Be careful, I'm in a really, really bad place tonight. It might be a very good idea not to read this.

I’m trying to write a story, but I’m so ANGRY! I was visiting some relatives, and I heard somebody talking about “those Transgender freaks, and how anyone who would let their child think he is transgender should have their ass kicked.”

My own family.

I know bikes get stolen regularly, but surely this hasn't happened to my latest episode has it? I posted it last night and when I went to bed it was still there - this morning - gone.

Anyone who knows of its whereabouts please let me know.

Angharad

No, as some of you may have noticed, I'm still around. Life continues along it's merry way, despite our expectations that something life changing has happened.

That was the verdict of a co-worker, adding that trying to go back to being male would be "living a lie" for me.

So why is that a big deal? The co-worker in question is a high-functioning autistic person and pretty much incapable of lying, so that's her true opinion, not because she wants to make me feel good or anything.

Nice to get that kind of recognition, you know?

Meet the latest sensational androgynous model, 20-year-old Stav Strashko.

Japanese tastes in fashion and popular culture are often described as... strange, but it makes things like this ad possible. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zVwJrAr7GkY&feature=player_em...

Yes, that's an official Toyota ad. Like, from shown on television. The tagline on screen translates to, "Not in trend, not casual, not for everyone.” Fun, no? Also, no one in Japan is trying to burn down Toyota's factories over this. Can you imagine this ad in the U.S.? LOL

For those of you that don't know, Bill has been in the hospital for 7 days now... I won't go into what got us there, but he has a UTI, a pretty bad one, and he should be going from hospital to Nursing Home, and from there to another Long Term Nursing Facility...

I don't get out of the house much... In the last several months, I've only been able to go about 2.5 blocks from the house, due to the fact that I'm Bill's 24/7 caregiver when Bill is at home, and we don't have a working car.

Hey all Jenn here. Well I have been away for awhile, most of the time I access the BCTS site through a smart mobile device. It has more privacy than a computer and I can control who has access to my data. Smart phones have come a long way and other than a 4.3 inch screen I can do most of my mobile computing on one but they do go wonky occasionally. This is what happened to my last device so for awhile now I have been only able to read stories and post short comments with an older device I had until my new one came in. I am now back on the air and will be posting and messaging again whoop!

Is this the same Bob Arnold?

Sandstorm.rtf

A Sandstorm and Calico Adventure:
The Beginning By Bob Arnold
Copyright 2004 by Robert Arnold — All Rights reserved

Thank you for any help.

One of our authors is having a first anniversay about BCTS so lets all say KUDOS & Happy Anniversay to Karin Bishop who in 5 days will be with us for 1 very pleasurable year of reading enjoyment.

Happy Happy Happy Anniversary GIRL -- LOVE RICHIE2

I stumbled across this on 2dives and thought I'd share it.

http://2dives.com/transgender-models/?ref=nf

I recently posted a story I had written a couple of years ago. I've been writing part two (probably of three) and am wondering if there are a couple of people who might be willing to give what I've written a read and offer suggestions/comments. I'm not completely done, but I imagine it will be done tonight or tomorrow (part two, that is).

It's current'y about 6300 words, and needs a few more pages to finish up, if that matters.

Anyway, I thought I would put the word out now so that I'll have the addresses once I'm ready to get some feedback, in case there is interest.

Thanks!

50,000 Words

Well I took a look at my current word count on the third story in the Ragnarok Rising Trilogy 'Destiny' today and I realized something. I have over 50,000 words which makes it my longest tg story yet. Hunger pangs is somewhere around, 38,000 words, Incompatible is around 27,000 words and the revised version of Transfigured is about 16,000 words.

after a busy summer of fun, I'm starting to get back to writing. This is hard after an eight month absense.

I am reworking/rewriting Princess and the Jock. I'm going to try something new with it since a majority of you hated what I was doing with it last time. of course you may not like it this time either, we'll see.

It may be a while before I post any of it because I want to get at least a dozen chapters written before I begin posting.

Just wanted you all to know that I haven't forgotten the Saga of Erika. ; )

A.A.

I feel like I'm slowly getting stronger again, and its a good thing. I might need the extra energy the next two weeks as I'm going to a new store to help get it set up. Being with strange people, wondering how well I'm passing, trying to work in an unfamiliar store - it could be very interesting ....

I found an interesting article about a father who started wearing skirts and dresses to support his son's desire to wear them.

http://mrsexsmith.tumblr.com/post/30250284539/swingset-my-ri...

Now if that father isn't great to be secure enough in his own masculinity to do this, I don't know who is.

grtz & hugs,

Sarah xxx

ps: but all in all, I do hope my father won't start wearing dresses to support me :p Everyone would think he's pregnant! At his age! :o

Well, one thing has come out of the massive number of flashbacks I'd been dealing with the last couple of days - a recovered memory of some of what happened.

But now, the big question, what the heck do I do with this piece of information?

And where do I go from here?

I know several who are in this situation.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/08/24/transgender-veteran...

Please write your congress critter.

It seems that my telepathic speech marks meant something else to the html of the blog and it neatly erased most of the speech, so it was unintelligible.

Sorry, I shall try to correct tomorrow

Tanya

Sorry nodded off in the chair and it's too late now. I also have a visitor and will be out tomorrow evening listening to a concert by the Cologne chamber philhamonia. No, I'm not off to Germany, they're coming here to Dorchester.

I'm off to bed, normal service will be resumed when I wake up, I hope (yawns).

Alas Neil will be taking no more small steps anywhere. He died earlier today at the age of 82, apparently from complications following heart surgery three weeks ago.

Source: NBC News.

Obituary (BBC News)

Maybe someone could be friendly enough to bring and old foagie up to date? Last I heard Wonder Woman was going to be coming out as a lesbian. Also that the original Flash was also going to be coming out as gay.

I just read in my Entertainment Weekly that Superman and Wonder Woman are going to be the new power couple. So I take it the lesbian stuff just got tossed?? What happens with Lois?

Any enlightenment would be appreciated..

Thanks

Frank

{{Huggles}}

For some reason, I'm on a "hair trigger" in terms of flashbacks at the moment, dropping into shaky moments at the drop of a hat, often without any trigger that I know about.
Pray for me, please.

I started my 'career' here with a story about a painfully shy transwoman finding love and life in a festival at Shrewsbury. She was engaged there, took her friends there, saw their own love break out from fear and misunderstanding...and it is this weekend.

There is a leave ban on. I have just finished work, and I was refused time off for the one shift I needed. The train companies also had a bike ban on, which they dropped on August 17th. I should be there, but I can't be. Next year....

[hint to self: shorter skirt next year. Wet grass...]

The latest chapter of Transitioning Home is intense, especially the end. It is shocking and a slap in the face and hurts. And is the kind of fucked up situation that someone could find themselves in during battle. This story does not deal with only the PTSD aspects of Thomas' life but they are a part of his story. Any vet who has done time in combat can tell you that. Facing intense situations and screwed up situations changes you in profound ways. That is one of the transitions that Thomas has to deal with. He has to get part of his mind out of the desert and back to the states.

I have tried to write many stories. Some are so terrible, that even after I've written a few pages, I don't even want to save it. I'm a programmer by trade, and I believe my "creative brain" is sometimes completely locked away entirely and my writing reads more like a list of facts. But, some read OK. It's kind of funny, because some times, when I read over something I wrote years earlier, I'm impressed and even wonder if I really could have written it.

The sequel to Whispers in the Mind, Whispers in the Soul has been available for a few days for Kindle readers through Amazon.com

I am aware that my last posted taster may not have been seen by many people, so just wanted to repeat the taster for those who may be interested.

If you are the praying type, I could use one right now. I'm doing okay except one tiny detail - I'm struggling with my faith in God. This little high-wire dance of being both Christian and transgender is taking a toll on me, and I really dont want to fall off ....

Ah, well.

First the updates... the writing on K&K 6 has stalled because of pain. I got a page written today before my shoulder and wrist attacked with a fiery vengeance. So... I am not really getting a lot of progress there. But it is moving.

I forgot to talk about my visit to the doctor's today. My old family doctor had retired, so I saw his replacement. I gave him the Cliff Notes on my situation, and he gave me a total physical. He had a nurse there for dealing with my fiddly bits (partially because I told him about being abused, I suspect, and partially to honour my preferred gender.)

The worst part was getting a rectal exam, which was as horrible an experience as you might expect for someone who has been raped like I was.

The leader of our local support group is looking for poetry to use in our Day Of Remembrance meeting/event. I have seen some very poignant verses written by you, the writers here at Top Shelf. If you wouldn't mind having some of your work used for this purpose, please let me know. NO poems or verses published here will be used without permission by the author of same.

If any of you know of some other works, please link me to them? Of course, none of this is being done for profit, and nothing used will be published in any way whatsoever. It's only for our event.

Thanks all.

For all those who saw the announcement without opening it. The first chapter of Whispers in the Soul is available in the last blog entry.

Tanya

Well, 24,036,165 24,036,376 since 16th June 2005, according to the counter at the bottom of the page...

It doesn't seem very long ago that someone was blogging about 22m... or was that 23,456,789?

Life is stomping all over me this summer(with alpine spikes). Since the death of my Mom in the spring I have tried to set things right and move on with life. That has been delayed due to the pettiness of some Medicaid cretins. they determined in with their rules and procedures to only give Mom partial coverage so that the creditors were left with unpaid sums of money which they feel is due them, probably rightly so, but they have begun court proceedings to get the money from me.

OK, I am doing this out in the open, (1) so I don't have to bug Erin, (2) thinking maybe someone has already had this problem, knowing full well that I am not the sharpest tool in the shed.

So, I went to Lulu and bought Tiffany Shar's, "Bears Know Best" but am stupidly struggling with this stifling download process. I have the Kindle PC program, but don't know what is compatible with what.

I have a PC with Win 7 and when I try to download Apple's reader, it won't go. It says there is an error.

I download stuff all the time from Amazon because they make it easy for dummies.

Yesterday a post was list with a link to a story about a young transgender and what's in a name.
A little fun post of did your parents have a girls name pick out if you where born a girl ? Not to long ago parents didn't know the sex of a baby till they made the grand entrance onto this world.
That being said I would have been ROMA SUE instaed of RICHARD STEVEN ,Don't ask where or how they got ROMA .
Write a responce with the name you would have had if you know it , just for fun
LOVE EVERYBODY -- RICHIE2

I didn't realize that Archie Comics were still around, but they are, and they are all still teenagers.

This episode has all the kids change gender. (In the picture, the cute girl saying, "I still can't choose!" is Archie.)

The artist is one of my favorites - Gisele Lagace.

http://www.eeriecuties.com/strips-ec/archie_636_promo

Just to announce that I have just published a collection of humorous verse and poetry, in my usual genres.

Find it on US Amazon here: Dragons & Stuff!
On UK Amazon here: Dragons& Stuff

AND.......................

Yes, I have finally FINISHED a NEW book!

I sent it off to my editor a few days ago, so, as soon as it returns, I shall be publishing the sequel to Whispers in the Mind, entitled Whispers in the Soul.

I had a sobering dose of reality delivered to me by four of the women in my life today. My, mother, sister and two sister's -in-law pretty much told me I have been fooling myself that I could ever think I could ever be successful as a woman the way I have been going. I went to our family reunion yesterday and today my sister-in-law proceeded to chop whatever self confidence I had left in myself to shreds. She told me that I just "existed" in that room yesterday and my body language showed I didn't care. It seems like I am doomed to failure in the make up department too.

Well, I'm bouncing back from my depression, which is a good thing. Not all sunshine and roses, as my computer is really not working at all, and I'm stuck using the comp at my local library.

But that should change soon, as my friend is sending me a machine and hopefully, I'll be back up and running.

Hugs to all.

should have one of these!

http://www.printedclothing.com/shack/contents/en-uk/p3850_Br...

Yes, we're back up. :)

Hugs,
Erin

If you hadn't noticed, I started posting a new story, but I am having some issues.

Here is my problem. I think the story really should be a stand alone story. I think it would work better that way. The problem is that length has gotten the best of me and I haven't even finished writing the whole thing yet. I think in the end it will be under 30k words, but feel as if that may be too much for one post (I think post should be kept under 10k and usually strive for 5k). Maybe its because I view Big Closet more like a magazine than a library though.

Um so this girl freely admits that she is not the sharpest tool in the shed when it comes to computers. So, this girl's computer is being funny. When posting on some sites, it looks like the ribbon on her typer thingy is running out of ink. Well, this girl does not believe there is such a ribbon in her computer, at least she has never found one. Where would they put such a thing?

This only goes to show you how life is stranger than fiction.

I am retired Air Force, a graduate of OTS, and also was an OTS flight commander and instructor for five years; however, I know that the ordeal at the Air Force Academy is something totally different. I've known a number of Academy graduates over the years; however, it's been 24 years since I retired and have lost contact with any of them. I am familiar with drill and ceremonies, taught it, and some of the other things that go on, but any information would be appreciated.

I posted the script for Chapter one of Wishful Thinking on my DA page, hopefully this will tide people over until I can get Chapter 2 sorted out, I hope to have the next comic page up next week.
here is the link. Spoiler warning.

http://great-sage.deviantart.com/art/Wishful-Thinking-Chapte...

The last couple of days I've really been fighting depression, and I'm not sure why. Yes, my computer is frustrating me, and yes, I'm anxious about what my doctor will say about my chances at surgery, but this seems something beyond either. hope it lifts soon.

those who have read my latest Jaci and Dottie story may notice the appearance of a group of girls, some of whose names were taken from friends here. Its a little thank you for all the support you guys have given me. I hope you liked the story.

I went to see my lawyer this morning, really just to sign the motion for him to get the case dismissed. The state came back this morning with another offer, removing two of the charges against me. I decided to not risk 15 years in prison and instead settle on 6 months probation. The probation doesn't have me attending any classes or effect my life in any way other than to mail in something every month saying that I am alive.