Nineteen months after my GRS I am going to tell my mom she has a new daughter. I have held off because my mom is from the pre-depression era and still in school when WWII began. She has that Egyptian disease Duh Nile. So I have been trying to figure out how to tell her. Many months were lost, the way I am telling her is the direct approach.
My siblings and cousins know as well as my Uncle, every one said they would not tell my mom.
I have had health difficulties since February of 2014. I have been in and out of the hospital for falling when I stand up.(7 days in the hospital and one month recovery at home) I had my fifth toe on my right foot amputated in August after it blew up ( two weeks in the hospital two months recovery) November I was admitted to a mental health clinic for depression ( 8 days in the hospital and daily recovery. February 6th this year I had a heart attack that required emergency surgery to put a stent in. ( I am recovering now and have thirteen more days before I can drive or get excited.
I am writing this for those of you who do the change on a Birth certificate. I had problems after my surgery with the state of Minnesota. I went through the county I was born in, then had to file a state application. Even with a judges signature on the change of name and a certified copy from the physician. the state and county did not tell me the amount I had to pay. I had to send a certified check to the state of Minnesota and I had already sent one to the county as I had talked with them.
In the past year I have found that my faith has taken me forward in my Christian life. I am a conservative Christian and I will say how I feel. I have been un friended by people because I do not say things that they want me to say. I am not at all ever going to be in alliance with a liberal stance. I do not stand by Cruz or Arnold Schwartzenneggar types in the republican party. I have for most of my life read each political bulletin that came out for each party. I prevue and read carefully what is being offered.
I just subscribed to Hat Box and read a fascinating Story by Angela Rasch " Voices Carry Over Water" I am not going to tell what the story is about but it is well written. As a recent post op I can relate to the main character and what he/she or she/he goes through. I've always liked what Angela writes and often will read it when I am sure I have nothing else to do. I actually gave up sleep to read the story in it's entirety. If you the reader do not mind adding a few coins to the Hat Box, then you will have the privilege of reading "Voices Carrying Over Water"
In January of this Year I stepped on the scale at the VA hospital in Philadelphia my weight came out as the last four digits as my SSN but with a period after the first three numbers such as as 123.4.
I decided I needed professional help and got it. Now ten months later I weigh 80 pounds less
On Tuesday September seventeenth I was rolled into operating room number five Lower Bucks Hospital in Bristol Pennsylvania. When I left pro-op the nurses and staff wished me "Happy Birthday" I was told that the sedative I was given would take affect quickly. I awoke in my hospital room.
I had no surgical pain, but my legs felt as though they had played twister with them. I spent three days in the hospital and then was moved back to DR Leis's office and recovery room. Ten days after surgery I was released to go home.
I have passed all of he hurdles for Gender Re-assignment surgery. The VA did all of my pre-op tests and decided I needed to se a cardiologist to clear me for surgery. On the fourth of September I was cleared and now am ready for the 17th of September at 6:20 AM. My surgery will be in Bristol, Pennsylvania at the Lower bucks Hospital. Dr. Sherman leis (lease) will be performing the surgery.
A while back Katie Leon and I started a Face Book group Christians who are Trangender, Transsexual and Intersex. Katie has been writing under a new genre Transsexual Christians and her books are selling on Amazon. She is highly talented and very appreciated by those who buy her books. She is in the top 100 authors and her books are quick to be picked up when she puts them on line. It was a major step to start a new genre and it has been accepted. Kudos to Katie for her innovation.
In September of this year I will be undergoing Gender Re-assignment Surgery. I met with DR. Sherman Leis in Bala Cynwyd today and we set the date. I am healthy in all aspects and am ready to make the step I have been waiting to make for a long time. The Surgery will take place in Philadelphia. I have met with Dr. Leis several times. I made my decision based om location, availability and if an emergency arises I am close to the surgeon.
I have met some of his patients and they speak highly of him. I do trust him and have saved the money for the surgery.
Due to Agent Orange, A medication I take for Migraines and my vascular Disease and a myriad of medications I take which gives me problems with my short term memory and I have to stop writing. As much as I try there are days a sentence takes a long while to get out and then the thought of what I was writing about goes away. Not only that my blood sugar often gets low and interacts with my migraine medicine and I put the ditz back in to ditzy.
Since January I have been taking on a new outlook on life. I've been making amends with family members and people I have wronged. If I have wronged anyone here please accept my sincere apologies at this time. I'm no long the grouchy bitter person I once was I consider myself a happy Israelite.
It all began when I stepped on a scale and my weight equaled he last four digits of my SSN 123.4 per se. only heavier. My blood sugar was higher than my weight and my cholesterol was Higher than my blood sugar.
I am doing better, however; my kidneys are over producing potassium, so I am drinking some foul tasting gunk. I've had two meds stopped and am being monitored with a cardiocom daily plus a weekly blood test.I'm not out of the woods yet but I can see the clearing of the glades. Thank you all for the responses. I still have a fear of eating but am being assured I'll get over it.
I am a diabetic by chemical exposure, I've had problems maintaining a normal blood sugar. My weight fluxuates from normal to obese. I am on insulin, blood pressure medication and do not have a working thyroid. I asked for help due to my weight problem and out of control blood sugar levels. My blood pressures have bee abnormally low the past few days and now I am afraid to eat because I do not want my blood sugars to be high and abnormal. Tomorrow 3/12/2013 I see the PA for my diabetic check up and the eating disorders psychologist to discuss my eating habits.
I have recently posted a new story, after over eleven months of trying to write I managed to eke out a short story. I have one comment out of over 350 reads. Either I am a whiz at writing or I totally suck, It would be nice to know if there are any errors, is there continuity, did one get lost in the story. I've been in a depression and want to ensure I am doing okay again. I admit I need validation.
If you are on Facebook there is a new group formed for Christians who are Transgendered, Transsexual, and Intersexed. Katie and I chatted and we asked why there wasn't such a site. So we took the bull by the horns and created the group. Everyone is welcome its not a dating site its a place to reflect, talk about things with out profanity.
I will be out for most of tomorrow and tomorrow evening I am going against the grade and actually going out with friends to celebrate New years. My feeling is if I don't go out and go to bed early it still occurs. Again against my better judgment I am going out. I'll be taking all the back roads home to avoid all the drunks. I am a recovering drinker and see news year eve as a chance for beginner and amateurs to play with the big people.
Have a wonderful new year and enjoy yourselves.
Today is Tuesday and after being homebound since Saturday ensuring that Hurricane Sandy wasn't going to devastate me I was able to go out this morning amidst some light rain and light wind. In my neighborhood we fared well no casualties and not fatalities. I'm safe and so is my daughter. However there are still millions of people without power and will be fore several more days. There are homes destroyed, fatalities and people hurt. My heart and prayers goes out to the victims of the storm who did not fare well.
I have recently learned my left leg has several blockages in my vascular system. My walking has come to going about twelve feet and then pain up from the heal to the hip and as if it were on fire. I'm scheduled for Surgery in November. When my left leg has healed they are going to operate on my right leg below the graft they put in in April of 2011 . I'm doing as little as possible but I have a riding lawn mower so I have some me time as I ride about my lawn.
I ecently blogged I was willing to let another author work on my unfinished stories. Somme one suggested I hold on to them and when I felt better complete them. Today I opened one of my stories and spent some time following the them I am writing about and within two hours I felt better and my story is close to completion.
It was nice to have that cathartic feelng of accomplishing an endeavor.
I have several stories I have begun but they need to be finished. I'm going through a rough depression and am unable to remain concentrated to finish the stories. They are all meant for solo's but if somebody wants to expound or embellish I have no problem.
Wednesday the 28th of March, I went to the Privacy Officer at the VA hospital where I am treated. I went in to ask about the directive I mentioned in another blog.
I was handed a form written by the VA that requires a Doctor who has treated a transgender individual.
I took the form to the endocrinologist who has been treating me today to ask him to fill out the form.
He did so after reading the directive 2011-024 and the new policy for changing gender on the electronic medical record.
I was on line earlier today and found a site that had a report of a Trangendered person harassed by the VA Police because she used the womens bathroom she was ejected from the hospital and given a TRO. She currently has an attorney and is seeking damages.
One of the commenters on the article talked about Veterans Health Administration Directive 2011-024.
AS an intersexed individual or fro any veteran who is using the VA Healthcare system tthis directive tells the VA Health care system how to treat transgendered patients.
I reside in Delaware and am wondering howI can meet others like me with out having to join an online porno site (my idea of what the sites are). I am not looking for a one night stand, I am looking for people to talk to to be able to discuss how I really feel somedays.
I went online and the sites for Delaware are listed but the meeting places no longer exist.
Driving any length of distance outside of Delaware is almost a day trip.
Any one with any ideas?
I read the most wonderful story by Cindilee,"Mermaid First Class" I usually don't do a blog about someones story, but this time I felt it was neccessary. I started to read the story yesterday, being retired Navy I had a slight misunderstanding. I left a message with the author at the end of the story, but ensured it was a flaming comment or deroggatory. I read the complete story a few hours ago. I pm the author to let her know I thought her stroy was wonderful and I wanted let her know I appreciated it, even after my attempt yesterday.
After a year of deep intense therapy, psychotrophic drug adjustments I am finally beginning to settle in. I had two stories I wrote under an assumed alias now under my name and a friend who is searching their archives for a story we penned together.
I am not out of the woods yet, I've learned that people who have any sort of vascular surgery tend to get depressed often.
I am awaiting vascular surgery on my left leg some time this year and if it was like the surgery on my right leg I am going to have three to four months where my memory is going to be vaguee.
In my years of trying to connect with someone to be my friend and confident I've made many online friends, some just for a season, some for a particular reason and some who have been with me a lifetime.
I enjoy the blogs and the stories and I often comment or leave a remark on a blog. There are several here who pm me, but what I miss the most is face to face contact with someone who is like me.
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