Authors note: When I started this blog, I thought I could cover all the information and my experiences in one blog: Yeah right! So I've just covered Adolescent/Pubertal Gynecomastia here and it's still too long!

I think I am in the worlds strangest relationship:

Let me explain.

is anyone besides me having a problem changing pages while logged in? it takes forever to go from place to place but if I dont sign in there is no problem.... is it my computer or what?

I just passed 1000 Kudos!

After some swift action on Friday nite by my web mistress (Piper, who else?) Maddybell.com is back in business!

http://ancalinar.deviantart.com/art/Dwarf-World-Problems-357...

Did anyone play Consequences as they grew up? What if it had thrown up something like the story 'Walking in Beckys shoes'

In the Consequences game.

Hey folks,

Just to be clear, It was my plan to post the sneak peak of the finale here for the generous family I have grown to live here at Big Closet. I appreciate those who reached out to me to express their concern regarding many people's reluctance to have a presence on FB. My intent was to post here and on FB with my note at the bottom of my last episode being more targeted to other sites. It was not my intention to exclude my family here and I am deeply honored to know just how much my writing means to you.

came home from work yesterday with a loonie-size bruise on my belly, and no idea how it got there. Today its spread, and looks rather nasty. One of these days, I'm going to poke a hole right through me, and not realize it until I look at the floor and wonder where all the red stuff came from ....

For the last few days I've occasionally have received the Broken page/link message while hitting the HOME button at the bottom of the page. It's not always, but it is annoying. I'm not sure if this is indicative of another problem or just more of the same old one.

All of you have my deepest appreciation for all the hard work you do keeping this oasis for us open.

Big hugs
Grover

Sharper image! :D I changed the file type to fix the blurring problem, which was preventing... ...certain details from showing up properly. :)
Sharper sword! :D Certainly a more BADASS sword. :) It's now two-handed, hence the long handle. =)
Bigger Chibi Avatar! :D Allows for more detail. :)

Thanks to a story by Bailey Summers, I've been thinking about my dad. As most of you know, He committed suicide when I was 5 years old. They call it "depression" but somehow, it just doesnt seem to cover this total inability to see himself as a person of worth. He lived his last few years as if all the blessings in his life were stolen property that would be taken from him as soon as he was caught with them ....

I know this struggle in myself far too well. Too many days have started or ended with me feeling like I was getting an "F" in life .....

If anyone is interested in attending such an event, pencilled in dates are for second weekend in June, please drop me a line.

I feel very unworthy, very unloved, and very ugly today. Perhaps I need to realize that I will never gain acceptance and at best can only hope to be tolerated. Maybe I should give up on the goal of being honest with the world and with myself since it has been brought to my attention that I will never pass. The 1 thing that I don't want to be is seen as a joke or carnival sideshow.

So, all these Fey, daemon, sucubbus stories are very new to me but I have found a series that begins to pull it all into focus. "Lost Girl" available on Net Flix is really entertaining and I can just see a T version of it appearing on BCTS. Personally, Kinzi would be the likely candidate for unwanted transformation. The unwanted part is to cure reader guilt, and she turns into a dynamite looking chick, enough perhaps for the one handed readers.

I just got to thinking, yeah I know its a terrible waste of space when I do that, about certain authors.

Okay,I understand that everybody is working very hard to make things all spiffy on here, and I do appreciate it. But I just want to scream when I spend a fair amount of time composing a comment, only to get a "Site Offline" message, I just want to scream! I can't even hit the back button on my browser anymore, Firefox apparently wants to refresh the page or something because I am stuck in an endless loop of "site offline" pages. I've ranted to Firefox about the problems but not gotten a peep in reply.

Happy Birthday Drea!

In doing some research, I found that in certain populations, Menarche could start as late as 17 but that was 40 years ago. Now, the average start of Menarche has fallen to 12.75 for the upper limit.

Some nice person from my church took some pictures of me yesterday, and I asked her to send me a copy. So I thought I'd share.

Remember last year when I posted a blog about my roommate hating me because she loaded cookies for girl scouts into our house? http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/blog/34863/proof-my-roommate-t...

I have been working on getting another chapter out, but with looking for work, dealing with being sick, twice, and the emotions that have come up after the funeral, I find it hard to write at times. Hopefully I will get something out soon.

Thanks

While our online collaborations may be playful, our friendship is just that and so much more. An inspiration and encouragement to me from the moment we 'met' here. Please join with me in wishing happy birthday to one of the truest friends and sisters anyone could ever know. Many happy returns of the day, dear one. I love you with all my heart. Happy Birthday!

Wow.

I've just finished my fourth go round with Randalynn's "No Obligation" I get sucked into it almost immediately and have to keep reading it until I'm finished. There are some others like that, but this is one I keep going back to and just love it.

Got me wondering what stories others have to read until they finish, no matter how many times they've read it before?

{{Hugs}}

Frank

and I'd like some help deciding what I should try to focus on until the other story gets free. I'm going to try to work on another story while this one germinates some more. If nothing else, even the discussion of what's in my queue may jar the current story free. Opinions welcome. Bear in mind, this isn't a democracy, so while I will listen to suggestions, I'll make the decision on my own.

Anyway, here's a preview of what's in the queue. What tickles your fancy about a next story priority?

Sorry my last chapter was a bit hurried. I needed to show I took notice of readers who wanted more so it was just a quick catch up. I try to keep a standard that I set by 1 kudos per 10 readers for the first 500 who open my stories. But I still write around true life when I can since there are better writers for fantasy.
Glad I could respond and so more to come.

I've noticed that several people want to leave reviews for my work but are worried about being outed.

Here is how to do so anonymous:

Log onto Amazon:
Go to my account

Is it just me or do some blogs disappear before their time from the 'newstuff' page. You know, the page you get when you click 'more' under the recent blogs on the front page so you can look at older ones than the newest seven? Are people deleting their own blogs or do they get shuffled off before their time some how? I have noticed this happening to a number of different blogs in the past. Is it just me? am I going crazy?

Last week's New Scientist had a special issue on "The Self", and one of the subjects it tackles is the way the mind human scopes out the extent of our own bodies. They cite an experiment in which the subject's own hand is obscured, and an artificial hand placed in front of them. When the two hands are simultaneously stroked, the sub-conscious mind decides that the visible, artificial hand is part of its own body. Even though the subject consciously knows the hand is false, s/he experiences stress if the artificial hand is threatened.

A Boston TV/Radio station has a report of a transgendered (FtM) Emerson College sophomore whose fraternity brothers are helping him pay for breast removal surgery.

Yes, I'm complaining.

Yes, I'm upset.

I really hope this was an error, and not a sudden loss of all my work here over the past year.

Worth a read

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/02/27/domaine-javier-laws...

Community at odds over transgender transition at high school

I was rather disturbed to discover recently that all past revisions to any story are available for any logged-in reader to view. I suppose there might be some value in being able to see my own history, but I find it disturbing that others can also go through it. Even the best of us make mistakes at some time, and personally, I would rather such mistakes did not remain on public record. What is even more disturbing is that, like me, other authors may not be aware that such records remain publically on view.

Kylie has given me permission to share this little back and forth ...

I've been thinking about making a will. I have a pretty good idea what I want - my furniture should go to good will, my books to the local library, my clothes to the pride center to be given to any trans person who needs a wardrobe, my pictures and papers and any money I have go to my daughter, and my stories go to my best friend Kylie, except the ones i made with Jaci, she should have those.

Earlier today i was listening to some music, and i got to thinking. When i was a kid my childhood Idol was Madonna. Now obviously as a young boy there was no way in hell i'd ever admit to that! So i declared Kenny Rodgers as my hero (though i thought Dolly Parton and the Judd's were more to my liking).

In the last few years another woman has climbed to the top, but people began to compare her to my Idol Madonna! Needless to say NO ONE compares to Madonna... right? So on the spot i made up my mind to hate her (like any fool would).

Lesbian rights:

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/02/25/kansas-supreme-cour...

fair warning to all. My next story is dark. Very, very dark ....

So, all these stories with Fae, Sucubusses, and all that really confused me and no one would explain all the shit to me.