So, I ran into a little bit of an issue, and I may need help resolving it, I checked the website by the way, I didn't see any sort of rules or anything forbidding this, but if I am breaking SOME kind of rule here mods, I'm sorry, I just don't know. If there's a proper way to do this, let me know please.

So my life continues to change. I am far enough in my transition to finally accept what others have told me all along, I'm cute, I'm pretty. I'm no longer self conscious, I have friends and family who accept me. I get correctly gendered as I'm out and about. even in male clothing. I have so much going for me. I'm also however moving back home. Whether this is a good or bad thing I do not know. Money is an issue so I can no longer attempt to live on my own. Dad has agreed. So long as I present myself as "normal". He's the only one who's had a problem so far with me being transgendered.

So I'm not going to go into too much Details with this on specific things. Simply because I tended to keep my nose out of those specific things for this one. This is my disclaimer, there may be reference to violence here but I will keep this as clean as possible.

So alot has happened this past week. I went into a job interview for an entry position Data Entry job. and I walked in to find my cousin who didn't know I was trans* sitting there waiting for her turn at the same job. And she flipped out. after a long awkward interview I left only to find out that I wasn't getting the job. Not only that but either my Dad or my Sister gave her my number, so now the entire family knows it. Along with me being trans*. And have been harrassing me nonstop as I tried to get the numbers blocked. as far as I could tell the family is broken into 3 factions.

Ever have one of those days where you just want to slam your head into the wall? The past few weeks I've been running around trying to find another job since Home Depot fired me over injuring myself in an incident I could not avoid. when the incident happened I informed a manager as soon as I realized something was wrong and 4 days later I was fired. that was nearly a month ago.

Ok so work is running me ragged. More so than they used to. I'm having to fight for every peace of mind I can get in that place and I still end up with the short end of the stick.

So I've finally come to the decision. I don't need my family anymore. So I've disowned them. I'm tired of caring what they thing. I'm tired of hurting. To follow a story recently on the site, Masks, I've determined my male self, Dan, is a mask lined with thorns. a Mask that is so heavy that if I let it sit on me. It hurts so much eventually I will be no more.

Welp. my life is going great again. I've moved out. Moved in with my room mate MJ, and we get along great. I'm living full time as a girl everywhere I go. Dad's not holding me back. and I'm moving forward with my life.
I've decided to pursue my writing degree, and try and study abroad in japan, for an added experience in another language. just to help myself understand other parts of the world a little bit better.

So yeah. my life is getting great. Yay me~

It's amazing how life can turn around. THis past month I've been working on moving out and getting set up for college. My Dad kicking me out pushed that plan into high gear, whether I'm ready for it or not. So I've gotten everything set up, and have my room mate selected. The kicker? The Student housing, instead of treating me as male as on my ID, they accommodate to my wishes and treat me like a woman. Even gave me a female roommate. Not something I expected. but something I'm happy for. I met my roommate at the mall earlier and just basically had fun getting to know her.

So, I've had an interesting week. I guess I should start from the beginning. I was hanging out with friends, and we watched pacific rim. after that we went out and had super nachos which is this big nacho plate. anyways. after that we broke up and it was just me and my friend who we all call Jacob or Jake. So we were driving around, chatting and the conversation shifts to high school and college. Basically, in my junior year, I dropped out got my GED, and lost contact with all my friends for a while. While growing up, I was trying to hide the fact I was transgendered from everyone.

So, here we are again. It's always such a pleasure. Remember when you tried to-

I've been doing one of my famous thinking sessions today, and thought about my mother, how I've been handling her death, and how my family have been handling it. Up till now I've been avoiding thinking about it. It's been painful to think about the memory of watching her take her last breath, or about her in general. I've been avoiding spending time at home as much as possible, as her presence still lingered there long after. My sister comes up to me on a weekly basis and asked me how I was doing, and I've told her I've been avoiding it.

Alright, since I made too many mistakes in my Tail of Two Bloods story, I'm going to revise it to make the chapters longer, and more understanding. I didn't get too many suggestions, or any...really...for my story so I'm going in blind for a second try. ^^; Wish me luck BCTS.

Hey Big Closet. Those of you reading my story, thank you. I've done this a couple of times but, sometimes after posting, someone I know comes to the site and checks out my work, and some of your guys. and more often than not I have to pull the story off the site, make some drastic tweaks to certain chapters that I pull, and re-add it. But thank you again for reading my story. it gives me joy to see you guys enjoying it. ^^

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