First I wish to introduce my self my name is Hanna and I just found it with in my self to post one of my stories.
I do try but writing the english language has never gone well and I do blame the nun but in reality is the english fairy and I are at odds with each other and i do need an editor. I hate to ask but I have to put these stories out there there are to many in my mind that I need to shire.
Love and Hugs Hanna
PS I love anime and so I am not complaining but i was wondering why all the art has gone that way, just wondering.
Today I have been a member of Big Closet Top Shelf for exactley 3 Years and 1 day.
I want to thank Erin and her staff and everyone else who helps out for their time, hard work and sacrifice which makes this place possible.
Erin, if any of my blogs or comments have caused you heartache or grief, which I am sure some have, I appologize. I will also appologize in advance for the ones I am sure to post during the next year. I will try harder, but sometimes it just does not work
;-).
So after reading and commenting on DAW's alias blog it got me thinking. It has been a few years sence I started using Shadowstarr85 and Im almost completly diffrent person.So Ive decided to change my username. Being a unabashed DnD geek I am still using a former character's name
Well, I was going to work last night from the trans group Christmas dinner when a massive snow storm hit. I thought I was doing pretty well when disaster hit - the car in front of me span out of control, ending up sideways across two lanes of traffic. At this point I felt like I had three options: I could aim for the concrete barrier to the right of me, the raised island to the left of me, or I could just hit the breaks and hope. I touched the breaks, knew I was going to slide, and so aimed for the island.
Hi all, just discovered that it's two weeks or so since I checked comments and stuff. Very sorry about the comments I missed and I hope IO hav enow esponded to everyone.
I have been distratced and not writing much, plus having about of the dreaded writers block. I think I am just about out of it now so hopefully I will post chapter 13 soon. Thanks to everyone who has queried about the story and also about me. Veyr much appreciated, and sorry I have such a tendancy to be an insular so and so. will try to do better.
My housemate is abroad for a couple of weeks. She left early Wednesday morning for some interviews. From our last Skype conversation, she said she finished two of them, and she has one more on Monday, and another Tuesday. Tuesday afternoon, she's flying to her little hometown in Kyoto Japan for a long-scheduled visit. And she'll be back Saturday evening. Which is the problem.
Let’s keep the movement towards equality in New York State moving forward. I agree that GENDA should be the next unifying social priority in New York State. Please join us with Joanna Solmonsohn, the Long Island Program Organizer at the Empire State Pride Agenda. Joanna leads the Pride Agenda’s community campaign for LGBT equality and justice on Long Island.
I'm curious what some of the usernames around here mean. I've seen a number of interesting aliases and wondered at the significance of them. A good portion of them I sure are just made up names which have no real meaning, but not all. So what is the significance of your username?
Why am I asking this? Well it's spurred by people's own curiosity over my own username. I've already been asked about it a number of times and I was asked again today.
I mean, I'm not complaining because I have several stories that just sort of remain unfinished, and I think people like that are bloody awful. So, I resolve not to do that any more.
Anyhow, I was wondering what happened to Ice Tiger and the story called Anari something...can't exactly remember who the authors are, so I just can't bug them directily. There is another one about people being on a slave ship and escaping...
I don't recall much about the story, but the title page had a picture of a young child either falling into a puddle or already in it. I think the story was about the boy,getting wet, putting on clothes that belong to a friend of his
I there's problems between his parents, but I could be mixing to stories there.
That was what my supervisor said to me last night about my performance lately. Pretty good for someone who was scared of getting fired not so long ago...
Two of them, actually. The first one is fairly recent. Guy turns into a girl, and because mom made him play dolls with his little sister, (s)he has an addiction to pink.
Second one is much older. Guy tells best friend he is going to a different college than the two of them had planned, and the friend gets all upset and feels betrayed. Second part is from an outside viewpoint, and it seems everybody else thinks he is actually a girl. One calls his pack a "hobo bag" which is a style of purse. Oh, first guy is a transfer student, small build, long hair, kinda fem-looking face.
I was incredibly stoked to read that Diana (Moongoddess) had come out to some people at her bingo hall. Of course now our bar of expectations for her goes up and I expect any day to read that she's going to the hall enfemme and getting called "Di" wherever she goes.... (just kidding hon, take your time, do it at a pace you can handle.) Anyway, after reading that I hoped it could be the start of a trend where some of our closeted authors make the choice to come out. Lets make 2012 the Year We All Stopped Hiding!
I am about to re-release God Bless the Child as a real live book and i thought we could have a little fun while waiting for the new cover artwork to be done (by a real artist).
Here is the contest.
Write the synopsis for the back cover.
That's fairly simple I think. You can post it here or send it to me in a PM.
Prize:
$25 (U.S.) and an autograph copy of the book (yes i am vain, the song is about me).
Hopefully this also drums up some interest for what I think is a wonderful story with TG elements.
Now that singer Katy Perry is single, here are three reasons why she should date me:
1: Unlike her ex, I would have NO problem with the fact she's more famous than I am.
2: Her parents are trying to set her up with Tim Tebow. Well, unlike him, I'm not given to dropping to my knees in prayer in public. I'm a Christian, but I think that might get annoying for anyone around him after a while...
3: Since I'm trans, we could make her song "I kissed a girl" come to life, and what could be cooler than that?
Well, this year i set it in my head that i was gonna fully transition, it being 2012 and all, i sorta figured if the world did end and i didn't get going, i would be very cranky in heaven.
That being said, i came out to six people at the !bingo hall! where i volunteer, so eep.
I told the charity managers on two of the four charities i volunteer with, one co-worker, one of the Hall managers, a runner i trust and think is wonderful and one patron who is a post op T girl... so either my trust is well placed or... things will get, shall we say, sticky... also, eep.
I hope i wasn't stupid,
Hi I'm Lostflower or possibly Hannah
I'm also still cowering in the closet in western Scotland and my doctors fought tooth and nail against giving me hormones prior to the dreaded Real Life Test.....and they wondered why I wanted to make my rather vaguely planned (read making it up as I go) transition easier and less traumatic.
It might be because of things like this http://news.stv.tv/scotland/west-central/293442-boy-says-sch...
My stars and garters, I never ever thought that I would be writing a blog like this one!
So, um... I never ever thought that I'd ever use my little hot dog wrapper, so I have been really lax about dilating and last month noticed that it has narrowed to far less than the size of a hot dog. When I got it, the thing would take a polish sausage, but due to my own negligence, well you know.
I wanted to thank everyone who responded to my request for a GG lesbian willing to talk about sexual attraction. Everything I learned re-assured me that there isnt any significant difference between how they feel and how I do. That's a relief, because I was worried about it.
Girl Scout Launches Cookie Boycott Campaign After Organization's Inclusion Of Transgender Child
Saw this article which maybe of interest here. It was a link from an article regarding the start of Girl Scout Cookie sales season. Anyone selling Thin Mints ;-0?
Get your minds out of the gutter, because what I need is someone who is willing to talk about how it feels to be attracted to another woman. I know I have my own experiences, but I'm not sure how much having male bits changes that equation, if it does at all. Do you get lust at first sight or is attraction a slower process? Do you find you have a physical "type"? Is there a part of the female body that gets your motor running, as it were? If anyone is, or knows a GG lesbian willing to share, let me know.
Well, I'm in the home stretch with my "quest" story. I think 3 more chapters will do it, maybe somewhere in the 2,000 to 4,000 words to go, I think. If that holds true, it could be ready by mid-February. Of course, I've been wrong before with stories, so you just never know ....
Anyone have a funny moment happen while transitioning, or a funny story about being transgender in general? I think we all need a laugh once in a while, even if its at ourselves, so share, wont you?
I came up with an idea for a possible shared universe. "The Consignment Shop." Basically, it would be a special shop where second-hand goods are bought, but you get more than the item, you also get the story of the item as well. So a person buying a pair of red FM shoes gets told the story of how they changed the love life of a married couple, and the person buying the wedding dress learns that the last wearer had been born a boy. Stories could be happy or sad, long or short. What do you guys think?
Well, I just got back from the endocrinology doctor, and he has doubled my prescription of estrogen. Maybe now I'll start seeing some results.
As for the letter I'm writing for my ex, I'm still working on it. I really, really need to find to a way to approach this with her. Right now, I'm struggling with finding the right words. Ah, well, it will come.
Damn I really can't believe that it's been 3 years since I decided to make an account here. More strange is the fact that it's going going to be 8 years this weekend since I had my grs ... Doesn't feel that long for me
After all the fuss of the festive season its back to the normal drudgery. Firstly Lulu have got a stunning offer until the end of the month, 25% off! So now's a great chance to get your Gaby calendar or catch up on the books! Click here to go straight there!
25% off any of my books
Coupon Code: LULUBOOKUK305
Coupon expires 31 January 2012
£50 Max Savings
World's Tallest Transsexual Lindsey Walker On Shoes, Taboos And Tattoos
Saw this article, and thought it might be intersting. She seems to be well centered (no pun intended) with her life. I wonder if she wanted to would she be allowed to play in the WNBA (a professional women's basketball league in the U.S.) or would there be some rule preventing her from playing? If she was allowed I wonder what the reaction would be?
To all you wonderful AUTHORS first THANK YOU for taking the time to write and post these GREAT stories. I have a small request - can you please put TBC or FINIS-THE END or let us know the story has ended sometimes you can't tell because you leave it open for a sequel.Karen Bishop has got me spoiled with putting down 1 of ? how ever many chapters the story has . I know that some stories grow as you write them so FINISH would be kind of nice
THANK YOU ALL for the enjoyment I get from reading these FREE stories -- LOVE YOU ALL -- RICHIE2
Well, last night at work I started working on a letter to my ex. Not to send, since she doesnt read well, but as a way to collect my thoughts. I've been getting a little nudge from my conscience about coming clean, and I think it might be time. Only problem is, I have NO idea what I can say to her that she would be able to hear. If I do this wrong, I could wreck my relationship with not only her but my daughter as well. Pray for me, if you would.
I decided to post this, because I remembered some things and am putting this out here so I don't have a breakdown. I just remembered my initial reason when I was younger for not saying anything and now that I'm wiser it was dumb and I'm so mad and frustrated at myself.
Lots of stories here feature school life in the USA. I read this article this morning which describes a school life so alien from my own, very long distant, school days here in the English NE Midlands. It reads so much like some fantastic dystopia that I can't help but feel that it's distorting the reality. I'd be interested in reading comments from our US friends to gain a little perspective.
For the past three nights I've had problems accessing or uploading Bike to the site - it took four goes last night and then I lost connection so couldn't do the continuity link. It seems ironic that because of the numbers of readers, the authors can't actually post stuff. I may have to rethink when I post or browse the site.
This isn't a criticism of the management because it's outside their control, but I do wonder why we're suddenly so popular apart from the genius of the writers and the friendliness of the site owner. I hope there's nothing sinister going on as well.
Here's some of the fun we have in my home country! Our boys make really pretty girls, and there's no making fun of them! They're having fun. No real need to translate.
I'll never look at my teen idols the same again! So cool! And I promise you won't be offended! :)
Had one of my female co-workers come into work with the best excuse for missing time I've heard - She was told by her husband of 10 plus years, a man with whom she has two kids, that he couldn't live with a "incomplete" woman anymore. (She has lost the bottom half of one leg to disease and works with an artificial one.) My immediate gut reaction was "Men suck". Afterward, I chided myself, and remembered I know a number of very good men, and have met some pretty awful women.
Here is my thinking and maybe it will make my arrogance show. But I think God Bless the Child is still a top notch story. As we speak I have a Los Angeles artist making me a new cover so we can reintroduce the book in print. It has been edited by Wren (thank you very much) and I think it shows maybe the most realistic plight of a young trans kid out there.
I thought I might take a chance and hope that Tigger reads this, here. I just re-read one of his stories titled Acting Dominant. It was first posted to the tg fiction list and later at FM, for those that might have missed it. I just wanted to let him know it is an awesome piece of work, and encourage anyone that missed it, to check it out.
There have been a couple of blog entries about BC performance today, and the cause is that the site is busier than ever.
I wonder if there is a correlation between the amount of traffic and that there are currently some authors posting prolific quality work at the moment.
I'm thinking of Cyclist & Angharad; Karin Bishop, Bronwen Welch and Anon Allsop, I'm even being converted to stories of the super natural with the writing of Enemyoffun. All are posting on a very regular basis, weekly or daily, and really well written.
My sister-in-law posted a very nice comment on my Facebook page about my essay, "What is my transition about?", and I want to share it with all of you:
I occasionally find that BC is either very slow to respond or not available at all. For example, last night about 1 am BST I couldn't get on at all and the site timed out. It can be often slow to get to the main page but moving within the site can be reasonably fast. Last night it meant I didn't get my 'Bike' bedtime story :(
I may have mentioned before that my partner had resigned from her job, for family reasons. But as is typical with her, she had it all planned out. Prior to resigning, she had sent out her CV and had lined up some interviews. Moe is going abroad this week for interviews with the ADB, the Thomas Jefferson Cultural Center, the WHO and JICA. Not for any big position, mind you, just a position with their PR or research departments. So she had an appointent at the hairdressers this morning, to get all gussied up for her interviews. I went with her to get a trim, but mostly to keep her company. But as these things always seem to go with her, I got roped into trying something. So guess what?
This is so probably yesterday's news, but has anyone heard about the "comedy" on ABC called 'Work It Out' or something like that about guys crossdressing to work?
Is it just me or is this not a funny concept at all?
Did the pitch meeting go like this?
Smith: "We're running out of ideas, Boss? We were thinking a show about making fun of crossdressers"
Boss: "Great idea, Smith! It's never been done before"
Jones: "Wait a minute, Boss! Aren't we in Hollywood supposed to be on the cutting edge of sensitivity?"
By making me a character in his story, he took what was a tough day for me (I'll tell you guys later why), and turned into the most amazing day I've ever had in my life. I'm having to sit further away from the keyboard to type this so I dont drown the thing in my happy tears....
Alright I’ve had a few requests from people for the cookbook for Images and I’ve done a preliminary list of things in the stories and there is a lot of dishes and recipes so these are going to be the things that I think people will like to see here and these aren’t really coming out of any particular order so some fishing around might be required until you find something you like.
Now most of these are to the restaurant use in terms of scale of cooking and serving. But a little imagination or having company or a big family over and you’ll do just fine.
Just thought I'd drop a blog and say that I'm here, just dealing with a few things. first is the Through the years. I had it mostly ready, well next chapter at least, but then I thought of stuff to add to it, so working on that.
Also been in a very bad mood since right around Christmas. I got a jury duty summons. In this county though, they take you for the month. So for 6 days I may have to show up. The worst is this coming Tuesday. I have to call at 11 am and if I'm needed , I got to be there at 1 pm. Really? Two hours to find out and be there? Talk about cutting it close.
Writing here is for amateurs, amateurs in the original sense of people who do what they do for the love of doing it. If you're not happy about how long chapters are or how often they are posted, be polite and kind because if you simply make demands you might as well kick the authors and tell them to stop having fun.
I have talked a bit about about my first girlfriend before, but I was talking about her to a co-worker last night, and it occurred to me to account our time together in one post.
I was going to university and being a book person, I explored the many libraries of my campus, looking for new things to read, That's when I saw her, the pretty blonde who sometimes helped me check out my material. I was smitten from the first, and totally out of character for me, I actually managed to do something about that - I asked her to join me for a walk.
For me, it just means changing this;
back to this;
Also, changing the accompanying text back again.
So, one last Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! = D
*HuggleSnugglePurrs for everyone* <3
On MSN.com, report that Richard Alf who co-founded comic-con in 1970 has passed to the large comic book in the sky. He died from pancreatic cancer. I know that there are a lot of folks on here that like comic book hero types, so I thought this might be of interest.
Tomorrow at a local church there will be a funeral for a fallen soldier, and a certain group whom we all know, will be there to protest and promote their hate.
The good news is that a radio station’s morning show has asked there fans to be there and line the street to create a wall to bloke these idiots. Believe me I will be there.
Now that the final part of Assassin has been posted and for the most part read, I would like to thank all involved in the project. First Holly Hart for her editing skills and suggestions during the year and a half of writing. Sephrenea for posting the picture and highlighting the chapters. The question has been asked if there will be a sequel? After reading the final part one can see several open threads indicating the possibility. Yes those are there for a purpose, but I have other things to take care of first. I want to take care of my Twisted novel first.
It seems that since I started visiting and posting on Big Closet calamity had a way of finding me. i do my best to not blame little evil big closet dust bunnies for my misfortune.
The most recent episode started before Thanksgiving last year when I was given notice that I was being fired with no cause from my well paying Tampa Tribune paper route. I know I've been down pretty much since then as I fought like hell just to tread water. I lost where I was living (twice) and wound up in kind of a homeless shelter. Had a van repo'd and the most heart-wrenching lost my Aunt (I still cry)
I was watching the first season of "Heroes" the other day. I'm a lot like Peter from that show - I was the family screw-up while my brother overcame our background to become a success. And yet he would drop everything to help me in any way possible.
I wonder where my poetry muse went? Its been a long time since I've written a new original piece.
My ex hasnt noticed the earrings yet. I wonder how big my front will get before she notices that?
I got a comment on one of my story chapters. Some person, a guest reader, accused me of deleting a comment, and was pretty well pissed. I can deal with that.
What I found very offensive was that this person used the term "his/her writing"
Information for a story is what I need. I don't want to talk about IED's, guns, bombs or anything like that.
What I need is information about the living conditions of mountain country Afghan people who are touched by the Taliban. We can talk a little about the Burqua, but having worn one, I am pretty much up on that.
There is a law being proposed in Tennessee that would allow bullying in schools by people who feel they are justified based on their own religious, philosophical and political views against LGBT students.I wonder if they have figured out that federal Hate Crimes laws would trump any attempt to violate the Civil rights of these kids? This comes in the wake of the suicide of a high school student who was being bullied for being gay. I have heard that Michigan just passed a similar law. It is sickening that any State would legally try to justify violence against someone else as a RIGHT!
It was very well done. For those who don't know European history leading up to ww1, I suggest you look into it before seeing this film to increase your enjoyment. However it isn't necessary to know this to enjoy this film. Robert Downey is excellent as always and Jude Law fills the part of Watson admirably.
A friend of mine pointed out a couple of things I forgot to mention, that I should DEFINITELY remember to bring along:
A roadmap - as my friend said, sometimes, you need help finding the right pathways, so having a map is a good thing. He recommends a pocket New Testament as a roadmap, and I agree.
another thing he recommends is faith. Without it, I will weaken like I would if I failed to take water. I can only concur.
Lastly, he wished to remind me of one Person who will be with me on this journey - my Lord and my God. Without Him, the journey, and indeed my life, would be a waste.
I have a new ebook, "The Haight", exclusively at Amazon for Kindle. It's part of the Kindle Select program, which means Amazon Prime members can get it for free.
"The Haight" is set in 1967 San Francisco, and is more mainstream than some of my other books; TG is only one of several elements in the story. It has famous, real-world people in it as well as fictional characters, and is as historically and socially accurate as possible.
In the entry before last, I compared my transition to a journey. Keeping with that theme, here is a list of some stuff I hope I've got packed for my particular journey:
Patience. There are going to be lots of times when I'll feel like I'm standing still, so I'll need this.
Persistence - Its a long trip, and I know I'll be tempted to quit, so I'll really have to have some of this packed.
A sense of humor - I'm going to make mistakes, maybe even make a fool of myself sometimes. Having this will help a lot.
Okay, I had built up a buffer of stories, but after a few PM's yesterday, I looked through the story again. I can see what they are talking about, and it's sending the story off the track that I had planned. I'm not changing anything that's been posted already-just the next few chapters. Unfortunately, this means that I have to do some more writing to get what I want, so I won't post today-but I should have the next chapter tomorrow morning. Sorry!
I read just about everything that grabs my intrest or by my favorite author(s). Recently I was notified that I did not have access to view a part two to a story (Pink? Why pink!?!).
I was logged in and everything. Why did I get this message? HELP PLZ!
One of the leaders memorialized in the Wired Enterprise article 11 Who Died in 2011 (And Were Not Named Steve) is Ashawna Hailey, who first shook Silicon Valley as a microprocessor architect who led AMD's development of the Am9080, AMD's clone of the 8080, then went on to co-develop HSPICE, back when she was known as Shawn.
You know, waaaaaay back when I sometimes gave in to my need to be a girl, I would just assume becoming one was pretty much impossible anyway. I could look with envy at the lives of females, but I could never have one. I would look down that path, and see impassible mountains and large guarded gates between me and my desired destination. But now that I'm finally trying to make it happen, I'm finding it almost easy. Those "mountains" are turning into gentle hills, those "gates" are not only unguarded, but unlocked, and open at a touch.
Hi everyone
Happy New Year, well, I hope I find you all well. I have great pleasure in announcing that my novel MARINE - Book I in the Agent of Time series, is now in the Kindle Pipeline and should be available from my page on Amazon within a few hours. It has never seen the light of day before, and I will be putting a taster on my website tomorrow..I am also revamping my website, so it will look different...maybe.. see what i can manage.
I have also published my book To Fight for a dream, and it is now available on Kindle.
It is a repeat of the post. I tried to post, got tripple post, and while deleting, deleted it all. I feel blond.
I tried to write an introduction, but got too angry remembering parts of my life (or was that frustrated? It was a whole lot of different emotions). So I just stopped midpost.
Damn.
May be I'll write it next time.
Okay. I know a lot of you are gonna read this blog entry and go: "Jeeze, Cathy! Will you just make up your damn mind and DEAL with life as it is?"
The problem is that I have more questions than answers... about me, my life, where I go from here, and on and on, ad infinitum. Yes I know, this doesn't set me apart from many other people, or even the majority of people, but I do have issues in my life that I keep to myself. These issues cause me to go "quiet," or stealth, or whatever you want to name being uncommunicative for periods of time.
I have previously posted a number of chapters of my autobiography "Mum's Encouragement" and due to illness and now a demanding new job and relationship I have had difficulty getting back to the story. I will one day however I wondered in the mean time whether anyone wanted to continue my story as a fictional account. It would be interesting to see where others would take it and see how it relates to my real story.
I am happy to assist anyone who wants to take on the challenge with recollections and when I have more time I promise I will write more accounts of my growing up.
There were two articles of interest to this community in my local paper, The Ft. Laudrdale Sun-Sentinel, today.
The first, concerns how some Gynecologists are becoming more Transgender friendly is positive. The other about the new television show "Work It" is positive only in the sense that the reviewer pans the show, otherwise ABC should be chastised for showing it. It appears there is a betting line on how quickly it will be cancelled.
The links are below.
Gynecologists opening minds, offices to transgender patients
Checks can be made out & sent to:
Joyce Melton
1001 Third St.
Space 80
Calimesa, CA 92320
USA
Note: $6000 is the operating, maintenance and upgrade budget. Amounts received in excess of the $6000 will be applied to long term debt accrued over the last 19 years.
