I understand that my body is changing. I did not ask for it to change, it is happening anyways. My testosterone levels have been dropping for about ten years now (I'll be 57 in 2 months) and that is normal. But since my wife died 7 years ago I have not slept well. I usually get 3-5 hrs of sleep, in the past few months it's more like 3-6 hrs. Rarely do I sleep more than 6 hrs. I recently investigated the causes of low testosterone in men and found that age 40+ the levels decrease, this is natural.

For those of you that don't know of it or just not following it, this is a webcomic "Rain", about a MTF transsexual named Rain. She is trying to juggle her changing life, deal with friends both knowing and unknowing, attempting to live through a sort of RLT; all while attending high school. The page just posted, Rain p383, has a gay friend/sorta boyfriend, Rudy, sum up Rain's reality and why he loves her.