Well. Over the weekend, I found that my cousin, who I take care of, had a sore on his toes.

He's had problems with this foot for as long as I've taken care of him, and he's lost 2 of the toes because of frostbite and diabetes.

Thankfully, he has no feeling in that foot, but it's a problem as well. He's developmentally disabled, and thinks, since his foot doesn't hurt, it's fine. He also has no comprehension of sweets being bad for him, and it's always been a problem keeping his glucose level down.

new story up: https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/89447/conviction

For some strange reason, the text of Babs' New Year's Resolution 78 seems to have dropped off my page . The title pops up but the text beneath is missing.

so I got a sleep study done last night, which basically forced me to have a shower today.

Showers are my bane. but personal care in general is always a struggle.

The shower thing is a legacy of my stepfather, I suspect the other stuff is a mix of causes.

Just got to keep fighting, I guess

as they say in Niedersachsen

Dr. Rachael Levine has been confirmed by the U.S. Senate as assistant secretary of Health and Human Services. She is the first openly transgender woman to hold a cabinet-level post.

Here is the link for the NPR site: https://tinyurl.com/42fva5z7

Richard Alexander and Joel Messenger are about to have an encounter with the Devil in Drag.

so Shylo At AffirmingMinistries has asked me to be a speaker at a livestream for International Day Against Homophobia, Transphobia & Biphobia. It will be held on May 17th, 2021 from 2:30-3:30pm.

My talk will be livestreamed on both the Affirming Ministries and Robertson-Wesley United Church Facebook Pages. The stream will be recorded and posted on additional social media for both ministries such as Instagram and Youtube.

I'm amazed and staggered to be considered for such a thing.

or is that first?

Kissy's life is complicated but so much fun!

Now on BC, in Butterscotch 37, Princess Kissy is introduced to the ladies at the salon... and to her date!

And for a glimpse into the future, Butterscotch 40 on Patreon features Kissy telling the other girls about her adventures in middle school!

In case you are unaware, Battle for Earth, the prequel to this series is now available on Amazon Kindle. Please consider supporting me if you enjoy my work.

Sorry for another late posting, my mother fell last night and I spent the evening checking in on her and helping her out. She's banged up, but I think she should be fine.

Legacy of Earth: Birthright A Good Frisking By Daniela A. Wolfe A trip through security hits a snag and Kayde finds herself at the mercy of spaceport security agents.

I am sorry about the non-appearance of the latest chapter. I have been admitted to the local hospital for observation following chest pains. The next three chapters are written but are on my desktop machine. I will update when I can. Louise

Well, I promised to relate my experience with the Moderna vaccine, so here goes. This is better than 2 1/2 days since I was vaccinated.

Day One Vaccinated at 6:30 AM CDT. The nurse was excellent, I didn't feel a thing. This was at the local Wal-Mart so after the waiting time (15 minutes) was up I decided to do a little shopping. Got home about 10 AM. All during this time I only had a small amount of pain in my upper arm, left arm BTW.

So I saw an internist today because my doctor was concerned about me having a high white blood cell count, and I got some good news.

First, my BP today is 107/70, which is fantastic.

Second, my white blood cell count has been going up and down, from above 15 to 11.7 (11 is normal), so odds are its not anything like cancer.

The internist is sending me for some more tests, but for now, I'm gonna call this a win.

The new WunderTeen line is coming out, and Samantha has a backstory.

I, after several years, noticed that I had forgotten to post all of the chapters of "I Need To Remember." so I will post them this week.

The story includes a visit to "Silks" a lesbian nightclub and I have posted elsewhere several "Tales From Silks" stories.

They are all non-TG stories and I'm not sue whether to post them here. Please let me know what you think.

Ahaz

Interesting read

https://thomasmcbee.medium.com/trans-history-you-never-learn...

WW

The amnesiac girl from the beach tries to dry her hair. It's funnier than that sounds. :)

well i think i was!

The battle lines have been drawn, will I or Amazon be the victors?

My problem is that Amazon seems to object to my books living anywhere else on the internet. This isn't a new issue, and many published authors have hit the same problem, but usually it is a simple issue to fix.

Not this time, I loaded Testing Times onto Kindle a week back and that took a day to be authorised, but it's the paperback that's giving me trouble. To be honest, I'm only putting a paperback option on Amazon for completeness (plus so I can have a dead-tree edition on my bookshelf!)

No one must sacrifice everything just to make a donation. It would be wrong to give one's meal ticket if it meant they had to do without. But that is what I'm going to suggest. Daddy always told me to watch the pennies because the dollars will take care of themselves. Give that one some thought. Daddy was a very smart person. BCTS has a physical address (mailing address) listed. If one could drop five dollars in an envelope and send it. If you don't think it counts, think again. It counts very very much. Add the numbers and say a hundred people do the same. Are we getting there?

Well, I emailed my coming out letter to my mother's email address, I heard back from my mother and her initial response was pretty hostile and well not exactly ideal. She actually called me back a short time later and apologized, which shocked the hell out of me.

I had intended to tell my father after he got home from work... well... right about now, but I think I'm going to wait. My mothers turnabout seems very encouraging and I think I may be able to turn her into an ally. That'll make coming out to my father much easier. He's a Pro-trump conservative and very transphobic.

So I am sad to say, there will be no Legacy of Earth this weekend. This week I came out to my manager and tomorrow afternoon I plan on coming out to my parents. I just don’t have the energy or desire to get any editing done.

I do apologize and hope you have a delightfuly devious weekend,

P.S. Please wish me luck, I am nervous as hell about telling my parents.

If you know my story, you probably know the only way I could find to survive my childhood was to disassociate. To withdraw deep within myself, become as much of an empty shell as I could.

Well, this morning I had the urge to do so again, as strongly as I have had in decades.

My best guess as to why is a combo of a massive PTSD response to a serious depressive spike, with a bit of dysphoria thrown in for good measure.

I'm hanging on, but boy could I use a break from being me . . .

https://www.vice.com/en/article/y3g88m/viral-japanese-biker-...

Being a total recluse only partly because of Covid 19, I just find things to do that are pleasing to me. I write a fair amount of the time but most of that will never be seen by others. Lately I've been thinking about Art. Not the style of famous people, but most likely Native American Navajo and Shawnee Art. I have some plasticized art paper and I don't even know which side gets the art. I started to use colored markers but the fumes from them almost put me in a Coffin. So, now I have some Acrylics and have no idea what to do with them, or what side of the paper they go on either.

As seen today on McSweeney's: "Guys, I Swear I’m Only Transitioning So I Can Cheat at Girls’ Sports"

A humorous short monologue (probably rated PG-13) that reads like some stories I've seen before.

I'm working on my next story, after a bit of a train wreck on what I was working on.

In the meantime, I recommend this movie as thoroughly charming.

https://youtu.be/gj-X2U1z9rc

I find it fascinating how creativity can happen separately but synchronously.

Tonight, two stories posted back-to-back with remarkably similar premises. albeit one from each side of "The Pond."

I was messaging my therapist today, when it hit me that while I thought I had moved on from guilt about my rapes, apparently I have not.

You see, I told the doctor how I wanted to grow up to be as pretty as my mom, and that gave him the wedge he needed to break me utterly.

So if I had hid that truth, would I have been spared?

My mind knows the answer is no. He'd raped my brother and at least one of my cousins, if I had managed to convince him I was a regular boy I'd be no different than they were.

Here is the graphic for Secret CD courtesy of Patricia Marie Allen. It was not included in the story because of my ineptness with HTMl.

OK, false alarm.

I check a graphic heavy story (One Dozen Roses) and found all the graphics in place. That means they were still where they were supposed to be. So I poked around in the insert picture routine and found that some how Drupal had sent my search to the wrong folder. Sorry for crying wolf. Who knew there was more than one folder.????

I just watched a movie named Predestination (on Netflix). I won't give too much away or I will be spoiling.

It is a time travel story but its interest to many of us is that one of the central characters is born and grows up female and then becomes male. The part is played by the same actress, who received an award for her performance and, in my opinion, deservedly so.

It may not be to everybody's taste but I found it intriguing.

Whilst reading Chapter 7 of 'Emma and Sam' for posting, much to my horror I realized that I never finished it even though Chapter 8 was nearly done. Therefore I had to break it into two parts...something I hate doing. The second part of 7 is still being written. Meh... Andrea Lena has been of tremendous help in 'pulling me off the ceiling' during this process. Hopefully...by the good graces of the Gods and Goddesses, the second part will be read by this coming weekend.

So, in the course of my rambles about the Internet, I became aware of this

"Life As A Girl" (https://youtu.be/2MDctbl32UE) from 2018, 1 season (only 4 episodes) (I've only seen 2. English subtitled. Said to be on SOME Netflix, although evidently not the North American feed.)

Watching it, I find a bit of a mixed bag.

She is living and working as a female, only interested in female partners. "she wants to becomes a girl, hasn't done any thing about her body 'yet'".

but it is time for an albeit late, Maddy blog!

So last I had posted was before Dad came home for Hospice. Well, he passed away on January the 5th. Since then I have been dealing with the vultures in the family. I got my brother and his younger son both wanting to move in, but I can't afford to live here myself. I really can't afford to have them move in and not pay anything. My brother keeps insisting everything should be his, but dad did a living trust and gave me almost everything except his van, all because my brother only visited him once in the past 15 months.

So yesterday my new bed frame arrived, and with a little help from mom I was able to get it together, and throw the old frame out.

Not a difficult task perhaps, but considering my lack of stamina, my wonky leg, and my even more wonky brain, I feel like it counts as a reasonable adulting accomplishment

Sorry for not doing my stories...I'm trying to set the towns (with all my stories) into the same area....Trying to do a map of my storyverse (Mostly Connecticut and Maine, but got Florida in one of my (non-tg) stories, too. I'm doing a map of the towns in my stories...

Gone, but not forgotten, yet?

There are a few websites that have ceased to function in my Bookmarks, my question is, are they gone permanently?

Bev's Balcony
Sapphire's Place
Stardust
I Know, I Know, but... (Joy Phillip's site)

Just wondering if I should delete them, so if anyone can confirm they are officially history, it would be appreciated.
Loving Hugs, Talia (Taarpa)

The past several weeks have been......... well, let’s say interesting. You remember the old Chinese curse about living in interesting times? Yeah......... interesting.

A few years ago I noticed a mole on the back of my left shoulder, just above the scapula. It was unfortunately in a location that was visible in certain styles of clothing (annoyingly and unflatteringly so), and over time it became large enough that it occasionally caught on my bra strap or rubbed on my clothing uncomfortably.

Have been re-reading Jan Morris’s wonderful memoir “Thinking Again”
She was an inspiration to many of us from that era when things were somewhat more challenging than they are nowadays.

She underwent surgery back in 1972 but before that as James Morris, she was a member of the 1953 British Mount Everest expedition, which made the first ascent of the mountain.

I've done something like this before but no one bothered to check it out. Well, Our President JUST signed the stimulus/covid relief bill into law!!!! As of 11:11 today!!! Go to the url I'm providing to get info on how to apply for OTHER things like EIDL loans and GRANTS as well as PUA/FPUC and Unemployment extensions!

And deeper in debt. Today is my birthday, and in a few weeks I'll have clocked fifteen years as a member here on BC.

_Face desks._

Ok, it's been a long, long, long, long, long, long time and I'm sorry for that.

While I haven't managed to catch COVID, I've been busy with mental health, finances and other survival issues, including a two-week spate of homelessness last year (don't worry, it was the white version of homelessness not 'living off the street').

So last night, I broke my bed. I'm trying to not let Mr. Nasty get me about it, but I could use hugs

There seems to be a misconception that some Dr. Seuss books have been banned and that the US Government is responsible.

THIS IS NOT TRUE.

The books are not banned and it has nothing to do with the US Government despite attempts to make it appear so by some so-called conservative politicians.

The books in question are still available but the family company that controls the publishing has decided that in today's society some of the characterisations may appear racist and so they have decided not to sell any more of those particular books.