Well so far my gall bladder removal is healed well. Kinda ruined my summer plans so far but eh.
Have been out cycling. Finally made the custom axles and nuts for my hybrid raliegh. Front quick release is gone and now has a solid axle and nut, good thing too one section was somehow getting worn. Gonna have to give it a service so I’ll replace rear then too. Next job will be to replace the one on seat.
It’s that time of year. For many it brings happiness and joy.
People write about it. There is songs about it.
And yet I sit here crying because of what else it brings.
Memories.
In October of 1997 my mother started experiencing headaches. At first we brushed this off as she would get them from time to time. Indeed one morning as I was leaving for work at a new job my brother was there and my mother came into kitchen with a horrid headache. I couldn’t be late for work so I told him to take my mom to hospital to get checked out. He was not working that day.
When my hackles get up due to a perceived insult I become defensive. If it moves to a direct insult on me I get mad.
When I get mad I get very stubborn.
At that point I try to hurt the person that hurt me just as much or more than they hurt me. All reasoning with me goes out the window, along with any common sense apparently.
This is a family trait. I know about but can’t stop it from happening.
Makes me feel very bad afterword but the moment of apology is long gone.
My just over two year old baby cat Willow passed away Thursday night Friday morning. He got into something he shouldn’t have, not the brightest cat, and after five days of not eating I gave him to vet. He died that night at vet.
I tried really hard to get him to eat but it didn’t work. I can’t seem to stop crying at odd times.
To make matters worse my uncle passed away as well. Yet another family member dead and funeral.
It was her onscreen character Jessica fletcher that first inspired me to try to write. The quaint little town Cabot cove, which didn’t exist back then, really appealed to me.
But I watch other stuff from back then and realize many of the things I aspire to be current, real, or beautiful are from around that time.
I prefer eighties clothing, music, cars, movies over even new stuff.
Seeing prominent actors and actresses that made up my youth pass away hurts.
Today Monday manitoba held two special funeral stuff for queen Elizabeth II. First was the standard 21 gun salute followed by a 96 shot salute.
At the main Anglican Church here in Winnipeg a special invite only funeral service in her honor is being held.
I have a middle ear infection on left side, outer ear infection on right side but still managed to bicycle to legislative building to sign Queens book.
Watched the funeral via YouTube live this morning except actual lowering of coffin. Cried entire time good service, wasn’t crazy about the spooky music though.
Watching old movies from when I was young. Yeah the special effects were not that great and no cgi but…the feel of real is there.
Roger moores James Bond movies- okay given compared to books not close, but they were very, and still are, fun and nice to watch. In reality not possible, but it’s totally believable.
Actually all but Daniel Craig’s bond movies are good in there own right. Daniels are a little too gun happy, lack bond gadgets, and lack romance. Nice to watch if your into it I guess.
I came across this by accident. This place is so beyond the scale of what I could imagine I’m blown away at how over the top impressive this is. You would be a fool not to see a ton of history in any part of this place let alone the long list of earls whose house this has been and their achievements.
Rewatching olld shops that I never got to see all episodes before.
Stng, ds9, voyager, enterprise. It got me emotional a few times. We grew with them as they grew, because a part of our family in a way.
Startrek tos, tos movies
All those family that in many cases have come and gone now.
It’s not just those shows either when you watch those old,shows that you felt weekly have gone by it’s like saying goodbye at a funeral and makes you cry. They didn’t have over the top cgi like today. Many had props and full sets that made you believe it was real.
Just a warning to those that either have or plan to get a Raleigh bike. Getting ORIGINAL replacement parts, such as a rim, can be a huge pain the rear. Sure you can get knockoffs that are pretty close to original on amazon and such. But getting something that actually looks the same as original...nope.
I sent a complaint to Raliegh.uk about this as raleigh usa is a pain in the rear.
On that note.
Raleigh detour 1 hybrid bike.
If for nothing else the seat setup on this is brilliant. I would recommend getting one just for that seat setup alone.
I was browsing some recent news headlines. Reading articles and happened across one that made me laugh.
Backstory is a Calgary woman was beaten six months ago. Hubby is in prison for it. Dec 3 court rules in favor of woman to continue living in house till its sold.
dec 5 house is burned to ground with multiple molotov cocktails.
"Calgary police agree that fire is suspicious."
That cracked me up! Its more than suspicious! It's plain and simple arson.
Still it goes to show you that, depending on circumstance, even bad news can be entertaining.
My last blog was about, rather specifically, how in just the uk the language changed over the years. And that "proper" english, by their own terms, is an error. This is due to evolving language.
You will also find that, even innocently, suggesting that someone from the uk has made a mistake you will feel like you have run into an army tank while on a bicycle as they get angry. Not defensive angry and very much will chew you out.
"I'm British and we bloody well know the proper English words not some(blank) from overseas." Literal reply I have gotten more than once.
There has been, and probably will continue to be, many arguments on who speaks proper English.
This is not about that.
Recently I have been watching some videos from British pathe. Basically video archives from 1930-1970 ish as well as some other videos, again british, from 80s.
Note I am Canadian and therefore part of the "British/English commonwealth". Ie Queen Elizabeth is our queen monarch as well. Our language is a mix of American, British, and french.
Recently, okay well maybe more like past few years, I have been studying history...of sorts.
I should explain a little. Having a background knowledge of how things are built, or more to the point, being able to take anything I see apart in my mind to its simplest form, allows me to see beauty in things others ignore.
I can work with wood or metal, fix most mechanical things, fix electronics, plumbing, household electrical, cement work, plaster etc etc. None of that is a challenge to me.
Recently I found an abandoned Raleigh detour 1 bike approximately less than a year old. The bike showed evidence of being dragged behind a vehicle then falling off said vehicle. Since the rear tire and rim were bent to hell and the handlebars were twisted it seems the previous owner had just abandoned it.
I dont know how it is for any of you but for me i have always been this way.
ill try to explain.
For me lifting something 40 - 60 pounds one handed is easy, a little hard on the hand when it digs in but it does not strain me at all.
With gloves on lifting a soaking wet green chunk of tree about 100 or so pounds doesnt bother me in the least.
Even lifting something around 300-400 pounds does not strain my muscles, ackward for sure but its not what I would call heavy or near the limit of what I can lift.
It may be my birthday but sure doesnt seem happy. With everything going on right now its like ...stressful.
I am pretty much over my cold, no fever at all during cold, but throat is still very raw. Talking is a little hard, who knows I may end up needing antibotics.
Was working on a story on bcts. Like usual it is there for awhile like a day or two. I had not copy pasted to clipboard like i usually do. I figured ok this is a good place to stop. Lets give it a look over. And clicked on preview..
Access denied..
all my work gone.
I am so pissed off. I have never had this come up before.
p.s. I did save some of it but only about half of it in a file before.
Trying to read the story another flower which makes references to another story called the flower...but there is no story "the flower by melanie brown" on amazon or here. Very very annoying!
I know some people do not quite understand what that means. I have it, and apparently, rather bad at times.
There is not specific trigger for my attacks. They just happen and they build up. Sometimes they only last for a couple mins, say 15-20. Other times they last for hours.
During an attack I cannot think straight. My mind goes from one thing to another to another to another increasing my anxiety. Other times I focus on one thing to the exculsion of everything else, no matter how irrational it is.
At one point in history buying a car meant something.
In some areas a whole block of people would pool their resources to buy a single car, there was no trucks available, and they would do maintenance and repairs themselves. Once or twice a week runs would be made with the car to purchase whatever was needed by the block. Occasionally it was used for appointments or special events but since fuel/petrol was very expensive and hard to come buy not so much.
I had to put down my little girl Pepper(cat) this morning. She had kidney problems that she was meds for but it wasn't working and she was not eatting or drinking. This morning I found her trying to find a place to die in my house.
Bringing her in while mewing was so dam hard it broke my heart to pieces, again. My friend had to be there while they put her to sleep I just couldn't do that again. Holding my mother's hand all those years ago was so traumatizing. Doing that to my little girl I just couldn't.
Paying out almost three hundred hurt me pocketbook wise as well.
Checks can be made out & sent to:
Joyce Melton
1001 Third St.
Space 80
Calimesa, CA 92320
USA
Note: $6000 is the operating, maintenance and upgrade budget. Amounts received in excess of the $6000 will be applied to long term debt accrued over the last 19 years.
