I really do try to keep on top of my writing. You can ask those part of team WAM that I normally stick to my schedule. BUt I am too heart broken to even try tonight. How can I not weep for the loss of innocence today? I have always been emotional, always quick to shed a tear, but some things just break my hear more than I can bear.

I might sound like a broken record and frankly I don't give a damn anymore. I'm just really tired of writing and not getting any recognition for it. All I have is writing...there's nothing else. The fact that everyone only seems to care about one thing I write or one genre---whether it be The Center, the CRU or the DarkRealms---as soon as I try to do something different, I get nothing for it. I was super excited about writing The Underappreciated. It was new and fresh and I actually enjoyed writing again. Sadly the last few chapters I've posted have done nothing.

hi all saw another interesting license plate today it was POST OP wonder what that could mean lol

So, Monday evening I was studying a book with three other women. We found the material quite interesting and I felt a bit overwhelmed and slightly emotional about it.

Due to a hardware failure on another server, and the need to test hardware. One of our servers (Eva) which is the primary Star Stuff server, is going to be taken offline.

I promised myself--and all of you--that I wouldn't talk about my story or the contest again here, but as with most of my promises, it was a far easier thing to make than to keep.

But I do have a good reason for breaking my promise. I've been spending the last few days--in between medical appointments, Christmas parties, and personal responsibilities--trying to pull together some 17,000 words of story fragments into something coherent. I have enough material in a decent-enough state of completion for the first two installments. From the looks of things, my little story is going to be a novella before I'm through, if not a full-fledged novel.

I got a call from the Grey Nuns hospital where I was supposed to be taking part in the day program in January. The doctor I talked to said the day program may not be a good fit for me, since I work nights and have Samantha in the evenings. But I will see him a week from today, and hopefully he can find some other alternative.

i've uploaded the next Gaby chapter cept i can't see it and BC crashed whilst i was doing it! To further complicate things i'm bouncing around on a coach so it might want some further work!

ttfn

Fo the last couple of days, I have noticed the top half of the page is in a smaller than normal font, and the lower half is about 4 times that size and in bold, and some of the stories are popping up liike that, at least in my browser, which still unfortunately a windoze product. Is it on my end?

The other night I did something I've done dozens of times over the years. I went, after a bit of hunting about and deciding, to download a program file from CNet.com. Always cool no viruses blah blah.

I titled this blog under travel because there is no title listed as 'Incidents' Anyway ...

I was going to write this in a way where it appeared everyone had the same view I did, but since I don't know how everyone feels about the situation, I will just write on my view of the situation.

The first and probably only cold snap has hit South Texas. So we get our winter this year, according to extended forecasts this should last into the first part of January, but I'm skeptical. Time to go shopping for a winter wardrobe (I wish). Now I know you Yankees are poo pooing our winter, but when eight months out of the year temperatures are 95 ° and above you get excited when the cold comes. I will be enjoying my walks in the fresh morning air for awhile. So this Texas gal says bundle up little dogies and keep warm if you can, find someone to cuddle up with. Freezing smiles, Jenn.

My sister, Ellen, died earlier today. She was 59.

shalimar

Happy Chanukah to all my friends here at BCTS.

Rami

This is an interesting article from a member of the LDS church. I first saw it on Facebook when a member that I know here in the Portland area posted it. I don't really know how to handle the news, and I hope that those who are passing it around, don't get hurt. So far as I know, the church does not at all understand the issue, but I will say that they seem to be trying harder to figure it out than any christian group that I know. Sure, there was pain and hardship in the past, but I just want to give them a chance and see where this goes.

I just got a question asking if another “Eerie Saloon” story was coming or if Chris and I were on hiatus.

It's slow work, but Chris and I aren't on hiatus.

Been doing a lot of thinking about what it is that makes a man a man or a woman a woman, and honestly, I dont know.

Hi everyone!

This is a blog about yesterday mostly but a bit of it carried over to today.

After 5 months to the day (which is pretty cool by the way) Transitioning Home is complete. I hope you guys enjoyed the ride. It was a lot of fun to see everyone's reactions. I know it was rough sometimes, but I do hope the happy times balanced that out.

So what did you all think overall?

OK, this is my absolute last word on the upcoming contest. Honest.

Well, as the saying goes, I have good news and bad news. The good news is that I'm still writing.

I really wanted to wait before I posted this until I understood it myself, but that is probably never going to happen. I don't think I have the mental capacity to wrap my brain around the issue and part of me is hoping that as a collective group we can come up with at least some theories why I am so fucking worthless that I deserve all the shit that comes my way.

Got a jobinterview comming up wit the Enviroment, Nature and Energie departement for an opening in their ICT division basically as a kind of gofer (doing the recycling of old 'units', maintaining the website, vendors, general support/helpdesk, serveradmin, etc.)

I just came home from seeing the gender doc, and while it was a good visit, I'm awfully shaky, as I spent most of the visit talking about my rape. That was because I was trying to find out what resources might be available for me outside of the rape crisis center, and as it happens, there is some.

The program they're recommending for me is called "Partial hospitalization", but its less scary than it sounds - its a group therapy session that takes a couple of hours during the day and works with a variety of problems.

Has anyone heard from from Bobbie C. as last time she said anything here was that she was back in the Philipines and they just went thru a bad Typhoon there and there are reports of many missing. I just want to know that she is Okay. Thanks!

Why is it that some people feel that telling someone that is over weight they look to have lost some when they have no idea if they have is a complement? (okay reading that sentence lost even me, I'm probably doing something grammatically incorrect.)

I really do miss posting stories. I miss reading comments and I miss seeing my kudo count rise as I click my story page 10 times an hours to see how things are progressing. I live for that sort of validation and I'm getting absolutely none. (Okay, maybe a little as one of my beta readers builds me up).

OK, I need some help please?

The BBC brings us news out of France that will stun you.

Well i'm away for the next week but i've uploaded a new Gaby chapter for you and for those that haunt my site there's an update there too.

So, you want to be a published author?

Yes please.

Fine. Let’s play twenty questions.

Okay.

Simple one first. Who are you?

Heyo! Your friendly neighborhood Jenn here with some random stuff to talk about. Job is going well at the new store, already feel like a valued member of the team. The manager who I respect and know outside of work as a friend, made an effort in the store meeting to convey to the staff that I was to be treated as a resource due to my long experience working for the company. He said he expected the others to go to me if any questions need answering, and a member of management is not available. He has asked me to take on new duties to bring the new store up to speed.

Does anyone know if Jenny Walker is working on anything new?

I've been working on what the weight loss place gave me for "homework", and in a week, I have already lost some weight. Hard to tell exactly how much on my home scale, but its a lot closer to 270 lbs than to 280 lbs, which is what I was a week ago.

I can do this, I can do this ....

Mom has had her surgery. They removed a tube or something, was hard to follow my Dad because he wasn't sure what all they had done either. She is doing okay, but they have more to do to her. So thank you for the prayers and hopefully the rest of her operations will go as smoothly.

I will try to get more Through the years out soon.

This day has had an enormous swing of emotions and since my only friends are on this site, I figured I would share them with you.

When I visit this site, there's a T in a blue box at the bottom right hand of my screen, like a google thing but it doesn't say google; plus I get little windows asking me to complete questionnaires. Is this official or have I picked up a bug?

Well, I had a very good night at work, and it helped beat back the negative self-talk I had been fighting with, and that's a good thing.

Totally off topic for BC, sorry Erin, but ...

AS a Wisconsinian, Wisconsinan, Wisconsiner, Wisconsinite(?) I must congrad UW-Madison going to the Rose Bowl.

As we drift towards 1900, I suppose it's apposite for me to enquire as to whether my readers want me to continue the saga, assuming Erin is happy to continue filling up her servers with my nonsense.

I was supposed to have a date today. I met a girl online and we have chatted and text for a few weeks. I was really looking forward to this date since I do not date much and she is a very attractive lady. I really liked her. Then Friday morning after I got home from work she sent me a text message saying that she could not go on the date, and that she had a boyfriend. Talk about a kick to the head. I text her back and told her that yes I was hurt by that and that I had been really looking forward to our date.

I'm no Cyclist, and the story I'm writing isnt likely to be as good as "Sweat and Tears", but .... well ... you'll guys see when its finished.

Sorry no YHIAW tonight, I'm really under the weather at the mo. Been in bed all day, only got up to take more painkillers and to write this short blog.

Hugs
Sammi

eBooks for my stories

Okay, so two more parts to go on Destiny.

The crystalhall forums seem to be down; all I'm getting is a blank page.

This is in my response to an earlier post to pick out the cover of my book.

The story is well underway again, as I've managed about 1500 words in the last 24 hours--remarkable considering that I write and edit as I go. My way of working helps--if one plot thread isn't going well, I need to do more research at a later time, I move on to another scenes. Yes, I view stories in movie terms--I have a large mental storyboard in which every plot point is mapped out.

eBooks for my stories

Well, a while back I uploaded eBooks for my stories 'Incompatible' and 'Transfigured' (both the original and revised version) here on the site.