As my life seems to be heading in a positive direction, I face a strange fear - a fear of success. I think its basically, that any situation you're in, if you're in it long enough, starts to feel like "home", and leaving "home" becomes scary, even if "home" is something horrible. So the idea of actually being a successful adult is kinda scary for me.

But then I remind myself, I've already beaten this fear in another area of my life - my transition. Yes, my transition is going well, but there's no way I could have known that when I started, yet I started anyway, and kept at it until I find myself a 50 lb weight loss to being on the list for surgery.

So that means I can do it again, and accept that maybe, just maybe, things can go well for me at work, and I can have success on that front too

But forgive me if I shake once in a while, wont you?