Have you ever sought or were given mental health services? If your present mood goes for 3 weeks or more, you might be clinically depressed and need talk therapy and/or antidepressants.

ADs seem to be different than most other drugs; one might make someone sleepy while make another unable to sleep. Effective dosage varies widely as do side effects. Something like 10 or 20% of people get no help at all after trying all possible ADs, I've read. If you read how someone hates them and says they messed up her mind, like Gwen Brown, probably just a few % will be effected the same way. I think Gwen had very poor psychiatric care. Some prescriber should have lowered or changed her meds. One AD might have terrible side effects for one person while another AD will have very mild, tolerable and unrelated side effects for that person.

If you are grieving for ShadowFax, you'll have to work thru' all the stages and might benefit from some counseling. Try to eat nutritious food, not junk, sleep normally or even an hour more and try to get 5 days per week exercise, even just walking. The exercise, if you can work up to breathing hard for 20 min. or more, should release endorphins and make you feel better; tho' you might have to do it for 3 to 6 days before you can feel it.