The last time I posted, I think I might have rubbed some people the wrong way with what I said. At that point in time I hadn’t really been thinking about the whole picture with what I had said.
Since that last post I’ve done some heavy soul searching. And I’ve come to the conclusion that I need to apologize for how I came across in my last post.
I feel like I may have rushed that post into existence.
I’ve been on BCTS for just over 8 years now. I’ve been here through the struggles, I’ve seen a lot. I’ve met a lot of people in this community and tried my hand at writing and never really got the feel for it.
This post is one I really didn’t want to ever have to make. But as I sit here typing this up at past 1 am this morning, reminiscing about all the things I tried to do and failed. I’ve made friends and I have my enemies. Newer people probably don’t even know who I am and that’s ok with me. Im from a different era of the site.
As the title suggests, this is about what has been going on since I last posted anything or even interacted with anyone on here. I think my last blog was over a year old and my last story was like two years ago at least. I guess to paint a deeper picture on how I ended up where I am now I need to go back to when the Covid Pandemic started.
Warning: Don’t read this if you’re squeamish there’s a lot of nasty things that are going to be said. If the moderators think I’ve went too far in explaining what has happened to me then they are free to remove it. I just wanted to get this out into the open.
With COVID-19 rearing it’s ugly head these days I’ve had to find a way to entertain myself and my 3 girls. Recently I have been reading stories on here that have not only been enjoyable and entertaining to read but have been scratching that itch inside me that wants to write again but doesn’t know where or what to start with. My girls have their interests and that’s great to see them spreading their wings.
Hey everyone, with my life becoming more hectic by the day, not having a reliable way to create content, my content not having the luster it once did and me not having motivation to write anymore I have decided to retire from writing. I know this may come as a shock to some people but I just think now is my time to retire. If anyone wants to do fan continuations or rewrites of my stories then feel free to do so as long as you credit the original. This wasn’t a decision I wanted to make but it was one I needed to make.
As the title says, I’m looking for an editor for an upcoming book I’m writing. I have a decent bit done already but I need someone to go through and fix things like grammar, fix sentences that may not have come out right, and fix word choices that are not exactly fitting for the situation they are used in. If you’re interested, PM me on here and I’ll talk with you about the story and what it’s about.
To any of you from the northern part of the US and wherever else this cold front hits. Stay warm! It’s supposed to drop to record lows in some places so do us all a favor and stay warm!
Ok, so not too long ago I made a post on here talking about my struggles i’ve been going through. Since then I’ve built my confidence back up and am doing a lot better. I have some very weird children, they HATE meat. But will eat more fruits and vegetables than I can. I’ve actually given up trying to get them to eat meat and have started giving them other foods to compensate for the lack of vitamins from them not eating meat. They also take vitamins twice a day to supplement their diet.
So there was this story I read awhile back and I’m trying to find it again. It was about a trans kid who comes from a family of mechanics and does something drastic to keep from developing during puberty. They repair an old Camper and upon graduating they pack up and move cross country.
Things in my life are a mess and I feel like things just keep adding up. It seems like everything I do just makes things worse. I’m losing everyone that ever cared about me and I’m not too sure how much more I have to endure before things settle. First I lost the one person on here who would even talk to me. Then I lose my husband who decided to cheat on me. Now I’m losing my family because they think I don’t deserve them anymore. I’ve had to move into an apartment with just me and my kids. It’s just awful, my life is just falling apart on me and I just have nothing left.
Just a quick update on me and me asking you guys to help me find new stories to read that I can get into. My health is improving although I’m still in the hospital, I was in the midst of a very severe Anorexia episode and now I’m improving although it hasn’t come easy. As for the stories I like, it varies. I love Tiffany Shar’s stories, Sue Brown,Torrey,Zoe Taylor, Paula Dillon, Jennifer Sue, Jennifer Brock. I could list at least 20 but I think you guys get the point.
As the title suggests I will be talking about something that I never wanted to post but I honestly need to now. I’m currently working on a story that will be my last hurrah most likely. You see, I have 3 little girls to take care of now and I will be going back to work in a few weeks. I have much more important things to be doing nowadays than writing. My kids do sports and they are very active in church groups and love to be outside. Life has been hard for me since moving up to where I am now, I’ve been battling with personal demons for years and I almost lost my battle a few months ago.
For the last week and a half I’ve been encountering a really weird bug. At first I thought it was because of all the changes that had been going on with the server and whatnot so I didn’t think much of it at first. Now however It’s just starting to get annoying. Basically what is happening is that you login and have the persistent login enabled but when you move to another page say after reading a story for a period of time, it forces you to log into your account again even though you had the persistent login enabled.
This blog is a question for authors and readers alike to answer. Are dialogue heavy stories okay in your eyes if they're written properly? Or does the heavy amount of dialogue ruin the story? I'm asking this because the story i'm in the process of writing is very dialogue intensive in the early parts of the story and I had someone read the beginning of said story and they said there was too much dialogue but they also pointed out that the dialogue in itself was very well written and it just needed some more besides the dialogue.
The story I’m looking for started out with the main character either going to University or working in one and one of the teachers or head of departments was working on a time travel device and uses the main character as a test dummy and it allows the main character to go back to when they were young and allow them to rectify the fact that they didn’t come out to their mother about wanting to be a girl. This part of the story takes place in the 1950’s/60’s I think.
My life has been very very busy the last month or so. Preparing for Vacation at the beginning of next month. New job as a Teachers Aide at a Preschool taking up a lot of my time. My cancer is in Remission(didnt post about it on here cause I forgot) after 7 months of battling. Im babysitting a girl in the Preschool class that I teach this weekend and we're going to see the My little Pony movie.
As for my writing, I'm taking a break from it because I have no motivation to write and I just have no time to right now unfortunately.
Long before I joined BC officially, I read a story that I've been longing to read again.
From what I remember of the story as a whole, the main character is a kid in either Middle or High School and is without his mother who "left" a few years earlier but it is found out later in the story that the abusive father had killed the mother and dumped the body in the septic system. I think at one point in the story the main character changes gender albeit I don't remember exactly how.
I hope that's enough for you guys to pinpoint which story this is.
Today has been very emotional for me. I lost a very close friend to Cancer and I was at her bedside when she passed. We did so much together that I don't think I'll ever find another friend like her. My emotions are in shambles to the point where it's taking everything I have not to bawl my eyes out. I was her Maid of honor at her wedding and it was a glorius night. She kept me going through everything that ever happened to me and I'll never get to repay her now that she's gone. This is all becoming so much that I don't know what to do.
Here I am, 21 years old and longing for someone to love me. I have my adopted family but it’s not really the same. My transition was rough and no guy really wanted anything to do with me.
At the time it didn’t bother me as I was in transition and really wasn’t trying to please any of the guys I went to school with.
As you all may know I posted a blog semi recently saying I was quitting writing for awhile. Well I decided to give it another try and I have made some decent progress on a few of my stories:
Broken Phoenix: This story will be making a comeback soon. I have Chapter 4 in the works and it's going steady.
Time To Fly: This story will also be making a return. My plan is to alternate between this story and Broken Phoenix every other week.
I also have a short story on the way before I post either of the previously mentioned stories.
A while back there was a story I read that I don't remember the name of and I wanted to go back and read again.
The beginning of the story starts with a kid at if I remember correctly an All Boys Boarding school or some form of an All Boys school and the main character is preparing to leave because their body is turning itself into a girl.
The main character gets into some art/Music college and eventually becomes a famous singer.
Thats all I honestly remember about the story. I hope thats enough for you guys to point me in the right direction for the story.
I've come to a realization that I'm not the kind of person I thought I was. Last night I went to post a story I had written and I come to find out that what I had written had unknowingly ripped off another story. Upon that happening it really hit me, I can't write anymore. Anything I write could possibly end up the same way and I don't want that.
So, to save my sanity and put this to rest I'm putting down the pad and paper and moving on from writing as a whole.
To anyone that even cared to read what I wrote, I thank you.
So for those of you who have read any my fiction on here, you'd know that I have a very unique writing style. Lately I've been working on my story Time to Fly. I've been able to get a bit done each writing session I do but looking back on what I'm writing I've come to realize that I'm not writing the dialouge between characters to suit the ages of the respective characters. Now if all the characters were Adults I wouldn't be making this post. In fact the story revolves around a group of 5 year olds that take the main character under their wing and help them adjust.
Ever since I joined BC I've had this nagging feeling that I'm just wearing a mask when I'm saying anything on here. I know I'm not but, it feels that way. Sometimes I feel that I'm living a lie even though I'm not. If you know even the slightest about me you'd know I had it rough growing up. What you guys didn't know though is that I didn't really get to fully transition until after High School because nobody in my family supported me besides my grandparents. School for me was Hell!
This really wasn't a post I wanted to make but I need to say something thats been eating at me since Thanksgiving.
A while back one of my sisters kids was in the car with her when she got into an accident. If you want the full story I made a blog post on it. Long story short her kid had to have a gender "switch" and they're not taking it well at all. I had the kid alone with me in the den and they told me "I don't think I'll be around much longer, I'd rather be gone then be like this."
As the title says I need an editor for a story I'm writing. I have the first chapter complete but I need someone to go through it and see if I need to change anything as well as a grammar check. PM me if your willing to do this for me.
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