We are at the time of year at my job where we can enroll or change our health plans and such. This year they are including a online questionnaire that's supposed to be from the feds. it's supposed to give someone a chance to freely and discretely list any and all disabilities so they know where to send resource's. there is also going to be a part where people can list any sexual and gender identities. it's supposed to be confidential and voluntary. I have spoken with a woman that I work with who is a lesbian. I've only told her that I'm bi.

Please keep Carla Ann, my editor and closest friend in your prayers. I have been swamped with real life this week and was getting worried I hadn't heard from her... Yesterday she texted me and told me she had a stroke about a week ago not long after she must have just written me. She's an amazing friend and I hope she bounces back quickly from this!

Hello,

Today Dan Shive posted a comic on his EGS:NP section that was very funny, and was a scene, dealing with the gender bending genre that is rarely mentioned, let along discussed.

The comic can be found here: http://www.egscomics.com/egsnp.php?id=374

I found that comic to be hilarious.

The scene dealt with that two gender benders, in their female forms, not having any body hair, with the natural girl being clearly jealous for them not having to shave their legs, among other things.

Ok an Update to the Community Game Project

We'll be using RPG Maker MV from now on soo we can post HTML

The game's will be released to http://www.darkkittengames.ga/ till we get a better domain name :)

We will be using DropBox as your Form of Editing for Collab Editing.

To join in you must own a Legit Copy of RPG Maker MV. If you do please leave me a PM about getting added to the Project's DropBox.

You don't need RPG Maker MV to help write Dialog/Story.

Our Current game is Called Quest.

Do to very bad cold This Wednesdays chapter is delayed. Sorry folks.

Every once in a while, the things I want to talk about in this blog are hard for me to actually get out.

Sometimes, its because they are from a dark place, sometimes, they are embarrassing, and sometimes, I just dont feel like I have the words.

Today's blog is a little of all of the above, but let me try anyway.

I was laying on my couch, watching tv, when a commercial for a product to help men get an erection came on. It was one of those where an older couple is doing stuff together, then they begin to PDA, and the announcer tells how good the med is.

There has been a recent flurry of stories concerning the view some feminists have over transsexuals, with Caitlyn Jenner being the touchstone. A recent one, published in the New York Posts tell us more about feminists orthodoxy and beliefs than about transsexualism.

http://nypost.com/2015/10/26/theres-a-feminist-civil-war-bre...

For anyone watching for a Crystal Hall update similar to the past couple weeks... we have good news. And more good news.

Would you pick an aggressive alpha male as a sex partner, and NOT tell him you are post op?

I wouldn't.

There is a post op woman that is doing this, 6 that live in the same building ( my old workplace/residence, a cockroach hotel ).
Personally I am suspecting that she is looking to get hurt. :/

Reading ‘Genius at Play: The curious mind of John Horton Conway' I note two things:- when young he was nicknamed Mary by a teacher (it wasn't a wanted nickname and by second school he was called Prof) and among his many girlfriends one suggested by his sister was a well known Australian lady. Ms Greer did not confirm or deny the story to Conway's biographer but in the light of recent publicity I thought it more than a little ironic.

Conway is a mathematician and someone I'm coming to think of as the mathematical Beatle.

My favourite hit single of all time is probably Pink Floyd's 'See Emily Play', written by Syd Barrett.

The song is named after Emily Young, at one time a close friend of Syd's. Speaking on the recent BBC documentary 'Psychedelic Britannia', she offered the opinion that the girl described in the lyrics was Syd himself. Given that so many of his other compositions are rooted in memories of his childhood, it seems possible that Syd may have been expressing more than just his feminine side.

https://youtu.be/oUHQTywSJYM

Well, tomorrow I get a physical and I am super anxious about it. Last year after my exam I came home shaking and crying, and I am already pretty shaky as it is.

If you could spare a prayer or a hug or both, that would be nice ...

A transgender media personality, like Caitlyn Jenner, is both a good thing and a bad thing for all trans folks.

1) it is great, they raise public awareness in a way that most can't.

2) it is terrible, the money they have gets them surgeries most cannot afford, which leaves us feeling even more depressed and critical about our own appearance.

I can't remember the name of it or the characters. I remember a couple lives across the way from an older woman who turns out to be a witch. She feeds the man herbal tea that over time mutates his soul so it resembles her body and no longer fits his own. Eventually he feels extremely broken down and she uses a kiss or mouth to mouth to swap their souls.

Familiar to anyone? I have been trying all sorts of search variations here and FM and striking out.

Thanks!!

Frank

Had a pretty rough day yesterday. Had a nightmare, then got so sick to my stomach I threw up. Been fighting anxiety, PTSD, and I am having trouble sleeping.

As a result, it may be a while before I can get back to Mercy.

Sorry.

That well know womens lib supporter has turned her guns on Transwomen.

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-34625512

I have been a supporter of her work in the past on Womens Lib and equality etc.
But now I think she's lost the plot. Totally.

She's PNG with me from now on.

Congratulations to the Kansas City Royals! Going back to the World Series for their second in a row. Hoping they bring back a win this time around. Painting the city blue!

I've finished writing the first part of Gaby Book 14 and as has become habit it will be available via Kindle and Lulu from Sunday, yes the 25th of October!

Overall i'm running a little behind schedule but not so much I can't catch up! The next segment should be @ 3 weeks away so after a long wait there will be a quick succession of Gabyness for the fans, I hope it's worth waiting for!

The completed book is still due over Christmas / New Year and with a following wind I might have the next Nena out about the same time - it's 2/3rds written already.

Ok, time after time I see stories with the protagonist whose "balls haven't dropped yet" and that either say outright, or strongly imply that they do so at puberty.

As someone born male, this always bugged me. Because I clearly recall mine being there as far back as second or third grade. Let's just say it involved a stupid dare, ok?

So I finally did some digging on medical sites.

Guess what? They normally "drop" sometime before *birth*.

I came home unexpectedly to my apartment in Cardiff to find my flat-mate Lexa cooking. The crazy thing is her mode of dressing to cook is nothing unusual, Lexa cooking however?? Now that is unusual.
I crept up behind her and asked if she was making 'Chicken Flap sauce' She nearly wet her knickers cos' she wasn't expecting me!

CHICKEN FLAP SAUCE!!

She's a crazy kid but she makes a mean sauce.

Okay, so it's three days late, but who cares? I have been a member of Big Closet now for ten years, a whole decade!

Let's Party!

Has anyone heard from Amethyst? She was having problems, then just disappeared from the site. I hope she is all right.

Waterdog

Hey!! It's our very own Piper's Birthday! Speaking for myself, I SOOO much appreciarte all she does to keep Top Shelf and other sites running. So HAPPY BIRTHDAY PIPER!!! Hugs 'n love for all you do and for all you are.

Catherine Linda Michel

I don't know if any one has seen this yet its a nice song about a Billy Elliot type of boy with a tg twist

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CbmjEv-OUDk

Does anyone remember the "Write Club Duels"? http://www.asstr.org/~Rui_Favorites/Write_Club/

I'm really annoyed today for lots of different reasons, and I can't really concentrate on work or the stories already in progress.

So to get my head in order, I'm asking for some challenges and ideas.
If you can please give me one or more of the following:
1) a really strange plot hook, 1 to 2 sentences.
2) three or more things, settings, locations, characters, etc, that don't seem to fit together.
3) a single sentence, the stranger the better, that has to be properly used in the story.

Ok... first thing. Go find a box of tissues. Bring them to wherever you plan to read. I'll wait.

Tissues ready? Good. You're going to need them. I certainly did, when I first read this in drafts and again while editing.

I learned something last weekend.

On Saturday, my brother and sister in law came over, and hung up some more pictures for us.

They had found some pictures of my mom at her wedding to my dad, and some ones of my dad with us as kids, as well as many more.

One of the pictures they found was of my graduation, which prompted a conversation about my grad dance. I had gone without a date, but thanks to two friends, I walked out of the dance with a pretty girl on each arm.

So Facebook has been gone around 12 hours and I am not sure that I'm sorry. Maybe I'll have to find something else to do? Not sure, but I think I can live without it. Any bets?

I notice that BCTS had some down time the other day, any relation?

Have a nice night ladies.

Gwen

I have to call the police tomorrow.
Just found out that on Friday my ex was showing my daughter a gun on Skype. A nice realistic pistol.
My daughter was talking about it today, so we went and checked the video camera which records the calls, and there's my wife holding a pistol up quite happily showing it off.
Since she's never taken a firearms course, it's illegal, and with how she's been asking very specifically about my daughters schedule, I'm a little alarmed. Only the fact that she's 14 hours away keeps me calling the police right now.

this time but the reason for delay in posting was a trip to Switzerland by yours truly last weekend! Quite fitting really and although I had a fun weekend it was nothing like Gaby's adventures!

Historic tram in Basel last Sunday!

I know I keep saying it but regular postings should resume again now, at least for a few weeks!

In other news, Book 14 part 1 will hopefully be ready next weekend so look out for the announcement.

ttfn
Mads

I have never written anything but would like to write at least one story. I have tied to start a least 7 good ideas with various beginnings but always change a few details. My mind is willing but the body of my stories are held back for the next step. All stories have at least 3000 words and I have not even begun to write the story.The longest is 17000 words and still I have not even started on the body of the story. I can never decide how to plan my next step to get to the end.

I've been possessed by the dreaded Demon of Sloth! He repeatedly casts Sleep on me while continuously channeling the Procrastination curse. Does anyone know how I can break this awful curse? I need help desperately :(

Does anyone know the method of exorcism for this evil demon? I have a job that needs to be finished by tomorrow but I haven't even been able to get it started. Help!!!

Is it always the beginning of writing a story that's the hardest? Forcing yourself to lay down the words that you want to tell, only to find later as you edit it over that that part is now easier to do then the first time while looking endlessly at a blank screen or piece of paper? Hell even when you had some words down it was hard to continue as you fought the urge to edit what you had.

If you are wondering about my story Mercy, you can relax in the knowledge that I am working on Part 2 right now. When its done, I wouldnt mind having someone who knows Whately better than I do take a peak to make sure I havent made any really major errors, even if the story is fan fiction.

So if someone like that is interested in being an editor, give me a PM.

As much as it pains me to say this, I fear that future chapters of Mother's Child will be coming far less frequently or even regularly. When I started posting I was seven chapters ahead, having started writing this tale in January. Between the necessary re-edits, changes in story lines as things developed and other life issues, I have now caught up with myself. Chapter 10 only exists as a rough draft still in the process of re-writes, and future chapters are only concepts.

Hi all.

The most unbelievable news I read in a long time.

This week was destined to be insane, I have 5 tests, a report, and the PSAT all in the next three days, but shit got real today as I found out that one of my oldest friends (we have been friends for 4 years) ran away from home and tried to commit suicide last night. He is fine now and is safe in a hospital, but the fact that a kid who was always so happy could do so just took me by surprise.

Anyway, everyone involved is fine and some of the other kids from the website that we use contacted the police when he posted his suicide note.

Sn1per01 (Ember)

I was sitting at a bench in Portland State University, waiting for Psych 204 to start. I am auditing it to help a blind friend get there and to study. I think I already hate the class.

In walked this very pretty 18 year old. No matter what clues I looked for I could not tell is he was a she or she was a he. Black hair with ponytail, T shirt with some symbol on it, Jeans, and runner shoes. Clear skin, small chin, upturned nose, no forehead boss, no visible beard shadow, no make up. I forgot to look for ear rings. Possible breasts but hidden by a light jacket.

If you have attended a family gathering, chances are you may have gotten or given a kiss on the cheek as a greeting. In some parts of the world, such a kiss is not just for family members, but is part of normal life.

Why am I bringing this subject up?

Because today at church, I got kissed.

By a guy.

On the cheek.

I asked him about it afterward, and he told me I had been glowing, which made him want to give me that kind of greeting.

The best news about it is that the kiss didnt trigger my PTSD, so there is that.

There is a BBC Magazine article about the issues of Transitioning late in life.
http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/magazine-34454576

Some of the points discussed will be familiar to many here.

In reference to the great bathroom debate. I keep hearing people say that transgender people need to use the restroom that corresponds to their anatomy. This has got to be the stupidest thing that I've ever heard. Have you ever seen another person's anatomy while in the bathroom? If you have, then you're the pervert. If a person looks, talks, walks, identifies as a woman, what possible good can come from making them use the men's bathroom (unless you think transgender murder is a good thing).

Early this summer I concluded the first part of an epic fantasy role-playing game. This was the third time I had run this story on different groups. It begins with the unrestful dead walking into town and trying to buy a beer.

This first part ended with the final death of a giant wildboar named Sourbelly who had swallowed an undead wizard's soulgem. Sourbelly had become unkillable while his flesh rotted off his giant bones. His mate, Sweettooth, and his offspring defended him against attempts by the players to destroy the undead swine.

My son has started another one of his emotionally abusive rants and it has been so severe that I will take what legal action that I can. Here in Oregon, what he is doing may be illegal, but he lives in Longview, Texas. So, there is probably not much that can be done unless he comes to Oregon.

It makes me feel really shaky and upset. I am sure that most of us know what it is to be attacked by relatives. He is a member of the same nutter Christian group that threw me out.

For those who pray, I would appreciate your prayers.

Gwen

Would you believe, in The Australian Financial Review of all places, there is a full-page article about a manga comic called Wandering Son, which tells the story of two teenage kids....Shuichi, "a boy who wants to be a girl" and Yoshino, "a girl who wants to be a boy".

The article says that the story was originally published in a magazine called Comic Beam, ran from 2002 to 2013 and was adapted into a TV series in 2011, which was apparently very popular. They claim over a million readers and viewers.

Happy fucking birthday to me - NOT. got until Sunday to get better, but there are NO signs that it will, so this will be another bleh birthday. At least it won't be one that my mom totally forgets about, but ....

I have sensory processing issues and just got hammered with sensory overload. I was about to post a rant, but I think it might be more helpful to start a discussion.

So you know, we might better understand each other, or better understand characters with sensory processing differences of different kinds. I'm currently reading Bailey Summers' Encrypted, and Maddie comes to mind.