I was reading a story here, and when the main character remembered being raped, I was a little surprised at my reaction.
I got mad.
I mean really, really mad. Cold fury ready to hurt something, someone.
For just a moment, I was something dangerous before I managed to get it back under control.
I need a place to get rid of this anger safely, because I'm just a little scared of myself at the moment.
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ANGER IS IMPORTANT
It is an important part of a balanced person. Out of controlled anger at the wrong time and place is a problem and that needs to be controlled. It is important to know that anger shows you when a boundary has been violated it is up to the mind to figure out if the trespass is legitimate or just perceive.
But it is my observation that there is times when the spontaneous display of anger is necessary. A couple of years ago I had a minor situation with another driver who's bumper I touched backing out of the way or another person backing out in front of me. It was just a touch and when I was looking for any problem the Women was going on about "how blind dude how fu@@#$# blind of a DUDE WAS I" After the fifth dude I reared up and exclaimed "I am not a dude bitch." !!!! I was loud enough that the Police dispatcher heard over the phone from those who had called in about this women's tirade. The situation ended with both of us apologizing and going our ways peacefully. It was the right place and time.
So reading about a situation that you have suffered from your self making you angry is legitimate. Just pick a outlet like kneading bread punching a pillow writing a venting comment to a story see my "Chew Chew spit" comment to the most recent Bike episode where Trish's mother hits Catherin. And the world and you will be the better for it.
With those with open eyes the world reads like a book
Read some of my comments.
Your anger will feel less significant than that which I have expressed in some of them, having been provoked by certain stories/chapters (not to imply that my responses were actually negative or that the story was bad in any way). My responses to certain fictional situations as depicted by authors on this site would have done Lt Worf proud.
Anger is evil
I'm not a religious believer, as I know you are, but I do believe anger is the evil inside us - it's what changes us from civilised humans back into animals. Sure, a little (controlled) anger is fine on certain occasions, but uncontrolled anger is a destroyer of our very selves.
If reading about rape scenes causes that reaction, then stop reading about rape scenes. Humans must rise above base animal instinct.
Charlotte