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Had a conversation with a friend the other day, and she mentioned how I looked when I am having a flashback - my face gets flushed, tears form in my eyes, and I get this "I'm not home" look. For some reason, finding this out shook me, I dont exactly know why ....
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...at least part of what she said is a validation of your beliefs about your abuse. One of the things we need in dealing with such truama is what some describe as 'shared reality;' that firm assurance that someone understands in part but accepts and believes what you say is true.
One other part might be that in displaying a 'look' that is discernible to someone else leaves you feeling vulnerable. That you have the connection with someone you apparently trust is helpful, but it may leave you wondering if someone else may have picked up on that as well?
One of the hardest parts to grasp in regard to PTSD is that even we, as survivors, look at our condition as a sprint, so to speak, when it really is a marathon. Those feelings are compounded when folks around us wonder just why we haven't 'gotten over it.' The very same things that caused our memories to be repressed are the same things that make this a process instead of an event. The brain can handle only so much before something internal says 'enough.'
What is promising, however, is that you're able to not only cope with your memories, but also engage others in your process; receiving patience and understanding. And you know that no matter what; you're not alone.
Love, Andrea Lena