Because I'm not a writer, usually the story and names are given to me. My only task is to transpose it to paper and ink. At times the names become so redundant instead of inspiring I seek to add my own flavor to the story which doesn't seem to antagonize those, whoever they are where the tales come from. Doing name searches on the net when a foreign name is needed helps. If it's a U.S. name I make a pass through the cemeteries taking note of the names and dates on headstones. It's unique as the names change from the older parts to the latest additions.

Looking for a story

Set up a 24 hour monitor of my blogger blog during the week. Several surprises in the country results which I’ve pasted below.
Especially surprised at the similar number of hits from US and pudding island in view of the differing population numbers.

https://ashleylazlo.blogspot.com/

Would be interesting to know how this compares to OP’s blog

Two of my recent posts have disappeared. It is sad that the readership is seen as so fragile that they can not stand an honest opinion.

What ever.

Gwen

Why I have not been writing much if at all.

Well to start off lets go back a few years.

Since 2014 I have had to deal with emotion turmoil.

first my step mother came down with stage four lung cancer. She did not last long and it tore my dads heart in two.

His health deteriorated moved into a seniors residence.

my cousin shot himself in the head with a nail gun, on purpose. took him a year to die.

my uncle passed away in may of 2016 and in june of 2016 my father passed away. His heart just gave out ..alone in his room. It hurts.

It truly would.

I could wait until my parents are gone and take a bottle of painkillers or muscle relaxers from their room. By the time they got home it would be done.

I could break into my dad's gun cabinet. Glass doors are only a deterrent when the person getting in is worried about damaging them, and what would I care, given the end goal?

I could simply walk out to his shop. A rope from the rafters, or his chain wench, or any of the various knives, power tools, and so on, depending on how much I wanted to make myself suffer.

As it could be upsetting to some.

Some time back, I posted about having a mole removed from my back and finding out it was melanoma. So, after seeing an oncological surgeon, she sent me for a PET scan. My PET scan came back negative, which was of course great news - but there was of course the fact that my mole still tested out as stage four melanoma. After the PET scan, this was reclassed to stage three based on the results of the scan.

well okay, maybe not but today is distinctly cooler and damper!

Back in 2019, something happened with my depression medication. We still don't know if it was the pharmacy or the psychiatrist that was at fault, or both, but somehow my depression medication went from 60 mg to 0 then way up to 100 mg. This caused me to completely whig out.

The 30th will mark the second anniversary of actually allowing someone to crack open my skull to remove a meningioma from my brain. I suppose the benefits of it being gone outweigh the problems I had before it was removed, but there are times it's hard to see how.

I used to sit down and compose music with no trouble, but now, I find that the creativity just isn't there. I can orchestrate a pre-existing piece, certainly, but to make something new doesn't seem possible.

This is not my own, unfortunately. The late, great Raymond Smullyan may have created it.

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Boy -- Proposes Marriage to Girl.

I wish!

In case anybody was wondering how my writing is going, here is an update.

I can't even get near my latest story idea cause its way too triggering right now
which leaves me with a sequel I'm blocked on, an essay nobody will care about, a D&D story that is simply not working, and TTSD 4 and 5, which are also at a standstill.

so bottom line, nothing is gonna come out for a bit, sorry.

When a roughneck from an oil rig takes a new job, he may have found a new sort of rabbithole to disappear into...

...and he won't be coming back from

Been doing a bit of self care stuff the last couple of days. I got a brace for my knee, and got my hearing checked, which showed my hearing has declined, but probably not enough to be worth buying hearing aids.

I'm also still really struggling, so hugs appreciated.

I have considered using Grammarly but do not wish to be drawn into something that might steal my ideas, or milk me for more money than is reasonable. Does anyone have experience with them?

Gwen

It's a big day, because Doppler Press have just posted the first of what I hope will be a series of collections of my stories on Amazon Kindle
The link is: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B093B7Y6BK
Thanks to Erin and the team at Doppler Press and to Sigh for some edits and the foreword, at to Bronwen for all of her tireless editing work.

So as the title of this blog alludes to, I'm finally close to filing my legal name change.

I managed to change my gender marker in New Jersey and I've been waiting to get my birth certificate changed till I also had my name change so that I only have to pay one fee to the state of California (where I was born).

OK. I guess I just can't help myself.

Privilege/Class/Social Inequalities Explained in a $100 Race
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4K5fbQ1-zps

We need to work on the big problems and stop wasting our time polishing the chrome on this rusted out old Edsel.

We're so pleased to be with you, look around see what you do

I have always been a fan of Richard Dawkins for his no-nonsense attitude to myths and superstition, science works on evidence not 'imaginary friends'. It appears he feels the same about transgender people which has led the American Humanist Association to withdraw an award they gave him 1996, as humanist of the year.

Recently broke the 2000 likes barrier for my serial 'The PA'. Quite chuffed. Many thanks everyone for your support.

Gill xx

Today is April 19th. Twenty-six years ago today, at 9:02 AM a truck bomb, constructed by disgruntled ultra right wingers Timothy McVeigh and Terry Nichols, was detonated in front of the Alfred P. Murrah Federal Bldg in Oklahoma City. 168 people, including 19 children, were killed in the attack.

We Okies made a solemn vow after the bombing. This vow has been used other times in other incidents, but we will honor it every year.

The insights and life experiences of these girls is worth noting.

The LA Times recently caught up with Gottmik and Symone, now vying for the “Drag Race” title... we can all learn from their experiences and unique insight into drag.

Some of the questions: How has drag helped you grow? - What makes your drag representative of the L.A. scene? - Why is activism an important facet of your drag? -

todays issue is jam packed with news.

I stumble down the stairs and find Jules and Sam in the kitchen giggling. “Good morning…girls…what’s going on?” I’m still getting used to calling Sam…antha…a “girl.” Not that I have…much…doubt…anymore.

In case you are unaware, Battle for Earth, the prequel to this series is now available on Amazon Kindle. Please consider supporting me if you enjoy my work.

Legacy of Earth: Genesis Ghost from the Past By Daniela A. Wolfe After recalling the events following her grandmother's passing, Kayde finds she needs to blow off some steam. Khala is all too happy to oblige.

Hey everyone,

It's been a really rough week and a half since I last blogged. I've been having trouble fighting off the anxiety and depression, I've had hope given and taken away again on the medical front, and now I have a terrible cold on top. I've really tried to write chapters this week, but I just haven't had the spoons for it. Sorry everyone, but I'm going to head back to bed and hope that I can shake all of this off.

*big hugs to you all*

Amethyst

Be very very careful checking out text messages. Received a text message with the return add coming from .hotmail. Didn't open it, and did a search on the web sing4.us. It is a porno site. Never linked on to it but getting close they dropped four cookies on me along with adding two more web sites to my surfing history. So much for add blockers, java blocker along with virus filters. Dug in and erased all of off and out of my computer. If by any stretch of the imagination my computer was seized because someone swated me, there would be no history or records of getting close to a porno site.

[Content Warning: Depression, Despair]

Not long ago it was suggested that people should quit blogging about political matters. The suggestion went on to opine that if a person wanted to make a political point that should be done through fiction. . .which is the mission of this site.

I’ve always enjoyed a good dystopian story such as Nineteen Eighty-Four, Handmaid’s Tale, Brave New World, Animal Farm, Hunger Games, Welcome to the Monkey House, or Atlas Shrugged.

Those are great stories about society run amok.

Hi hi. I'm looking for two stories that would like to read again. I believe both of them are posted on BCTS.

For the first story a kid transitions and goes to a new high school as a girl. She gets involved with the band and/or media department. She creates some songs which she submits to be played on the school radio. Her father is a music producer who has a studio underneath the garage. Eventually many of her friends wind up being invited to the studio where they make and record music. Some of her songs make it onto radio stations.

I mentioned part of this a month ago on Facebook, but not here. So I'll go ahead with the whole announcement.

Late in December, after getting over COVID, I was diagnosed with prostate cancer. Just having a prostate was bad enough, but it had to grow a cancer as well. Early in March, the doctor and I agreed on surgery to remove it.

I watched "Deep Impact" last night and found it so moving that I deeply wept until I thought I might pass on. I finally consoled myself sufficiently to gain some dignity back. I doubt that the movie will get awards but parts of it touched on things that inflamed Abandonment Issues and other things.

I've seen a few movies that carry the story to a sort of conclusion, but as I think about them, I have seen no sequels. I am very unfamiliar with so called "Fan Fic", so know nothing of the danger areas. Most certainly, I do not want to get anyone into trouble.

Carlos Maza posted a video a bit ago about dealing with things that can't be controlled. I found it cathartic if not exactly helpful. Maybe you might too.: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iJaE_BvLK6U&t=0s

Short quiz for those who casually think about speed when they are driving or even when they see a vehicle speed by. Maybe they don't give it any thought.

Wolfjess' Speedway Demons brought to mind something I have contemplated since I was little. Only we are going to ramp up the speed from so long ago.
1: A vehicle is traveling at 200 mph. For simplicity's sake discount tire slippage on the surface.
2: How fast is the apex (top) of the tire traveling?
3. How fast is the bottom of the tire traveling where it fully contacts the surface?

Okay so yesterday Mike and Carol bought a new dining room set, and in order to get it in the house, we used a device called a "forearm forklift" you put these straps under the table, and then the other end around your forearms, and lift it in.

I was less helpful than I wish I could have been, a consequence of my non-athletic lifestyle, but we did manage to get it in,

But last night, I noticed I had a line of bruises across my forearms and for a second couldn't figure out how I had gotten them until I remembered the forearm forklift.

Moose returns to find Dolly tied up on the bed. Will he take advantage of the gift Bonnie left for him?

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A big thank you to the readers of Wild Irish Rose and the the anthology "One Dozen Roses", it means a lot to me and the writers of the anthology.

I was given the prompt for Wild Irish Rose by Patricia Marie Allen, so I wish to thank her for that.

Today marks the beginning of Genesis, Part 2 of Legacy of Earth.

In case you are unaware, Battle for Earth, the prequel to this series is now available on Amazon Kindle. Please consider supporting me if you enjoy my work.

Legacy of Earth: Genesis Bloodborne By Daniela A. Wolfe Several weeks after her grandmother's passing, Kayde is still struggling to come to grips with the repercussions.

Thinking about returning to wearing a collar to feel more safe.

I've met, well read the stories of and messaged with, many wonderful authors here at BCTS. One of them in particular had a large impact on me. Her name is Elsbeth.

Kissy watches Rory's ball game and makes a few moves of her own.

Updated
4/7/2021 8:31 PM
Kristal Larson's election to township clerk in central Lake County is being celebrated by proponents of LGBTQ rights across the Chicago area and the nation.

Larson, chosen by voters Tuesday as Avon Township's next clerk, is the first openly transgender candidate to win elected office in Lake County and only the second in Illinois' history. Larson previously served as an Avon Township trustee but was not openly transgender at that time.

In an interview with the i newspaper, author, Torrey Peters tells of the transphobia she experienced since being long-listed for a women's book prize.

https://inews.co.uk/culture/torrey-peters-detransition-baby-...