Well, over the last two days I've had two very different conversations with two very different men, and I thought I would share them with you.

First, I had a conversation with one of my neighbors, that started with him asking me how I was doing, and when I said I was hanging in there, he said "not for much longer, right?"

Turns out he was talking about my SRS.

So we had a laugh, and a good conversation on the whole subject and I felt very relieved, because I didnt know how he'd react.

http://movieline.com/2012/07/14/frankie-go-boom-charlie-hunn...

Scary look at Perlman as a post-op TS. Clip part way down page in link.

Hey I just put a new story up. would like feed back but you can also take and run with it as I am not that much of an author.

Yesterday, thanks to a challenge that Dorothy Colleen put up, I was able to actually sit down and write. While it was a short 1000plus word story, it really felt good to do so.

Last weekend was the first days off I had taken since before Memorial Day, other then a day to take my son to Vermont to visit a potential college. He will be a senior in high school come September. So writing has been difficult both from a motivation and energy or time.

I appear to have disrupted my connectivity for a bit, until I can put things back together at least.

I apologise for the delay. I stepped on a tack, you see, and spun around, fell flat on my backside, and collapsed my little Internet accessories table.

Nothing serious, aside from embarrassment, but I have to suss out how to work a screwdriver to put the table back together.

Sent, as one says pretentiously, from my handy iPhone.

(and it is awfully handy sometimes, but I can't quite bring myself to post an entire chapter using my thumbs)

TTFN

Got back to the hotel, ate some chips and salsa and worked on the site for an hour or so and fell asleep. I probably would have slept straight through except some guy outside my window about 11:30 couldn't get his car alarm to shut off. Either that or he was stealing a car. I got up to look out the window, my car is still there but by that time, I was awake and hungry so I made a trip down to the snack machines and here I am.

My wife says I'm a "Nerd Girl"

Okay I am seriously disappointed. I wrote "the waiting room" hours ago and aside from Dorothy nobody has made a single comment on it at all.

If it was that bad, even though I was kinda proud of one point in it, I am not sure I wish to continue writing about it.

Depressed

I was somewhat pleasantly amused by Dorothy's recent post "To any non-trans guy brave enough to answer" which opened a discussion about erections, and the having of them. My interest was further piqued by her post "Here is a challenge for you all" about breasts. Not wanting to thread jack, I thought I might post my own thoughts on both topics from the other side of the fence.

It's been 4 years, 1 month, and 3 days since she passed away...

-P/KAF/PT

Had another good day at the con, bought some comics collections, including one of Groo off of Sergio Aragonés in Spanish. I asked him if he wrote the dialog himself but he said no, that he wrote the stories and drew them but as usual Mark Evanier wrote the dialog and then Sergio had some other person translate Mark's dialog into Spanish. Seems roundabout. :) I know that there are comics out there that Sergio has done in Spanish that he wrote himself but he didn't have any at the con. It sort of tickled him that I bought the one I did.

Well, today I two moments that felt like feminine milestones, but I reacted quite differently to each of them. First, when I was eating supper, I brushed my arm against my breasts and suddenly felt all sorts of confusing feelings as my body reacted to the contact. I liked it, I was scared of it, and it took my friend Jaci several minutes of talking to me on the phone to restore some semblance of balance.

Can any Brit explain the caution British police use especially the part about fail to mention....

You do not have to say anything, but if you do not mention when questioned something you later rely on in court, anything you do say will be given in evidence.”

I have a serious question. Do you LIKE getting erections? Is it supposed to feel good?

Well, I dont. I hate mine with a passion. They hurt. They make it harder to wear the kind of clothes I like. And they are a reminder I am not the person I want to be, need to be, or am inside, depending on your point of view.

Ah, well.

I posted Part 3 of my story The Accident, and now I can't find it anywhere. What happened to The Accident - Part 3 that I posted earlier? I cannot repost it without writing it over, and now there is no train of thought for Part 4. Will somebody please tell me what happened to my post?

I've been out to see an old friend, in fact my oldest friend, who was visiting the area for the day. We've known each other since we were eleven and lived across the road from each other. He also needed to talk about a few things, so, sorry he got the priority.

Hopefully, Cathy & co will be back tomorrow.

Angharad.

I'm O K just my right arm in a sling and wrapped down to my fingers . Pain level about 6 with pain meds , next doctor visit next thursday
HUGS RICHIE

Sorry guys, the latest Update for Wishful Thinking is not complete yet, you can view a wordless line drawn version for now - I think it is beautiful.

Crystal promises to upload the completed piece tomorrow.

http://wishful-thinking2.smackjeeves.com/comics/

The last couple of days the temp has been above 30 C, with enough humidity in the air to make it feel much hotter. I've been hiding as much as I can, hoping that soon this will pass.

Well.

I've finally got my novel Mindful into print. Anybody interested in reading it can look on the Amazon Book Store and type in Mindful or Beverly Taff. It's also available in dead tree mode by Strategic Books.

It's july the 11th, Flanders national holiday (not to be mixed up with july 21st, the belgian national holiday). Still 2,5 weeks to go to my b-day.

>sigh< Still waiting on the official letter from the Retirement Commission and people getting back to me about what the amount would be for my pension.

Thinking about taking aleave of absence from the guild I'm adjunct guild leader of (not the best of time with a big game update comming up) due to not having my head straight (the drama in the last week doesn't help either).

Sometimes I think life is just to be endured, if you enjoy it you either don't understand the situation or you have masochistic tendencies.

Sometimes I just need to share things and with limited people in my life I wind up blogging on here. I don't know if that is a good thing or just plain sad, I will just leave it at "It is what it is."

one giant splash for MtF kind! =D
(more inside)

Lulu.com has a site-wide sale--18% off until Friday the 13th. Strange percentage, but what the heck--just a chance to save on BCTS authors' books!

Karin

Went to the Orthopaedic doctor for a follow up and it seem my arm is still broken or broken again . He drop a bomb on me by telling me we will see each other in the O. R. tommorrow morning bright and early so I am getting more nuts and bolts in my body.I'll let you all know I'm O K on Thursday as I am going to sleep most of the day after I come home
Love You All HUGS RICHIE

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/07/09/episcopal-church-tr...

According to the Daily Telegraph it's all to do with the jet stream and not global warming. I'm not sure I care any longer what is causing it only that it would stop and allow us some summer before the winter starts again.

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/topics/weather/9388365/Why-wont-i...

You know, it can be disturbing when one visit's one's primary care doc, and gets referred for extra tests...

Well, the latest little story I wrote has started an avalanche of struggle with my rape, bringing all my bad stuff right to the front of my head, and leaving me wishing to God I had someone to hold me tight while I shook....

I hate this.

Does it ever really end?

Well I have very good awesome news.

an anti-discrimination film project being produced by Egale Canada (it's called: Courage in The Face of Hate). This film will be distributed to all high-schools in Canada to educate and sensitize students against LGBTQ discrimination.

Filming will take place on Wed, July 18th starting at 6:30pm in downtown Toronto (either a university or community centre setting, to be determined soon). There is a $25 stipend paid to participants.

Just to keep readers informed.I haven't lost my muse. I'm adopting a new tactic, namely write the whole story then break it down into chapters (or whatever,) and post it once nightly until the story's finished.

Busy writing 'Wheels and Wings' at the mo. Dunno when I'll finish it though.

Bev.

I'm stressed out by things that have happened back stage this past week. I need some time off and Piper's real life is kind of nightmarish lately so I hate to dump any more responsibility on her. My other assistants are really not experienced enough to do what I do here.

I'm going to be gone to the San Diego Comicon from Wednesday the 11th to Sunday the 15th. I'm thinking of shutting the site down while I'm gone or maybe just Thursday to Saturday since I'll be able to work on it Wednesday and Sunday. But really, the place would have burned down if I had been gone three days this weekend.

I went to Wal-Mart today in my nice new blouse and skirt, and got to chatting with the people on either side of the line up at the pharmacy counter. Then I strolled through a farmer's market, and then stopped on my way home to get a glass of lemonade from a kid's stand. At no point did anyone seem to give me so much as a double take, which once upon a time I would have said was simply impossible for me - there was simply no way I could pass.

Funny how wrong a person can be, isnt it?

Global climate chaos or Climate is what we expect Weather is what we get.

I have had a lot going on lately. I am working with my sister-in-law who lives in Colorado, trying to get my career off the ground as a Mary Kay consultant. I am trying to get enough orders to buy my starter kit and some inventory to get started with. She gave me a task to find six women to place orders this weekend, but so far, I haven't had much luck. If any of you would like to place an order, you can go to http://www.marykay.com/kcampbell98934. Just let me know if you do, so it will count toward the total I need and I can offer you my sincerest thank you.

I'm still mildly seething, sort of like a dragon with smoke coming out my nostrils, but no flames. In my time being in the world of women, as one, I have never encountered a woman who acted like a man, aside from simply openly hostile, man hater, lesbian women, and even their presentation was, well lacking.

So, I think that I might redo some of my stories and resubmit them. OK, so I know how to post them, but I am not sure how to get rid of the old one. Do I just highlight the whole business and then press delete, or is there a better way?

Thanks

Gwendolyn

Ponderings and wanderings while working on my house.

I went out today, got my blood work done so my endo will have it when i see him in think in august, had to give a lecture at the nurse because the sticker thingies with my name on them, was my old name, she was arguing that no its the same as my ohip and i pointed out, hell no it isnt, erin amelia and derek joseph are two highly different names, fix the problem!!!, etc, so she did.

Thanks to everyone who commented on the new episode of Crossdressing Charlie. I was shocked to see that it had nine comments when I logged on just there. Nine comments may not seem a lot to some of the greater, better-known stories that attract high readership and reviews here on Big Closet but I think it is great. Mainly because I could tell I was gradually losing readers but the views are climbing back up better than ever. Thank you all so much.

Be on the lookout for a new Charlie episode next week along with some artwork I will be uploading to my DeviantART account.

Okay I'm trying to get the next part done but I had to change some things around. Been busy and now the power keeps shutting off due to weather, so bear with me while I pull out my hair.

My how plans can change

First off I'd like to thank everyone who helped me our with my last blog. I ended up settling on the name Brynhilde.

On to my main reason for posting this blog...

My online name, Ragtime Rachel, is perhaps a bit grandiose considering I play the piano rather poorly, but there is one piece I play rather well, and that's Scott Joplin's "Maple Leaf Rag." It was the song I heard Eubie Blake playing one day when I was twelve--he did it, as I recall, as part of a PBS special--and from then on, I was hooked, hopelessly, on ragtime. I had never heard anything quite like it, and endeavored to learn to play, simply to play that kind of music.

Well, I just came back from my 2nd opinion. They called me in just as I was leaving to see the endo doc. He's recommending me for the SRS. So now I just wait until December when I see my regular gender specialist, and he will put me on the waiting list.

I think I'm in shock, it doesnt seem real yet...

I'm so happy I'm crying

I went to the doctor for a follow up on my elbow and it seems it is not healing properly so it looks like a visit to th O R to put some screws in to hold it in place. I have more nuts & bolts in me than they have at
Home Depot. Think about this 100 years from now someone with a metal detector going over my burial sight is going to think they hit the jackpot or gold pot at the end of the rainbow because of all the steel & titanium I have in me
HUGS-LOVE & KISSES TO ALL MY BCTS FRIENDS

I was sorting throught papers and ran across the note with my user id and thought I would stop by and thank you all for all the kind words and thoughts after Bob's passing. We are getting by day by day but it seems harder this week knowing it has been nearly a year since he left us.

we are still dealing with the bill collectors and lawyers and the bank, but this too will pass.

We finally got up to sorting thru his varied collection of video tapes and dvd's, but there are numeros other things we haven;t had the emotional strenght to get to yet.

Happy Birthday to us!
Happy Birthday to us!
Happy Birthday, America!
Happy Birthday, USA!