Soooo, In an addition to my last blog, good news actually happened. My Therapist sent me an email awhile back that she forwarded from a couple of Transwomen in my area trying to set up a transwomen support group for ages 17-35. I thought I'd give it a try, extend an olive branch so to speak to help get their group off the ground and once again get a support group after Smyrc dropped me for being too old. After a few tries of getting to the group and failing, They invited me to hang out with them. Extending the olive branch back to me. I will admit, I was a bit nervous. My old Paranoia acting up again telling me it will end badly. But the more I talked to them through email, the more I realized, they were actually trying to be friendly. To make up for the times I missed their group because of a mix up.
So in the end, I went. When I finally got there, after getting lost for half an hour, I come to find they were nice, friendly. Even made me feel right at home. They made me feel comfortable. I laughed with them, I chatted with them. It was like we were friends all our lives and just didn't know it. After about 10 minutes we got pizza, one of them bought me soda (yay root beer)and watched arrested developement. all too soon the time came that I had to go. I had to work early the next morning and all the usual stuff. I didn't want to go, but my need to pay for hormones, compelled me to go. that and gas.
Since then we were talking about another night, but one of them owns her own cleaning business and works a lot. But when they're free, I'm definitely joining in again. I've made two new friends, and am happy I took the olive branch of friendship. I know one thing for sure, I can't wait to hang out with them again.
Take care all,
Kitten
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I think the hardest thing for me...
...since realizing how much of Andrea is truly a part of me; things that used to make sense or be important no longer seem so, and the friends and family that accepted me all my life would struggle so much to accept who I am now. All that to say that there are many days when I don't feel I belong or fit it. Your blog certainly brings me joy on your behalf, but also gives me hope that this girl might get there after all. Thank you!
Love, Andrea Lena
I'm glad I could help Andrea.
I'm glad I could help Andrea. Sometimes all you gotta do is extend that Olive branch. You never know who might take it, but those who extend it back to you, make it all worthwhile. I'm finding my niche. My spot where I fit. Taking things one day at a time. I know where I want to go, but the question isn't when I get there, but how. I understand it's hard for your friends and family to accept you for that. My friends are trying. They're helping me where they can. They're making sure I have a shoulder to cry on when I need it. In essence, my friends are my family. and my family is growing.
Keep your head up Andrea, sometimes you might get submerged under water, but you won't drown. Not if you don't want to. Set goals, and realize Goals are constantly moving away from you as you get closer to them. What you might plan for one day, could be a few weeks away from that spot by the time you hit that spot. That doesn't mean the goals are unobtainable, it just means you have to keep an eye on it, and work for it. You'll get there one day. I promise that.
Kitten
Never be afraid to push yourself to new limits. While you might not see the path, you will be amazed at what you can achieve.
Kitten, your blog
maade my day! It is always a joy to hear such wonderful news.
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