Many members here say they are compelled to Cross dress. How many surgeries does it take. If you live as the "other" gender long enough, does one ever get accustomed to it?
I have always thought that "The Green Fog", was an absolutely riveting tale. Today, I started to wonder if any movie Producer had taken up the torch and decided to make it a Movie? If I knew someone in that business, I would most definitely approach them. Is "Hallmark" still doing movies. It would make a great children's movie despite it having adult content once or twice.
I was just about to work on a new story, at 3 am PDT (USA), I think about 11 am GMT. Suddenly the computer went dead. At first I thought it was my wireless mouse, but after I mucked about for nearly an hour, I found that unplugging it all, letting it sit, and re starting everything, it is all fine.
I did order a new mouse since the led in my present one no longer works.
I simply can not say how this happened. All the Medical Provider will indicate to me is that I have a Blood infection of of unspecified origin. What with all the different strains of Covid mucking around it is not surprising. For years doomsayers have been preaching the end of Earth through various means.
This isn't surprising to me. There are three major hospitals near to me and a half dozen others.
It's gotten to the point that any time I go out, I wear a mask. Thankfully, I found some pretty flowery masks that do not look quite as awful as most.
I woke up this morning with needing to deal with SOMEONE, Goofle once (again ???). Perhaps what happened is merely a minor disturbance in the force. Their little ARMY was simply "Being All They Could Be". I'll get over it.
I just ran into a bunch of Mad Naked Bike Riders. Both genders. I had been asked to join them but am not a STRIPPER. Looking at the news this is almost world wide. They want people to stop using oil from the ground.
I've done my bit. I do not own a car, nor do I rent or drive one.
My incidental use is minimal...whatever the bus uses.
I hate to say this. I feel betrayed. I'm post operative MTF and thought I was sailing along just fine.
I had wondered why my Doctor had not renewed my prescription of Estradiol .1 patches. She is unwilling to discuss the matter with me, or it seems that way.
In the last months I've had Edema in both legs, odd spots on my skin. Now I am scheduled to have a heart image procedure with dye. They seem to be very concerned with tumors on my spine and brain and Stroking out.
I was just sorting through old stories here when I noticed one from around 2016 by Maggie Finson. She was complaining about Women keeping their heels on... Hmmm.
In 2024, I'm perhaps more liberated. These days I have my own list. Never more than 2 inch heels. Dresses and Skirts must have at least 2 side pockets. Wearing pants is sinful, don't do it.
Never wear a bra. They make my Lymph nodes feel like I've been shot. Sometimes a Crop Top.
It is always a struggle to keep my weight out of the Obese Zone. I've been up and down 40 lbs (18 kg) over the years and hate it.
I was just now looking at the Movie, "Night Bitch", with Amy Adams. The musical score in the movie is something I remember from my past. I tried to find it on YouTube and other places... but no joy.
I need advice. A couple of you know my real name and who I am, where I live and all that. I'm not rich but due to my thrifty lifestyle and God, live comfortably. I am free of the blood sucking effects of automobile ownership. I'm bored and at times get depressed. I have to be careful not to make too much money because of the tender mercies of the American Tax folk. Of course, I may be so old that I don't have to pay taxes.
The last fortnight in August, 2024 has been awful, with several painful, but undiagnosed illnesses. The Doctors seem stumped or just plain don't care.
On a positive note, I have discovered that not using a cane or a walker stops or greatly diminishes the pain in my body. Part of this may be due to my scoliosis. I used to wear very firm back braces, but not recently. Somehow these mobility devices seem to aggravate all that. For now I am just going to enjoy it all. I do not have an automobile sucking my blood.
I have been told by non family members that I am super strong and it is amazing that I survived, even excelled at times. My own family has "Ghosted" me, and despite that I fire back at them that after due consideration they were not "worth" it. Nearing the end of my life at times I wish that I had done other things with it. To my children: I'd like my seed back. They have misused it.
It often wonder how the population of BCTS got so strong and how I came to be even grudgingly accepted here. I know that what I write is pure excrement...I'm trying as hard as I can.
In the last few weeks I've gotten warnings from Amazon Kindle about "Problems with my payment". I've checked my bank balance and there should be no issue. No certain author. It makes me feel reluctant to use Kindle. In the past, Kindle has been my GO TO resource.
This reminds me of a REM hit, "It's the end of the world as we know it".
On the BCTS site and the larger Internet, there are citizens from literally every part of the world. Despite my own cautious belief in a higher order of things, human activity, earthquakes, volcanoes, tornadoes, hurricanes and other chilling events, I'll admit to being quite tense and sleepless at times.
Then there are the nutty conspiracy theorists that at times make life all the harder.
Today, sitting in a group of (Sunday) people numbering about 50 people, both male and female, and seeing the obvious genetic variations, it came to me. We Are The Aliens !!! Said group of people have made a lot of money pushing Genetic testing to the tune of around $150 per person. Other people, purportedly expert scientists, say they have spent years digging through ancient ruins.
It seems obvious to me that "we" are the Aliens. Pardon my repetition.
Depending on what will happen in the USA in the next 120 days, how safe will those of our ilk be here in America. I briefly looked into fleeing to Israel, but that is not practical for me, and perhaps not safe. I was considering Tel Aviv. I was just looking at going to western or central Canada, but that just seems impractical to me.
So, perhaps it is best to just say where I am and hope for the best.
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Joyce Melton
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