforce this ruling.

I understand they think it is unfair to female athletes,. I understand that it will stop fully intact perverts going into open female changing rooms exposing themselves and claiming to be trans. Or sick rapist claiming to be trans trying to get into female prisons. Some idiots were using trans as a shield to their disgusting behavior. It was probably things like this that created such a backlash.

While I am not overjoyed by the recent swarm of political blogs on BC, I understand that these are interesting times and people need to express their feelings and thoughts about matters of utmost importance to our community and indeed to the wider political realities.

Threads that involve name-calling may be removed, or demoted from the front page but no one is in danger of being suspended or banned for their posted content. This is vital and we need each other.

Hugs,
Joyce

Been a rough couple of days, struggling with PTSD, Dysphoria, and worrying about my family as my mom has been struggling lately, and we still don't know what is going on with my brother.

Anyway, I am accepting hugs and prayers, if you want to send them my way.

There's a lot of excellent stories there and it would be a shame if they were adrift and going towards Limbo.
Is there a plan to fix whatever issue is causing a problem??

I am very sad to see that the UK supreme court is antitransgender and that that well known overpaid hack, JKRowling has funded this discriminatory finding that will set back transgender rights in the UK for a generation. It shows a fundamental misunderstanding of what transgender is about. Seeing as the current research suggests we are affected before birth should that have the same definition as cisgendered females. This is political with morons like Rowling not seeing the bigger picture.

I generally try to post a blog about my new stories when I post them but I always forget. New story was posted on Saturday, for the May contest. Here's a link :D

https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/106229/i-was-teenage-...

Here's the pic just in case something like that draws people in LOL.

That I saw some time back - The American President. In it, Michael Douglas stars as the President of the United States. His character is a widower with a teenage daughter, his wife having died during his campaign. The movie also stars Annette Benning as a professional lobbyist who is hired by an organization to push an environmental bill.

Just saw on CNN, Saturday 4/12/25... They are reporting the disappearance of some of those who disagree with Trump. I know that there are Thousands or even Millions of demonstrators so this seems implausible. I am just waiting to see what develops and keeping my head down for now.

Gwen

Rhett Sanders cannot catch a break when her boyfriend’s mother attends an anti-LGTB rally and decides to have the school board throw her off of the girl’s track team

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jso-SBtfMXg

so today I found myself drifting into disassociation, without any trigger I could think of.

It is kind of scary that I still have the ability to put my body on autopilot while my brain takes a vacation.

Is a scene from Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade. In the scene, Indiana and his father travel to Berlin just before the start of WWII in order to retrieve his father’s diary. While there, they witness a book burning in the town square, with hundreds of people cheering as the Nazis pile books upon the flames. Indiana’s father, played by Sean Connery, turns to him and says, “My boy, we are pilgrims in an unholy land.”

An important part of transition is finding different ways to open up to the world and express yourself. And an important one for me is through my singing.

I started feminine voice classes in the fall of 2023. When my voice began to solidify and develop in early 2024, I tested it out by singing along with a variety of songs on YouTube. And my teacher encouraged me to do it as part of my voice training. Funding for those classes ran out. But I continued to practice and decided last fall to sign up for formal training at a local music school.

of mice and men...

I get the impression that some readers think that Bike has got a bit stale, mind you lots of readers have never heard of it though I believe the Kindle version is still bringing something for the site, up to book 24 I think.

I found out today that my brother will have a pacemaker implanted in 6 weeks. Despite this, my sister doesn't seem very optimistic, and told me she got a black dress in case she needs to hold his funeral.

THIS COMMENT IS NOT MEANT TO DISPARAGE THE WORK OF ANY OTHER AUTHOR.

I have been thinking about what my favorite TG might be and my thoughts keep returning to "Captive" by Melanie Brown. In some ways parts of it parallel to parts of my own life. For me, as with the protagonist in the story adapting and accepting is what is available. It is not such a bad life. It got me out of a painful marriage with a drunken abusive woman.

I did not endure the kidnapping and torture in the story, but the end results are much like mine.

Gwen Brown

I have notice a fall off on reviews both here and on Fictionmania.
I have asked there whether this is a reaction to these troubled times, when the very small and thoroughly pleasant transgender community has been picked out as the substitute jew to be hated by pliable majority. Are people frightened to put their names (even pennames) to a few words in praise of our evident perversion?
I just hope that is not true and that the courage to simply stay calm and carry on still exists

I swear, I overthink everything. Here I am, scrubbing words like “earth” and “inch” from my novel because they don’t exist in this world—while writing the whole thing in English, a language my characters wouldn’t even speak.

Some of the girls have been traveling to Mexico or Canada for the less expensive hormones and drugs. Perfectly legal in the U.S. by prescription. Not always for transgender even under off label prescription. Reports are coming in also about doctors getting skittish about treating transgender not knowing how far Trump and his team will go in banning or outlaw trans everything? If one has a doctor stick with him or her as a new doctor may not want to get involved with anyone who is transgender.

Has anybody ever heard of EvoFem, a YouTube channel that does trans fiction? I haven't checked it out as I don't really care for narrated fiction. It just is too slow for my tastes. I keep trying to read ahead of the narration, which doesn't work very well.

So I guess my latest story is a bit of a flop.

I had wanted to make a clever little story that would serve as a metaphor for having multiple personalities, and apparently almost nobody got that idea.

Which means I wasnt as clever as I hoped I would be. so I am very sorry.

Ok here goes boy goes to Florida for a long Christmas break as a girl ,works in Santa's work shop at the mall the family meets another family who turns out to be rich goes out with one of the sons
Also gets involved with a police action and becomes news back in his hometown so by the time he returns home she is well known and goes back to school as a girl

towards the end of the month

I'm just about to start posting a new story. It's called 'Weeping Willow' and is, as my other, longer, efforts, about a gifted musician. It will be the longest story that I've written and runs to five books of over twenty chapters, so a half a million words. Like my other long stories, it just seems to carry on in short bursts of writing. It starts with a central character a good ten years younger than I’ve normally written about. Ninety-five percent of the places mentioned are real and viewable on Google Maps.

Well, this weekend has dealt me pressure I didn't expect to face and landed me in the awkward position of disappointing readers... something I promised to never do again.

With Focal Point's start being reposted as a BCTS Classic, it's gotten people reading my long dead work all over again and sadly, many are finding out that like a lot of my work back then, it was unfinished. This wasn't intentional, but it happened and It was something I promised I would never do again.

After a thoroughly enjoyable mini break!

By a few people that I thought I could trust; people who I have always thought of as family, people that I was under the impression thought of me the same way. These are people that I care for and thought that I could trust them because they cared about me. But I was reminded of the fact that trust is a fickle and fleeting thing for some people in this world.

Over the past several months, I have been re-reading a lot of stories and books that I have previously read. This line was in one of those stories and it really hit home after the week I have had……

Please be aware of the warnings in the tags I selected. I am referencing and linking some current news reports that are highly disturbing. So if your blood pressure tends to spike at disturbing news, or if you get triggered by the same, you might want to just skip the rest of this post.

Just a quick update:

My mom has generously let me borrow her computer, so I can check in more often.

Which I will keep brief!

just so no one panics, my computer is down, so I will not be online for a bit.

everybody take some huggles to keep you busy till I get back!

I don't care about the International Date Line. Where I am it's March 15. That was the day when Julius Caesar was assassinated, but I want to celebrate a much happier event.

We're trying out a new distribution channel with our latest DopperPress release. It's called Draft2Digital and will make our books available on many different online sellers, including Amazon, Apple, SmashWords, Kobo and more!

We get a wider world footprint, more flexible pricing, more help with promotion and simpler uploading for eBooks as well as better potential for producing paperbacks and audio books.

Yep, there's no doubt about it, we are on the cusp of Spring