A thought I had several decades ago, and has been reiterated more than once here is the idea of wearing a mask. Nothing physical, just the emotional face you show people under different circumstances. We always have one on. Sometimes they are thinner than other times, but we always wear it. I think couples occasionally drop them, but even then it is rare.
Found this blast of writing rules from the past at Lists of Note
Late-1979, New York Times columnist William Safire compiled a list of "Fumblerules of Grammar" – rules of writing, all of which are humorously self-contradictory – and published them in his popular column, "On Language." Those 36 fumblerules can be seen below, along with another 18 that later featured in Safire's book, Fumblerules: A Lighthearted Guide to Grammar and Good Usage.
This is my first entry. There is a lot about using BCTS I don't know, I will try to learn over time.
Allow me to introduce myself. Over time I will talk about me, then branch out. I will try my hand at fictional writing eventually, I already do a lot of writing of a different nature, text books and electronics. I am in my mid 50's.
Just wanted to say sorry. It might be a while before I have a story ready for you guys, my writing has dropped to a crawl, and I'm not really sure why.
Ok, girls take out a pen and paper and be sure to jot down notes. Test to follow.
So, I spent a delightful morning at the Gyno docs while she taught he how I might get myself out of my pruned up Vagina problem. You see, I have been a bad little girl and stopped dilating about 2 years ago, and now I don't think a rabbit could do me.
I'm sorry y'all, but there won't be a Wild Magic chapter today-I've been working on it, but I have less than a page done. I'm very sorry, and I hope to have the next chapter in the morning.
I'm advertising for a trade-I've tried tying her down, shackeling her ankle, but she seems to like it. Somebody swap Muses with me!
OK, so while OYH's hiatus will continue for a bit longer, a new character has grabbed my attention and wants to be heard.
This character will be a cop from a town called Atlantia, which doesn't exist. Atlantia is a hidden town of magic and superpowers that once you've entered, you cannot leave. It was founded by refugees from Atlantis, whose history according to my story might be a little different to what you're used to.
Well, just got back from getting my car fixed. As we thought, it was a bent rim, so I got off kinda lucky. Still sent me back 300 bucks, so I'm going to have to rein in the budget for a bit. Ah, well.
Recently, while reading the comments on someone's blog post, I notices that somebody was talking about hating the term 'transgender'. I realize that it's used as an umbrella term, but that's how I think of myself. Apparently, it's politically incorrect or insensitive to use that term, though.
Our life experiences give us all sorts of story ideas. It is just amazing.
Tonight I watched, "The Help", and I have no doubts in my mind that if the story is not literally true, it is in substance. Oddly, it took me back to my time with my family, and as I watched it, I realized that I had about the same status in my home as one of "them coloreds", and when they could no longer use me, I was fired. It was a dark, bleak realization but now I feel empowered.
Through the years, I have talked to other T folk who related the same sort of thing to me, it is not an uncommon experience
Well, something good came out of the comment my mom made at breakfast. I got a very supportive comment from my brother when I posted about it on face book, and here it is:
"To become something new the old must pass away. This is not really a bad thing. Those of us who love you, loved you as who you were, as who you are, and as who you will be. From your point of view "The Todd is dead, long live the Dot"."
If you could be any character in a movie, poem, play, song, story, ect who would you be?
My choice would be at least one of the female leads in "You Got Mail," "Sleepless in Seattle," "Robin Hood, Prince of Thieves," Sandra Bullock's characters in "Practical Magic" and "Two Weeks Notice," Minerva Chesterton, Duchess of Wolverstone in Mastered by Love and the Black Cobra Quartet series by Stephanie Laurence.
I HATE it that, when I click on the "Great Story" button, to make room for "Thank you for the kudo" (or whatever it says), everything below drops a line. So, when I try to click on "++Bookmark", I end up clicking on something else.
It seems to me that there is plenty of blank space to the right of the GS button so why does the 'kudo' acknowledgement have to go UNDER it in space that has to be created forcing the blue links out of position?
I am mulling a short story idea over and over in my mind. It would involve a young M2F trans girl and her estranged father (mother is no longer in the picture - not sure why yet). In the story, she (the trans girl) desperately wants him to attend her 'life wedding' but he is 'hung up' on her being a trans person...he can't get past the thought of her once being his son. Continued...
Well, it feels like I passed a milestone, and it was a painful as passing a kidney stone. I went to bed, called my dog to join me, and holding on to her soft fur, I wept freely, and for some reason, kept repeating how sorry I was. Now, I think I'm a little better for it. As odd as it sounds, it feels like I accomplished something important by being able to do this.
Having noticed (and envied) the success of Daughter to Demons, the US SyFy network (available through many cable providers) has brought out a SF/F series named Lost Girl whose protagonist is a Succubus. Copycats...
My original idea was to write a longer piece but I decided that you'd all be bored with it after a few pages, so I stopped where I did.
Female intuition leads me to suspect one or two of you might like a bit more of this, so when I have a few minutes I'll possibly do a second installment but that will be it.
I see we're coming up to sixteen hundred episodes of Bike, do I presume the regulars want me to continue with that as well?
There have been some horrible crimes in Arkansas over the last few days. Domestic violence seems to be exploding and culminated in several murders and suicides, and suicide by police. This is a crime of another nature and the person who committed it is just as sick as any other murderer.
I'm going to be taking a small break from writing her story after this last chapter to start working on another project for the Dark Realms Universe. Chapter 5 in (Un)Life is almost finished and I should have that posted in the next day or two. I say all of this because it will be a while before I actually post anything for this new project of mine, as I'd like to try and finish the story, or get close to finishing at least, before I actually post any of it. (Un)Life has alot of story left in it, and I will be getting back to it once the new one is out of the way.
I started writing a pinkilicious birthday and people are probably wondering where the next chapter is. It is coming, but this is a much slower write than my previous stuff. One of the main reasons is though it is a fluffy piece, with a little more introspection than it's prequel, it is extremely painful for me to write and I really wasn't expecting that.
I've kinda reached a place where I'm being forced to choose between moving forward and risking what I've already accomplished. See, the next steps are kinda tricky - I have to somehow navigate the ex, change my name, and then I'll be as close as I think I can come as surgery is not likely. But the risks are high too, I flop it with the ex and I worry I'll be tempted to just go back into the closet until I die. I think that's why I've been delaying putting my name change in high gear, much less confront the ex. But standing still isnt much of a option, at least not for long. Ah, well.
Due to a couple of comments left for my 'To Make A Wish' story I've been unable to add any more to it as they have given me writers block :(
Part of me thinks the person leaving the comments just didn't understand or follow the story very well, but then another part started to wonder if maybe they were right and I'm just not very good at telling it, so since then I've been unable to add any more to the story, and can't see me ever being able to in the near future either, as every time I try to add to it, I just start second guessing myself and have to give up.
Today I visited the "officially sanctioned vampires".
I had an appointment with the endocrinologist to find out if there are any medical influences to my transsexuality.
They took only about eight or nine vials of blood to analyze my current hormone status and look for potential chromosomal irregularities.
Now I have to wait a few days for some numbers ;)
Realistically I expect unremarkable values inside the normal range, but surprises are possible.
After that I will start to think about the next steps. (or rather plan the next steps I'm thinking about for years...)
Sometime between 11a.m. and noon, PST, this morning, we hit 20,000,000 visitors on the site counter. Since that only goes back to June 15, 2005, we really had probably a million visitors in the six years before that. At the current rate of visitors coming to the site, we'll hit another 20 million in about three years. :)
I know there are some sports fans and golf fans out there. If you are relatively new to this site, you might want to read Bobbie and the Glass Ceiling. The story belongs to the Cynthia Chronicles series and has many of the characters that were recently featured in Charli and the Girl Cave. The story takes place in a famous golf venue. In spite of what many may think, golf is not a good walk ruined.
I cant decide how to start this
points are
waking up on a wooden boat/at sea
the sound of wave
the motion of the boat
the smell of the sea
on a cot btw
my tries
I awoke to the sound of waves and the sensation of rising and falling
Still half-asleep I was startled awake
I can't believe that I can't get my butt in gear to write anymore...
I hate to do this, but I think I will post what I have, then post scenes as I get them in my head. I think it would likely make people happier than me not posting anything for such long periods of time.
Stand by for short posts Chapter 28.1, ETA... a few minutes from now.
Towards the end of the movie “The Graduate”, Benjamin (played by Dustin Hoffman) frantically rushes to save Elaine (Katherine Ross) from marrying. He drives to San Francisco and across the San Francisco-Oakland Bay Bridge to Berkeley, where the wedding ceremony is taking place. Simon & Garfunkel merrily sing in the background as there’s a spectacular shot of Benjamin’s car driving in the sunlight over the bridge crossing the sparkling waters of San Francisco Bay–
I just had the same extremely vivid and long dream twice in a row, if i have it tomorrow night i think im going to believe in past lives and reincarnation.
by the way writing it up as I type this.
I noticed the hit count for visitors is over 19,793,000. Wasn't just yesterday that we (I think I'm allowed to say 'we') hit 10,000,000. What a great job done by Erin and the others who know how to make this refuge so nice.
After a year of deep intense therapy, psychotrophic drug adjustments I am finally beginning to settle in. I had two stories I wrote under an assumed alias now under my name and a friend who is searching their archives for a story we penned together.
I am not out of the woods yet, I've learned that people who have any sort of vascular surgery tend to get depressed often.
I am awaiting vascular surgery on my left leg some time this year and if it was like the surgery on my right leg I am going to have three to four months where my memory is going to be vaguee.
I have a feeling that yesterday's sense of being fragile was in fact a bit of a mood swing caused by my hormones. I guess I've still got a bit to learn on womanhood, giggle.
I'm quite sorry, but I am feeling a bit off, but please no cause for alarm. I promise not to do anything I shouldn't OK? I just need to emote a little here. If I do not feel better by Monday, I will seek to get back under care again.
The black dog -- a *huge* Black Dog -- that took up residence a few years ago is shrinking a bit. The critter's not gone, but things are less overwhelming.
My writing time is limited, for now. I'm working ~12 hour days at a job involving flight safety ( a.k.a. BAD THINGS can happen if it isn't right.)
for the amazing job they have done in updating our home away from home on the internet. Words alone cannot express MY appreciation for all they do and all they have done to make this the PREMIERE TG Fiction site on the net, but words are all I have so,
BRAVA, BRAVA, BRAVA!
For they are jolly good ladies, for they are jolly good ladies. For they are jolly good laaaadieeees... which NOBODY can deny!
My partner's done with her interviews in Manila, and she passed three of her four interviews. So I guess we are pushing through with it. She visited her family, and is having a wonderful time. Turns put that she didn't need to check in at the hotel she had reserved a room in. But the biggest, most important thing, is that she's coming home tomorrow. Yayyyy! I'm excited!
I just wanted to take a second, and wish a Happy anniversary to my friend and fellow believer, The Rev. Anam Chara, who passed the two year mark here while the site was down. I'm so glad you came to this place, and I wish you many, many more years of bringing us your particular take on things.
Hello every body.
In several stories, there is a mention of a procedure to pass as a woman before having the go to have THE surgery.
It goes something like this:
-1- Testicles back up into abdomen.
-2- Empty scrotal sacks pulled around penis to simulate labial lips.
-3- Penis straight back.
-4- Surgical glue holding the penis against the perineum.
Is there any reality to it?
Is there any name for it?
Any way to search it on the web without so many other stuff that are no related in any way ?
I’ve never really done this blogging thing before but I guess I’ll give it a go. First of all my penname is Ramona Flowers (taken from Scott Pilgrim, yes). I have been writing TG for about two years now so I’ve decided to branch out and post on other TG sites. I’m nineteen. I’m from Ireland, I live in Dublin and I have been there for about two years.
I just had a weeks holiday in sunny Spain ,average temp 20o,luverly jubbly as England is 10o.I took my kindle ready loaded with two Tanya Allans and one Susanne Brown,and when we were not sightseeing or marketing I had a thoroughly good read and lost myself in London and Penmarris.Many thanks to the two authors for some good reading.
Well, I had a couple of nice moments over the last couple of days. First, My mom and I were talking about an aunt who wants to change her name, and mom groused about it feeling like she was talking about a stranger. I said that it was about respecting her choice, just like calling me "Dorothy" is. She said, "But Dorothy suits you."
what wither everything that is happening in my life at this moment, it is with great pleasure that I can announce that i am now in print..the real, paper stuff!
I have eight (so far) titles available. Find them here: feedaread.com
More soon, until I have all twenty five titles available. Then I can start the next round of new stuff!
A few weeks back I went to look over a site named Vicki Irene's. I'm sure many of you have checked it over. She had posted that she never asked for help paying for the site, but stated she was open to any donations someone wanted to give. The site name expired and she apparently never re-newed it. It has been gone for many weeks now. We lost the old geocities sites....many are on reo-cities I guess. Haven't checked yet. Today I went to open Sapphire's site, and the name has expired there also.
Because of my stroke and heart issues I had visit my Endocronologist again 5 days ago, I've been told to stop my HRT for 6 weeks during this time I also have to quit smoking (no lectures please, I'm well versed in the evils of smoking and it means nothing to an addict)
I've procured some help to quit so hopefully next week I will be smoke free. After 6 weeks and so long as I've quit my Endo will put me on a new gel based HRT that will supposedly cut my risk of clotting due to HRT, still no date for the heart procedure though.
I was reading my AARP newspaper (organization for retired people)and found a article about the opening of a LGBT center in NYC that will help with the following, Caregiving-Financial Planning-Employment Assistance-accessing Healthcare and for those that have HIV. The center will serve about 300 people, now if other cities would do the same thing what a beautiful world it would be.
That's not a sports score, that's how much my testosterone has dropped in the last 3 months. With them doubling my dosage of estrogen, they hope to bring that number down to 2 by my next check up in March.
I am nearly done with the next bit of writing. I am about halfway done with a new Journey chapter, getting close to finished with Tea with a Serpent and am doing a good bit of editing. I am kind of sad that no other stories are firing at the moment, but that is okay. I'll get to them. I am looking forward to ending 300 Rains and a few other stories.
I was digging through old notes on the computer to find something I had plotted for Through the years and I came across the first draft of the story I had made. I had changed from that when I decided to go back and start with Troy as a kid. Slowly the story you all know today moved away from the original plot I had. So I was wondering how many of you would like to see the what could have been.
First I wish to introduce my self my name is Hanna and I just found it with in my self to post one of my stories.
I do try but writing the english language has never gone well and I do blame the nun but in reality is the english fairy and I are at odds with each other and i do need an editor. I hate to ask but I have to put these stories out there there are to many in my mind that I need to shire.
Love and Hugs Hanna
PS I love anime and so I am not complaining but i was wondering why all the art has gone that way, just wondering.
Today I have been a member of Big Closet Top Shelf for exactley 3 Years and 1 day.
I want to thank Erin and her staff and everyone else who helps out for their time, hard work and sacrifice which makes this place possible.
Erin, if any of my blogs or comments have caused you heartache or grief, which I am sure some have, I appologize. I will also appologize in advance for the ones I am sure to post during the next year. I will try harder, but sometimes it just does not work
;-).
So after reading and commenting on DAW's alias blog it got me thinking. It has been a few years sence I started using Shadowstarr85 and Im almost completly diffrent person.So Ive decided to change my username. Being a unabashed DnD geek I am still using a former character's name
Well, I was going to work last night from the trans group Christmas dinner when a massive snow storm hit. I thought I was doing pretty well when disaster hit - the car in front of me span out of control, ending up sideways across two lanes of traffic. At this point I felt like I had three options: I could aim for the concrete barrier to the right of me, the raised island to the left of me, or I could just hit the breaks and hope. I touched the breaks, knew I was going to slide, and so aimed for the island.
Hi all, just discovered that it's two weeks or so since I checked comments and stuff. Very sorry about the comments I missed and I hope IO hav enow esponded to everyone.
I have been distratced and not writing much, plus having about of the dreaded writers block. I think I am just about out of it now so hopefully I will post chapter 13 soon. Thanks to everyone who has queried about the story and also about me. Veyr much appreciated, and sorry I have such a tendancy to be an insular so and so. will try to do better.
My housemate is abroad for a couple of weeks. She left early Wednesday morning for some interviews. From our last Skype conversation, she said she finished two of them, and she has one more on Monday, and another Tuesday. Tuesday afternoon, she's flying to her little hometown in Kyoto Japan for a long-scheduled visit. And she'll be back Saturday evening. Which is the problem.
Let’s keep the movement towards equality in New York State moving forward. I agree that GENDA should be the next unifying social priority in New York State. Please join us with Joanna Solmonsohn, the Long Island Program Organizer at the Empire State Pride Agenda. Joanna leads the Pride Agenda’s community campaign for LGBT equality and justice on Long Island.
I'm curious what some of the usernames around here mean. I've seen a number of interesting aliases and wondered at the significance of them. A good portion of them I sure are just made up names which have no real meaning, but not all. So what is the significance of your username?
Why am I asking this? Well it's spurred by people's own curiosity over my own username. I've already been asked about it a number of times and I was asked again today.
I mean, I'm not complaining because I have several stories that just sort of remain unfinished, and I think people like that are bloody awful. So, I resolve not to do that any more.
Anyhow, I was wondering what happened to Ice Tiger and the story called Anari something...can't exactly remember who the authors are, so I just can't bug them directily. There is another one about people being on a slave ship and escaping...
I don't recall much about the story, but the title page had a picture of a young child either falling into a puddle or already in it. I think the story was about the boy,getting wet, putting on clothes that belong to a friend of his
I there's problems between his parents, but I could be mixing to stories there.
That was what my supervisor said to me last night about my performance lately. Pretty good for someone who was scared of getting fired not so long ago...
Two of them, actually. The first one is fairly recent. Guy turns into a girl, and because mom made him play dolls with his little sister, (s)he has an addiction to pink.
Second one is much older. Guy tells best friend he is going to a different college than the two of them had planned, and the friend gets all upset and feels betrayed. Second part is from an outside viewpoint, and it seems everybody else thinks he is actually a girl. One calls his pack a "hobo bag" which is a style of purse. Oh, first guy is a transfer student, small build, long hair, kinda fem-looking face.
I was incredibly stoked to read that Diana (Moongoddess) had come out to some people at her bingo hall. Of course now our bar of expectations for her goes up and I expect any day to read that she's going to the hall enfemme and getting called "Di" wherever she goes.... (just kidding hon, take your time, do it at a pace you can handle.) Anyway, after reading that I hoped it could be the start of a trend where some of our closeted authors make the choice to come out. Lets make 2012 the Year We All Stopped Hiding!
I am about to re-release God Bless the Child as a real live book and i thought we could have a little fun while waiting for the new cover artwork to be done (by a real artist).
Here is the contest.
Write the synopsis for the back cover.
That's fairly simple I think. You can post it here or send it to me in a PM.
Prize:
$25 (U.S.) and an autograph copy of the book (yes i am vain, the song is about me).
Hopefully this also drums up some interest for what I think is a wonderful story with TG elements.
Now that singer Katy Perry is single, here are three reasons why she should date me:
1: Unlike her ex, I would have NO problem with the fact she's more famous than I am.
2: Her parents are trying to set her up with Tim Tebow. Well, unlike him, I'm not given to dropping to my knees in prayer in public. I'm a Christian, but I think that might get annoying for anyone around him after a while...
3: Since I'm trans, we could make her song "I kissed a girl" come to life, and what could be cooler than that?
Well, this year i set it in my head that i was gonna fully transition, it being 2012 and all, i sorta figured if the world did end and i didn't get going, i would be very cranky in heaven.
That being said, i came out to six people at the !bingo hall! where i volunteer, so eep.
I told the charity managers on two of the four charities i volunteer with, one co-worker, one of the Hall managers, a runner i trust and think is wonderful and one patron who is a post op T girl... so either my trust is well placed or... things will get, shall we say, sticky... also, eep.
I hope i wasn't stupid,
My stars and garters, I never ever thought that I would be writing a blog like this one!
So, um... I never ever thought that I'd ever use my little hot dog wrapper, so I have been really lax about dilating and last month noticed that it has narrowed to far less than the size of a hot dog. When I got it, the thing would take a polish sausage, but due to my own negligence, well you know.
I wanted to thank everyone who responded to my request for a GG lesbian willing to talk about sexual attraction. Everything I learned re-assured me that there isnt any significant difference between how they feel and how I do. That's a relief, because I was worried about it.
Girl Scout Launches Cookie Boycott Campaign After Organization's Inclusion Of Transgender Child
Saw this article which maybe of interest here. It was a link from an article regarding the start of Girl Scout Cookie sales season. Anyone selling Thin Mints ;-0?
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