I spent some time yesterday adding more pics and updating the Christmas Market pages over on my site, MaddyBell.com

Merry Christmas,Happy Solest & a Happy New Year Too All My Little & Big Sister's & Brother's On Big Closet.I'm trying my best to not have a brake down right now so I thought I write this Blog & say what I have said

Well it is that time of year again. I hope that everyone is going to have a great time this Christmas, my sympathies to those that won't

I have revised my short story Winter Journey (Click here), so if you have already read it, give it another shot. This is getting to be one of my favorites and I have enjoyed writing it and I hope you enjoy it.

This is part of a facebook note my wife just wrote to Air France:

Um,

if you are a Titans fan DON'T watch the TV.

The current score with aprox 4+ miinutes to go is 55 to ZERO. And Green Bay has the 55.

GB han't had that many points since 1983.

I was sent this link... It appealed to my warped sense of humour.. It is in English, but the Scottish variety. (Sub titles available)

can't recall much, other then it's a boy, who wants to be a girl but as the story progresses, it is found out that he had been born intersexed and at 1 or 2 the family decided he should be a boy. and his sister knew of him as a girl and the father leaves, but comes back in the end

Well, last night, we had our Christmas dinner, and it was wonderful. There was a moment, when my daughter was on one side of me, my mom on the other, my brother and sister behind, and the dog in front, and I realized just how blessed I am, that here I was, literally surrounded by love, even in the midst of my transition which gives my family fits.

Once upon a time, I created a character named Fluke and described her as "the luckiest woman alive" but I think that title really belongs to me instead.

Daniel is the artist on the webcomics I work on, Quillian and Sam Valentine. He's also a sculptor of some skill. He did these beautiful little figurines of the characters Alistair and Zook from the strip I write and draw myself, Alistair2Zook. Click on the image to go to the (partial) online archive of the strip.

Simply put, because it is bogus. It's exactly like criticizing a story for having a sex change in it. "Fresh Start" stories appeal to some people but not to all, so it is appropriate to decide that if a story has an theme or element that you do not enjoy, then you weren't the target audience for the story.

We have an enormous body of talent with all of the author's here at BCTS. A few days ago, I discovered further proof of this talent when I found this wonderful story by Rebecca Anderson: http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/title-page/4718/wild-horses-re...

I do not normally make blog posts, preferring to give kudos and the occasional comment; but after reading Wild Horses, I cannot remain silent.

Happy Holidays and Merry Christmas for everyone who wants it! This is just a friendly note letting everyone know I'm still more or less active, but like so many having a bit of trouble. Personal issues along with yet another computer going belly up on me has sapped my creative energies. Fortunately I managed to save most of my work, I think/hope!, but the odds of me finishing either one of the two Christmas Contest stories I'm working on are getting rather long.

I will try, but no promises.

Serious business this. Twenty years of Wiggledom.

One of these days, I'm going to get used to being seen as a woman. But, today, it still gave me a little thrill when I got referred to by a complete stranger as "she" even though I was in a pretty shapeless coat, pants, and hadn't shaved.

This is odd and I don't know why I'm the only one who has realized that its happened.

My daughter hasn't been well for weeks, when the symptoms began to include muscle weakness and coordination problems my ex and I decided to speed up the referral to a consultant by going privately. My fears were confirmed when she received confident diagnosis of Multiple Sclerosis. We're still awaiting a confirmation by MRI and lumbar puncture.

So Christmas is a bit of an irrelevance this year.

Angharad.

For your holiday pleasure or need for nerdiness: This relates to a recent story, but also any story with small or shrinking beings/characters. This is just biophysics, no magic used!   The first part was written for something else.

Found this on Yahoo!!

For those of you that can use a laugh. http://screen.yahoo.com/flip-side-dating-000000612.html

And I feel fiiiiiiiiinnnnnnneeeeeee

I'm trying finish Antifreeze for the contest. I've had several delays last week and a power failure so I'm behind and need to catch up so I might be unable to comment on all the wonderful things being said. Just know any comment made between now and then are HUGELY appreciated.
*Great Big Hugs All!*
Bailey

Oh great my buttons have just gone into the negative zone.

I'm now at T minus and counting.

Today I am celebrating my 7th Birthday as a legal woman. I remember that day well. I got up that morning and felt like a weight had been lifted. I dressed in my red skirtsuit heels, hose, blonde wig and did my makeup and then drove to the courthouse for my name change hearing. Standing there hearing the bailiff call me by my male name, knowing how I looked, was a little nerve wracking. The best look I got was from our family attorney who was there representing another client. It was priceless!

I just stumbled across news that Brandy DeWinter has a pair of new stories up. The links are http://www.tigger-n-brandy.net/brandy/nightwind_tnb_format3....
and

Well, I just got home from seeing the psychologist about doing the day program in the new year, and it went well. For now, the plan is that I would join the groups on my days off, and we'll go from there.

Baby steps, baby steps ....

http://movies.yahoo.com/blogs/movie-talk/why-jamie-foxx-chan...

He wanted to be mistaken as a woman.

It has happened again, so maybe it's time to stop thinking that it is a coincidence. This is the second time in 2 weeks and it still gives me hope that I can pass.

Today I spoke up on the lack of recognition of FtMs within this community. In response I was told that my concerns were silly, and I also witnessed a rather sexist remark. I found this to be insulting and hurtful, both personally AND impersonally.

I believed that this community was intended as a place for ALL people with some form of gender dysphoria.
Today I see one that caters exclusively to MtFs, and permits sexist remarks towards men.

(Sorry about that - accidently copy/pasted the wrong thing)

Last night, I had a bit of a flashback, and coming out of it I found myself shaking with anger.

Story comments, in case anyone wondered, are for commentary on the story and the writing thereof. They are not for speculation on whether the author had the right to post the story, or for guesses about the writer's political opinions, mental states or educational status. Nor are they for inflammatory comments about current social climates or current affairs. Note the qualifier there, inflammatory.

Hi folks,

Well everything has been sorted out as well as it can be and I am now settling in after moving to the other side of the country. I am now getting organized and settled in my apartment in Montreal and trying to get an internet connection and such sorted out here. What does this mean for all of you? Well now I have some more time to relax and write and I am almost finished the next chapters of both Bloodlines and Trial and Heiress.

I've been watching comments from people over the years on stories, and some of the comments are accurately pointing out deficiencies in stories - either things that were implied but not obviously so, or things that could have been added for more description. As an example, I did revise "Customer Service" to add fix for Alison, and it was well received. After posting Dear Jenny, I had to do a small revision to Cousin Trouble to get it to sync up with the story line.

I lost my voice at work last night. Even swallowing hurt. I'm hoping this goes away soon ....

After some sage advice from someone on the site, I've decided I'm going to try writing the whole story or in this case, the rest of the story before I post any new chapters. So depending on how long that takes, it might be a while before there's a new chapter of it up here. I'm not saying there isn't going to be any new stories from me in a while, I might throw up a Non-Underappreciated One shot here and there...maybe a Christmas story as well. I did a lot of soul searching the other day after writing my last blog and decided that my Ego is a Big Jerk and I'm NOT listening to him anymore :)

If you couldn't log on earlier this morning, there was a corrupted users table, due to an earlier crash. It's fixed now. :)

Hugs,
Erin

I just get really sick of hearing about some disaster or something every few years. Now, I know people who are freakin about the Mayan Calendar thing. Sigh. I just want to shake my head.

I'm watching "A Muppet Christmas Carol", and its as good now as it ever was.

who helps keep Top Shelf online and working for all of us who depend on it.

for an early present from one of my favorite authors and lookee here. Not one, but two!
http://www.tigger-n-brandy.net/brandy/nightwind_tnb_format3....

today in the world of sport is that the 101st edition of the Grande Boucle,

to the families of the children killed by a gunman at Sandy Hook school in Newton, Connecticut earlier today. I can't begin to understand the pain and heart ache they must be feeling and so close to Christmas.

I just feel so sad.

Angharad

I had given up on my previous endocrinologist, with good riddance. Two of the three visits I made to her office I left feeling pretty bad about myself, and I was already pretty low. Anyone that has been tracking my blogs know that I was pretty near to giving up on life.

Hello,
For those of you who remember April Ashley from the 1960’s here is a lovely article about her receiving her MBE yesterday,
Here’s the link:

so too tired to think about writing, besides, you had two from me yesterday.

Hopefully, Bike will be back tomorrow.

Angharad

I promised myself--and all of you--that I wouldn't talk about my story or the contest again here, but as with most of my promises, it was a far easier thing to make than to keep.

But I do have a good reason for breaking my promise. I've been spending the last few days--in between medical appointments, Christmas parties, and personal responsibilities--trying to pull together some 17,000 words of story fragments into something coherent. I have enough material in a decent-enough state of completion for the first two installments. From the looks of things, my little story is going to be a novella before I'm through, if not a full-fledged novel.