Sometime in the last three days, BCTS passed a milestone; there are now more than 20,000 stories, chapters and episodes of TG fiction in our archive!

Congratulations to everyone!

Hugs to all,
Erin

from my holiday so you can now resume reading new Gaby - chapter 31 of book 8 is posted today!

Also, if you are lucky you can see a few pics here http://www.maddybell.com/holiday2012.htm

Mads

I had a bit of a frustrating experience yesterday, but as a result I managed to make some progress in dealing with my tendency to have negative self-talk.

What happened was this: I got ready to go to work last night, and somehow managed to lose my keys just before I was set to go. A frantic search with my mom turned up nothing, leaving us both frustrated and upset, but finally there was nothing I could do but take my spare keys and head out.

Its very hard for someone writing to know how they are doing lately as it seems the only comments are from the *core group* of like 8 people and the rest don't comment at all.

Kudo's mean nothing to a writer really its the feedback a writer craves. Okay its also about attention too, which for most of the tg community who spent most of their lives purposely NOT drawing attention to themselves you have to admit the craving for it in some small way is there.

When I sit down and think about it, it strikes me as completely absurd that I'm still writing a story which was intended to last a few episodes, and is now just about twenty away from 1800. Five years ago if someone had asked me if I'd be able to do another twenty episodes, I'd have been far from confident about saying I could - now, it's taken for granted I will - both by readers and I suppose myself, as well.

So, I am starting to post Transitioning Home. There are 36 chapters and I will be posting two a week on Tuesday and Friday. This will not take about 18 weeks to make it through everything and I hope you all enjoy it. Just so you all know, there is sex, violence, language, etc... It can get very intense and if you have triggers for some things this might not be the story for you. It is very realistic in dealing with war, trans issues, asshattery and the like. So, you are forewarned.

Since I began this blog, I've stated that one of my goals is to be as honest as I can about my journey, and therefore when someone points out something I've said here that's not honest, I need to deal with it, and here goes.

For the last several years, I've referred to the mother of my child in this blog as my "ex", and that is not accurate.

Yes, we are separated, and yes, we will never be a couple again, but the fact remains that in the eyes of the law, I'm still married to her.

You may laugh at this, but normally my birthday is just the day, maybe go out to eat and that's that. Well I wanted to go to the game store in the mall and see if there was any cool video games out there that I wanted. Didn't see any, so I went to the music/movie store and hit pay dirt. I found the movies Surf Ninjas, Ferris Bueller' day off, Dudley Doright and E.T. and just had to get them. I haven't seen E.T. on dvd in a few years now and I've wanted to watch it really bad. I haven't seen Surf Ninjas for about 10 years and I loved it then, and then there was Ferris Bueller's.

An interesting but long article. Where is the FDA (a rhetorical question)?

http://vitals.nbcnews.com/_news/2012/08/06/13146097-prenatal...

I am still around just been busy. I was going to send the next part to through the years to be edited but I didn't get it finished. See I changed an idea or two and trying to fix things so it all works.

Also with it being my birthday I'm being carted around town. So maybe I'll be home soon and send it off to be edited if I get it done tonight

I tried my hand at a little erotica and transformation story, but I don't think my writing ability in that area was able to pull it off. I like the concept of Orgasmicur and was wondering if someone would like to attempt fixing it. I never saw a person transform while masturbating in a story, but it intrigues me.

My brother and sister in law came over last night, and she saw my nails and was less than impressed with them. Not that I wanted painted nails, but my color choice was not a wise one, according to her. She said most women learn colors and age-appropriate styles in or before high school, because, in her words "teen girls are the most vicious creatures on earth".

Today I've run across a book by T. Aaron Payton, 'The Constantine Affliction.' It's a Victorian Steam-punk book with a strong TG element. Neither primary characters are affected, but several secondary ones are.
Since it is by Baen Books there are teaser chapters and can be purchased though their E-book service.

http://www.baenebooks.com/p-1703-the-constantine-affliction....

hugs
Grover

I'm part way through new story, it might or might not be a good one. I,m looking for someone to collaborate with and will share the credit for the story. So far I have done four chapters and am working on the fifth.

Anyone seriously interested

Jacqui

I guess it is unlikely but does anyone know any social venues for people like us in or near Melbourne Australia? Google is not being helpful to me. Maybe because my idea of search terms never matches anyone else's terms. I'm so sick of being alone.

Sorry there was no Bike last night, I've been having internet connection problems. Hopefully this has been sorted now and normal service will be resumed tonight.

Angharad

Is anyone else having issues connecting to Lulu.com's website? I've not been able to connect to their site since Thursday evening... I can see their support page, but can't log in to leave any messages there either. If someone could let me know if it's just my problem or something others are having issues with I would appreciate it! I've tried another computer and emptying my cache, so I doubt it's just me... but checking. Thanks!
-Tiffany :-)

Wow. Its been just past two years since I've logged into this account and checked this place out as my online personality. Between that time a lot has passed for me. For those of you who might remember me... hi. For those who don't or haven't met me, I've only got two other blog posts on here from two years ago, so getting to know what I was like two years ago shouldn't be too difficult. I'm... not really sure what to do or say. I think I might start from the beginning.

This is special. There was a dicumentary on Oscar some time ago, about how he has lived with the loss of his legs in childhood, and come to dominate 'disabled' running. There was also a long, long argument combined with a lot of research into whether his new legs gave him a competitive advantage over intact athletes.
http://www.bbc.co.uk/sport/0/olympics/19126033

I just thought I would say this while I have a chance so nothing gets left unsaid. Just to be clear, last night I recieved nothing more than a a scare, according to the doctor, but my roomate won't let me out of her sight today, so it scared both of us.

So, no drama, but i just wanted to make sure that I told everyone here what a great bunch you are with the exception of one or two who get crabby now and again. I do not think that anyone here has ever had a cross word for me, even when I was spouting radical Islamic propaganda. :)

When I was a kid, the first Saturday in August was always a holiday. Just a family holiday but it usually involved a big party with cakes and presents. Why? Because six of us cousins had birthdays within a couple of weeks of each other and two other cousins (including my brother) had real birthdays near Christmas and so celebrated their birthdays with the rest of of us in early August. My birthday is Sunday this year, August 5th, but tomorrow is Summer Saturday, the only holiday in August!

Happy Summer Everyone!

Hugs to all,
Erin

This is Big Closet: Top Shelf This is not any other website. I think that it would be good to remember that and that it is in poor style to discuss other websites on this site or to discuss this site on others, especially to gripe, complain, and be a general bitch about things.

I have to agree with the creator of this wonderful website. I became a member to talk with people who felt like me. I will not take be told what I feel is wrong on this site or what to feel. I have now been talk to about this yet, so this is a warning to those who would. I have been around for 26 years, most of it in the military life. So I know how to take harnessment and I will report you. So can you know leave this site and leave us alone will you. I was not push into this at all, I came looking for people who felt like me.

As in guilty as charged. Feeling guilty about not reacting mutch to the post here for one, thaking a leave of absence from the fleet for another and some other stuff.

Also don't get why peepz keep telling me I'm a great person. I really am not

Feeling way down and useless, >ad a lot ofother stuff <... All the stuff at work isn't helping either 'cause the keep pushing the 'useless' side of things.Missing that LGBT youth group. Heck missing every group I was ^part of.

Sorry to be buggingyou eepz with this

Lynne/Kai

Hi everyone,
I'm writing a new story and plan to write/need to write a nonsexual post-transformation shower scene. My muse is negleting me a bit - I think Karl is angry because it's nonsexual - so I'm looking for inspiration. I'd be really greatful if you could recommend stories that contain well written shower scenes.

thank you,
Beyogi

Ok. Sitting here kinda freaked out. Check the time stamp I just had a very weird, very disturbing nightmare. Some caution before reading the imagery might be a little graphic it was to me and I probably won't go back to sleep.

Since I have decided I am going to hook my star to Tegan, the story I have been sending around with little effect for the last few years I am going to post on here. I want some one to read it as I am very proud of the story. So, come next week, after Whedonfest is over and I can breathe, I plan on releasing my story Transitioning Home.

Everytime I see the Olympic cycling on TV I'm waiting to hear Gaby's name. Surely I'm not the only one. :)

I made the big 6 0h today on Aug 2nd and nobody to share it with except yall. Happy birthday to me.

Transition happened, I'm back at work. It's almost as if for the rest of the world, nothing happened. Why am I so surprised?

I have come to the point in my life when I really don't see the point in going on another day, another hour, another minute. On the horizon, I don't see even a chance of happiness, or joy, or peace, or contentment. There is no one that I am close with or close to, and I don't really see that changing at all. Any trust that I have ever had in humanity has been squandered. I simply wait to see how the next person is going to take advantage of me, use me, and then discard me like the worthless item I have become.

Had a very funny moment at the bank today. Went in to get some cash out for my mom, and the teller starts asking me my address and phone number, and suddenly I realize she is seeing my male name come up on the card and I'm wearing a skirt. So I tell her I'm transitioning, give her the information she needs to verify I'm me, and I get my cash.

Makes me wish I could afford to do the name change, but ah, well.

At least I got a funny story out of it.

My friend Kylie took a little quiz, and one of the questions (and her answer) was this:

7) Who do you look up to?

My friend Dorothy. I am awed and amazed at her life. Not that she understands why.

I'm awed and amazed that she's awed and amazed.

It’s been a long week, and it’s only Monday. Today was memorable. I had to see my primary care physician, and my cardiologist. They both had good news for me.
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I would like to thank all of you for your help and advice, regarding my last few posts, i know i dont often comment, that has more to do with limited time, and typically not always knowing how to repond to all your lovely grand comments which i whole heartedly thank you all for it.

My health at least feels like its getting much better. even though it is uncureable, but the puffers help so at least the infection has seemingly subsided.

Well, last night I worked in an area where another worker was very close, so we kind of kibitzed back and forth as we worked. Halfway through the night, I realized how much better my interactions with people, especially men, have become. Its a little thing, but it feels good.

About a month ago an Air Boat Captain on a tour with a family wanted to show a alligator up close so he held out a fish to feed the Gator with is illegally low and behold the 9 foot gator jump up and showed to tourist how to bite the hand that feeds you. The gator was found and the hand was found but sadly the captain is now called captain hook.This past Friday he was arrested for illegally feeding the gator with a $1000.00 bond ,talk about wierd justice.

This is what the DSM V will be stating:

Gender Dysphoria (in Adolescents or Adults)**

A. A marked incongruence between one’s experienced/expressed gender and assigned gender, of at least 6 months duration, as manifested by 2* or more of the following indicators: [2, 3, 4]**

1. a marked incongruence between one’s experienced/expressed gender and primary and/or secondary sex characteristics (or, in young adolescents, the anticipated secondary sex characteristics) [13, 16]

I had two very good days over the last week that made my heart sing. The first was at a party a week ago Saturday where i was truly myself in a social situation. i also wore a skirt for the first time. everybody treated me as who i am... not who i was. It felt right and was...

http://www.bbc.co.uk/iplayer/episode/b01l9z10/A_Year_in_the_...
This is a truly beautiful programme, though I know many people outside the UK cannot decode it without some trickery.
If ever anyone wanted to see what Steph'n'Geoff or Steve and the Toffs enjoyed, this is it. The farmer (whom I know slightly) has the most wonderful Gog accent, and the TG link is provided by the poet Twm Morys, son of Jan, who was James...

Interesting story which should help transgendered students take exams. Never knew they had such a strict policy in place before this new change. Don't like the use of gay in the title though.

http://uk.news.yahoo.com/university-alters-gay-dress-code-09...

After batting it around for a while, the doctors are still talking about surgery, but not UNTIL TUESDAY. They can't seem to make up their minds. Yesterday they were going to send her home and wait a week.

Holly

I would like to request help posting the first part of my first story.

Just got back from picking my ex's dog up at the vet - she had teeth problems, and needed one taken out. I was so upset I came home and cuddled with my own dog, breathing in that special feeling you get from the love of a pet.

If you have a pet, please remember to treat it better than you have to, because in them is a love and acceptance rarely found in humans - my dog never cared if I wore a skirt or not, which is better than I can say for some people.

Its probably the hormones, but I need a good cry now ...

This blog is not really about anything at all, so those who are easily bored can stop reading now. :)

One of my frustrations with fiction writing is that ALL female warriors seem to be required to be nearly naked. This I do not understand, because anyone with breasts can tell you that the girls need to be aggressively supported and protected for a woman to be much of a warrior at all. Not only do they bounce around, but getting hit on one is a real owwie. It is confusing to me where this prejudice comes from on a site where many of us are professing to be women inside. Hmmm.

Test test. Is this mic on? Test test. I am going to try to put some thoughts down here eventually, try to clear my head. For now adieu.

I have started writing a sequel to "Galactic Marshal" and hope to start posting in September.

Also, I have put all three parts of "Galactic Marshal" together in one book and it is available on lulu.com as an ebook for $1.99. It is available as a trade paperback as well.

Thank you for your support.