Jem…Chapter 34

Chapter 34

It feels really good to have Raven leaning into me against my back as she holds me while we finish the dishes I just get done washing the sink out when she turns me around and she tenderly kisses me and stares at me.

“You look really nice.”

“You already said that.”

“Well it bears repeating.”

“Thank you. I think that I have a really sweet girlfriend.”

“Say that again.”

“What?...girlfriend.”

I smile at her and this time I’m the one that’s kissing her. And it’s heady…different because she’s not holding me like a girl would hold a guy or I think that’s the case it way more like her holding another girl and then there the other things like her scent melding with mine and the delightful shivery feeling that I’m getting with my lipstick on hers.

“Yeah…I think that like the sound of that.”

“I think that I do too.”

“Oh…”

I kiss her again and then look her in the eyes pretty seriously actually. “Yes…I think that I like being your girlfriend.”

She looks at me and her eyes soften a lot into these dreamy fall into eyes instead of her hypnotize me sexy ones. “I’m…I’m really glad that we’re trying…I want this to really…”

“No…no pressure Rayne, let’s just let this just be what it’ll be…I don’t want to push this too hard.”

“Yeah okay…god you’re so different than Summer.”

“Uh-huh I should think so…Rayne for one I actually care about other people. I don’t think she’ll ever get that mastered.”

“No you’re right but she fakes it really well.”

“Uh-huh most sociopaths do.”

“Hey…she never killed anyone.”

“Well she killed your relationship, and killed the bond between you and your family.”

“…………..that’s because I’m a lesbian.”

“Yes and it had in my opinion a lot to do with just how deep you were into Summer, she ever meet your family?”

“Oh Jesus Christ…yes she did.”

“Uh-huh and given it’s summer just imagine the bad tasted she left in your families mouth about the whole lesbian thing. I mean she wouldn’t even have to get all manipulative and stuff for that she’d just have to be herself and that’d do enough damage right there.”

“So you’re saying that if I had brought a nice girl home like you that things would be different?”

We kiss again smiling at each other and I reach up and move some of her hair and tuck it behind her ear.

“You never know, I know that I’d come at things a lot different.”

She looks at me and she smiles and it’s a bit of a sad wistful one. “Maybe…but I think that my dad might have actually have liked you.”

“I would have liked that.”

“Yeah I thought that you’d have said that.”

I kiss her and push walk her towards the kitchen doors. “C’mon off to your room and go get changed.”

“Huh? Where are we going? We should practice for tomorrow night.”

“We know our stuff enough that we can do a run through in the evening tomorrow. Tonight we’re going out.”

“Where?”

“The Mall, If we hurry we can make the early show.”

“Early show?” she stops on the steps and looks at me. I reach over and take both of her hands and with her being two steps higher that me it’s just right.

“Will you go out on a date with me tonight?”

“Oh…” I love the surprised look on her face. Then her brain catching up and she smiles and leans down and kisses me. “Just let me go get changed.”

“I’ll be here waiting.”

I wait but I also check myself in the mirror and do a bit of touching up, check my money and get these looks from Brooklyn and Kimmie. Brook asks. “Wassup you’re looking pretty tonight?”

“Date night.?”

“Date night?”

“Uh-huh, I’m taking Rayne out to the movies then who knows.?”

“Wow…I…I actually don’t think I’ve seen Raven go out on a date.”

“What?”

“Well her and Skummer were hooked up so they mostly just hung around her except for a few gigs and well going clubbing.”

Kimmie nods. “So shitty Les-relationship death, I think her and Some-Slut went out when she was still living out west but I’m not sure. I’m so happy you guy…sorry you girls…? That you two are like dating and stuff.”

Brooklyn’s taking out her school books but stops to give me a thumbs up. “Very cool.”

“Thanks you guys, nice to know I’m taking things in a good direction…hopefully this’ll…oh wow…you know this is like my first date in my life?”

“Uhm…yeah we kinda figured that out.” Kimmie smiles as she open a can of Redbull.

I blush a bit but notice Kim gesture at the stair with her can and I see Rayne. Yes I guess I’m using her given more. I mean both works but I’m just trying it out.

Oh god…anyway.

She’s got her hair loose and wet and this scoop necked tee that’s like this ballet top and it just…hugs…everything and there’s the peaking out of her black lace bra and she’s in tight black jeans and a wide leather belt that just accentuates her waist/hip area…then add in her touches of her sort of goth jewelry and make up and she’s.

“Wow, oh my god you look beautiful.”

She smiles at me and I step up and take her hand and link our fingers but in this reverse thing where our inside arms are sort of touching so it’s like arms in am while holding hands.

Gosh it’s really romantic.

We get our coats and we head out and she opens the van door for me and makes sure I’m in alright. I know I asked her out but she’s driving so…and there’s this little sort of something in her eyes as she does that and we drive uptown to the main mall and park and lock things up.

We do the arm in arm thing again as we head into the mall. We get a few looks but not as many bad ones as I though we’d get and there’s a few people there that recognize us from the band and our stuff on You Tube and other blogs. We even pose for a few pictures with people so that they can post them up on their walls. The new autograph I guess. It’s so strange though getting my picture take with Tina McKinley and her friends. Not Adams crowd but still a bunch of people that’s have never given me the time of day before.

I pay for our tickets and then the concession stand stuff. Small drinks…Guys girls get the smalls because of the whole bladder issue thing, a really long movie is torture if three quarters in it you back teeth are floating. We both actually go for water and Rayne gets popcorn and me I get a whole bunch of red licorice.

We actually go and see “The King’s Speech.” which isn’t my usual kind of movie but Rayne’s been dying to see it and I’ll have to admit that I really liked it and came away from the show really enjoying it.

We do the arm in arm thing and walk through the mall just looking, talking about the movie and the clothes in some of the shops. Most of the smaller stores are closed or closing but we stop at the Tim Horton’s there and get an hot chocolate each and keep going taking the long way which is down the length of the mall then out through the doors by Superstore then down the sidewalk back to the van.

“You want to go home right yet?” I ask her.

“We could why you have something else planned?”

“No, but maybe just go for a drive, head downtown.”

“Sure.” she smiles but she shrugs and we just drive for a bit and we listen to tunes on the stereo and I see where I want to go.

“Hey lets stop off at Trudeau Park.”

“Uhm…where’s that?”

“Yeah you’re still new to town?”

“Not new but I’ve been too busy working to see stuff.”

“Right up here hang a left at the next lights.”

We pull into the park and it’s one of the oldest parks for the town. It’s about two city blocks wide and three or four long but right on the edge of the lake and there’s maple trees and there’s a gazebo but there’s playground stuff here too. It’s almost ten at night and there’s no one here but us. I mean we’re not breaking the law and it’s public and stuff but it’s just there’s nothing quite like being at a park at night.

“This is nice…” Oh she sure has that I don’t get it sound in her voice.

“C’mon.” I get out and open her van door and help her out and lead her to the swing set. “Get on, I’ll push.”

“Angel?”

“What? When was the last time you did this?”

“I dunno years.”

“Me too but it’s fun.”

“Fun?” She asks getting into the swing and I’m pulling her back.

“Yes…fun.” I tilt her back so I can give her a kiss on the swings.

“Oh…okay that was fun.”

It really is, and not just the making out but we go right passed this stuff a lot as we get older and we just don’t let ourselves try to find some of that spark of who we used to be before life happened to us all.

We swing, we laugh, we kiss…we try to kiss while swinging and laugh when we screw up and we…

Oh….the last bit on the swings was when we grabbed each others chains and held each other together and kissed until the momentum had stopped. It really added this romantic edge and this world moving thing to the whole thing. Or it did for me…

We get interrupted by a car driving by and doing two passes with these two really rough looking guys in the front and they looked really mean too. Dad knows some tough dudes and strange and rough and tough people and these guys fit the bill. Once would have been okay but the second pass and the looks they gave us…

“Let’s go honey…I don’t like the feeling those guys gave me. Maybe we’re crotch blocking a deal.”

“Really…uhm…yeah they look like they’re coming back for another pass.”

We get in the van and I look back now and then in the mirror and it’s them and they don’t pull into the park as we leave but they keep coming and they follow us.

We don’t take off fast. It’d be stupid to speed away because that might make them nervous and give chase.

But…

Two turns, four…yeah they’re following us.

“We should go someplace really public Rayne.”

“The Tim’s at the bus station?”

“Yeah, there’s always people there.” It’s a good spot and it’s the place where a lot of the greyhound like buses come and stop and we’re actually a pretty bust transfer place so there’s a 7-11 and a Subway Subs and of course a Tim Horton’s.

We head there and they speed up and go to pass us and they gun a big engine and then they’re gone.

We go to Tim’s anyway.

We go in and use the bathroom and I look at her. “Well that was effed up.”

Rayne nods. “Likely a bunch of assholes, they seen us kissing or something.”

“Or we interrupted something.”

“Huh?”

“Drug deal, the park’s out of the way a bit. It’s late…”

“Could be, but it wouldn’t be the first time for me getting followed when they see two girls together.”

“Yeah…hell might have been both.”

“Maybe…”

“It didn’t ruin our night did it?”

Rayne smiles at me and turns and puts her hands on my hips and picks me up and sets me on the counter. I “Eeep.” when she does that and I keep forgetting she’s a pretty strong girl.

Then she leans in and kisses me her body between my legs and keeps kissing me and her fingers graze up and down my thighs just in these really shivery-delightful ways and she breaks the kiss and nuzzles my face a little and we rub noses in this sexy cute Eskimo kiss.

“Nope, not at all…best date I’m been on in a long, long time…” her voice is low, right down to this soft sexy purr and I’m all tingly and breathing a bit hard and something else is too…

She kisses me again and again then we get into it so fast and deep with that full on making out thing where I feel utterly boneless in her embrace. Rayne’s so leading the way in this part of our night and we might have been doing that for ten minutes before a Tim’s staffer comes in.

“Are you two oka….y…oh…sorry.” The poor girl’s blushing and we smile at her after breaking the kiss. My eyes feel all glassy and I swear I’m a little high on all of this.

“Oh we’re fine right Angel?” She purrs again…god she can just sound so sexy.

“Wha..huh…oh…yeah we’re good….”

“We shouldn’t loiter honey, lets get a drink and head home?”

“Yeah, um sure it’s pretty late.”

We follow the poor girl out and to the counter and there’s lots of people there and…I look at the girl. “We’ll have two small Iced-Capps.” That’s Iced cappuccino if you’ve never been to Tim’s.

I look around and I turn and slide my hands onto Raven’s sides then turn her around a bit of Grr sexy like and push her against the counter and right there where everyone can see us I plant a long slow sweet kiss…not just a kiss but a really long over and over again lesbian full on PDA that’s at least rated M. I pay for the drinks without breaking the kiss and take the change and sexy like tuck it away into Rayne’s front pocket…sliding my finger along it back and forth then dipping my fingers into it with an “Mmmm…tight.”

She blushes but her eyes dance and she push walks me away from the counter backwards until I turn around then she hugs me and we spoon walk out to the van.

I’m almost twitching because…I’d…Jase’d never have dared to be that open. And I’m sexcited…oh yeah that’s the word…

It’s a fast drive home and we get out of the van…

Thump…Uh…she pins me to the van kissing me…touching me…up and down my sides, rubbing in circles on my hips and that’s actually rolling the sides oh my panties up so they’re getting tighter….then down my legs and up my legs…

I push off and kiss walk her to the house…up the steps backwards.

Thump…she goes. “Uh..”…I pin her to the door…Kiss her run my hands over her hips…into that curvy hollow of her waist…sink my knee between her legs just pushing up…Rayne grinds on it all on her own. I cup her breasts through the shirts gently and it’s not a squeeze but I lift the weight of them off of her chest gently but firmly and run my thumbs over the nipple area of her bra….

She’s moaning into my mouth as we fumble for keys.

Once we’re in it’s that bounce off the walls and rolling along them until we get to her bedroom….

Rayne opens the door and as we go in I turn us around so I’m in the doorway instead of being in her room.

I break the kiss…breathing hard…panting a little and I stare at her. “Good night Rayne…”

“But…You’re not spending the night?”

“No beautiful…not on our first dates…I loved this, I really, really loved this and I’m so fucking going to dream about this but…I don’t want this like this…too hot, too fast…too soon.”

“But…last night…”

“Proved we can be together…that we can get passed it.”

“Okay…Angel…if that’s what you want.” She sighs, that deep catching her breath sigh and I step in and actually grab her shirt and a bit of bra and pull her close and kiss her pinning her to the doorframe.

I break the kiss.

“No Rayne, I want forever.”

I let her go and walk backwards staring at her the whole time before slipping into my room.

I close my door and sway stagger over to the bed and turn and fall backwards on it and almost lose it…I’m panting, sweating now, feeling tingly and dizzy in that full of adrenaline way and flecked with need and desire and fear.

Was this the right call?

Did I turn things sideways?

I really, really wanted to but I want this to be…I want this to be something special, something real….please, please let this be the right thing.