I'm going to be taking a small break from writing her story after this last chapter to start working on another project for the Dark Realms Universe. Chapter 5 in (Un)Life is almost finished and I should have that posted in the next day or two. I say all of this because it will be a while before I actually post anything for this new project of mine, as I'd like to try and finish the story, or get close to finishing at least, before I actually post any of it. (Un)Life has alot of story left in it, and I will be getting back to it once the new one is out of the way.
I started writing a pinkilicious birthday and people are probably wondering where the next chapter is. It is coming, but this is a much slower write than my previous stuff. One of the main reasons is though it is a fluffy piece, with a little more introspection than it's prequel, it is extremely painful for me to write and I really wasn't expecting that.
I've kinda reached a place where I'm being forced to choose between moving forward and risking what I've already accomplished. See, the next steps are kinda tricky - I have to somehow navigate the ex, change my name, and then I'll be as close as I think I can come as surgery is not likely. But the risks are high too, I flop it with the ex and I worry I'll be tempted to just go back into the closet until I die. I think that's why I've been delaying putting my name change in high gear, much less confront the ex. But standing still isnt much of a option, at least not for long. Ah, well.
Due to a couple of comments left for my 'To Make A Wish' story I've been unable to add any more to it as they have given me writers block :(
Part of me thinks the person leaving the comments just didn't understand or follow the story very well, but then another part started to wonder if maybe they were right and I'm just not very good at telling it, so since then I've been unable to add any more to the story, and can't see me ever being able to in the near future either, as every time I try to add to it, I just start second guessing myself and have to give up.
Today I visited the "officially sanctioned vampires".
I had an appointment with the endocrinologist to find out if there are any medical influences to my transsexuality.
They took only about eight or nine vials of blood to analyze my current hormone status and look for potential chromosomal irregularities.
Now I have to wait a few days for some numbers ;)
Realistically I expect unremarkable values inside the normal range, but surprises are possible.
After that I will start to think about the next steps. (or rather plan the next steps I'm thinking about for years...)
Sometime between 11a.m. and noon, PST, this morning, we hit 20,000,000 visitors on the site counter. Since that only goes back to June 15, 2005, we really had probably a million visitors in the six years before that. At the current rate of visitors coming to the site, we'll hit another 20 million in about three years. :)
I know there are some sports fans and golf fans out there. If you are relatively new to this site, you might want to read Bobbie and the Glass Ceiling. The story belongs to the Cynthia Chronicles series and has many of the characters that were recently featured in Charli and the Girl Cave. The story takes place in a famous golf venue. In spite of what many may think, golf is not a good walk ruined.
I cant decide how to start this
points are
waking up on a wooden boat/at sea
the sound of wave
the motion of the boat
the smell of the sea
on a cot btw
my tries
I awoke to the sound of waves and the sensation of rising and falling
Still half-asleep I was startled awake
I can't believe that I can't get my butt in gear to write anymore...
I hate to do this, but I think I will post what I have, then post scenes as I get them in my head. I think it would likely make people happier than me not posting anything for such long periods of time.
Stand by for short posts Chapter 28.1, ETA... a few minutes from now.
Towards the end of the movie “The Graduate”, Benjamin (played by Dustin Hoffman) frantically rushes to save Elaine (Katherine Ross) from marrying. He drives to San Francisco and across the San Francisco-Oakland Bay Bridge to Berkeley, where the wedding ceremony is taking place. Simon & Garfunkel merrily sing in the background as there’s a spectacular shot of Benjamin’s car driving in the sunlight over the bridge crossing the sparkling waters of San Francisco Bay–
I just had the same extremely vivid and long dream twice in a row, if i have it tomorrow night i think im going to believe in past lives and reincarnation.
by the way writing it up as I type this.
I noticed the hit count for visitors is over 19,793,000. Wasn't just yesterday that we (I think I'm allowed to say 'we') hit 10,000,000. What a great job done by Erin and the others who know how to make this refuge so nice.
After a year of deep intense therapy, psychotrophic drug adjustments I am finally beginning to settle in. I had two stories I wrote under an assumed alias now under my name and a friend who is searching their archives for a story we penned together.
I am not out of the woods yet, I've learned that people who have any sort of vascular surgery tend to get depressed often.
I am awaiting vascular surgery on my left leg some time this year and if it was like the surgery on my right leg I am going to have three to four months where my memory is going to be vaguee.
I have a feeling that yesterday's sense of being fragile was in fact a bit of a mood swing caused by my hormones. I guess I've still got a bit to learn on womanhood, giggle.
I'm quite sorry, but I am feeling a bit off, but please no cause for alarm. I promise not to do anything I shouldn't OK? I just need to emote a little here. If I do not feel better by Monday, I will seek to get back under care again.
The black dog -- a *huge* Black Dog -- that took up residence a few years ago is shrinking a bit. The critter's not gone, but things are less overwhelming.
My writing time is limited, for now. I'm working ~12 hour days at a job involving flight safety ( a.k.a. BAD THINGS can happen if it isn't right.)
for the amazing job they have done in updating our home away from home on the internet. Words alone cannot express MY appreciation for all they do and all they have done to make this the PREMIERE TG Fiction site on the net, but words are all I have so,
BRAVA, BRAVA, BRAVA!
For they are jolly good ladies, for they are jolly good ladies. For they are jolly good laaaadieeees... which NOBODY can deny!
My partner's done with her interviews in Manila, and she passed three of her four interviews. So I guess we are pushing through with it. She visited her family, and is having a wonderful time. Turns put that she didn't need to check in at the hotel she had reserved a room in. But the biggest, most important thing, is that she's coming home tomorrow. Yayyyy! I'm excited!
I just wanted to take a second, and wish a Happy anniversary to my friend and fellow believer, The Rev. Anam Chara, who passed the two year mark here while the site was down. I'm so glad you came to this place, and I wish you many, many more years of bringing us your particular take on things.
Hello every body.
In several stories, there is a mention of a procedure to pass as a woman before having the go to have THE surgery.
It goes something like this:
-1- Testicles back up into abdomen.
-2- Empty scrotal sacks pulled around penis to simulate labial lips.
-3- Penis straight back.
-4- Surgical glue holding the penis against the perineum.
Is there any reality to it?
Is there any name for it?
Any way to search it on the web without so many other stuff that are no related in any way ?
I’ve never really done this blogging thing before but I guess I’ll give it a go. First of all my penname is Ramona Flowers (taken from Scott Pilgrim, yes). I have been writing TG for about two years now so I’ve decided to branch out and post on other TG sites. I’m nineteen. I’m from Ireland, I live in Dublin and I have been there for about two years.
I just had a weeks holiday in sunny Spain ,average temp 20o,luverly jubbly as England is 10o.I took my kindle ready loaded with two Tanya Allans and one Susanne Brown,and when we were not sightseeing or marketing I had a thoroughly good read and lost myself in London and Penmarris.Many thanks to the two authors for some good reading.
Well, I had a couple of nice moments over the last couple of days. First, My mom and I were talking about an aunt who wants to change her name, and mom groused about it feeling like she was talking about a stranger. I said that it was about respecting her choice, just like calling me "Dorothy" is. She said, "But Dorothy suits you."
what wither everything that is happening in my life at this moment, it is with great pleasure that I can announce that i am now in print..the real, paper stuff!
I have eight (so far) titles available. Find them here: feedaread.com
More soon, until I have all twenty five titles available. Then I can start the next round of new stuff!
A few weeks back I went to look over a site named Vicki Irene's. I'm sure many of you have checked it over. She had posted that she never asked for help paying for the site, but stated she was open to any donations someone wanted to give. The site name expired and she apparently never re-newed it. It has been gone for many weeks now. We lost the old geocities sites....many are on reo-cities I guess. Haven't checked yet. Today I went to open Sapphire's site, and the name has expired there also.
Because of my stroke and heart issues I had visit my Endocronologist again 5 days ago, I've been told to stop my HRT for 6 weeks during this time I also have to quit smoking (no lectures please, I'm well versed in the evils of smoking and it means nothing to an addict)
I've procured some help to quit so hopefully next week I will be smoke free. After 6 weeks and so long as I've quit my Endo will put me on a new gel based HRT that will supposedly cut my risk of clotting due to HRT, still no date for the heart procedure though.
I was reading my AARP newspaper (organization for retired people)and found a article about the opening of a LGBT center in NYC that will help with the following, Caregiving-Financial Planning-Employment Assistance-accessing Healthcare and for those that have HIV. The center will serve about 300 people, now if other cities would do the same thing what a beautiful world it would be.
That's not a sports score, that's how much my testosterone has dropped in the last 3 months. With them doubling my dosage of estrogen, they hope to bring that number down to 2 by my next check up in March.
I am nearly done with the next bit of writing. I am about halfway done with a new Journey chapter, getting close to finished with Tea with a Serpent and am doing a good bit of editing. I am kind of sad that no other stories are firing at the moment, but that is okay. I'll get to them. I am looking forward to ending 300 Rains and a few other stories.
I was digging through old notes on the computer to find something I had plotted for Through the years and I came across the first draft of the story I had made. I had changed from that when I decided to go back and start with Troy as a kid. Slowly the story you all know today moved away from the original plot I had. So I was wondering how many of you would like to see the what could have been.
First I wish to introduce my self my name is Hanna and I just found it with in my self to post one of my stories.
I do try but writing the english language has never gone well and I do blame the nun but in reality is the english fairy and I are at odds with each other and i do need an editor. I hate to ask but I have to put these stories out there there are to many in my mind that I need to shire.
Love and Hugs Hanna
PS I love anime and so I am not complaining but i was wondering why all the art has gone that way, just wondering.
Today I have been a member of Big Closet Top Shelf for exactley 3 Years and 1 day.
I want to thank Erin and her staff and everyone else who helps out for their time, hard work and sacrifice which makes this place possible.
Erin, if any of my blogs or comments have caused you heartache or grief, which I am sure some have, I appologize. I will also appologize in advance for the ones I am sure to post during the next year. I will try harder, but sometimes it just does not work
;-).
So after reading and commenting on DAW's alias blog it got me thinking. It has been a few years sence I started using Shadowstarr85 and Im almost completly diffrent person.So Ive decided to change my username. Being a unabashed DnD geek I am still using a former character's name
Well, I was going to work last night from the trans group Christmas dinner when a massive snow storm hit. I thought I was doing pretty well when disaster hit - the car in front of me span out of control, ending up sideways across two lanes of traffic. At this point I felt like I had three options: I could aim for the concrete barrier to the right of me, the raised island to the left of me, or I could just hit the breaks and hope. I touched the breaks, knew I was going to slide, and so aimed for the island.
Hi all, just discovered that it's two weeks or so since I checked comments and stuff. Very sorry about the comments I missed and I hope IO hav enow esponded to everyone.
I have been distratced and not writing much, plus having about of the dreaded writers block. I think I am just about out of it now so hopefully I will post chapter 13 soon. Thanks to everyone who has queried about the story and also about me. Veyr much appreciated, and sorry I have such a tendancy to be an insular so and so. will try to do better.
My housemate is abroad for a couple of weeks. She left early Wednesday morning for some interviews. From our last Skype conversation, she said she finished two of them, and she has one more on Monday, and another Tuesday. Tuesday afternoon, she's flying to her little hometown in Kyoto Japan for a long-scheduled visit. And she'll be back Saturday evening. Which is the problem.
Let’s keep the movement towards equality in New York State moving forward. I agree that GENDA should be the next unifying social priority in New York State. Please join us with Joanna Solmonsohn, the Long Island Program Organizer at the Empire State Pride Agenda. Joanna leads the Pride Agenda’s community campaign for LGBT equality and justice on Long Island.
I'm curious what some of the usernames around here mean. I've seen a number of interesting aliases and wondered at the significance of them. A good portion of them I sure are just made up names which have no real meaning, but not all. So what is the significance of your username?
Why am I asking this? Well it's spurred by people's own curiosity over my own username. I've already been asked about it a number of times and I was asked again today.
I mean, I'm not complaining because I have several stories that just sort of remain unfinished, and I think people like that are bloody awful. So, I resolve not to do that any more.
Anyhow, I was wondering what happened to Ice Tiger and the story called Anari something...can't exactly remember who the authors are, so I just can't bug them directily. There is another one about people being on a slave ship and escaping...
I don't recall much about the story, but the title page had a picture of a young child either falling into a puddle or already in it. I think the story was about the boy,getting wet, putting on clothes that belong to a friend of his
I there's problems between his parents, but I could be mixing to stories there.
That was what my supervisor said to me last night about my performance lately. Pretty good for someone who was scared of getting fired not so long ago...
Two of them, actually. The first one is fairly recent. Guy turns into a girl, and because mom made him play dolls with his little sister, (s)he has an addiction to pink.
Second one is much older. Guy tells best friend he is going to a different college than the two of them had planned, and the friend gets all upset and feels betrayed. Second part is from an outside viewpoint, and it seems everybody else thinks he is actually a girl. One calls his pack a "hobo bag" which is a style of purse. Oh, first guy is a transfer student, small build, long hair, kinda fem-looking face.
I was incredibly stoked to read that Diana (Moongoddess) had come out to some people at her bingo hall. Of course now our bar of expectations for her goes up and I expect any day to read that she's going to the hall enfemme and getting called "Di" wherever she goes.... (just kidding hon, take your time, do it at a pace you can handle.) Anyway, after reading that I hoped it could be the start of a trend where some of our closeted authors make the choice to come out. Lets make 2012 the Year We All Stopped Hiding!
I am about to re-release God Bless the Child as a real live book and i thought we could have a little fun while waiting for the new cover artwork to be done (by a real artist).
Here is the contest.
Write the synopsis for the back cover.
That's fairly simple I think. You can post it here or send it to me in a PM.
Prize:
$25 (U.S.) and an autograph copy of the book (yes i am vain, the song is about me).
Hopefully this also drums up some interest for what I think is a wonderful story with TG elements.
Now that singer Katy Perry is single, here are three reasons why she should date me:
1: Unlike her ex, I would have NO problem with the fact she's more famous than I am.
2: Her parents are trying to set her up with Tim Tebow. Well, unlike him, I'm not given to dropping to my knees in prayer in public. I'm a Christian, but I think that might get annoying for anyone around him after a while...
3: Since I'm trans, we could make her song "I kissed a girl" come to life, and what could be cooler than that?
Well, this year i set it in my head that i was gonna fully transition, it being 2012 and all, i sorta figured if the world did end and i didn't get going, i would be very cranky in heaven.
That being said, i came out to six people at the !bingo hall! where i volunteer, so eep.
I told the charity managers on two of the four charities i volunteer with, one co-worker, one of the Hall managers, a runner i trust and think is wonderful and one patron who is a post op T girl... so either my trust is well placed or... things will get, shall we say, sticky... also, eep.
I hope i wasn't stupid,
My stars and garters, I never ever thought that I would be writing a blog like this one!
So, um... I never ever thought that I'd ever use my little hot dog wrapper, so I have been really lax about dilating and last month noticed that it has narrowed to far less than the size of a hot dog. When I got it, the thing would take a polish sausage, but due to my own negligence, well you know.
I wanted to thank everyone who responded to my request for a GG lesbian willing to talk about sexual attraction. Everything I learned re-assured me that there isnt any significant difference between how they feel and how I do. That's a relief, because I was worried about it.
Girl Scout Launches Cookie Boycott Campaign After Organization's Inclusion Of Transgender Child
Saw this article which maybe of interest here. It was a link from an article regarding the start of Girl Scout Cookie sales season. Anyone selling Thin Mints ;-0?
Well, I'm in the home stretch with my "quest" story. I think 3 more chapters will do it, maybe somewhere in the 2,000 to 4,000 words to go, I think. If that holds true, it could be ready by mid-February. Of course, I've been wrong before with stories, so you just never know ....
Well, I just got back from the endocrinology doctor, and he has doubled my prescription of estrogen. Maybe now I'll start seeing some results.
As for the letter I'm writing for my ex, I'm still working on it. I really, really need to find to a way to approach this with her. Right now, I'm struggling with finding the right words. Ah, well, it will come.
Damn I really can't believe that it's been 3 years since I decided to make an account here. More strange is the fact that it's going going to be 8 years this weekend since I had my grs ... Doesn't feel that long for me
After all the fuss of the festive season its back to the normal drudgery. Firstly Lulu have got a stunning offer until the end of the month, 25% off! So now's a great chance to get your Gaby calendar or catch up on the books! Click here to go straight there!
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Saw this article, and thought it might be intersting. She seems to be well centered (no pun intended) with her life. I wonder if she wanted to would she be allowed to play in the WNBA (a professional women's basketball league in the U.S.) or would there be some rule preventing her from playing? If she was allowed I wonder what the reaction would be?
To all you wonderful AUTHORS first THANK YOU for taking the time to write and post these GREAT stories. I have a small request - can you please put TBC or FINIS-THE END or let us know the story has ended sometimes you can't tell because you leave it open for a sequel.Karen Bishop has got me spoiled with putting down 1 of ? how ever many chapters the story has . I know that some stories grow as you write them so FINISH would be kind of nice
THANK YOU ALL for the enjoyment I get from reading these FREE stories -- LOVE YOU ALL -- RICHIE2
Well, last night at work I started working on a letter to my ex. Not to send, since she doesnt read well, but as a way to collect my thoughts. I've been getting a little nudge from my conscience about coming clean, and I think it might be time. Only problem is, I have NO idea what I can say to her that she would be able to hear. If I do this wrong, I could wreck my relationship with not only her but my daughter as well. Pray for me, if you would.
I decided to post this, because I remembered some things and am putting this out here so I don't have a breakdown. I just remembered my initial reason when I was younger for not saying anything and now that I'm wiser it was dumb and I'm so mad and frustrated at myself.
Lots of stories here feature school life in the USA. I read this article this morning which describes a school life so alien from my own, very long distant, school days here in the English NE Midlands. It reads so much like some fantastic dystopia that I can't help but feel that it's distorting the reality. I'd be interested in reading comments from our US friends to gain a little perspective.
For the past three nights I've had problems accessing or uploading Bike to the site - it took four goes last night and then I lost connection so couldn't do the continuity link. It seems ironic that because of the numbers of readers, the authors can't actually post stuff. I may have to rethink when I post or browse the site.
This isn't a criticism of the management because it's outside their control, but I do wonder why we're suddenly so popular apart from the genius of the writers and the friendliness of the site owner. I hope there's nothing sinister going on as well.
Here's some of the fun we have in my home country! Our boys make really pretty girls, and there's no making fun of them! They're having fun. No real need to translate.
I'll never look at my teen idols the same again! So cool! And I promise you won't be offended! :)
Had one of my female co-workers come into work with the best excuse for missing time I've heard - She was told by her husband of 10 plus years, a man with whom she has two kids, that he couldn't live with a "incomplete" woman anymore. (She has lost the bottom half of one leg to disease and works with an artificial one.) My immediate gut reaction was "Men suck". Afterward, I chided myself, and remembered I know a number of very good men, and have met some pretty awful women.
Here is my thinking and maybe it will make my arrogance show. But I think God Bless the Child is still a top notch story. As we speak I have a Los Angeles artist making me a new cover so we can reintroduce the book in print. It has been edited by Wren (thank you very much) and I think it shows maybe the most realistic plight of a young trans kid out there.
I thought I might take a chance and hope that Tigger reads this, here. I just re-read one of his stories titled Acting Dominant. It was first posted to the tg fiction list and later at FM, for those that might have missed it. I just wanted to let him know it is an awesome piece of work, and encourage anyone that missed it, to check it out.
There have been a couple of blog entries about BC performance today, and the cause is that the site is busier than ever.
I wonder if there is a correlation between the amount of traffic and that there are currently some authors posting prolific quality work at the moment.
I'm thinking of Cyclist & Angharad; Karin Bishop, Bronwen Welch and Anon Allsop, I'm even being converted to stories of the super natural with the writing of Enemyoffun. All are posting on a very regular basis, weekly or daily, and really well written.
My sister-in-law posted a very nice comment on my Facebook page about my essay, "What is my transition about?", and I want to share it with all of you:
I occasionally find that BC is either very slow to respond or not available at all. For example, last night about 1 am BST I couldn't get on at all and the site timed out. It can be often slow to get to the main page but moving within the site can be reasonably fast. Last night it meant I didn't get my 'Bike' bedtime story :(
I may have mentioned before that my partner had resigned from her job, for family reasons. But as is typical with her, she had it all planned out. Prior to resigning, she had sent out her CV and had lined up some interviews. Moe is going abroad this week for interviews with the ADB, the Thomas Jefferson Cultural Center, the WHO and JICA. Not for any big position, mind you, just a position with their PR or research departments. So she had an appointent at the hairdressers this morning, to get all gussied up for her interviews. I went with her to get a trim, but mostly to keep her company. But as these things always seem to go with her, I got roped into trying something. So guess what?
This is so probably yesterday's news, but has anyone heard about the "comedy" on ABC called 'Work It Out' or something like that about guys crossdressing to work?
Is it just me or is this not a funny concept at all?
Did the pitch meeting go like this?
Smith: "We're running out of ideas, Boss? We were thinking a show about making fun of crossdressers"
Boss: "Great idea, Smith! It's never been done before"
Jones: "Wait a minute, Boss! Aren't we in Hollywood supposed to be on the cutting edge of sensitivity?"
By making me a character in his story, he took what was a tough day for me (I'll tell you guys later why), and turned into the most amazing day I've ever had in my life. I'm having to sit further away from the keyboard to type this so I dont drown the thing in my happy tears....
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