"The time has come the walrus said" - OK it was the doctor who told me.

Looks like the expiration date on the bottom of my left foot is becoming visible.

I am diagnosed with kidney failure- singular.

The "fun" part of being a mutant is missing parts- and not knowing about it until you are getting in bad shape. I found I was born without a kidney and other internals are not connected where they should have been, or a few internal skeletal structure defects.

I have no idea of title or author:

so I got some great news, as the Alberta disability support department has agreed to pay for me to get a new CPAP machine.

so months of stress, finally I am going to not worry anymore.

Wanted to share.

When a character (or a real person) says they "want to be a woman," what exactly makes a person a "woman" as they want to be?

Hi,

I have a female character from France who has an unusual ability, once she's met someone she can track them wherever they go. She has the French equivalent nickname Bloodhound because of that. I've looked up bloodhound and got a really rough translation, 'du sang le limier'. I'm pretty sure that's not going to be accurate.

Now I'm not stuck on the name Bloodhound, if there is something that would be more appropriate for France's culture, but mean essentially the same thing I'll happily go with that.

Would someone be kind enough to give me a hand with this?

I have a 4200-word short story, "A Post-Scarcity Christmas," in the new ebook bundle Santa's Secret Transfic Stash Vol. 3. The bundle has twenty-one stories totaling over 180,000 words. My story is available in epub and pdf format for $2, but buying the bundle for $8 would be a lot more fiction for your money.

Here is an excerpt from my story:

I hope everyone's New Year has gotten off to a good start.

Amidst the disturbing signs of political and cultural antagonism against transgender persons, the strains of "Auld Lang Syne" made me recall my reassuring feeling upon first listening to this song by everyone's favorite alt-rock band, The Replacements:

New Sammi's story is up and this

the Drow twins(my Shadowsblade twins) do a TV interview and when asked 'what is the most dangerous place they'd never go?'
"a US waffle house!"

https://twitter.com/RealLyndaCarter/status/16084983740465397...

see the tweets below Carter's for the viral video

They met every year -- but this year would be different

It’s customary to wish people a happy new year on December 31 (or it is, in our culture, since we foolishly moved it from more-or-less the date of the vernal equinox). And of course, I do — so happy new year everyone!

well i thought i'd get in early!

We are still having our weekly zoom meetings at 4:00 PM CMT if anyone who hasn't got the word is interested in trying one.

I’m inviting you to my weekly Zoom meeting. Only trans women are invited. If you have an invite feel free to invite others I include a link to my local time standard so that you might match it up to yours, Some of the ladies in the past are from Great Britain and Germany. Most of them are writers who post stories on a Big Closet Top Shelf though that this is no way a requirement.

https://www.time.gov/

So going into yesterday I was looking at having a ton of "to do" things on my schedule until the end of the year, and I was getting kind of stressed about it.

Then life added another item to the list.

One of the tires on my car started losing air.

After frantically phoning around, I was getting to the point where I was wondering how I would get anything done if I couldn't get the tire fixed.

Lots of new experiences for Pete as she confronts her own sexuality.

Have we heard if Angharad is going to stop publishing "The Joiners"? I'm really liking this story and would like to see it continued.

Teddie

Happy last day of Hannukah or Chanukah or however you write it to my friends. A Nes Gadol happens in Twas the Night my Chanukah story

Rami

It’s that time of year. For many it brings happiness and joy.

People write about it. There is songs about it.

And yet I sit here crying because of what else it brings.

Memories.

In October of 1997 my mother started experiencing headaches. At first we brushed this off as she would get them from time to time. Indeed one morning as I was leaving for work at a new job my brother was there and my mother came into kitchen with a horrid headache. I couldn’t be late for work so I told him to take my mom to hospital to get checked out. He was not working that day.

I have a tummy upset and so far I've had to rush off to the loo 3 times while I've been trying to write. I just can't concentrate tonight so if I have time tomorrow I may try and finish then. I'm sorry, but I really don't feel well. Merry Christmas to you all.

Been listening to the MET's Christmas version of the Mozart's The Magic Flute. I have always enjoyed this opera and we actually saw it performed in Vienna. I decided many years ago to see if I could adapt the story for this site. I did, and I think it worked out quite well. I wove the very famous but archaic Adventure Game into it. The story is "Cynthia and the Queen of Knight." Take a look at it. You might find it very enjoyable. It is part of the "Cynthia Chronicles."

It wasn't bad but I echo some of the critiques: it defnitely had some bloat and some of the action could have been trimmed. Honestly while the beginning connected the end of the first tailing into the other I don't think it was terrible though it could have been trimmed a bit. I don't want to get into the plot much except Jake now has a family and it really gets into that dynamic.

I would like to wish you all a Happy Christmas and hope that 2023 will be an improvement over 2022.

This has been a hectic and challenging year for me. I had great plans to release a book a month - such are the plans we make, eh?
I still am working on so many books, I might just finish a few in 2023 - I'm not being as optimistic as I was last year, as there are too many things to stop me.

But, I have actually finished one, just in time for Christmas - Fading Memories

So I have submitted "the girl with the scars in her eyes", and "Gibraltar falls" to a Canadian magazine.

I will know if they accept it sometime in the next 6-8 weeks.

Keep your fingers crossed for me, okay?

I got an interesting email the other day from Karen Lea. She was letting me know that life has slowed from its craziness, retirement I guess, and after reading some kind words from me she wanted to let me know that she got inspired and re-examined her tale "Educating Danielle". Anyway, long story short, she has had it professionally edited and it has been formatted and she has placed the first half on Amazon. She has completed the tale.....it was previously unfinished...... and the second half she hopes to have up around Christmas.

Posting the first chapter of the new Masks book has driven home that I have not done this in a while. I'm having to re-learn stuff I should already know. I hope folks - including those who manage this site - bear with me.

- the final countdown begins!

This is the start of an idea for a story, based on "Educating Special Boys in the Feminist Republic" by Torrey Grover. It's about a kid who doesn't really identify as a boy, but also doesn't identify enough as a girl to be brought into the program for "special boys". I'm posting it here in my blog, instead of with my stories, because I haven't heard back from Torrey yet, but I'm also wondering if people think it's close enough to the original story for it to work in the universe Torrey created.

Looking for a story, but only vaguely remember the details.

Seriously? This little item is being advertised as gender free on my Facebook feed.

What happened to our Weekly Dormouse. What's up with Kathy and the bad guy?

so I have been using a CPAP machine for a while, and it had done wonders for my sleep apnea.

Unfortunately, it was only a loaner, and I have to return it Friday.

And because of mistakes I made trying to get Alberta Disabled support to cover me for one, I am going to be without one for the foreseeable

There have been a lot of times, I've made massive errors, and somehow avoided consequences, so if this time I am going to pay for my mistakes, so I can't kick too hard.

Still, its gonna suck not having the machine considering how bad my apnea is.

This site needs more revenue. Traffic is at the heart of revenue both in selling ads and in donations.

Erin is working on a Google Ads program to bring in more traffic. This has worked in the past.

I'm donating an additional $100 this month above my normal contribution. Emma Anne Tate is also throwing in an additional $100.

Will you please join us in this effort?

Traffic is a long-term solution to the funding problem.

Jill

Just found it going over old backups and done a reread of a story...
It is quite good and I would recommend it to anyone. Some minor triggers but nothing graphic. It is in PDF, but is published here on the BCTS:
https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/53387/kerries-run

yep, after several increasingly cold and frosty days, we woke to actual snow here in Brizzle!

...for a long, long time. about 50 years, in fact. Our company Christmas party is coming up soon, so I decided my hair, which had returned to the wild, needed something which wouldn't get in the soup, or require the usual ponytail band all the time. I took this here photo, just after being outdoors so pardon if the mop still looks a bit unruly. If you feel the need to laugh, be my guest! It makes me smile.

Colour needs re-doing.

I have succumbed to a virus, I don't know if it's Covid, but I have a stupid tickly cough that has kept me awake for two nights and prevented me from attending a geology workshop that I have wanted to go to for a year. I am so fed up with life at present I'd like to disappear to a tropical island and never come back.

Roommate/caretaker requirements:
I have a large bedroom whom I am willing to give a trans girl a good place to live, all utilities paid, and shared food bills. Full laundry and kitchen. Dogs/cats are welcome.

In exchange I would need someone with a car. she would be required to run occasional errands, do minor housekeeping, and take out the trash.

of the winter here in Brizz!

I am pleased to see that BCTS readers accepted my story “Discharged – Female” for what it was – A harrowing work of fiction firmly based on researched fact bringing to light appalling injustices done to gay people during South Africa’s apartheid regime. Some on Fictionmania saw it as something very different.

The ebook for “A Cracker Barrel Christmas” will be free on Amazon for the next five days.
Please leave a review, if you choose to.

Today was my 70th birthday and I admit waking up remembering what day it was and then thinking that being 70 was a new experience and wasn't I supposed to feel old? I didn't I I felt the same, despite my stroke back in May. My daughter was visiting with her hubby and I had arranged three roast beef dinners, 'Denis dinners', which those who have visited me in Dorchester for things like a Gabyfest will have experienced and named from the owner of the cafe where we ate.

I'm looking for a story that had a guy moving from the British Isles to the US. He had a name that is male there, but female here (maybe Shannon?).

There's an issue with his luggage and he's stuck with a suitcase of female clothes (I think they are even close to his size).

He's got long hair and everyone in the new town (except the relative he'll be living with thinks he's a girl.

I *think* he's high school age as well.

It's *not* Texas Two-Step. I just re-read that because the synopsis seemed close.

Some time after I had been on this site for a while, I realized I had managed to publish at least one story, poem, or essay each calendar month with one exception.

Being the kind of individual I am, it became an obsession to keep this streak going, and honestly, I think the quality of my stories suffered for it.

Well, as of midnight tonight, the streak is over, as I have not been able to produce any content for the month of November.

November, coulda done without your legacy!

I spent a lot of yesterday trying to piece together a “meeting of the minds” between Jennifer Monroe and Travis Miller. Travis was one of the guys who left her for dead on the side of road in Missoula, Montana. Three years later, she returns to Missoula to confront her past tormentor:

I want to know if this is a good example of “gas-lighting”:

“It Can Only Go Up From Here”
Chapter 8 “Not Just a Girl” (snippet)

of mice and men....

I really ... really wish I could have a father/daughter relationship with my dad. When I first came out to him, I wasn't especially surprised when he had issues with me saying I was his daughter. But ... it's been a few decades since then. I'm pretty lucky, when compared to others, because my dad is willing to see me, and tells me he loves me. But, deep down inside me, there's still a little girl who wants to be held and cuddled by her daddy. I guess that may sound silly for a 58 year old woman to say, but that's how I'm feeling right now.

Would my friends here please consider this? Samirah Johnson - known here as Violetfyre and on Facebook as Meave (Her primary FB account was hacked at the same time as mine)

Samirah lives in the Richmond area and has had virtually no help from her family The note below references her circumstances.

Amy Schnieder won the Jeopardy Tournament of Champions. She outplayed a formidable field to win the $250,000 prize.

She has become the most successful female Jeopardy contestant ever, and is Jeopardy's first trans champion.

Jill

I am thankful for all of you, readers, writers and supporters. And not forgetting our staff and helpers. Or absent friends like Bob Arnold.

This month marks the 23rd year I have been privileged to help present BigCloset/TopShelf as a friendly place to read, write and discuss TG fiction.

Thank you all,
Erin