Why I have not been writing much if at all.
Well to start off lets go back a few years.
Since 2014 I have had to deal with emotion turmoil.
first my step mother came down with stage four lung cancer. She did not last long and it tore my dads heart in two.
His health deteriorated moved into a seniors residence.
my cousin shot himself in the head with a nail gun, on purpose. took him a year to die.
my uncle passed away in may of 2016 and in june of 2016 my father passed away. His heart just gave out ..alone in his room. It hurts.
A little over a year later another cousin passed away. It reopened a raw wound.
2018 my nine year old cat had to be put down as her kidneys gave out. Hurt like hell.
in 2020 my niece, who i used to hold in my arms babysitting falling asleep while watching belle, got into an accident
here is her video story
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5XHD-6F95SQ
So yeah kinda hard to write about anything when your heart is being hurt again and again and again.
Comments
I am sorry for your pain.
I hope that things will now get better for you.
Gwen
huggles, Jaci
have all your girl germs back so you can cope correctly
dont you start dorothy
dont you start dorothy
Your germs
and you can stop giving them to me!
*returns all girl germs to Dorothy*
All my love
So much to endure; my heart goes out to you. I watched your niece's video. I was triggered throughout, and I barely could stop crying. But I had to continue - she deserves my consideration for her bravery alone, and as hard as it was to watch, I couldn't NOT watch her story. Thank you for sharing this and your own story with me.
Love, Andrea Lena
Hugs
Yeah, it's hard to focus on writing when your heart and mind keep taking hits over and over. I hope that you'll get some emotional breathing room soon and that your niece manages to get through what she's going through. If she's anything like you then she's a strong woman. Just remember that you have friends here to support.
*big hugs*
Amethyst
Don't take me too seriously. I'm just kitten around. :3