I certainly hope not but there is a marked change in the weather today.

but 80% of what i hear you ask

The YouTube story, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Am4KysOCHM, in the link is almost exactly the Gwen Brown story, "You Did What To Me". I hope that someone made some money on it. I did not.

Gwen Brown

It's been 5 months since I got to be Leeanna. I have longed to be female since I was around 4 years old and wondered why I couldn't wer pretty clothes and play with the girls. "Boys don't....." I was told. So this led to a double life. I married and had 3 boys. Now I feel it is too late and I would break too many hearts if I acted on my desires. I remain committed to my male life, which I don't hate. Who is to say I would have been happier living as a female? Back in the 1970's when grew up trans people were treated very badly.

Well that's what Winston Churchill called them, when, for whatever reason, you fall into a deep depression.

towards the end of the month

So last night, I dreamed I killed a man.

I was following him up some kind of tunnel or shaft, and it led to a rocky platform. I grabbed the man, and threw him off the platwform.

And since he landed face first on something hard a long way down, I figured he was dead.

weirdest part was I didnt seem fazed by the fact I had just killed.

I dont know if I wanna know why my brain came up with that dream . . .

Just a quick update:

My mom has generously let me borrow her computer, so I can check in more often.

Which I will keep brief!

just so no one panics, my computer is down, so I will not be online for a bit.

everybody take some huggles to keep you busy till I get back!

Yep, there's no doubt about it, we are on the cusp of Spring

So its dream time again!

Last night, I dreamed I got an opportunity to work in a school as a teacher's assistant.

So after walking around to get a feel for the layout of the school, I went to the office, only to find out the program I was part of had been canceled, and they really didn't know what to do with me.

So last night, I dreamed I was a superhero.

I had this gun that would stun someone without permanent damage.

I got summoned to join a group of other heroes facing off a group of villains.

I was doing well, when suddenly I was hit with a case of dysphoria so bad I could barely walk, and one of the other heroes half carried me to our target.

Dont ask me, folks.

some good news, some, well disappointing

so my subconscious has decided to let me graduate from school, and now sends me dreams of being in the working world.

For the last week or so, I have dreamed of working in a daycare, at a water park, a newspaper office, and last night, working as a manager at a restaurant.

Since I never did any of those jobs in real life I am not sure where they are coming from, or what my subconscious is trying to tell me, if anything.

My brain is weird, which probably doesnt come as a surprise to anyone here.

I will not be posting any chapters this week because I've been really sick this week after bouncing back from the flu. I spent the past three days in bed with a high fever and mostly sleeping. I'm still feeling weak and kinda terrible so don't think I can focus on writing anything quality. So, I've decided it's best to just take the rest of the week off and recover since most of it has been a write-off anyway.

*big hugs*

Amethyst

got some encouraging news from my doctors visit yesterday

My weight is now 292 lbs, and my BP was 100/68.

Both of those are massive improvements for me.

or not, Brizzle is once again gripped by horrid weather, this time 40+mph winds driving the albeit otherwise light rain, through everything!

Last week, I went to the "big city" (I live in a small town; 2500 pop.) to do some shopping. Most of the time, I dress out of the butch side of my wardrobe; women's clothes but the effect is androgynous. That allows people to see me the way they want to. I'm always surprised when they look at me and address me as a woman, but it does happen and when it does my voice doesn't shake their perception.

but they'd be sadly disappointed hereabouts at the moment!

even if it is a little chilly!

My muse has given me a very odd little story.

Expect it soon . . .