Thank you to all of you who wrote and asked if i was ok. I had a house sitting job and well i have been homeless ( 2008) so having a house to myself is orgasmic. I just had time to just be Susie homemaker and be alone . Its nice to know people care. As far as the photos I post of me well there from the 60s when i was a kid i am 57 and the 16 playing keeps me from dealing with the issues i have no i don't do doctors just watching to see whats next moment by moment,
Love and hugs
Hanna

Well, I got a message from Jade telling me Kylie is alive, in her words "no thanks to you." I dont care. She can blame me for not picking up on the clues if she wants to. Kylie is alive. That's what matters.

New page is up, enjoy! :)

Ok sorry to disappoint you people, but I am not as innocent as I try to be.

Well, Kylie's friend Jade got a hold of me to yell at me for failing Kylie. Can't say much. She's right. I could have done more. But she's also wrong. In the end, only Kylie could have made the choice to not give up. Nothing we said or did would have made as much of a difference as her having the will to live. Of course knowing that doesnt make me feel any less guilty....

I just wanted people to know that I am back visiting this site on a regular basis. I don't know when I will start posting stories again -- I have been busy writing more mainline fiction (under another name, which I don't intend to reveal). I notice that during the three years I have been away there has been a certain amount of interest in my old stories but people rarely left comments. I would appreciate some feedback to let me know if additional stories would be of interest.

Melissa Tawn

In the beginning of December, Wren sent me her last chapter of A Familiar Experience. When I found out she had passed, it was hard to fathom for a while. I decided to post it in her memory :)

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Spotted courtesy of the "Geeks are Sexy" blog, a set of rather impressive photo manipulations to illustrate what (live action) female versions of a trio of Avengers characters and a trio of Dark Knight characters could potentially look like (links to original source) - the series is dubbed "If women ruled the earth"...

Feeling down... my mother passed away on Monday. She caught whatever is going round on the previous Monday and I called an ambulance on Monday morning because her breathing was awful. The doctor spoke to her on Sunday and said she just had a cold. She was admitted to hospital at 9.30 am and was dead by 7.20pm. Pneumonia and septic shock leading to Cardiac arrest.

I often wonder why doctors call it a practice... I suppose it's because they've yet to get it right!

Well, its possible that something good has come out of what I've been posting about my friend Kylie. A friend got a hold of me, and confessed to having struggled with suicidal thoughts over last weekend, and we talked for a long time, and I told her to go to the hospital even if the feeling had passed. She said she would, and thanked me for being there.

Does that balance the scales of my failure with Kylie? No. But if she follows through, I'll feel a little better about it.

From Susanne Moore, read it carefully and see what you think.

http://www.guardian.co.uk/commentisfree/2013/jan/09/dont-car...

or: The effects of being "perfectly" gender-neutral

Went to my 2nd all day group session at the Grey Nuns Hospital today, and it was really good. One of the more interesting things was an exercise in grounding where we each took a piece fabric and focused on it, looking at the color, any patterns, how it felt to touch it, even what it smelled like.

It was a very interesting exercise, and I might use it in the future when I'm having a flashback....

I do apologize for doing this. I know that a few months ago I changed my nickname from Little Katie to K.T. Leone. I didn't know that my life was going to spiral into control (see what I did there?) and that I would actually transition and be so immersed into being me so quickly. I have decided, that since I am so fully committed to being the real me that it is time to drop the damn initials. At first, K.T. was a clever way to make people say Katie anyway but gave me an out. If I introduced to myself to someone as Katie and they gave me a sideways look I could counter with ...

I like to thank all of the authors here, for their amazing skill, and time. Some of you are simply brilliant and easily could be publishing non TG stories and making money for your effort. I am glad you have taken the time to write and publish here. You all have touch my life, good or bad. There are insights so close to my own life that I find in many stories, by many different authors. The entertainment is priceless, as are your wonderful characters and adventures.
Everyone who has written and publish here should be applauded. Bravo to all of you.

So it's been a long while since I posted an update about myself here. I've still been around, working behind the scenes but many may have noticed that I've not been very "public" at all lately.

Truth is, I've been through hell and back, and I don't think I'm done yet.

Okay, so, between the new Tegan book, Written In The Body and vacation, I am a bit behind the curve. Just wanted to let you all know what is going on. I haven't forgotten you all and the stories I have been working on, it's just that life is continuing to be what it usually is... crazy. So, as things change I will let you know.

Sorry to have taken so long on the update, but I am still waiting on something in the real world which hopefully will allow me to actually put something together.

Whether I won the recent contest or not, my intention was to finish the story I started. I stopped because the demands of real life intruded, number one. Two, I came to a decision after talking to the person who kindly consented to edit for me, Rebecca Anderson. Although I already had the story plotted out from beginning to end, I decided I needed to rework and expand the middle section, so I could flesh out the characters and incorporate a "B" plotline.

Got this from my sister and had to share it.

Train ride

" How To Make Girls Behave Themselves According to a news report, a certain private school in Victoria, BC recently was faced with a unique problem. A number of year 12 girls were beginning to use lipstick and would put it on in the bathroom. That was fine, but after they put on their lipstick they would press their lips to the mirror leaving dozens of little lip prints. Every night, the maintenance man would remove them and the next day the girls would put them back. Finally the principal decided that something had to be done.

I know I have been on this kick for quite some time (for me 11 days is an eternity), but I can't stress how much it has affected me that I've come out. I am relaxed, I am at ease, I am comfortable. I am me, and I am happy. I haven't been happy for a long time, so most of you might not know I have the emotion, but I do.

Does anybody else on Big Closet write their stories in secret? What I mean is that nobody in my life knows of my TG interests and desires and probably never will. I don't have any problems in keeping it to myself nor do I find it necessary to let people know because, in my opinion, it really is a personal aspect of who I am and I'm happy with it the way it is.

Wow, I am writing again and it is so much fun! Wow! It has been nearly a year. My last story was "Battleground to Crib", yes I know the title sucks.

So it's been a while since I've written a blog. Thought I'd catch you guys up on what's happening in my life if you still remember me. My life is slowly getting better. Still working on my story, haven't actually got the chapters typed out, been more working on the time line and has gotten so big and detailed that I need to take my time with it to get it right. Got myself a job at Home Depot as a lot associate so if you see someone pushing carts around or loading vehicals, might be me. Not sure I enjoy it but this job is paying for my next bit of news.

At least one of these ordinary tips will make your life easier...

http://shialabeowulf.tumblr.com/post/33670447154/99-life-hac...

Ok folks it is predicted to snow in San Antonio. Its teased us before with little bits that melt as soon as they hit and other times its all ice. The last snow we really got was 1985. That was a fun time the city was paralyzed for days schools were closed. Anyone who had a 4x4 made a killing in cash pulling cars out. I will believe it when I see it. And of course I work all day tomorrow so I will probably be the only one dumb enough to drive in. Oh yeah I said this would happen in my Christmas story, well its a few days late but I'll take it. Bundled up smiles, Jenn.

I have been wondering what ever happen to Cain129 ????

I'm trying to find a story I read a while back, maybe 2-4 months ago. It's Sci-Fi, about a General returning to Earth to be court martialed for losing a battle to take a planet. The one who organized the defeat was a former academy friend that saved him some 30? years before and was left behind with some other wounded. He was changed by one of his captors into a daughter. They were called elves, and were one of the oldest races in the universe.

This former friend was 'caught' and is travelling with him on a shuttle to Earth. She tells him her story on the way.

Has anyone heard from Sephrina? It seems like a long time since she posted!

Familiar Regrets...

This is my response to someone who mentioned people looking at my facebook page and seeing me dressed as a woman:

Hi Everyone.I have been thinking & have finilly desided to change my Username on here.It is going to be Magical Kagome,but before I do I was wondering what u all think of it????

Posting for Jessica, just in case you did not see it.

Memorial Service Information

Happy New Year all. I'm new here as a writer, but I've been lurking as an anonymous non-member for months. I've also been trying to write for years. I've gotten midway through a couple of novels and then quit. I started writing The Taylor Project some months ago setting it as starting with a New Year's Resolution. It was my original intention to have it done by New Years. That didn't happen, but I've gone ahead and started posting it even though the story isn't done yet. I'm using the public committment of posting to push myself to actually finish a work this time.

Happy New Year everybody, may 2013 bring you all happiness and the life you want as your true selves.

Athbhliain faoi mhaise dhaoibh, May everyone have a happy and joyful New Year

The best to everyone in 2013! Let's make it a great one here at BCTS!
Love 'n Hugs,
Diana

I would like to wish you all a fantastic New Year for 2013

Hugs

Nick

Hello everyone,

Well, its the last day of 2012, and its kinda traditional to take a moment and look back at the year that was. And since I rather like that tradition, here goes.

Well done, thou good and faithful servant.

I will be out for most of tomorrow and tomorrow evening I am going against the grade and actually going out with friends to celebrate New years. My feeling is if I don't go out and go to bed early it still occurs. Again against my better judgment I am going out. I'll be taking all the back roads home to avoid all the drunks. I am a recovering drinker and see news year eve as a chance for beginner and amateurs to play with the big people.
Have a wonderful new year and enjoy yourselves.

It's official I have been a member of this site for two years now. I have had a lot of encouragement and hopefully my writing is getting better. lol.

So The Underappreciated kind of ran its course with me. I'm still writing it but its going a lot slower than I would have wanted. So I've kind of put it on the back burner for the moment.

As everyone is aware, about two weeks ago I received a phone call from a friend who was in dire straights and in need of a place to live. I had been homeless and wasn't about to let one of my friends suffer the same fate. The problem, he knew me as Tiny the wrestler and not Katie. Figuring I knew what his reaction would be, I decided I need to die to self and put being female on the back burner while I helped out.

Well, right now, I'm plodding away at "Jake goes for help". Its a really tough story for me, for obvious reasons, so I can only do so much and then I need a break from it. But I'm hoping to have Chapter 4 finished by the start of the new year, and my basic outline has maybe 2 chapters thereafter before the story ends. I have tentatively planned to have a flashback chapter as a totally separate chapter, so those who would have trouble dealing with such things can skip it without missing much of the story.