When I usually talk about my negative self talk, aka "Mr. Nasty", its a "tape" of my various failures.

But sometimes, I get a "tape" that's much, much worse.

This "tape" is connected to my rapes, and the word it uses to describe me isn't "failure".

It's "Evil".

The reason I'm bringing it up now is that I spent most of last night trying to fight off that "tape".

So I think Team Dorothy to come to my rescue again.

Send words of encouragement, praise, or just send a hug if you can.

Thank you in advance.

I feel like I'm living in a waking nightmare.

I was wondering if anyone knew if these couple authors were still active or not. Zoe Taylor, Ashley McGreagor, Dark Kitten of the "Becoming Robin" series and spinoffs. And Susan Brown of the "Home Alone" series? Oh, and Jennifer Sue of A Summer's Odessy"?
I've recently downloaded the books on Kindle, and reread them, but all stories hinted at more to come.

Like I said I was wondering if anyone knew if they were still active or not?

I wrote TWO stories on here, years ago, predicting Trump trying for a dictatorship (Choices,choices and Emily's Strange Life). Do I get kudos or was it just obvious all along?

For various reasons it has beeen five years since I last contributed to this site (other than lurking in the background, reading stories and awarding kudos). How quickly time passes! I have, however, continued to write but in each case have run out of ideas after 20,000 or so words. I have just posted the first chapter of a new story. I have so far written 29,000 words and have an idea of where it will go after that, so I will post one chapter a week with reasonable confidence (d.v.) that I will be able to complete the story.

Louise

Just to let other writers and readers know that I recently tested positive for covid-19. I have a heart condition, borderline diabetes, age, covid-pneumonia to make things interesting. I am doing well as I am taking an antibiotic to help my lungs and had an infusion of a medicine that is to help me fight this as well.
Besides feeling blah and bored I m doing well.
The Big Closet family is important to me. Your thoughts mean a lot. MY heart and prayers for others with the disease, quarantining themselves and medical people.

Hugs, Jessie C

well, I just learned that the girl I helped look after for several years, who I left due to the fact her parents openly put me down and she didn't object, passed away two years ago.

I mostly feel like another opportunity for me to make amends is gone.

meanwhile, my mom is calmer, but also eating less, so things are not looking good here.

hugs appreciated, folks

Hey everyone,

An article from the Guardian which may be thought-provoking or even helpful to some. It suggests we are often too harsh on ourselves and that in order to be more kind to others we need to show ourselves a little more compassion. With the current situation of lockdowns, economic problems and risk of illness, it may be an interesting read.

https://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2021/jan/06/silence...

Since my mother has begun to suffer from dementia, she has been constantly worried that the place is on fire.

We couldn't figure out why, until I remembered her telling me that when she was a small child the cabin she and her family were living in caught on fire, and she had to help get the kids.

which has me wondering if there is a connection between dementia and PTSD. And whether I'm going to be reliving my rapes if I get dementia as well ...

I hope anyway.........

I am at the bottom of my cycle this week, and the corresponding depression and tears started yesterday, but this month it is much worse than normal.

To the Core: Book II is now for sale on Amazon

To the Core: Book II

second time I've seen it down here.

I'm glad to report I've nearly finished working on my New Year's gift to you...

so its been a good news/bad news situation here.

the good news is my mom is eating a little bit more, although it's still probably below or at best at the daily minimum.

the bad news is her anxiety has increased to the point she can't be left alone, even while in bed.

sighs . . .

I had hoped to post the first installment of the next Masks serial today. However, "things happened" over the holidays (nothing majorly bad and a few things good, including some nice presents) and I'm only about halfway to the planned final length. I only just got my main villain of the piece completely fleshed out this morning! (He has connections to Rasputin, with some of my inspiration from Doc Savage and a bunch of other sources.)

The Megitsune has me thoroughly in her grip. I have become part of The ONE. I'm not complaining. I enjoy kawaii metal. It has greatly broadened my horizons! How many know that of which I speak?

We all grow up hearing the same thing as kids, "Hard work pays off." What if it doesn't?

And to help pass the rest of the day or maybe a bit of tomorrow, I've put up 'new' Gaby.

As far as new stories go, I'm in the midst of setting up a story in my mind, but haven't put the pen to paper at this time. I have been doing a lot of proofing of my older stories as I intend to publish them during the next year. I'm thinking of reposting some of the stories that make up the Cynthia Chronicles here. I feel a couple of them are pretty good and will leave the readers feeling good. Besides working on my antique business, I don't have much else to do. I retired completely at the beginning of the pandemic.

Just thought I'd ask here about new movies and shows that released this year all of you enjoyed.
I saw "Wolfwalkers" and definitely enjoyed it though the animation wasn't as polished as I like. The story and heart was there though and reminded me of what Disney use to be in Western animation. You can see it on Apple+.
Also just saw "Promising Young Woman" a smart revenge flick on sexual abuse, the main character who turns the tables on men in pick up spots. Worth a watch.

My second Center book is up on Kindle. I've changed names and organizations to fit things for my own canon.

https://www.amazon.com/dp/B08RLBC78B

If this boy identified as a girl would it be a violation of the code?
https://www.esquire.com/style/grooming/a35025053/trevor-wilk...

Posting author oversight corrected.

I apologize for failing to tag it as complete. It is indeed complete and is now tagged as such.

Again a reminder One Dozen Roses has an interactive Table of Contents. You can read one story at a time and go back to it and jump to the next story by clicking on the title of the next story. Try it here.

well, I got good news and bad news.

the good news is mom finally was able to keep something down, even if it was just a small cup of rice pudding, a liquid yogurt, and 4 spoonfuls of broccoli soup. she also has been given a new medicine which may help keep things going in a good direction.

Bad news is I'm headed in the opposite direction, as a crippling depression snuck up on me tonight.

sighs, keep sending hugs ...

I'm starting Special FX here on BC this week while the advanced storyline is running on Patreon.

Billy Jones was a flim student and extra before the Special FX camera turned him into a blonde bombshell named Hallelujah!

Yep, we return to the normal posting regime today.

Out of curiosity, Is it easiest to write about a deeply flawed, even perhaps handicapped protagonist, or one who is nearly perfect, and very high IQ?

Gwen

December 26th is traditionally the holiday known as Boxing Day in most of the English-speaking world. In the US, it's a minor moment for after Christmas sales but elsewhere it may rival Black Friday for the retail world.

But originally, Boxing Day was when wealthy people gave gifts to servants, tradesmen and charities. It became a time for people to think of others less fortunate than themselves before morphing into a bargain-hunting monument to personal consumerism.

In my story, "Hot and Steamy", one of the characters is a former Industrial Steam Loco called 'Lucy'.
https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/book-page/82210/hot-and-steamy
Little did I know when I wrote the tale that there is a small steam loco called Lucy residing on the NYMR (North Yorkshire Moors Railway). This Lucy is a formed Brussels Tramway Loco.

Strange coincidence or what?

May I wish each and everyone at BC a happy Christmas and hope that 2021 turns out to be a lot better than this.

There is a tradition involving fruitcakes which most folks currently alive are unaware of. Yes, people make fruitcakes for eating, often with whiskey of some sort, perhaps even with a small amount inside the container so that the fumes enrich the cake. However, these are not the fruitcakes traditionally given as gifts. Even if the tradition is no longer remembered by most of the people who follow it.

Scientific papers are sometimes hard to read but this one is kinda interesting.

I posted WunderGirl 4 on BC early. I'm going to be busy tomorrow and Friday...with family. YES! I will be safe--and I hope the same for all of you!

The chapter is a short one, in any case. But I hope you enjoy it.

More so, I hope you enjoy your Holidays...Christmas, Hanukah, or whatever they may be. May they be peaceful, safe, and all that you wish for!

HUGS!
Shauna

Today has been one of the hardest days I've had in a long time. Last night my therapist went over the whole adoption situation for the first time since the anniversary is on Thursday. She had to have told me at least a dozen times that no piece of that blame pie was mine. I know she's right there was nothing I did wrong to cause what happened. In a way it was easier to blame myself because it wouldn't hurt as bad. Since then though my mind has changed and being honest I've been crying all day over that lost time and how it could've been spent.

It’s alive! It’s alive!

No, it’s not a Frankenstein Monster and it’s not “alive”.

It’s

And it’s LIVE.

The long awaited ONE DOZEN ROSES is live and available Here

So, I finally got around to renting The New Mutants last night. I would have liked to have seen it in the theater, but Covid put the brakes on that idea. However, I have been really looking forward to its release. (Anyone who gets my pen name would understand why.)

I didn't expect to actually squeal out loud (embarrassingly) when Illyana, played perfectly by Anya Taylor-Joy, responded to someone warning her that her opponent was magic by replying "So am I."

Yes, I'm a big, goofy dork. But I just had to share.

XOXO

~Samantha

Does anyone have a copy of Kaho's "A little fox tale"? It is not completely archived and was removed from BigCloset. I saw a blog where SammieT asked for it and TheAkashicTraveller replied that they had a copy. I asked because I cannot find it anywhere and it seems the new version was never finished. If you are TheAkashicTraveller and have the story I would thank you if you PM or if you send it to my email [email protected]

Thanks

Just finishing an essay around 30,000 words (just the typos and a sprinkling of continuity errors to put in)
Cannot decide on posting as a solo or splitting into series. Any thoughts?

Caution: referenced suicide attempt

First off, to anyone who's getting a little annoyed at all the Roses blogs, I understand. We are, as a group, collectively VERY excited about the project we've been working on, and the effort for some has been tremendous. So, bear with us for a couple more days, please, and I promise, you won't regret it.

This is a slightly modified version of a blog that was posted on my website.

Well, let my just start off by saying, there will not be any Legacy of Earth for the next two weeks, with Christmas and New Years two weekends in a row, I just don't think I'll have the time or desire to edit the next couple parts.

Sorry.

I want to take a few moments to say thank you to the authors (in no special order) who participated in the production of One Dozen Roses. First and foremost, I’d like to thank Melanie E. (AKA Rasufelle) for recruiting us into this fun and challenging project. One Dozen Roses was her brain child.

I think I can say that everyone had fun talking with each other and participating in this production. Everyone deserves kudos for their great stories in this series but none more than Trish who has not only pulled it all together, she has also created some excellent graphics to go with it!

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One Dozen Roses is 36,046 words long. Don't let that deter you. No need to read it all in one setting.

Each story is somewhere between 2000 words and 5000 words. It is possible to read one story at a time, close the file, come back and use the Table of Contents to jump to the next story.

Hello out there,

It was brought to my attention that the naming I was going for wasn't the best and I agree wholeheartedly. "Magnus and the Misfits" isn't a good name especially because it uses the main character's first name. He doesn't like his first name so I really don't want it in the title.

So, I've settled on a name. "Walker's Path"

I really like this name. It really showcases the direction I want to go with the story. I'm afraid that it might be a little too on the nose though.

Please let me know what you think?