Why I have not been writing much if at all.

Well to start off lets go back a few years.

Since 2014 I have had to deal with emotion turmoil.

first my step mother came down with stage four lung cancer. She did not last long and it tore my dads heart in two.

His health deteriorated moved into a seniors residence.

my cousin shot himself in the head with a nail gun, on purpose. took him a year to die.

my uncle passed away in may of 2016 and in june of 2016 my father passed away. His heart just gave out ..alone in his room. It hurts.

A little over a year later another cousin passed away. It reopened a raw wound.

2018 my nine year old cat had to be put down as her kidneys gave out. Hurt like hell.

in 2020 my niece, who i used to hold in my arms babysitting falling asleep while watching belle, got into an accident

here is her video story

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5XHD-6F95SQ

So yeah kinda hard to write about anything when your heart is being hurt again and again and again.