Found a couple of nice dresses at Target online. Got my new sundress last week, and a skater dress arrived today.

They fit, look okay, but they'd definitely look a lot nicer if I could shed 15 to 20 pounds. (I'm 5'10" and 196, give or take a few.) Right now, I'm not exactly a quarter-tonner, but I could definitely use a waistline that doesn't look 8 months pregnant.

While I'll likely still be too reserved/shy/terrified/ashamed to wear them anywhere, I'd at least like the idea that I could.

well, I got some encouraging news during a doctor's visit today:

My blood pressure?

121/85

my weight?

308 pounds

pretty good, huh?

can it be August already?

It is with great sadness that I have to report the death of Karen Lockhart, the pen name under which Kevin Solime posted stories here on Bigcloset. I had the pleasure and privilege of helping him out with proofing his stories. Kevin had not been at all well in the last couple of years but amazingly he kept reviving when his cousin Sue and I were sure he could not come back. We always said he had 99 lives, but alas eventually they ran out. It is a consolation to know that he is now at peace. I recommend his entertaining stories to all readers here at Bigcloset.

OK, so for a very long time, I am finally giving in but need help. I keep seeing story after story after story listed 'whatley academy' related. Honestly, I have never read it, I am having difficulty locating the 'original' version that started this 'universe'. I keep bypassing most stories i see labelled it, because I am without any idea to what is what about it. Would someone, please be ever so kind enough to lead me to this apparant 'best seller' of sorts?

Pretty please... with sugar on top <3

It is about time, I give in & give it a go, eh?

I absolutely hate writing in fitful starts and stops. At worst it means that my reader has to keep going back to re-read previous chapters to remember what was going on. Unfortunately, as we all know, many if not most of us do not have the leisure of being able to write all day every day - or even every week.

I apologise for the delay. In Real Life, stuff happens.

It seems all of us have an opinion on words and spelling errors we spot in the stories we read. I have a few of those such as "your" (possessive) used in place of "you're" (contraction of you are) and visa versa.
He drove to (modifier) the park. He wanted to go too (also) soft adjective)

I offered what I thought was some positive criticism to an author via a private message and not in a comment. They replied and blocked me.
I won't be reading any more of their stories. It is just not worth the angst.
I'll refrain from mentioning their name so don't ask but I won't block them.

Samantha

For the delicate, read no further.

I've noticed the complete loss of any sort of physical sexual response when manually stimulating. It seems possible that is due to the increased development of scar tissue around the nerves capable of responding to such ministrations and not due to age. My Brain refuses to acknowledge the fact but there is some hope that reality will set in before too long.

I've been thinking about trying to expand on my Janegirl Camp story. I sorta felt one thing that might move the plot along would be having Zee and the other campers getting involved in different activities. I've come up with a few ideas, but I've been struggling to come up with any really interesting ones, so I thought I'd try asking others for suggestions.

just posted something new, for whatever it's worth:

https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/90804/dots-harlequin-...

In all the hoo-hah about transgender individuals playing sports in their chosen gender the focus has only been on male-to-female. Nobody has ever mentioned female-to-male. There is evidently no perception of a problem if a born female athlete (for instance) plays American football or runs in male races.

Here is a very brief list of sports where size and strength make no difference. Please feel free to add any sport you like to this very brief list. Or challenge this list.

The following link is to an article about someone's brother who was a transman and who died of ovarian cancer. The fact that the person interviewed is the deputy speaker of the House of Lords, shows that both transsexualism and tragedy know no social boundaries and a poignant reminder that even after SRS we often have reminders of our original biological sex which can cause problems and even kill as well as therapies for the new gender may increase some risks. Includes a piece by an oncologist who specialises in transgender patients.

well shuzzle it

gremlins have struck, darned chapter corrupted due to a power malfunction. SSD's definitely don't like keeping backups.

That means I will have to rewrite todays chapter of reaffirmation and post it late.

Hopefully by tomorrow or saturday I am going to try and recover the corrupted copy first

wish me luck

For anybody interested in seeing more of Portal Problems, I'm afraid I'm shelving it for now. After publishing the first chapter and seeing the responses, I took a look at the next few chapters, and realized the characters lacked . . . character. They do stuff, but the reader would learn nothing about them.

So unless I can fix that, the rest of the story will not be published.

Sorry for any inconvenience.

I read earlier in a self help blog of a Mother that is livid because her husband without her's or her son's approval had their son's hair cut, it was previously long, which the mother adored & if going by her assumptions he liked too.

Hi everyone It is a Sad Day for Me & My Dad's Family because My Grandpa Brown Died Last Night in his sleep.

For those who've been following my story, Ian & Brice/Bryce, I'm still working on the next chapter, but things are going a bit slowly. a big part of that is because I can feel how Ian will want to be held, as well as how afraid he is of doing anything like that would trigger another flashback.

Hello out there,

It's been a month or so since I last updated Walker's Path.

For the last three or so months I was putting out two chapters a month. I didn't mind writing on that schedule but the last chapter was nearly twenty pages long and took a lot out of me.

I've been playing a lot of view games lately. Mainly Red Dead Redemption 2 and Overwatch. I also got into New World which I'm enjoying.

Welp, after taking far too long due to dealing with the pandemic, and also with two job changes (promotions of sorts!) at work, the draft for Book 4 'Light and Shadow' was finally completed right on time for dinner today! Sitting at over 135k words and split into seven parts, it now shall enter the 'Editing Zone' and hopefully the first part can get posted sometime soon, for which I'm rather excited.

Writing comes in spurts for me.

Sometimes there are weeks where I'm writing-writing-writing for days on end, it's all I wanna do.

Sometimes I'll go for months without writing anything at all. Much like with my art and music, if I'm not feeling it then sometimes it's impossible to get myself to do it no matter how much I want to complete project X or project Y.

Well, right now the stars are aligning, and I'm less than 5K words away from finishing a book!

A bit of a rough patch with book sales again. Bills next month might be a little tight so I'm looking for a bit of help. Gonna post a link to one of my more popular books here again. When I did this in June, I got a small boost in sales that will definitely help me out next month. This blog will hopefully help me to pay my bills at the end of September, unfortunately there's not much help I can get now though :(. I'll have to squeak by next month with what little I made in May.

Here's a link to Its Just a Skirt. If anyone hasn't read it, I'd be happy for the help :)

I want to acknowledge the sweet people from BigCloset who create such a dynamic mechanism for posting a story. My latest effort, Vacation, is a work in progress. I eagerly read and responded to all the comments.

But, what was especially helpful were the folks who offered constructive criticism. And because the design here lets me edit my work, I was able to redo entire passages to reflect what I learned from readers. Chapter Three is the best example of rewriting to clarify what I should have said initially.

Looking at the wardrobe in my closet, and reading this article, maybe it's time now, finally my time now?

And by the "us" in the title above, I'm referring to cisgendered straight boys who enjoy dressing in traditionally female garments but are afraid to do it in public.

https://www.nytimes.com/2021/06/09/style/gender-the-boys-in-...

A drive through Los Angeles with the sun setting in the western clouds—thin as promises, brilliant as lies. Is Kissy's new life about to come crashing down around her?

Kissy has discovered she is too much of a chick to ever be who she was before, but can being herself really make her happy?

Sigh, too easy. This sounds like a fake headline.

every month! There are more than enough of us members that can afford to give ONE DOLLAR every month! That would eliminate the debt that exists AND more than meet the needed funds every month to keep the site online!

There are a few who do a LOT more than that every month and I salute them for how much they do! Without them, this site would have probably faded into non existence the way others have.

It's surprisingly hard to describe how we pick and choose who to believe and whom to mistrust. What is true and what is not.

My mother died last night aged 99 years and 5 months.
I have been posting weekly for 4.5 years but I'm going to take a break from posting. The final part of 'On the Cut' was posted last weekend so it is an opportune time to have a break while I sort of Mums things.

Samantha

so the leader of my writing group called, and we were able to make up.

I feel fantastic now!

This is a real life story of malicious cyber stalking where a young woman's life was almost destroyed. She spent time in court, jail, etc for doing things she didn't do. For all you writers who are interested in expanding your knowledge of the monster I think of the internet. This is how easy it is to disseminate lies and misinformation whether it is from an individual, main stream media, or individual groups.

I currently have ... I think ... a couple dozen story ideas sitting on my back burner. One of those stories has been bubbling recently. The current working title I have for it is "Ward of the State".

In this story, being homeless is ... not exactly a crime, but it *is* an issue the state (of Norcal?) governor promised to "fix" as one of his campaign promises. Once he's been inaugurated, a law is passed, where anyone who is homeless is automatically declared a ward of the state, without regard to the age of the person.

Howdy! I'm testing out a new idea for a story called Vacation. I added a Chapter 1 here and I'd be interested in hearing what y'all think...

I am more fortunate than many of you who will never get the opportunity to live as yourselves. For those who reveal ourselves willingly or accidentally, the cost is often rejection, exclusion, and emotional torture as if they pulled our fingernails out. Many years on, thoughts of the ones we once thought loved us but didn't don't come very often. Thoughts of ending it must be fought off but we trudge on in the hopes that the past will punish us less tomorrow.

Peace

Gwen

Well, today I went to the respiratory clinic , and I'm still not getting good results. plus, they are gonna have to recall my unit and no idea if Alberta will cover the replacement I need.

not sure what they will be able to do for me

the problem is I really need a bipap, not a cpap and that was never part of my sleep study.

so I am going to have to use as is, for a couple of weeks, then they are gonna set me up with an 02 monitor to prove I need more.

but nothing bad at least!

A garden? I've been watching a British program called "Escape To The Country". There are several things that strike me, but one is the tendency to call everything around the houses a "garden". When you are looking at an acre and a half of land, that isn't a garden, that's a yard, and a freaken' big one at that! For all of us Americans, that's 65,340 sq. feet or 7260 sq. yards.

Hi everyone,

Sorry I haven't posted any new chapters lately. I've been busy with my family and the the farm over the last few weeks. It seems that my oldest two daughters and their husbands all thought it would be a great idea to visit at the same time. (July 1-9) Between them being here and working with the 4H Kids plus having to make repairs to the fence line I haven't had a lot of time to write. With my youngest daughter Karen watching me like a hawk I have only been able to get about 400-500 words written per day with the work load.

That previous blog post has slid below the fold. So maybe it is time to ask for a refresher?
Fictionmaia still does not seem to like Firefox any more. Does anyone know if this is the new normal and I just need to accept it? Or is there any activity on the Fictionmania community that is considering the topic?

As always, Lazy TV viewers want to know.

We often have blogs about depression or suicidal thoughts.

Several years ago, I was having suicidal thoughts. I’m a person who believes everyone is responsible for their attitudes. I couldn’t believe I was actually giving suicide consideration.

I’ve been through some very bleak days in my life. Yet – suicide hadn’t entered into my thoughts as a way to fix my situations. It didn’t seem right that I was suddenly going there.

which is part of the reason for the tardiness of todays posting!

A story I have read. It's a TG story. The assigned birth is a boy. Now the boy has been friends with a girl for a long time. But they drifted a part. His mom, his friend, his friends mom and he went on many vacations together as kids. I know they were at the beach, maybe the Grand Canyon. On the vacations, he dressed as a girl because he wanted to not because of his mom. He also had a girls name. His dad was no longer around. He stopped dressing like a girl because people kept telling his mom he shouldn't and maybe his father too. Not sure the last part.

It's been 10 years since the passing of Bob Arnold and though I never knew or spoke to him I still remember the shock I got when I heard of his death.
Bob's story Zapped and other stories are favorites of mine and I still reread them now. Bob and so many others may have passed on but as long as there's an internet their stories live on.
I hope they're all up there somewhere enjoying the stories that have been written and will be written.

Hey everyone, lots going on right now with me. First, I got the new laptop all set up and I'm working on writing or re-writing chapters since the hard drive from the old comp was toast. I posted chapter five of Cold Fey today to give you all a little something until I have more to post and I'll hopefully have chapter 11 ready to post on my Patreon tomorrow. I did write a short called Dude! that I posted on Patreon for now, for those who follow me there.

Has anyone else noticed this website has gotten noticeably faster recently?

I'm having a real tough time, and I need my friends now.

The black dog of depression has a hold on me, and my prayers feel like they can't even reach the ceiling much less heaven.

all hugs, prayers, and encouragement appreciated.

"John's Living Nightmare" has just hit 14000 hits. (The kudos aren't proportionate.)

I updated A Life Forever Changing as I found out new things about myself after my ultrasound showed a vaginal canal. My mom told me that I had a micropenis at birth (I've been diagnosed with that and hypogonadism since I was 12, but didn't know it went back to my birth). Since that story's my autobiography, I updated it with the newly learned info. I also updated it with the intersex tag.