It's a bit controversional because of some comites / groups that are just a bit on the nationalist / right wing / phobic side but tomorrow, April 25th, is ANZAC day.2020.
It's a day I try to keep in mind each year.
The war from 14-18 also known as World War 1 or the War to end all wars wasn't just a 'thing' for Europe. Gallipoli is one of the most infamous especially in the ANZAC coutries. But soldiers of all over the commonwealth, the colonies served in 'Flanders' fields. Almost every skin collor know to man served 'next' to each other down in those trenches.
What am I talking about?? Started a Gofundme page under the categorie Dreams with as a goal to raise enough money to buy a small house in France or Sweden.
Had my therapist appointment today. Got told that I need to get my bloodwork checked but if that's clear my therapists recommended putting my on anti depression med's ...
I just noticed I mixed up the date for my previous blog which is kinda par on course for the last few months. Seriously thinking I am going to need to get back on medication to at least being able to think.
On another note. Why is it so hard to get a loan??Okay it's 30k but it would help me get out of problems as be 'safe' with it being cheaper after 6 years with buying a home then paying rent rent rent for a home that doesn't conform and leaks?
I wasn't doing OK before my last post and I definitely got worse after. Feel sorry for the pup have to put up with me.
I'm back in full defensive, dropping out of chat's /fora or being seriously inactive.
IRL, wel I didn't have anything going on either and that didn't change in the last few months. Most social contact I have is with the guy owning the 'fritkot' in the neighbouring city a few times a month and the neighbours.
Well, as it says in the titel, yesterday was the end of a chapter for me as the paperwork for my house was done. So goodbye house.
That doesn't change much about my current situation (still about 5 years to go with the bankruptcy proceedings as it is right now) as the sale price wasn't anything near to what I still owed the Bank. But that's a forced sale for you.
At least after this year I will be done with the taxes on it which saves a few 100 a year. So a kinda silver lining.,
Well as of August 1st 10 days ago I managed to finish another year. 41 years old and still don't know or sure, besides stuborness and the pets, how I managed to make it this far in my life.
One other thing that helped me are the communities like BC and others I am a member of, So thank you.
Getting asked for divorce y my ex, practically tossed out of the house my mom and birthday getting closer again without reaching anything. And not mentioning all the rest of the day to day struggles. Urgh hate how depressing I feel. How lonely I feel.At least I have the pets ...
Me: But it's a heatwave right now ???
Alt Me: It's a figure of speech duh. Don't take everything so literally.
Me: A OK, sorry...
Alt Me: Don't apologize !!!
Well it's, metaphorically, still pouring. Last Friday I was notified that my current lease would end at the end of september. With other words it's movin time again.
Edit: added videolink for a song written by Jim Radford.
About 75 years ago allied forces landed on Normandy beaches opening a second western front (after the Mediterenean one). and the final act of the European part of WO2 was finally started. We still remember. On the shores
On the personal part. Everyone that reads this blog knows that I, be it personal or business , haven't had a good decade.
Due to the soon, hopefully, ex still not having filled the divorce papers, I have been looking at OK divorce lawyers that are LGBT friendly. Girl are the expensive. 3000 dollars or there about just to redact the papers, get my an my soon to be ex autographs and file them.
No way in hell I can afford them till 2021 (going to take that long to get those 3000 dollars).
The last month made me realise I am not doing that good healt (mostly mental) wise. I don't have any 'reserves' or coping mechanisms (used to just go on long gaming sessions to relieve frustrations but no more gaming setup).
If I didn't have the pets or the internet I wouldn't know where I'd be.
The fact that a part of my bankruptcy problems is 'solved' (or will be as soon as I get the paperwork) has helped with it, Bbut I need a real goal to work to.
People who read my blog know that the last decade wasn't the best for me with everything going on. But I got some news 2 weeks ago that at least a part of the difficulties I am having (the bankruptcy ones) is on it's way to be, at least. partially solved as there's been an offer for the house. So now I am waiting to see how the next few months (max of 4) go . Best case scenario will have me completely free of at least the bankruptcy (instead of doing the the rest of the 7 years ( 5,5 to go))..
So little bit of light at the end of this particular tunnel.
Jolin Tsai has always been pretty outspoken in her support for LGBTQ people (from a non-western / taiwanese standpoint / view) in her music. Although most of her songs (according to what I have heard /s een of them) are gay or lesbian themed, her last one is T related.
It's been a real rollercoaster since my last post. Still not officialy divorced because my soon to be ex can't afford the filing costs (but buys a new car).
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One of the other things bugging me is this.. I am paying 500 euro/month rent at the moment. Enough to pay a mortgage of 80.000 euro on a' fixed % 30 year'- plan. But I can't get 30.000 to buy a small house whatever I try. Or at least nobody willing to give me a mortgage on it.
Sad as it is, not every husband, wife, father, mother, son or daughter comes back. And even if they do come back sometimes they left a piece of them behind. Tomorrow it's Armistice, and we remember those that payed the ultimate price. But I would ask everyone to also remember the families, forgotten by many, that lost a husband, a wife, a father, a mother, a son or a daughter.
It has been almost 5 months but here's the update I promised.
So in 2016 I posted that I got married and would be losing my house.
The easy part first. I had a medical discharge in 2016 with led to me not having enough income to support myself AND my mortgage/renovation costs. Due to that I had to file for personal bankruptcy or give the bank free rain.I chose personal bankruptcy.
The bad. Last June I knew I would be losing the house with all things connected to it .
The good. Well although everything happed pretty fast, I got married the 21st and 99% sure I'll end up moving to the American Midwest ( OKC ). Depends on the wife's job and whatever happens with USCIS.
Going to be a hard year getting everything straightened out and us being apart but I'm positive will make it.
HR's 'Social Serviices" received their copy of my retirement decree so my copy should be on it's way and reach me some time this week.
In the same mail I was notified that I would be invited to a 'company' retirement party and that I would receive a retirement gift in the form of a voucher. They couldn't give me a timeline for it but it but it's in the works ...
I'm pondering if my luck is changing??? In any case I'll keep my fingers crossed and keep on hoping it really has till proven different. Only thing that hasn't changed is the amount of paperwork / hoops in RL except maybe enlarging it.
Well it seems I'm going on to the second year at the start of September. Results are 76% (Maintenance and Repair), 83%,(Networktechnology) 90% (Basic Network theory) and 91% (OS2: intro to Linux).
Next year it's 'Wireless Networks, 'Basic Networksecurity', 'CO/NT project (internship)' and 'Client / Server 1' for the first semester which gets me a 'Computertechnician' certificate. This is followed by 'WAN and VLAN's', 'Switches and Routers', 'Internet networks' and Client / Server 2' for the second semester which gets me a 'Networktechnician' certificate.
My condolences to my neighbours in the west with the choice for BREXIT :(. *sigh* It's the end of a period /era that started with the Union of Coal and Steel (predecessor current EU from the late '40 early '50's). It makes me wonder about humanity future especially with 'reading' similar things to the 1920's.
As I said in a previous post, my exams are finished. Don't have anything on paper about before the results before 15h55 next Monday but it seems I passed all exams. Lets hope those teachers weren't pulling my leg.
So now, even if it's the start of the summer holidays and I probably already have an internship, I'm sending out mails to ask if it would be possible to do an internship with their organisation. So far I only contacted 4.
Checks can be made out & sent to:
Joyce Melton
1001 Third St.
Space 80
Calimesa, CA 92320
USA
Note: $6000 is the operating, maintenance and upgrade budget. Amounts received in excess of the $6000 will be applied to long term debt accrued over the last 19 years.
