As some of you may know, I've been trying to get my children's book done. I finally got some preliminary drawings of the first two pages and have added them to the story file. Unfortunately, I can't move the story back to the first page and don't want to repub something as new that isn't.

So, if you want to see the new artwork for But I'm not a Boy, please take a look. The link is here, http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/43417/but-im-not-boy

Hi all.

As it stands at the mo there won't be any "A Ghost of a chance" or "My fathers secret" this week.

I am currently in the midst of another massive literary undertaking when I got the urge to take a break. I felt the need to write a little tale about coming out. There has been much in the news this past year or two about various people coming out about their sexual, and gender, choices. I have always had strong opinions about coming out but I’ve yet to really set something down in words. Thus…this new tale.

Some of you know that I have been working on a very frank and blunt autobiograpy. In the initial chapters there is a character who was extremely angry, violent and abusive. He swore constantly. I plan to publish this on the open market, using my old name. I think it will piss some of the family off, hopefully.

So in describing this individual do I use all the swear words that he did, or should I just try to explain how profane he was?

I have heard through various sources that other writers, as well as others that are part of the Big Closet family are having a rough go of things lately. Some are having physical issues and some are mental issues and are hurting. To those people I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Let you find the strength and love to overcome these challenges that are facing you all while knowing that the BC family is with you.
HUGS!

I am killing myself. I didn't mistype that and I don't think I'm being melodramatic. I am slowly and certainly killing myself and the truth is, I'm not that far away from succeeding. I think I decided sometime that I really have nothing left to live for so why even bother going on. Thing is, life has changed for me, and this time for the better, but my mind and body hasn't gotten the message.

Am I being too optimistic in checking on Crystal's Story Site each day? I've taken her at her word that she's restructuring the entire database and will one day finish. However, it's been since March of 2009 since there's been any news. Does anyone know... Is Crystal still working on it, or has it been just too much to accomplish and maybe I should give up looking at the "What's New" page for an update?

5000 words, that is. ;) As of chapter 5 of my story, "I Ain't Gay", I've reached a word count of 6145*!

This story has been an emotional roller-coaster for me, and mostly toward the depression side. I've gotten lots of comments, both good and bad, in the feedback and in my blog. That's the relatively benign stuff. What y'all don't see is the PMs and private e-mails that I've gotten, some of which are extremely hateful and/or spiteful.

Well, it seems I now have a Universe tag, assuming anyone else is daft enough to want to write a story set on Anmar.

I have written up some universe rules but I would rather not make them public just yet, as there could be (of necessity) spoiler material inside. If anyone wants to have a go at a story, then PM me and we'll have a conversation.

Life occasionally sends you a little irony to make you think God has a bit of a sense of humor.

I found this through my local Trans support network.
TRANSGENDER PEOPLE AND THE
SOCIAL SECURITY ADMINISTRATION
June 2013

I know I do not live in the San Francisco area any more, but after 67+ years, I still follow the news from th San Jose Mercury News.

This item caught my eye.

I currently work at McGraw hill publishing, I have a second interview on Monday for a position at Primerica.

I just got home from going to the doctors, and I have to share what happened. I've been fighting a cold the last couple of days, and even stayed home from work last night, so my mom insisted on me seeing the doc. So I go, and once I'm there this nice female doctor starts doing her thing, and after checking my breathing, and doing the "ahh" thing, she asks me some questions. The last question she asked me threw me though.

She asked "And how are your periods?"

Well, I've just spent the last 6 days working hard to move. But we got it all done and just got home about 30 min. ago. I'm exhausted and started getting dehydrated, so we stopped and got some drink on the way home. I ache all over from my neck all the way to the bottom of my feet (my feet normally hurt due to my disability). My daughter was a big help and she's been sick since yesterday. But thank God, we are now done.

Tomorrow will be a day of rest and starting to recover. :)

I hope you all are doing well. :)

Hugs,
Mark <3

I have been reading a web comic called "misfile" and its amazing. Its the story of a boy whose life gets misfiled into the girl drawer by a slacker angel, and how he/she deals with the results. If you read it, be prepared to want to sit and finish it in one setting like I wanted to ....

Here is the link:

http://misfile.com/?date=2004-02-22

I revisited a couple of my stories the last couple of days, Switching Playing Fields and On the Flip Side.

So, what happened to the Taylor Project? It's probably been noticed that I haven't posted an update in months. Part of it was getting slammed at work. More of it was just me falling into a funk. What seems to kill my writing every time is I reach a place where every word I type seems lame and not worth reading. I'm trying to move forward again. It's not going easy, but I mean to push through and write an ending, even if it is a little lame. That's my great failure of a write, not finishing a work. This time I plan to finish.

What I would like to know is how you would like my next story posted? As usual It will be long so I'd like to know if you would like it done in chunks like Twins, around twenty thousand words per posting, or by the chapter once a day. I've had complaints either way, the post was too long, or I'd like to see a chapter every day but short. I'll leave it up to you because I haven't broken the story into chapters yet and will do that during the first edit. I won't start posting for some time because the story is just getting started and it's over thirteen thousand words long already.

out to Caltech, as the Twins went for a Visit. I played the role of Pregnant Mother Videographer, As we shared the Visit with Jas back in her office.

Hi all,

I am going soon to be in a position to post something in connection with another author's works.

Two days now. Two bloody days in a row I've managed to melt a plastic food container in the bloody oven.

That's it. If the kids want to eat anything they can eat it raw or frozen.

Where are the boys who can't attract girls?

Much to nobody's surprise, when the Swedish Railway dropped their opposition to men wearing shorts, the skirts were put away. No trans issue here.

Well, I had the WORST flashback I have ever experienced last night, and to say I'm not in a good place right now is putting it mildly.

Ok ladies, I need some help with fashion advice. Anyone well versed on late 80's women's fashions? Working it into my story and need some good ideas and descriptions. PM me if you can help.

I wish to publically apologize to any and all who may have been take offense at anything that I have ever posted or messaged on this site.

I not to long ago started going to a therapist and well it has been interesting.

Well, I have to apologize to my 3 fans. Between the fact that the stories I have underway have stopped flowing, (and were looking to be much bigger projects than I originally planned in any case), and the fact I have really struggled to write anything the last couple of days, its gonna be a while before you see any new stories from me.

Again, my apologies.

May was a disaster health wise, beyond my fight with cancer.
I lost 4 days to chemo, ( each dose wiped me out for two days. )

Last week wasn't a banner week for writing. It isn't that I didn't get anything done, just very little. The issue was that I had something crop up everyday that ate into my time. On Monday I had counseling and dealt with car issues. Tuesday I was able to get some writing in but also built a bed frame. Wed I had my group meeting. Thursday I was able to write. Friday I had electrolysis and van issues. So the week yielded little but I got a lot done when it came to counseling and fixing cars.

well, my reading of my poem at church went well. A number of people came up afterward to tell me they were moved by it, and as a bonus, my brother was there and I think he liked it too. Much yayness!

If in your country (USA here) there ceased to be a rigid split about what is acceptable as boy cloths or girl clothes? How would this new found freedom affect your life? If manufacturers made female clothes but they were cut properly to fit on a male body? The result being anyone can go anywhere dressed as they wished.

would you switch to an all female style wardrobe?
Would it be enough for you with or without hormones?
Would surgery still be an imperative to finish making mind and body match?

Hi everyone, I'd like some reader feedback. I didn't want to do it but I started another new story. Here's the premiss, a young boy has freakishly long eye lashes and becomes a spokes person for a cosmetics firm. I know where the story is going but I wonder what you readers would like for an ending? Should the boy transition or remain a boy? I'm having a hard time, well not that hard, trying to decide which way to go, boy or girl, actually man or woman. I've already started writing the story and it won't be hard to make it go either direction, let me know.

What happened was that a long time ago someone on this site told me they had xbox live as well so I invited them to play with me and my friends. Things were normal for a while, one of my best friends has 2 friends he grew up with that don't like me because of my aspergers. Well I invited this person to join me and my friend Justin. Well since Justin's friends mike and Justin didn't like me I understood Justin not inviting me to the group but not the person on this site.

I found a interesting interactive site while reading the news on the web. Its from NC State University and it's a survey of dialect and usage from around the united states. there are 122 different surveys, about half of them are how words are pronounced and half are what kind of word or expression are used, like Coke, pop, or soda. It is all shown on a map with shads of color matching the degree in which it is used. The maps have a composite view and a individual view.

Well, Jaci is on her way to Montreal to have her surgery done. If you feel so inclined, could you spare a moment to say a prayer or send some positive vibes on her behalf?

So, here we are again. It's always such a pleasure. Remember when you tried to-

I've been on a 3 day install. Came home to an empty house. Note said they were going to Reno to see a friend in in concert, then to grammies house tillschool starts. Got a call from Brenda, Jas's assistant asking were to ship the computers. Seems Jas is closing her practice. Guess I am done, this nymph is woll find some other site. Thank you allfor. The love you have shared

Goddess Bless You. All

Love Desiree

A few weeks ago I posted a blog about my pussycat Madeline. I was almost doing it daily and didn't have the heart to keep on disappointing people day after day. For a month it looked like there was nothing left to do but to put her down. The medicine I was given didn't work and all she did was stay on the bed, immobile for hours on end unless I brought her to her food, which she barely touched.

Interesting Medical Finding. We read and write about it... and it really happens.

We've been here in France a month and so far we haven't killed each other, so things must be going well, even if not the way we'd hoped or anticipated.

Earlier this year, I posted a story about the local high school electing a girl as Prom King. The local paper has an interview with her. Prom King

I shall be on holiday from 8 to 15 June so, unless I fall off the ship, I will post again in mid-June.

Hello all,

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