Since January I have been taking on a new outlook on life. I've been making amends with family members and people I have wronged. If I have wronged anyone here please accept my sincere apologies at this time. I'm no long the grouchy bitter person I once was I consider myself a happy Israelite.
It all began when I stepped on a scale and my weight equaled he last four digits of my SSN 123.4 per se. only heavier. My blood sugar was higher than my weight and my cholesterol was Higher than my blood sugar.

I got to wondering, the other day, what were the milestones in my transition and, for that matter, what were those of some of you.

The new theory on what a real man would do confronted with a certain dilemma.

http://www.gocomics.com/9chickweedlane/2013/04/10

I took a look at my profile today and as of right now I've been a member for two years and four hours. I'd like to thank everyone for making me feel welcome and most of all Erin, Saphrina, Piper, Cat and the volunteers who help keep this wonderful site running. It's been a pleasure to be a part of this community.

Since the death and resurrection of BC, my stories have received more hits but fewer kudos. I accept the extra hits might be multiples by the same reader through continuing tech problems, but curious as to why my kudos rate is down unless of course fewer readers consider my efforts worthy of kudos button.

Just saw a report online that at 10:48 PM EDT there was a report of an officer shot and a shooter loose on the MIT campus. Why is all I want to know. Why?!?!

For those of you who are wondering... I'm not. Not at the moment.

This is ... interesting for me to post, and a bit difficult. I don't share a lot of my personal life except with those close to me. However, this is a forum that would probably have more information, so I've reluctantly decided to post and ask for answers.

Latest News:

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/04/05/tony-zamazal-transg...

and I quote: "Fictionmania was..." which indicates one of two things to me. One, Fictionmania might be gone forever or, Two: Wiki is being it's usual fallible self and spreading rumor and assumption.

I DO hope it's the latter. Even though FM has it's "one handed fiction" it also has some of the best works by some of the best writers in the genre.

Well, I've done seven, yes SEVEN years here at BC! Whoda thunk? I've penned a few decent stories, read a lot of damned fine ones, and made the odd enemy or a dozen or so. In that same time I've also had open heart surgery as well as a worsening of my Cystic Fibrosis and depression. On the bright side, I've made some wonderful friends, for which I have reason to be extremely grateful. Still got a lot of stuff at least half-finished that I'd love to get wrapped up before I make my final post.

Monday had to be one of the worst days of my life. I live in Boston and attend the Marathon every year to support the runners. This year was special to me as my friend was to run in the race. My friend had called me at 2:20 telling me he just passed mile marker 19 and would call again when he was a mile out.

For anyone interested

A new Gaby chapter is posted here http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/43908/gaby-book-9-chap...

Monday had to be one of the worst days of my life. I live in Boston and attend the Marathon every year to support the runners. This year was special to me as my friend was to run in the race. My friend had called me at 2:20 telling me he just passed mile marker 19 and would call again when he was a mile out.

Everything looks to be running now. I put in a direct link that I know had been corrupted earlier (Fate and the Iron Tiger, part 4), and it came up correctly.

Thanks for all of the hard work!

I do not believe that I've mentioned this here before, but I've been using a series of subliminal programs to help me better myself in several ways...

From about Friday I just can ´t get access to fictionmania.tv.

The site was down for a few hours today while Piper and I fought off some reaper bots. We firewalled their ISPs, all of which were in China, and while we were at it, we firewalled out some spammers, too. Took about four hours of solid work.

The rumors of BCs demise were greatly exaggerated. :)

Hugs,
Erin

I'm free! I moved into my new place today. Just got a new apartment 30 minutes from where I had been living. It's so great. It's also very empty since I do not have much. But screw that. I'm free. I do not have to hide all my femine things anymore. I love it. It's also only 5 minutes from my job. I'll save a fotune in gas.

After moving all my stuff up 2 flights of stairs, Food and housewears shopping, moving things around, hardly sleeping for 3 days on top of working and other things, Well I am very, very tired.

Plus, I broke a toe this morning moving boxes. Fun.

The Family Girl Blogs (aka "The New Working Girl Blogs") Blog #55: A Reminder On My Calendar To see all of Bobbie's Family Girl Blogs, click on this link: http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/book/28818/family-girl-blogs

I had a... drama-filled discussion with a BCTS friend about twelve hours ago via Yahoo Messenger. Seems those are the only kinds of discussions we've had lately. Anyway, she has finally given me a date for when she will be taking the first concrete step towards arresting the "steady decline" (her words) in her life.

I'm not sure how many of you play video games, but for those that do, I thought you might like to know about a kickstarter project that is about to expire (5 more days), and hasn't reached it's target goal:(

The project is led by a transgendered woman, Dani Landers, who has dreamed up a very lovely story involving a mother and her child. The artwork looks incredible, and, while the team is small (4 people, I think), it looks like it will end up being something that people who enjoy adventures will have fond memories of long after they have played the game.

Some people who have seen my comments to story posts, and blogs would be aware I am not dead yet. Neither is Shift Happens. I have been working chiseling out the next installments, and trying to organize, just how to present and format the story, so it makes the most sense. The next portion is titled The Climb , and it was getting to big and cumbersome, to make one post, so it will be in three, A B C .

Just kind of curious really? Personally it usually will attract me to a story and the comments themselves.

I was rereading Julie O, and saw that Robert Arnold edited/proofed many of her stories. I miss him so much, he touched my life is so many ways. That started me thinking of others who are not with us any more, and I realized I could have been one too. I still have my moments of doubt and suicidial thoughts, and wonder if I will always be haunted by that siren call.

I have so much to be thankful for ... my life is slowly getting back into order and my sunshine filled days far out weigh my demon plague nights.

Is it always like this? I need someone cuddle with.

Okay! ^^ wooO! Tels balance is now covered! :)

Thank you for helping one of our own! ^^

Sephrena

From WIRED magazine via Huffington Post Gay Voices:

Just spotted this:

Uruguay's Congress passed a bill on Wednesday to allow same-sex marriages, making it the second country in predominantly Roman Catholic Latin America to do so.

http://www.amazon.com/Transsexual-Cross-Disproving-transexua...

Sorry about the now, huge delay in the next Jade Skirt chapter.

The MAU story has kinda taken over and I can't stop thinking about it for some reason.

So, I figured it was probably time for me to put up a more recent pic of myself. It's been a LONG time since most of my befores... But first, here's one more before:

Had a nice meeting with my pastor yesterday. After talking for about an hour, she said she wanted me to hang onto 3 things:

First, surviving what I went through as a child shows that I'm strong,

I've been asked by a couple of people about writing stories in my universes. I appreciate people asking. I guess I did get rather snippy a few years ago over some of the blasphemy being done to Bikini Beach. I've got one very strong and promising author who has taken some of my story ideas and is turning them to gold. They are story ideas which were so far down in my writing queue that I'd never get to them in the foreseeable future.

The Transsexual and the cross: Disproving the myth that transsexuality is a sin will be published on Thursday (midnight). It will be a dead tree and available on Kindle. I know there has been some that wanted to share this with church groups and link to this site. The work here is incomplete and I prefer not leading people here. I will make the book available in a month or so and I enabled sharing so one copy can be spread around. The cost will be 2.99 and I hope you will consider supporting me as I head into uncharted territory. I think this may be the most important work I've ever done.

It probably doesnt come as a shock to anybody who reads this blog that I dont handle stress terribly well. Most of the time, between having gender issues, PTSD, and bunch of other letters that basically mean I'm broken, my plate is full, andthey are as much as I can handle.

I was idly checking things today and decided to check my account just to make sure things were as they should be. Then I scrolled to the bottom to see that I'd been given over twelve thousand Kudos. I'm humbled.

Thank you all.

Maggie

I had been hoping to have the chapters of my DRU stories and Winter's Child ready by Saturday but being off my hormones and anti-anxiety medications for the past three weeks has been making it harder and harder to concentrate. I had hoped that the end was in sight with me being able to get my medical coverage sorted out tomorrow but on Friday afternoon I got an email from my Aunt's lawyer telling me that she has died and I need to return to my hometown for the will reading.

The Family Girl Blogs (aka "The New Working Girl Blogs") Blog #53: A Summer Girl's Four Epiphanies To see all of Bobbie's Family Girl Blogs, click on this link: http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/book/28818/family-girl-blogs

Ma said during our last skype call a few days ago that it's forty-five degrees back home. Living in Manila for a while now, I am now more used to using Centigrade when measuring temperature, as opposed to Fahrenheit, and using kilometers instead of miles when measuring distance. So when she said forty-five degrees, I used my iPad and came up with 7.2 Centigrade. I told her it was 95 degrees here (which is 35 in centigrade-speak). It's so friggin' hot here! What I wouldn't give for a forty-five degree day.

It seems like the more comfortable with myself as a girl I become, the harder it is to have male bits. Last night my parts moved a bit, and I had to fight back tears, and I also had to fight off the urge to take my box-cutter knife to them ....

Ah, well.

Logged into Facebook and read that I was dead. My brother had a very close friend, whom his kids called uncle, pass away. My brother's 95 year old mother-in-law posted her condolences for me. Glad I caught that before my daughter did. I'm not dead, at least I think I'm not. Interesting way to start your day.

Well, last night, my supervisor came by and told me she wanted me to motivate my fellow workers in finishing as fast as possible. I giggled, but she said she was serious, she wanted me to do this. I asked her, "Why me?"

She said, "Because I like you."

Well, what the heck could I say to that?

Hey folks. Remember when you were all like, hey Krunch, what gives? When are you gonna finish Being Christina Chase?

one of the primary characters in tonight's episode at 10 est. is supposed to be transgender

In most Shamanic traditions, a religious belief system that pre-dates all the mainstream religions, and appears to be almost universal amongst the peoples from whom most modern cultures drew their inspiration, so might be seen as the authentic root from which all later variations of religious belief sprouted, gender expression is seen as a special power bestowed by the higher powers, and some degree of transsexuality and/or transvestism was and is essential to the role of spiritual advisor to the community, because of course the spiritually-limited, those who weren't able to incorporate the

I'm feeling very paranoid today because of something my mother said this morning. I was about to tell her something amazing that I had found out last night. I said, ''You'll never guess what I found out last night!'' and she replied, ''That you are really a boy?'' with a slight smile. That got me worried. It's probably nothing but it's just the way she said it that made me paranoid. It was as if she knew something. Bleagh. I hope she doesn't.

I am a Christian.

Before anything else, that is how I identify myself and that is the core of my being.

a few years ago i was readed a story about a boy who was in the wildness looking for things to pick up and sell something happen to him he ending up changed to a female cant remeber the name of the story if someone could help out it be a great help thank you

'Apologies for not posting today but I got stuck in North Wales in various traffic holdups and didn't get home in time to post. I'll sort it as soon as I can get to the back up computer in the next few days.'

Mads.

With only ten more episodes to go to the 2000 I feel it incumbent upon me to ask the readers if they want me to continue this saga for a bit longer, assuming the indulgence of Erin and her pixies, in supporting the proposition.

Please let me know what you'd like me to do.

Angharad