Been thinking about my attraction to men

Been doing a lot of thinking on the subject of my attraction to men, but I'm not sure I've made a lot of progress except coming up with 3 ideas:

1. It is what it is. It might give me a bit of the willies, but I have to be able to acknowledge its existence at the very least.

2. Just cause I feel it, doesnt mean I'm going to do anything about it. I'm not really "on the market" as it were, and that wont change quickly as the final dissolution of my marriage is beyond my financial reach.

3. That being said, I'm lonely, and I ache for some human contact, and I almost dont care which gender it was as long as they made me feel safe. But in my current situation doesnt allow for it, so I will just have to cuddle my dog more, I guess

Ah, well.