So, day one of chemo.

Got to say, I'm having second thoughts about it after the lecture and Environmental Protection Suit I was given to clean up spills, if any. To include, if more than a small amount gets on your cloths, put them in the bio-hazard bag and bring to us for DESTRUCTION. And this is stuff I'm putting INTO my body intravenously! I mean, I get where Paracelsus was going when he said, "All things are poisons, for there is nothing without poisonous qualities. It is only the dose which makes a thing poison,” but still!

There is a site that is new to me on YouTube called "The Bender Of Gender". So far, the first entry looks to be some four hours long. It is all voice and perhaps a Cross Dressers dream. I'm into it about ten minutes, and have it paused to make this blog. It remains to be seen if I will be able to keep getting into it for the whole four hours.

So far so good.

Does anybody get a weird black screen with aboutblank in the address bar when entering the Bigcloset website?

or at least not engaging drive!

I've been wanting to comment more here, but I realized that I am so much better at communicating when I write fiction. Being my bland self feels tedious and really I want to write. I want my writing to be free of constraints and liberating (to me at least). Much like how some of my stories seem to liberate some of my characters from the contents in their pants. Consequently, I've decided to take a stab at creating three personas when I comment.

Hilary Cass, who wrote the recent report on care for trans children for the UK government, is to be made a peer:
https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/articles/c84975xgdwlo

This means she will have a seat in the UK House of Lords and have a vote on UK laws - for life.

Check it out here!

Voting officially ends at midnight PDT on July 15th!

Melanie E.

Happy Independence Day, all you Murricans! Enjoy your day.

Well for now at least.

A little birdie told me that today is Dot's birthday. Let's take a moment to celebrate her life and wish her well.

As promised everyone, my newest Whateley Story is now at the Whateley Site and live. You can find it here:

The World Knows Not

Enjoy and leave me a comment here or over at Whateley!

Thanks!

Jamie Farr played Corporal Klinger on M.A.S.H.

Klinger was trying to get discharged from the service during the Korean War and often dressed in women's clothing to show how crazy he was.

It was "hilarious."

Of course, it was a cringeworthy moment for some of us every time he wore a new outfit.

Does anyone else remember him?

Jill

Just letting you know that when I clicked onto the site and had to log in, it didn't return to the home page but went to a page with just the stories and every time I try to log back in, it does the exact same thing.

Next year will be 20 years since I came out, 18 years since I had mtf surgery. Now I have questions. You old timers know who I am, and the problem logging in with my old user name. (Gwen Brown)

I've been thinking a lot about my relationship with my brother.

I think I can finally admit I've been jealous of him pretty much my whole life.

As a kid, I wanted to be able to catch up to him in school, to be competitive with him at ping pong, or play the guitar like he did.

And even when we became adults I always felt like I was not as good as him. He managed to overcome his issues and succeed at college, and get a good job as a programmer, while I failed three times to get a higher education and barely managed to get a certificate as a Nurse's Aide.

It is now just over five weeks since I had my heart bypass operation. I haven't been ignoring you folks because there was nothing to say; rather the opposite, there is (very slow) progress but I just haven't had the time or energy to document it.

Time to put that right.

My daughter was in Cardiff the other day when a woman approached her and handed her a flier about the preservation of woman-only spaces, against transwomen. My daughter quickly scanned it and then gave it back to her saying, "These spaces should be open to all women, however they became so, as they are all women and they are all equal." She said she felt very angry that people should be prejudicial, it annoyed her feminism. I was very proud of her.

Today, I have logged in three times. Each time, I have been taken to Part 25 of a story instead of arriving at the BigCloset Topshelf webpage. If I then click on the Topshelf icon, I arrived there logged out. If I log back in, as I have done three times now, I arrive back at Part 25 of Ian's story.

What is going on?

charlie

yesterday, we went to a graduation party for my daughter's friend Jason.

And while there, I was introduced to a 4 year old girl who apparently decided I needed a hat to complete my look, and gave me hers.

We traded the hat back and forth, and then she upped the ante by giving me not only the hat but a small suitcase filled with her toys.

The whole thing almost made up for being called "Todd" the whole night.

Almost.

Oh hey! It's been a minute.

This seems really random, but do y'all think that the name Isskalt Abyss a little on the nose as a name for an artic region in my story? Isskalt means freezing cold in Icelandic, but I just thought it made for a funny pun because it sounds like "Is cold" when it's pronounced in my American accent.

There may be only one way for the prince to save the world... make that princess!

The Dagger of Heaven at the End of Time

Prompted by a query from an eager reader (hooray for those!!), I thought it time to post another 'here's where it's at' progress statement for Book 6 of the Light Saga, Hope's Light.

As of an hour ago, the draft just crossed 100k words. There's likely at least another 20k to go to wrap up (maybe more?), but it's on the rapid slide to the ending as things all come together. Current plan is to finish the draft by end of summer, and by end of autumn have the entire work proofread and ready to start posting on a regular schedule.

Just looking at the reception for "Andromeda Smith". I've been Beavering away and so far, have the beginning of 5 chapters. If the reception does not get warmer, I won't bother with further posting.

I've had enough of my complaining off topic about the sins of Micro Soft and the billionaires who victimize us.

After pecking away in MS Word today at "Andromeda Smith" I was feeling doubtful that it was any good, and started to read it out loud to myself, then found out that the software will do it for you. So, after I sat there and listened to the less than 1000 words, any flaws just jumped out at me. The AI that does this is rather limited in places so I don't know how I can get it to interpret stretched out pauses, that I would normally write as ...

This is fun.

Yep, the actual concluding chapter of On The Edge is yours today!

Sorry for the delay on this folks!

So as of Saturday night the contest was officially closed. But what does that mean for things from here on out?

We'll be giving everyone 2 weeks to catch up on stories from the contest, and later this week I'll create a blog with all the stories linked just to make them extra easy for people to check out.

I have been away doing some Army things for the last two weeks. I wanted to assure those that read my stories that I am continuing to write. I am starting off this week by working on Chapter 9 for Change of fate. I appreciate all your support while I continue on this journey.

Kisses Su Shi

be posting this!

I profusely apologize for the errors in my contest post.
I have made several (dozen) edits.

Thank you

Sadly, every interaction I have recently had with those on BCTS and elsewhere shows that most or all of those who use any sort of computer technology are simply unaware of the shake out we have recently experienced. It has been a huge education for me. Some of those I have talked to have been quite blunt and tactless, treating me like I am an idiot.

They say that life is difficult for girls like us, that the only way is prostitution, but do you know what I'm telling you? fuck it, I'm happy dressing as I see and no one can take that away from me

Just a friendly reminder that the contest ends in only a few days!

If you still have a story you want to enter, then here's a reminder of the rules. We've had a couple entries that break the rules so far, and we'll be giving them an honorable mention when it comes time to list the contest stories.

I’m inviting you to my weekly Sunday Zoom meeting. Only trans women are invited. If you have an invite feel free to invite others I include a link to my local time standard so that you might match it up to yours, Some of the ladies in the past are from Great Britain and Germany. Most of them are writers who post stories on a Big Closet Top Shelf. Though that this is no way a requirement.

This breaks my heart as I loved this lady so damn much for what she has done for all of us who were caught up in the gender-blender. I conversed with her many times and she was so sweet to take the time to talk or text me. My only desire left in this world was to meet this amazing lady before I checked out. Lots and lots of tears, I'm going to miss her so damn much.
https://www.independent.co.uk/news/world/americas/lynn-conwa...

Judge Strikes Down Florida Ban on Transgender Care for Minors

Not quite as good as it sounds, but it's still encouraging.

https://www.nytimes.com/2024/06/11/us/florida-transgender-la...

Well, I have some good news to share.

First, I got the results of the CT scan done on my brain back, and it showed no signs of damage or anything. While that is good, it means we still don't know why I have word drop and brain farts.

Second, I am now on stage 2 of dealing with my dentures, which means I can now have solid (if soft) foods.

Step by step, I do what I can, and its great to make progress.

huggles for everybody

I wanted to share something that's been on my mind. I've now published over fifteen times on BCTS, and it's been a bit disheartening.

All I desire is for people to enjoy my work and share their thoughts. If there's something I'm not doing right, I'd really appreciate your feedback to help me improve. Is it the type of stories I write? My writing style? My charachters? It's tough not getting much help on that front.

Sometimes it is funny to bring them up to speed if done right. Yesterday I was picking up goat panel from Atwoods, a farm and ranch store. Each panel is five feet wide, sixteen feet long of four inch by four inch welded, grade six rod. They sent one guy out to load it. Not happening so it was up to him and me. One had to be there to see the problem and understand. I'm five five, picking up my end of that panel meant I had to climb up on the pile, pick up my end, slide it off to the side, get down, help put it up on the flat bed, and do that all over before the next panel.

Poor Diane! She needs some new holes in her head!

After I added 4, it looked like it disappeared from the site. Since it is back, I added the second part as an edit. Is that going to work? Will readers know?

has a habit of happening.

I’m very excited to announce that Doppler Press has just published the third book of Aria, Bring Down the Curtain. Cami’s efforts to juggle staying in the closet at work, planning her eventual transition, and settling into a new living arrangement were hard enough. But as the calendar ticks over into March of 2020, the world grinds to a halt, and the global pandemic changes everyone’s plans. Here’s the link: Bring Down the Curtain.

We had to go to my grandson's wedding this last Saturday. As family we were invited to the rehearsal dinner on Friday as well as the wedding. It was a three hour round trip to the venue. We decided to spend the night. As we were packing for the two events. My wife was dithering over what to wear. She picked out a nice top but the neck line was a little loose and she was concerned about "down the blouse" views if she bent over a little and was wondering what she could wear under. I offered:

"I could loan you a black cami."