I try to produce good works. I really in truly think I tell a very good story. But something must be lacking and I am wondering what it is. As long as it isn't an attack, I am wondering where people think I come up short in my writing so that I can improve. I have vision of finding an agent and a publisher or at least being mildly successful on my own. My goal is to make $2000 a month so I can live off of (right now I make 400 and I wonder if that would last). I sell about 200 books a month (so by math i would need to sell 1000 a month) on amazon.

here is an interesting article on being trans:

http://www.autostraddle.com/im-a-trans-woman-and-im-not-inte...

Righteo, tomorrow I'm heading off for Hastings for a week (well, heading to Mum's, then on to Hastings on Friday), so it's likely to be a week Saturday before you start seeing my random comments starting to appear on your stories again :(

After several years of living on the cusp, my mother suffered a major stroke Monday and passed away this morning. The next week or so is going to be rough. Service in Dallas followed by burial in SE Missouri. Please keep my family in your thoughts.

As promised, the new book starts here

Sorry all, but I'll be offline for about 3 months. I'll be jotting down things for my stories and I'll have chapter 3 of Summer Girl, chapter 12 of Tarja and the first chapter of my new stories online by the 15th of August. Have a great summer...

A reviewer on another site has just compared episode 1 of 'The Uncertainty Prinicple' to James Joyce.

JAMES JOYCE!!!!!

Well, today I had an awesome day. Queen Ruth (who is a reader here, for those who dont know her) happened to be in town, so we met at the mall talked for a couple of hours, walked around the mall and just before I was to leave, she went and bought me a crucifix.

She really helped me with my anxiety over the surgery too, so that was nice.

This morning I have been more calmly reading about certain diagnosisies, among them PTSD and BPD, because I have both. It is astonishing that while many of us think that it takes Military combat to get PTSD, the actual facts are that one can get it from a bad car accident, or an abusive traumatic childhood.

As far as BPD is concerned, this was a bitter pill to swallow, but it now seems much easier to deal with and I am now recognizing its effect in my life.

Dear Friends

I've become aware of a website that seems to actively be trying to work things out. I went in there with my gun locked and loaded, expecting trouble, assuming the worst. That is not what I have found. I am willing to give them a try and just see what we come up with.

I have decided to behave myself and see what sort of dialogue we can have. So far, I have no objection to their policies, but have only been there a while.

I'd like to see what you think of the website. Please behave and don't make me sorry I published this. :)

Gwen

I am learning more and more about who I really am. It used to be that I used my writing to explore aspects of myself, but that is becoming less of the norm. I am no longer living as Katie vicariously through characters and words on a page and am living real life as the real me.

I do intend to finish "Virginia in Bloom" and "Evolution," but life gets in the way.

I've just finished re-reading Renae's superb partial stories, 'After the Ashes' and 'First Among Fools' and thought I'd try to see if she's on BC these days. They are wonderful stories and I'm REALLY REALLY hoping that she will find the wherewithal to finish them one day!

If you have not read them I highly recommend them to you. I have to warn you that they ARE unfinished at present however and will probably leave you with withdrawal symptoms afterwards. lol

Blossom

First Among Fools

Don't know if they're connected, but I've noticed that the Kudos counts for stories are way down the RH column now, where they used be at the top above the author's story list. Whether this has anything to do with the unremovable Random Solos on the front page I don't know. I did notice one "Random Solo" that popped up on the home page for me earlier was Part 2 of a story, I don't remember which story it was, sorry. So I can't say if the story was classified wrong or if it might be a bug in the feature.

I know a few may be wondering since I haven't been around much lately?

Mom's finally home!!!;D

So I went to my mums for dinner tonight, it being Mother's Day and all. It was myself, mum, her boyfriend, my sister, her boyfriend and my 2yo nephew. We were sitting around the lounge room drinking coffee, and somehow they got onto the topic of teaching Hunter (my nephew) the difference between a boy and a girl, based on general appearance. All this time, I'm sitting there thinking "he's 2, he doesn't give a damn, and that's the way it should be" (I'm an equalist). But then the funniest thing happened, my sister has started going around, asking him what each person is, a boy or a girl.

Thought I'd give you all due warning - a new Gaby book will be published this week! It might be Wednesday or it might be next weekend but sure as eggs are eggs it will be available! There's all the angst, racing and general Gabyness you've come to expect so be prepared!

So look out for Gaby - Wunderkind part 1 coming to a screen near you - soon!

I need help finding an old story. As I remember: there is a mother with a son and daughter. They are rich with a large corporate company. The son is the best mind and talent to take over but the mother of males. Consequently she has the son transformed into a woman. His problem is that she didn't trust enough to ask. There is a young woman that was rescued by the mother and is working and living in the household. The son and woman eventually marry I think in Minn. There are a couple attacks on the home/mansion using ATV's to approach.

Really, we're still testing it. So for now, using the search box will be limited to logged in members. If all goes well, we'll go back to allowing anonymous visitors to use it also and members can use some advanced features.

Category browser in the right column is available also and Google can be used to search the site using Site:BigClosetr.us in the search bar with your question on Google.

Hugs,
Erin

That's how long I've been at this site, according to my profile.

So happy anniversary to me!

I found this while surfing the web tonight.
http://news.yahoo.com/egyptian-man-disguised-woman-harassed-...
Hugs
Grover

Gonna have a new story up shortly. Its.... well, you gonna have to read it, I dont think I want to spoil any surprises ......

I'm trying to get the hang of bitly links and I figure I might as well promote something in the process. This will be my last one, I promise. But, people probably don't know the dress punishment is up for sale anyway and it has absolutely 0 reviews.

Anyway here is my recent facebook post:

... in their "New: Playhouse Presents...." at 9 p.m. UK time, next Thursday, 16th May 2013, Sky Arts 1, there is a 30-minute play about TVs.

Their blurb reads:

I dont know when it started, but I found myself thinking about Kylie while I'm at work. I can picture her face, hear her voice, remember things we've said to each other, and its .... Oh lord, I am in loooooove ....

I was reading our local weekly paper, and noticed a letter to the editor commenting about the picture of the High School Prom King and Queen.

Simple Question.
Is the Blog for us to share opinions on many things as friends or just related to TG topics?

Well, it's May eight again, my birthday. In the past, I used to hide given the outright disasters that used to happen today. My darling, wonderful wife vowed to change that. The last few years has been great if for no other reason that I have someone who cares so much about me to share them with. This year however is different.

If you stop taking Estrogen do your breasts go away?

In case people are wondering I've been working hard for the past bit everyday almost all day. I don't even have the energy to THINK of writing anything let alone actually write anything.

Ever want something, almost crave it and have no idea why?

I just saw the News. Thank God another one caught at last in Cleveland.

This is for my girlfriend.

that this weeks update is somewhat late - i'll put another up on Wednesday along with updating my site.

I am not happy with what happened today, no I am not happy at all. I feel as if I am a fraud or a hypocrite.

With that opening line, maybe some information would be helpful.

Somehow the BCcomputer got it wrong, Twins is an ongoing story to be posted in three parts due to length. The second and third parts deal with the hormone issue and the story is complete. When I recieve the edited parts back from my editor I'll post them.

My editor is doing a wondeful jod and want to thank Di Wonder for all the work she's doing with this story. She's a Brit so it makes the job that much harder for her. Thanks again Di, Arecee

I found this a my FB wall posted by my nieces husband. I wonder what's up with that . I checked & they have some nice stuff

There was a time where I thought I might just have Fred and Angie get out of the Air Force and go back to making wine. We would just follow Matt's career; however, Angie sort of took over. I don't know if the American military will ever accept the transgendered. I suspect it will be many years before they do, and if they do, I'm sure that it will be with great reluctance. If there is an Angie out there, it will take someone like her to prove how foolish the current rules are.

All of the sudden I'm getting a message Checking browser before connecting to BigCloset (or something to that effect) when I come to BC. It just started doing it today and I'm wondering what's up?

New title needed?

Kirri

I saw this article today, and wonder if she is one of us.(What I intended to say was, is she on this site?) The article says that she and her family stayed together. Was it because she was honest and straightforward in sharing with her wife? Perhaps her wife is the most remarkable person we have never met.

My own experience in coming out was like WWIII, and left utterly total destruction in its path. Every single day I have to decide not to take my life, today.

First of all I want to than everyone of my hard core fans for their continued support. I appreciate the PMs pointing out some editing omissions on my part. Editing is painful. I wish Holly was feeling better, and I really need her help. I think I will post the next to the last part later today, and the last part tomorrow or Sunday (which may be tomorrow for some of you). Concluding this on a weekend is better than dragging it into the beginning of next week.

If you tweet or follow twitter, you can find BC news at the @spfn Twitter feed run by Piper. Besides tweeting links to posts and blogs on StoryPortal, it also tweets story posts from BC, automagically several times a day.

Hugs,
Erin

Still haven't seen any improvement, but my cat has shown a lot of spunk. Last night when I opened the door to go for work, she dragged herself outside while I wasn't watching. It is horrendously sad to see. She hasn't went potty for 2 days now, but is at least eating and drinking. I guess the best thing is things haven't gotten worst but I am so scared. I cried over her for an hour. I just don't know what to do and I can't fix it and that makes me feel useless and worthless.

If you're coming to Louisville for the Derby Saturday, Please come a day early and attend "The Oaks" on Friday. It's a wonderful event billed as "Fillies, Lillies and More" to honor breast cancer survivors. Go here for pictures and information: http://www.kentuckyderby.com/kentucky-oaks . All attendees, both women and men, are encouraged to wear pink. Hey, no problem here!

I took my cat Madeline to the vet today. She was such a good cat. I had her in a little pink basket that I put a pillow down in and she just laid there, occasionally rubbing her cheek against me. At first you could tell she was very scared, but she didn't put up any fuss and we waited for 2 hours to see the vet.

John from that unpronounceable place in Wisconsin pointed out a historical error in Part 7 of Soaring With Eagles. I had omitted Theodore Roosevelt and his son as Medal of Honor recipients. That error has now been corrected. Thanks, John.

Does any one remember a multi-part story about a young transwoman w/Grand mother buying and building companies? I cant remember title or author but the companies were mostly paper and box making and she saved jobs. Not much I know but I want to reread it . Thanks, Joani