I find myself in a VERY bad mood. So much so that I am actively angry but have no cause for it or direction. I am trying hard to not lash out at anything and I am on the edge of screaming should someone provoke me.

I hate these moods as they come on for no reason except that it is also carrying a definate element of fear.

Since I automatically disassociate and reassociate things the cause could have started very early in the day and only hit me now.

I am contiplating putting on some leather gloves and actually breaking things. Old tvs, some walls in house, fence outside.

Stay a while and listen...
So for those of you who don't know In round about a week from now ( 6 days and nine hours, but who's counting?) "Diablo 3" is being released.

Aside from the normal hell and the destruction of Tristem (Again) it would release the Doom days curse on the world ( and in Doom I mean the game not the "end of all life" and the likes): A drop in human productivity . In my group alone there are 6 people who hold prime jobs in major companies who took a week off for the sake of helping man-kind fight against the forces of hell.

so my questions to you are:

I'm just too good to people...my novel - Queen of Hearts is on a Promotion today (May 8th) and tomorrow with Amazon Kindle Select.

Find it here > Queen of Hearts

Grab it while you can.

Honest, I don't mind if you forget and have to pay for it :)

Tanya

Where Angels fear to tread or my life is a Monty Python skit.

To all who took the time to read my first blog Thanks, I have just decided to move from my old Novawoman99 ID to a newer more up dated one suggested by a dear friend and writer on this board so now I will Be Drum roll cymbals crash. Misha Nova. Its about time the Novawoman99 name was created to describe my self when I had just gained enough momentum to go Full time at work and therefor the world.

So, I have been slaving away for years, secretly writing a romance novel. When I write, sometimes I really get into the story and actually try to live it, mostly to write the realisim. Sometimes I worked so hard that the windows in my office would fog up, depriving me of view of, harbor with huge plastic boat sitting in it. Or maybe I was sitting in steaming tub with rubber ducky and writing with laptop? Man, I got the good stuff this time! Woooeeeee!

So, I called the book "50 Shades", goodness those are a lot of sunglasses to carry around.

I have begun to feel a bit better, but am still down with this whatever-it-is. I've been to the VA health clinic and have gotten some anti-biotics which will, I hope, kick this thing in the ass and get me feeling better.

I thought to post this to update anyone who might have been concerned about me. Thanks for caring.

hugs and love,
Cathy

I had a spiritual moment today on my way home from watching "The Avengers". All of a sudden, I felt .... connected to everything around me. That me being trans isnt a mistake or sin but exactly what I'm supposed to be at this moment. I cant do justice to it, but it was amazing, and comforting.

Finally feeling better, got blasted with flu which was pretty grim. Luckily I didn't waste my time entirely, my journal is full of interesting ideas for my stories which I am already working on.

I've been thinking a lot about what's been going on between me and my brother and sister-in-law, and I think I understand their point of view. Essentially, they dont think that Dorothy is real, that there is no woman buried under this male flesh.

Here's his lesson for this morning:

I'd like to congratulate those authors who took out their crystal balls and did a retcon of the many Marvel and DC superheroes. Seems that someone has just officially had the same idea.

A minor rant:

Do children know how to be bored and occupy themselves any more? I think the answer is no. They are always connected to something. In the car they get DVD players. When shopping with mom they have handheld video games. Waiting at the hospital they have laptops. In school they have Ipads. We are raising a generation that is not going to know how to be creative. Maybe that's why every movie from the 80s is being remade.

I've changed the license on Kate and the Network to allow other folk to create derivative work.

It's become clear to me that I'm very unlikely to finish it, therefore, I now challenge other authors to finish this story.

I started the story at a time where I was very depressed and on the verge of suicide, and writing Kate and the Network helped distract me from those feelings. Since my transition is going quite well, (I've been Janet full time for nearly six months now!), Other interests are filling my time.

I have entered my novel BEHIND THE ENEMY into the KDP Select system on Amazon for lending through their library system. It is available as a KINDLE eBook FREE this weekend only as a promotion. If you want a freebie, grab it now!
Follow the link > Behind The Enemy

It is also available as a paperback through Amazon, but you'll have to pay for it I'm afraid.

I'm pretty sure most of you have seen the image - the person faced with a choice with an angel on one shoulder and a devil on the other, trying to decide which way to go.

Well, I have at least one devil on my shoulder, whose name is Worthlessness, and today he was very active, listing all my failures, ready to convince me I am only a source of grief to those who dare come close to me. It got to the point where I was seriously trying to figure out if ending my life would be a net gain for the people around me or not.

Don't know how many of you are fans of Dan Savage, the sex advice columnist and gay rights activist, but his new sex-and-relationship-advice show on MTV, "Savage U," is one of my favorites. In episode 5, he sits down with and answers a question from Alexis, a transgender college student in Chicago. The segment begins at the 16 minute mark.

http://www.mtv.com/videos/savage-u-episode-5/1684029/playlis...

What is good writing (or good reading). I am a voracious reader, that doesn't mean that I will read anything. Even with the same author depends on the genre, sometime a slight genre change is enough to make me drop some books (for example I like later works of Peter James but don't like the early stuff). How many of us really like those acclaimed writers like Nobel prize winners? I like a few and give majority a wide berth!

Not to be bashing religion in general,
none of the Christians I know talk like this,
but this guy's like some over the top transgender fiction Supervillian,
telling his North Carolina congregation:

Just a short comment to let you know that page 3 is now up, we have one more page in the buffer and then we shall need to do more, which I shall be working on over the next week or two, I am encouraged by some of the site stats, we are gaining fans and getting reasonable hits but I am curious as to why no one ever says anything - maybe they are waiting for the good stuff to happen - you know, the actual Transformation :).

Has anyone else had an luck trying to get to story site? None of the bookmarks I had, and used to check it twice daily, are working since early yesterday. I don't know if the two different servers she was using are both out, or if she didn't pay the bill, or if she decided to just pull it since there was no evidence of activity in 3 years. She said she was working on it, but......

just came back from a regular maintenance for my car, and the lady complimented me on how well I've maintained the car since I bought it. As someone who struggles with feeling competent, it felt rather nice.

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We're very sorry, but the page could not be loaded properly. This should be fixed very soon, and we apologize for any inconvenience. Erin, Piper, Cat and Samanatha are on it (hopefully).

I hate this message that comes up too often after I try to post comments or stories.
Am I alone?

I just refreshed the my stories page and noticed that Chapter 1 of My Mistake has received 20,000 reads. If someone would have told me that it would eventually receive that when I first posted it in 2008, I wouldn't have believed you...

Thank you to all of the people that have read it and left comments. Rest assured that another chapter is coming soonish...

Samantha

For those of you who have read Djinn Games, thank you for the comments and kudos.

But I changed my mind about something. The title just hadn't felt right to me, so the story is now 'The Price of Betrayal', so don't jump on it thinking it's another new one and get disappointed, please.

Why did I change it after posting the first chapter?

I dunno, it just felt right?

Maggie

What Would You Do?': Transgender Waitress In New Jersey Diner Defended By Customers (VIDEO)

The ABC show What would you do is having a segment Friday regarding a Transgender Waitress. Saw the preview (see link below).

They show one person reacting. I wonder if they will show anyone supporting the attacker.

Probably need to wait until Friday night for a bigger reaction.

RAMI

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/05/01/what-would-you-do-t...'

The other candidate for headline of the day. Again, don't have anything in your mouth.

This is starting to get OLD real fast or maybe it's me getting OLD real fast.Yesterday I fell again same leg gave out and I rebroke my Elbow OUCH this time I shifted the bone a little enough to give me permanent damage . I won't be able to straighten my arm completely straight out. Oh well it could be worse things in life that this. KEEP SMILLING -- LOVE TO YOU ALL RICHIE2

Do not have anything in your mouth as you read the following.

For some unknown reason in recent weeks I’ve really wanted to be a girl. I don't know why but the very thought seems more comforting to me than ever because at the moment I’m in a dark place in my life. Exams, stress, family and life in general. It all takes its toll! But the thought of being a girl seems more...alluring! :( I'm not sure why but I think things would be better. I usually fantasise about being a girl but not becoming one permanently for the rest of my life. Maybe I'm not thinking straight? Does or has anybody else ever felt the same when going through a bad patch?

Finally I have found an author who writes stories with female protagonists who wear clothing! When I was writing, I wanted some art work with female warrior and all I could find is shapely hot women holding sword like it vegetable chopping knife.

I look forward to seeing this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OMXgcS8hvYc

I can't access stories from the home page. Anyone else? I need my Bike Fix.

Portia

Just saw this, And find it a tad hard to belive

http://now.msn.com/now/0430-kites-trees-ban.aspx

Earlier today I was bored and decided to look around and see what was out there when it came to TG Anime and came across a series called Wandering Son, There were 11 parts to the video. It's very good series about a boy who dreams of becoming a girl.

I was also wondering if anyone had seen it and might be able to recommend other anime videos that are similar to Wandering Son.

Cain129

Just wanted to give an update on when Jessica's Journey Part 9 will be out. I sent it to Wren to do her magic last night. So chances are it should be posted on the site within the next couple of days. It will be a lot of reading and has four chapters, so it should keep my readers busy for awhile.

Cain129

is there anyone that is familiar with this because I am having difficulty with my rasturizer and ray tracer due tonight

Apparently it is 6 years and 4 days.....still, YAY for me and my munchkins :)

Last Sunday I went to the CANDLES (Children of Auschwitz Nazi Deadly Lab Experiments Survivors) Museum in Terre Haute, Indiana. I learned three things. Two are important to us.

1. Although Jews were victims of Nazis, not all victims were Jews. Only nearly 6 million of the 11 million were Jews. Among the other 5 million targeted by the Nazi regime were GLBT individuals. If we were there then most of us who visit this site would be victims.

I would like to say my job keeps me from being social... you know, delivering papers all alone at the wee hours of the morning and then sleeping during the day. But, the truth is, I generally don't like people and feel awkward in social situations.

You may remember several weeks ago, one of Bailey Summers' original songs from Jem got a very positive reception. At the time, only the lyrics existed.

When I read it, I started to get the inklings of a tune, and with Bailey's permission, have attempted writing some music for it (my first attempt at composing since GCSE Music in 1993-95!). Bailey approves, so now the next stage is to publish it here, in the hope we've got some arrangers / musicians / singers who can take Bailey's words and my melody / chords, and work some magic with them.

Daddy's brother, Uncle Virgil, dropped in on the New Years party that had turned into an Arkansawyer wake for Hank Williams. Naturally, the story had to be retold about the time he had shown up at Ma Dale's and eaten two whole fried chickens all by himself, with biscuits and corn on the cob and buttermilk to drink. Uncle Virgil stood five-foot-five and weighed about 120 pounds but he was a legendary eater.

It's almost the end of the month and we are still a bit short of our goal for the month. Please, if you can, help us keep BigCloset up and running by subscribing. Thanks.

Hugs,
Erin and Piper

Okay, admission time, I've fiddled with my herbal concoction a bit since the last time I talked about it. I'm no longer taking any kind of phyto-estrogen at all. I've balanced and counterbalanced a purely anti-androgen formula and that's all I'm taking right now. Getting hold of strong enough doses of isoflavones was costing waaaay too much.

If anyone remembers the Rodney Dangerfield flick you know the reference. But I thought it was appropriate to post here and no one else had.

http://sports.yahoo.com/blogs/highschool-prep-rally/keeling-...

I actually plan on being at this event, not sure if that's a selling point or not. But I figured I would post it so all could see. Hope to see some there.

As most of you know, I like to try different things with my writing, some work, some dont. With my latest piece, I wanted to create an interactive story, where the readers would determine what happens next. Based on the number of kudos, I'd say it didnt come off as well as I could have hoped.

Ah, well.

Something completely irrelevant but as it's from the lighter side of the news, fun nonetheless...

Just wanted to share a bit about my latest piece, "Understanding Rachel". It came about as I was on the phone with Tels, and suddenly I looked at how I was sitting. Without thinking about it, I had slipped into a very feminine posture. Even my mom noticed, and started calling me a teenage girl. So after my phone call, I started writing it down, and the story just flowed from there. I hope you all enjoyed it, and thanks to those who have commented.

I’m not sure how long we stayed with Ma and Pa that time, not more than a few months I’m sure. We moved into a house in town that wasn’t much more than a shed for a short time and then into a place I called The Little Red House. It had asphalt siding made to look like red bricks and it sat between the schoolhouse and The Big Red House where another bunch of cousins lived.