This film by all accounts is very good, with Eddie Redmayne doing us all proud as he plays Lili Elbe in the film of the best selling book. Hopefully, it will help the general public to understand those of us who were wrongly gendered at birth. However, no matter how good it is, I won't be going to see it.

It's too close to home, too painful for me to even glance at. The trailers make me want to wince, not because it's so awful but because it reflects too clearly part of me, or how I used to be. I just cannot watch it.

I guess Santa is an equal opportunity kisser...

Moderately Confused 12-24-15

I hope this will help some of you work things out.

Earlier I read an article that dealt with the idea of there being another "self" inside us. The author wrote about the fact that some twins are so close that they are almost linked at the hip and so on.

I think the article was on BBC/co/uk, but did I save the link? NO. Sorry.

I wrote Trish's rap quite spontaneously then had to try and organise some rhythm to it. It's not a medium I enjoy as few of the exponents of it don't possess clear diction and it tends to sound like a series of rhythmic groans. However, I can accept like all presentation forms, it isn't easy to get it to balance in meter and rhyme. I doubt I shall try it again, which might please some of my regular readers, but felt the inclusion of it given the abilities of the character involved was a distinct possibility. However, she is much cleverer than the poor old dear who reports on them.

I had a particularly bad shift involving yet another transphobic assault, and in my down time the rest of the Ebrahimi story emerged, as linked to in the story comments. Tired, fed up, hormones doing the things they do, I wrote a brutal story in one sitting. Trouble is, all I did was hold a mirror up to the reality of 'welfare' at the moment.

I wept as I typed. Enough said. I cling to my professed faith in family and friends, but then I look at poor Mr Ebrahimi and, well, shit.

Just got back from my appointment with PTSD councilor.

Main theme of the session? Take back the power.

Gender Identity Protection (HB 3552/PA 99-0417): Provides that the written directions a person leaves regarding disposition of that person’s remains may include instructions regarding gender identity including, but not limited to, instructions with respect to appearance, chosen name, and gender pronouns, regardless of whether the person has obtained a court-ordered name change, changed the gender marker on any identification document, or undergone any transition-related medical treatment.

Well I got some good news today. I don't have MS. A brain MRI scan came up clean. The bad news is I have virtually no vitamin D in my system (3 ng/ml - minimum needed to not be consider severely deficient is 30-60 ng/ml - depending on who you believe), the lack of which can mimic MS. I am now taking 5000 units of vitamin D a day. Doctor says it will take at least 3 months to get it up to where it needs to be. More bad news - They found that I also have severe multi-layer spinal arthritis, which is causing the weakness in my legs by abrading and compressing the sciatic nerve bundle.

The first chapter of "Mercy" has more kudos than anything i have ever written, by a lot. But each successive chapter has dropped in the number of kudos.

Should I be worried?

Has the story's quality dropped?

Are people frustrated with how long it has been taking me to publish pretty short chapters?

Is the pace not working?

If you kudoed on the first chapter, but havent since, I'd be curious as to why ...

a little writers block this week as well as the holiday season its making the next instalment on to the moon will be delayed by a few days i am currently working on the rewrite. ty for your patience

Not exactly a new story, but it's there:

Chimerae.net

Sea Changes

A mutant story with animal/human hybrids/Chimerae and beaucoup other stuff. It will be published as a Kindle title and made a part of the BC online store, as soon as I can figure out exactly how to maintain the formatting and a few other technical details involving the limited HTML functionality inherent in the stupid Kindle format.

Hi all,

Perhaps many of you know that I've been readying Felicia's Second Life for publishing on Amazon. What everyone doesn't know is that I'm wracking my brain trying to understood this whole withstanding tax thing.

It stated there that Amazon will withhold 30% withholding tax for non-US citizens. To overcome this, I need to give my income tax number. The problem is I don't have a tax income number because my income never reach the taxable rate.

Warning: word play ahead.

Is there (or should there) be a feature on BigCloset to set/display an author's or registered user's preferred gender?

I got a bit distracted playing with my new BlackBerry playbook (second hand variety) my fingers didn't always do what I wanted them to do, or so it thought. Even so it has a bigger brain than I do, and certainly a bigger memory

Something for the third week of Advent, Kittens :)
Cheers.
Diana M. Howe, Moongoddess at Large

Has anyone heard or know anything about Ellen Hayes?
Her site does not seem to have had any updates in over 2 years.....

I was looking for a story written in Elrod's Operation Rescue universe about an abortion protester who joins the rescue program. I don't think the story was written by Elrod but was reviewed and sanctioned by him (at least according to the author).

How to be respectful to the creator of a "universe" when writing a story set in that universe?

Looking for a story in which the father buys gifts for his son exactly the same as he buys for her daughter as punishment or something...
Secondly...
I love a story which is unfortunately incomplete with the name Mrs. Cavendish by Paula Hanson on fictionmania. Does anybody know where is the complete version or stories with a theme like that?
Thanks

I was informed today by Cat Lochley that I have been Plagiarized by Mia Perry who is selling one of my stories on Amazon.UK. Don't buy the book Cross-dresser by Mia Perry. It is my story and has been posted on BCTS for over five years.

I've been working to complete a story that I started years ago and trying to fight off the relentless win10 boogieman. With so many open projects, I don't want to allow that onto my desktop while not knowing how to use win10.

So, I have an aged Toshiba laptop that has been running the upgrade since 9:00PM last night. It is 9:33 AM and it seems to have finished.

What have I done?

Gwen

There is no cure for stupidity, how do these people manage to reach maturity?

http://www.msn.com/en-gb/news/world/us-town-rejects-solar-pa...

It reminds me of the woman who wrote to a paper complaining that switching to daylight saving was shortening her life or another who refused to wear her glasses in case it wore the lenses out.

Here we are, 12 days before Christmas, the extreme weather is about and my muse has taken a stroll - it may be gone sometime! Well I hope not but what it'll come up with is anyone's guess.

I might not have been to the German markets this year but I've visited a few around the country instead, Birmingham, York, Lincoln, Leeds and of course Sheffield. I've managed to acquire some gluhwein mugs for the collection, eaten a variety of German goodies, drunk oodles of gluhwein, bought a few prezzies as well as some treats for home!

All in all I'm feeling quite festive.

This afternoon I notice that a comment I was posting on "Jenny's Story, Ch 6" was having the last paragraph cut off. Is this a temporary issue or is there a space limitation on comment sizes?

If so, a size limitation on comments seems reasonable, I just did not know about it. How about PM's, will they be limited also?

Gwen

I found a possible helper for when I struggling with bad memories - humor.

After a conversation on bulling here on Facebook, I went to work and started struggling with PTSD. Fortunately, I had help - a very funny book that made me giggle several times reading it.

So by half-way through the night, I was starting to feel better.

Anybody else have something that helps them get through PTSD moments?

Sorry it's so late but real life and being diagnosed with diabetes in this past year and all the resultant changes to life have kind of occupied most of my time for the last while. I had a bout of pneumonia a while back whose infection contributed to pushing my sugars to 29 (normal for most people is between 5 and 8) and my A1C hemoglobin to 16.9 ( normal apparently is under 7). Let alone still doing all of the travel I was before as well as work and looking after my elderly parents who have both had health issues this past year.

I was told by my IT guy who keeps my computer safe DO NOT OPEN ANY ATTACHMENTS any and all even if you know who sent them

Saw an article in the local paper about a trans choir operating out of Cambridge, Mass.

If there was one close to you, would you try out?

Dear readers, as a Christmas gift, of sorts, to the fans here and as a way of apologizing to all for being such a turd bucket from time to time when commenting here on TS/BC, I have discounted the price of all Kindle books written by myself and Persephone.

The new price, across the board is 3.99 USD per book, which represents a saving on many of the books of up to fifty percent. They are still not prefect. They are, however, good stories that are unique and far ranging.

I just got a call from a friend, her husband just went for emergency surgery. It looks grim. I would ask anyone religious out there to say a prayer for him. I'm not religious, but he is very devout and a good man.

Thank you.

I've been reading some stuff on the net, stories and opinion pieces and my mind drifted back to what sometimes pops up here. So please, let me ask a question.

Would you spank a child?

Beyond that we see petticoat punishment being used around here in stories. But if you ran into something like this would you support it? Would you yourself use it?

My personal opinions.

No. For both.

in the aftermath of my meltdown, I have been able to work backwards and see the warning signs - in the week leading up to the attack, I had been dealing with a situation that had eroded my confidence and increased both my anxiety and depression.

Then I fell, breaking a towel bar in the process, went to work, and managed to last until I started having serious pain in my arm before I totally lost it.

Maybe knowing how this started can help me short circuit the next meltdown ...

I just got home from surgery on my left leg that I broke last year , this is surgery number 4 . I had screws that needed to come out before they broke as it is it was causing a lot of pain by moving in the bone causing a hole to form.
I am OK but back to using a walker for awhile at least I am not in a wheelchair .

http://planettransgender.com/ancient-trans-warrior-discovere...

Ancient Warrior Discovered

Times short list for person of the year includes Caitlyn Jenner.

http://time.com/4136910/person-of-the-year-shortlist-2015/

Given the choices, I'd have to vote for her.

RL has delayed my writing a bit this last few days - that and a vagrant muse, so the expected third arc of the new book may be delayed by a few days.

The good news is that I have plenty of writing time scheduled over the holiday period so with a bit of luck part 4 shouldn't! Be delayed by any significant amount!

Ttfn
Mads

i'd love some good action fantasy TG stories. Or even Action SCI FI. Recommend me some good ones please! All your favourites!

Holly Woodlawn has died aged 69. She was the subject of Lou Reed's Walk on the Wildside. I recall seeing her years ago in one of his films and can't say I remember much about it, but then avant-garde, is not a term I'd use to describe myself.

http://www.theguardian.com/music/2015/dec/07/holly-woodlawn-...

So many stories on BC of shopping for women's things after the body switch, I thought a few graphics might be in order. Suck it up guys, you know that perfect little black dress is for YOU and we want to look drop dead gorgeously sexy in it. It isn't easy finding the perfect one. And the heels must accent not deflect the image we desire. And the earrings...., Okay, you get the idea. After a certain age dropping on a tee shirt and jean shorts is no longer an option to looking sexy. So we cover and leave enough to the imagination to set their minds on fire.

It's been a couple of months since Moongoddess' last posting and I hope she's all right. I know what it's like to write oneself into a corner, or to have real life jump up and smack one in the face, limiting or even stopping a creative process.

Even though I know the story is complete (it's on Amazon and Kindle) My very limited financial resources prohibit me from ordering it on Amazon, and I don't have Kindle access so I'm gonna have to hope that: A. Moongoddess gets through whatever it is that's keeping her from communicating, and B. She can finish posting the story here.

Warning: "Spoilerish!" (sort of)

Well I'd hoped to,not write a blog about myself such as this.I pretty much keep my problems to myself but I think I owe the community an explanation as to why I haven't been writing as of late. I called it laziness but in reality I just haven't had the stamina to write. That being said I want to thank everyone for their kind words in the comment section of my stories. The reason for this loss of energy is congestive heart failure, I have it pretty bad. Tomorrow morning I will be admitted to the advanced cardiac clinic at Kaiser Hospital in Santa Clara, CA.

Spent just over a week in the Hospital with gall bladder problems and bilirubin problem. The used a scope to remove the gall bladder and now I am recovering well right now at home.

Paula

As some of you are aware, I have posted "A California Saga" on Amazon.com. A good friend who worked for me in the Air Force more than thirty years ago has read all the stories (not from this site) and was quite complimentary. I guess she was one of my Beta Readers that included my daughter, wife's best friend, sister, and all you wonderful readers here at BCTS. The Saga now has it's own spot on Facebook where she was kind enough to write a very nice review. She is right of center as far as her religious leanings are. Here are her comments: "A stunning achievement!

Anyone who's lost faith in Dr Who recently would do well to watch 'Hell Bent', the conclusion to the current series. They'll get it back, my God will they.

One more question.

Would those side effects also apply to the blocker implants?

Daphne46

What is the latest regarding Shiraz.
There have been no entries since June. I am really missing her stories.
Please return to us !!!!!
John