Been doing a lot of thinking on the subject of my attraction to men, but I'm not sure I've made a lot of progress except coming up with 3 ideas:
1. It is what it is. It might give me a bit of the willies, but I have to be able to acknowledge its existence at the very least.
2. Just cause I feel it, doesnt mean I'm going to do anything about it. I'm not really "on the market" as it were, and that wont change quickly as the final dissolution of my marriage is beyond my financial reach.
3. That being said, I'm lonely, and I ache for some human contact, and I almost dont care which gender it was as long as they made me feel safe. But in my current situation doesnt allow for it, so I will just have to cuddle my dog more, I guess
Ah, well.
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Hug
(Cuddle)(cuddle)(cuddle). Best I can do from this far away but I truly understand.
Well,
if you pursue your attraction to men to a certain level, you will CERTAINLY get the willies. ;) Unless the men are FtMs.
Will long distance Cat-Person contact do? = )
long distance Cat-person contact is a wonderful thing
hugs and purrs, hon.
Unsettled about sexual attraction; hogging the covers!
Well this attraction that you do or do not feel is a very complex thing, and I do not think you should worry about it as these things tend to work themselves out. In the before time, I was attracted only to my wife, full stop. For 40 years it was like that. At times I would entertain a strange fantasy in that whilst doing the act, I would imagine that I was the woman. Hmmm
So, in January of 2005 when I firmly began to live as a woman, I knew I was a woman but I did not find men desireable. Then I tried to figure out who I was? Was I a lesbian? Well, the fact was that due to my years of abuse by men, my hatred for them overcame any desire I might feel for them. Years later, having made peace with the past, and having met many kind and gentle men, my keeness for them sort of kindled. Speaking in a Freudian sense, am I attracted to men, or do I simply want a father?
So recently, I've been wanting a teddy bear, and much to my surprise, a friend gave me one. One night I dreampt that my lovely Teddy was being all handsy to me, and I liked it!
So yesterday, while in Target, I bought a body pillow and pillow case. They are cheap. And yes the body pillow seemed to hog the covers. I sort of giggled as I pushed my back into him and grabbed the covers firmly. Hmmmm maybe I'm a candidate for the nut hatch?
Gwendolyn
Watch Out
Gwen (and maybe Dottie), inflatable dolls might be next!
Hugs and Bright Blessings,
Renee
The notion of being treated like a lady ...
Growing up, I was never attracted to men even though I yearned to be a girl. But strangely enough, the more I began to identify as a female, the more appealing it became to be treated like a lady by a man.
I have always been attracted to women. And the two great loves of my life have been women. But, now that I am a woman, charming men who respect woman are now suddenly attractive to me. And I was even in short relationship with one for a short while. Didn't work out, but it was fun.
For the first time in my life, I can honestly if a man sweeps me off my feet, the next love of my life could be him.
It's really weird I have those feelings now. I'd have said no a few years ago.
For what it's worth,
Torey