I got a package from the clinic where, God willing, I will be getting my SRS done. While I could spend my time wishing and dreaming about the day I'm post-op, I've decided to take another approach. I'm going to enjoy the now, be grateful for what I have, and try my best to keep looking on the bright side of things. I will probably slip once in a while, and sometimes, I will suffer from depression or PTSD attacks, but I'm really going to do my best to keep my head up.

Wish me luck, okay?

Sorry that I fell off the planet, but my health has still been spotty, with plenty of migraines and other fun and games. Right now I am dealing with a badly sprained wrist and while my one handed typing is getting better not much is happening on any story front. Pain and an inability to type has certainly thrown a wrench in that one. Oy!

Thankfully you guys have loads of great stories on here to keep you occupied. I am sure you have barely missed me ;)

Take care you all and hope to type at you soon.

A local TV station did a consumer piece about the No-No Hair Removal System

http://pittsburgh.cbslocal.com/2013/05/22/does-it-really-do-...

My "Girl Card" is punched. Anyone who wants to hate me for what I am about to say is quite welcome to do so. I do not claim this to be a scholarly, authoritative document. It is my opinion.

I'm sure that some non-trans woman reading this blog will sniff and say I'm getting my girl card punched way too easily. I mean, there are a few things cisgendered girls go through I will never deal with. The most obvious example is periods - I will never know the "joy" of bleeding, of feeling bloated, cramped, and so on that accompanies having a monthly cycle. I'm sure said woman can add other things as well, but before she gets too carried away with herself, there are a couple of things I have gone through most cisgendered women never would.

I ran across this article while web surfing and I thought it might be of interest.

http://sports.yahoo.com/news/mma--fallon-fox--transgender-mm...

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Grover

I still get requests to finish the tale I began in 'Goodbye Master Stokes', and not only on this site. Recently I received a message from someone whose praise was so fulsome, and whose analysis of the story was so erudite and penetrating, that I was compelled to look at it again.

I'm just thinking. My apartment has bars on the window, and to get in you have to go through three locked doors. Some are very worried about Muslims killing me, but none have tried, and I don't think they will. There is no cigarette or pot smoke drifting through here. There is no yelling or fighting here. I feel protected. The only thing missing is that there are no chains and I can get out if I want to.

I held my wife close when she started sobbing again.

The police officer turned to me and asked, "Can you tell me what happened, sir?"

"Her armpit hairs are missing," I answered.

And so I do what I've been doing for quite some time. I am undergoing another project, another novel. I haven't posted anything since the last chapter of Just Friends, but I was busy editing and publishing a few stories on Amazon while I gathered my wits about me.

A signature should be something that makes people think.
But I can't keep this to myself.

http://youtu.be/o5haDMqQnYw

Not when the mermaid smiled.

Should he wear white or a black gown.

Rami

What's the worst that could happen?

Hello All. Back in late 2011/early 2012 I posted a rather long novel of forced feminization, "Only A Baby Machine". (Some liked it, some did not--what else is new?) I've revised it (not significantly, just improved dialog and such) included introductory material not given in the BC version, and added bells and whistles not possible on BC (exotic fonts, pictures). If anyone wishes to see this recent version, send me a message here, and I can email .pdf version.

SQ

I have no 'real world' tg issues. I'm lucky enough to be happy with my gender identity, and to have a wide circle of friends who understand why I write tg fiction and who approve of my reasons for doing so.

Here in cyberspace (way to show your age Rich, you'll be talking about superhighways next!) it's different. I want a female alter-ego because I believe it might help me grow, both as a writer and a person.

I'm being serious. This has bugged me for a while, and I want it settled.

Name Of The Doctor

Just watched the series finale of Doctor Who on BBC I-Player.

well, after having a conversation with my mom, I feel a lot better about the car situation. Its going to be tight for a bit, but we can make it, and I will have a reliable car which I need to keep working.

Where did she go? She's still here, just not on as much.

I am in serious crisis. my car's bumper finally fell off, and in a panic I went to my dealership and got talked into a new car, and honestly, its more a month than I think I can handle. I dont know what to do. I signed the paperwork, I'm committed, and I'm close to calling a crisis line ....

Help?

Strange things happen to you on this site. You read a story by a new author and you think hmmm, that wasn't bad. You read it again, determined to offer a detailed review because you remember the first time you posted something here and while it was nice to see someone say 'keep up the good work' you really wanted more.

Remember in Men in Black when the guys are talking about where a space ship could be hidden and J is trying to get their attention, he Yells Old Guys. Since today is another birthday, how do I change my log in to something similar to Old Guy

Could Use Someone to tell me if this is something I should post. Just random whimsical thing I wrote while half asleep.

*****

Hey everyone! I'm working on a MAU story that I want to take in a slightly different direction. In this case I have a question for you SF Fans out there in Big-Closet Land!

You can find this story with pictures at the following: http://www.cosmopolitan.com/celebrity/exclusive/laura-jane-g...

Richard

On Sky Arts 1 tonight at 9 p.m. UK time, a 30 minute play about transvestites.

Enjoy

Julia

I try to produce good works. I really in truly think I tell a very good story. But something must be lacking and I am wondering what it is. As long as it isn't an attack, I am wondering where people think I come up short in my writing so that I can improve. I have vision of finding an agent and a publisher or at least being mildly successful on my own. My goal is to make $2000 a month so I can live off of (right now I make 400 and I wonder if that would last). I sell about 200 books a month (so by math i would need to sell 1000 a month) on amazon.

here is an interesting article on being trans:

http://www.autostraddle.com/im-a-trans-woman-and-im-not-inte...

Righteo, tomorrow I'm heading off for Hastings for a week (well, heading to Mum's, then on to Hastings on Friday), so it's likely to be a week Saturday before you start seeing my random comments starting to appear on your stories again :(

After several years of living on the cusp, my mother suffered a major stroke Monday and passed away this morning. The next week or so is going to be rough. Service in Dallas followed by burial in SE Missouri. Please keep my family in your thoughts.

As promised, the new book starts here

Sorry all, but I'll be offline for about 3 months. I'll be jotting down things for my stories and I'll have chapter 3 of Summer Girl, chapter 12 of Tarja and the first chapter of my new stories online by the 15th of August. Have a great summer...

A reviewer on another site has just compared episode 1 of 'The Uncertainty Prinicple' to James Joyce.

JAMES JOYCE!!!!!

Well, today I had an awesome day. Queen Ruth (who is a reader here, for those who dont know her) happened to be in town, so we met at the mall talked for a couple of hours, walked around the mall and just before I was to leave, she went and bought me a crucifix.

She really helped me with my anxiety over the surgery too, so that was nice.

This morning I have been more calmly reading about certain diagnosisies, among them PTSD and BPD, because I have both. It is astonishing that while many of us think that it takes Military combat to get PTSD, the actual facts are that one can get it from a bad car accident, or an abusive traumatic childhood.

As far as BPD is concerned, this was a bitter pill to swallow, but it now seems much easier to deal with and I am now recognizing its effect in my life.

Dear Friends

I've become aware of a website that seems to actively be trying to work things out. I went in there with my gun locked and loaded, expecting trouble, assuming the worst. That is not what I have found. I am willing to give them a try and just see what we come up with.

I have decided to behave myself and see what sort of dialogue we can have. So far, I have no objection to their policies, but have only been there a while.

I'd like to see what you think of the website. Please behave and don't make me sorry I published this. :)

Gwen

I am learning more and more about who I really am. It used to be that I used my writing to explore aspects of myself, but that is becoming less of the norm. I am no longer living as Katie vicariously through characters and words on a page and am living real life as the real me.

I do intend to finish "Virginia in Bloom" and "Evolution," but life gets in the way.

I've just finished re-reading Renae's superb partial stories, 'After the Ashes' and 'First Among Fools' and thought I'd try to see if she's on BC these days. They are wonderful stories and I'm REALLY REALLY hoping that she will find the wherewithal to finish them one day!

If you have not read them I highly recommend them to you. I have to warn you that they ARE unfinished at present however and will probably leave you with withdrawal symptoms afterwards. lol

Blossom

First Among Fools

Don't know if they're connected, but I've noticed that the Kudos counts for stories are way down the RH column now, where they used be at the top above the author's story list. Whether this has anything to do with the unremovable Random Solos on the front page I don't know. I did notice one "Random Solo" that popped up on the home page for me earlier was Part 2 of a story, I don't remember which story it was, sorry. So I can't say if the story was classified wrong or if it might be a bug in the feature.

I know a few may be wondering since I haven't been around much lately?

Mom's finally home!!!;D

So I went to my mums for dinner tonight, it being Mother's Day and all. It was myself, mum, her boyfriend, my sister, her boyfriend and my 2yo nephew. We were sitting around the lounge room drinking coffee, and somehow they got onto the topic of teaching Hunter (my nephew) the difference between a boy and a girl, based on general appearance. All this time, I'm sitting there thinking "he's 2, he doesn't give a damn, and that's the way it should be" (I'm an equalist). But then the funniest thing happened, my sister has started going around, asking him what each person is, a boy or a girl.

Thought I'd give you all due warning - a new Gaby book will be published this week! It might be Wednesday or it might be next weekend but sure as eggs are eggs it will be available! There's all the angst, racing and general Gabyness you've come to expect so be prepared!

So look out for Gaby - Wunderkind part 1 coming to a screen near you - soon!

I need help finding an old story. As I remember: there is a mother with a son and daughter. They are rich with a large corporate company. The son is the best mind and talent to take over but the mother of males. Consequently she has the son transformed into a woman. His problem is that she didn't trust enough to ask. There is a young woman that was rescued by the mother and is working and living in the household. The son and woman eventually marry I think in Minn. There are a couple attacks on the home/mansion using ATV's to approach.

Really, we're still testing it. So for now, using the search box will be limited to logged in members. If all goes well, we'll go back to allowing anonymous visitors to use it also and members can use some advanced features.

Category browser in the right column is available also and Google can be used to search the site using Site:BigClosetr.us in the search bar with your question on Google.

Hugs,
Erin

That's how long I've been at this site, according to my profile.

So happy anniversary to me!

I found this while surfing the web tonight.
http://news.yahoo.com/egyptian-man-disguised-woman-harassed-...
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Grover