in the aftermath of my meltdown, I have been able to work backwards and see the warning signs - in the week leading up to the attack, I had been dealing with a situation that had eroded my confidence and increased both my anxiety and depression.

Then I fell, breaking a towel bar in the process, went to work, and managed to last until I started having serious pain in my arm before I totally lost it.

Maybe knowing how this started can help me short circuit the next meltdown ...

I just got home from surgery on my left leg that I broke last year , this is surgery number 4 . I had screws that needed to come out before they broke as it is it was causing a lot of pain by moving in the bone causing a hole to form.
I am OK but back to using a walker for awhile at least I am not in a wheelchair .

http://planettransgender.com/ancient-trans-warrior-discovere...

Ancient Warrior Discovered

Times short list for person of the year includes Caitlyn Jenner.

http://time.com/4136910/person-of-the-year-shortlist-2015/

Given the choices, I'd have to vote for her.

RL has delayed my writing a bit this last few days - that and a vagrant muse, so the expected third arc of the new book may be delayed by a few days.

The good news is that I have plenty of writing time scheduled over the holiday period so with a bit of luck part 4 shouldn't! Be delayed by any significant amount!

Ttfn
Mads

i'd love some good action fantasy TG stories. Or even Action SCI FI. Recommend me some good ones please! All your favourites!

Holly Woodlawn has died aged 69. She was the subject of Lou Reed's Walk on the Wildside. I recall seeing her years ago in one of his films and can't say I remember much about it, but then avant-garde, is not a term I'd use to describe myself.

http://www.theguardian.com/music/2015/dec/07/holly-woodlawn-...

So many stories on BC of shopping for women's things after the body switch, I thought a few graphics might be in order. Suck it up guys, you know that perfect little black dress is for YOU and we want to look drop dead gorgeously sexy in it. It isn't easy finding the perfect one. And the heels must accent not deflect the image we desire. And the earrings...., Okay, you get the idea. After a certain age dropping on a tee shirt and jean shorts is no longer an option to looking sexy. So we cover and leave enough to the imagination to set their minds on fire.

It's been a couple of months since Moongoddess' last posting and I hope she's all right. I know what it's like to write oneself into a corner, or to have real life jump up and smack one in the face, limiting or even stopping a creative process.

Even though I know the story is complete (it's on Amazon and Kindle) My very limited financial resources prohibit me from ordering it on Amazon, and I don't have Kindle access so I'm gonna have to hope that: A. Moongoddess gets through whatever it is that's keeping her from communicating, and B. She can finish posting the story here.

Warning: "Spoilerish!" (sort of)

Well I'd hoped to,not write a blog about myself such as this.I pretty much keep my problems to myself but I think I owe the community an explanation as to why I haven't been writing as of late. I called it laziness but in reality I just haven't had the stamina to write. That being said I want to thank everyone for their kind words in the comment section of my stories. The reason for this loss of energy is congestive heart failure, I have it pretty bad. Tomorrow morning I will be admitted to the advanced cardiac clinic at Kaiser Hospital in Santa Clara, CA.

Spent just over a week in the Hospital with gall bladder problems and bilirubin problem. The used a scope to remove the gall bladder and now I am recovering well right now at home.

Paula

As some of you are aware, I have posted "A California Saga" on Amazon.com. A good friend who worked for me in the Air Force more than thirty years ago has read all the stories (not from this site) and was quite complimentary. I guess she was one of my Beta Readers that included my daughter, wife's best friend, sister, and all you wonderful readers here at BCTS. The Saga now has it's own spot on Facebook where she was kind enough to write a very nice review. She is right of center as far as her religious leanings are. Here are her comments: "A stunning achievement!

Anyone who's lost faith in Dr Who recently would do well to watch 'Hell Bent', the conclusion to the current series. They'll get it back, my God will they.

One more question.

Would those side effects also apply to the blocker implants?

Daphne46

What is the latest regarding Shiraz.
There have been no entries since June. I am really missing her stories.
Please return to us !!!!!
John

Okay. This is going to sound like a stupid question.

Are there any side effects from taking testosterone blockers? Besides the obvious!

I mean like when you see a commercial on television for some medication, they list the most common serious side effects. That's what I'm after.

Thanks

Daphne46

I have been really struggling with PTSD and moments of extreme depression the last couple of days.

Huggles and prayers appreciated

So, I ran into a little bit of an issue, and I may need help resolving it, I checked the website by the way, I didn't see any sort of rules or anything forbidding this, but if I am breaking SOME kind of rule here mods, I'm sorry, I just don't know. If there's a proper way to do this, let me know please.

And again we see this crap in a rag magazine which puts us in the spotlight in a negative way. Why must these fools post such nonsense? Would it make any difference that Charlie got HIV from a heterosexual woman or a monkey or any other living creature; but no, this stuff gets splashed about and again makes our situation all about perversion and sex.

After complaint registered, the book Eric becomes Evelyn has been withdrawn by Amazon. Either than or the B****** perpetrator has got frightened and withdrawn it before any investigation can be conducted.

This book is the same as Erin becomes Evelyn on this site. They have changed Erin to Eric and taken my name illegally to post it on Amazon.

Dear Authors and Readers.
I missed something important during my night. Many years ago I asked what we could do to celebrate the third millionth contact to BCTS. And today when I connect I see that we have had more than 50 million contacts. I really want to rise a glass of celebration to all those that keep our loved place on the net. As a pure reader I can just thank all that brings the wonderful stories to us and most of all to the persons that keep the site running for all those years.

Ginnie Gidlund

I feel a lot like Frodo did at near the end of "The Lord of the Rings" when he said, "I have been wounded by bite, sting, knife, and a long burden. Where shall I find rest?"

Small delay in putting out Shadows of the Heart due to medical issues.

Ahh well, the last lung function test showed me having a 15% drop in airflow, this morning another test, yet a further 3% reduction.

I am able to exhale a maximum of 36% of every breath I inhale in 1 second. Yup, 64% of every breath gets trapped in my lungs according to the doctors. I can exhale the remaining 64%, but that takes another 20 seconds.

at 50, I should be exhaling 90% + of each breath in that first second.

A US Marine murdered a transgendered prostitute in The Philippines, and was found guilty and given 12 years in jail.

But what's heartbreaking for me is the number of people defending and even applauding this 'man's' actions. What they say you'd only think that a 2 dimensional Saturday morning cartoon villain would say.

https://www.facebook.com/time/posts/10153336880011491?commen...

my most recent blog seems to have brought out a lot of anger and negativity that I did not intend. I suppose it was more of a rant than anything that ended up hurting some feelings it seems. I apologize to those whose feelings were hurt and i will strive to avoid it and watch my words in the future.

Yes thank you to everyone who continues to read my scribbling, writers like to be read and you lot fulfill that need in buckets!

There aren't many comments posted but I take that as positive - there's no controversy or stuff that upsets people.

Would anyone be interested in a Christmas posting?

Mads

I'm trying to post chapters on Mondays and Thursdays.
At noon tomorrow I'm going to have a total left knee replacement. I'm not worried about it since I had the right knee replaced 15 years ago (the 9th surgery on that knee over 30 years) so I'm not unduly concerned about this surgery. I've lived alone since my wife passed away, but I had the fixed the house for handicap accessibility since she was virtually bedridden for 9 years. So now the house is set up fro easy movement and the refrigerator is well stocked. I expect to be released and home Thursday afternoon.

Just one aspect mentioned - The effects on Gender Stereotypes

Felix, Katie's boyfriend, reports that they have the heart arrhythmia under control and the blood tests back so they can start fine-tuning the antibiotics. Katie's blood gases are better but that's after they put her on a breathing tube. Her kidneys are working so that's good. She spiked a temp yesterday and during it tried to get up and leave but they talked her back into bed.

Still very serious condition but the doctors believe they have things in hand and she should be getting better from here on.

Hugs to all and thanks for all the prayers and good thoughts,
Erin

Ugh, it's a universal constant that a good story sticks in your head. The problem is that sometimes the pertinent details don't stick around as well. Yanno, little things like author, which website, title, etc.. The bits that tend to make a difference in re-locating a particularly bright jewel.

As promised there is a paper version of the latest instalment now available here http://www.lulu.com/shop/madeline-bell/gaby-san-part-2/paper...

There is also a new chapter of book 12 posted here at BC

Katie was taken to the hospital last night with labored breathing, elevated heart rate and a high fever. She has bronchitis, pneumonia and even more alarming, septicemia (blood poisoning). I talked to her about an hour ago and she said she is likely to be in the hospiital for some time.

I'm sure she would appreciate the prayers and good thoughts of the community here at BigCloset where she has been a member for more than twelve years. She has promised to keep me posted and I also talked to her boyfriend. I'll blog an update now and then.

Hugs to all,
Erin

http://babeinthewoods.comicgenesis.com/d/20140402.html

Just a quick update. While I continue to work on the next Christy story, I've also been writing a new story and toiling with the idea of combining my DRU vampire stories into one narrative, fleshing them out and expanding upon them.

I hope to get something new done and published soon :)

Yes, it is a US holiday, though a few other countries celebrate something similar on other dates but I think it is kind of a universal theme. We all need to take a moment out now and then to be thankful for what we have.

I'm thankful for the community we have here that stepped up and met our goals for the month with gifts. I'll update the Hatbox box later.

I'm thankful for lots of other things, too. I hope everyone has a lovely day. :)

Hugs,
Erin

I have much to be thankful for on this day.

Everyone has been saying thanks for family et al for Thanksgiving I'd rather give an atypical thank you here.

Part of my heritage is Irish/Celtic and I was never a big fan of the popularized aspects of Irish culture. That being said, Maggie Finson writing about Fey and the Sidhe by extension makes me truly proud to have such interesting folklore as part of my ancestry.
So thank you Mags for writing about Fey and the Faerie by extension. Additionally, I hope you are doing well my friend.

Hi all, I had a request for pictures of DD's planes, Flower Power 1 and the King Air rental that she'll be flying around.

Once again the seasons have changed. For me its now getting cold, for others its been that way. I do wish that all my brothers and sisters are taking care to protect themselves from the elements. Dress appropriately for the weather(you don't have to sacrifice style and taste to do so) and make very sure that you're also taking measures internally. Drink plenty of fluids, one can dehydrate quickly in winter just as well as summer. Teas, coffees, hot chocolates are nice but don't forget juices. Vitamin C and potassium are vital. slips and falls are frequent so Vitamin D is also important.

Hi all,

I've been trying to get caught up on the Whateley Academy line of stories (not a trivial task) and, when I reached "To Be Merry and Escape From It All - Part 4" I received "The requested URL /merry7.htmlpart4 was not found on this server." I didn't find a link for someone to contact in case of problems on the Chrystal Hall site but I saw something there that seemed to indicate that I should post this problem here. If I'm missing something on the correct way to do this please let me know who I should contact.

Maybe even it needs to be more widely spread throughout humanity?

http://driftingthrough.com/2015/11/20/the-thing-all-women-do...

Have a good week

Julia

From BBC3 looks like some of it at least is filmed in the US. Some young transwomen strut their stuff on the beach and so on. Why do they all have such deep voices?

http://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/p038dwjj

Well as the title suggests I did get the second part finished and you should be able to access it on Kindle later today! I will sort out a paper version and Lulu download for next week.

Also today you can read the next part of Book 12, chapter 22 or 502 if you want to be pedantic!

There being no rest for the wicked i'll push straight on with the next arc of book 14!

I've published The Redhead and the PM on Amazon.com. I hope Anglophiles and the fans of A California Saga take a look at this one. It does not have a huge amount of TG content; however, Musetta Gigliotti O'Donnell has important roles. Kleenex is recommended in several chapters. If you've read it in the past and enjoyed it, please leave a review on Amazon.

Portia