I would kinda like to talk about depression for a moment.

See, I get two very different types of depression, that have very different effects on me, although neither one is fun.

The first type is sadness. "The Blues". When I get this type, I just want to curl up and cry myself to sleep.

But the second type is even worse - anger directed inward, otherwise called self-hate.

That one is more dangerous because if I stay that way too long, I might succumb to the notion that everyone would be better off without me.

I posted Chapter 20 last night and will probably post another chapter on Sunday. If it goes well I will try to hold to a regular 2 per week schedule.

I hope everyone is enjoying, or is at least is intrigued with where the story is going.

Heya
I was just thinking the other day about which character is my favourite action go to girl. I'm stuck between Barbie Lee Jessica Rabbit and Snowfalls Lyssa. It is like soo hard

I've been hunting for months to track down a story I read a while ago. I can't remember the name, author or the name the main character uses for the majority of the story.

What I do remember is that the main character is a young reincarnation of Apollo, a student of some form of magic academy is part demon, their mother is some kind of demon ice queen or something, and that the series also features an FtM character who's the reincarnation of Loki.

We're still about $300 short of this month's goal. And we got hit with an unexpected expense for almost that much, just last night. So, we're pretty much broke.

We have about $180. We owe about $1375 on Friday, though we can put a lot of that off. Shortfalls are made up by me, Erin.

So, if you can help, please do. The link for a onetime gift is: Hatbox and the link for a subscription is: Subscribe.

So, I play a lot of Neverwinter which is heavily based on DND, and I want to turn my character into a short story, but I need some advice. How would a young man get transported to the world of DnD and why? Is it a punishment for maybe some kind of attitude or an accident? I preffer punishment because it lets me kind of turn it around on the person doing the punishing (maybe a disgruntled sibling or mother or something)

Got THE letter today. Will be officially retired as of the first of March.

Now to fix al the other paperwork ...

Lynne

Well I've got an extra session today on't inter tweb so here you go;

http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/60739/gaby-book-12-cha...

more next week

Mads

Authors Note: Sorry folks for not completing "We Are One", honestly hit writers block pretty bad. Then when I had the ideas I never feel motivated enough to put pen to paper as it were. I'm good at ideas, just not production it seems!

I was just watching the news and they reported there is a new scam out right now. Here in the States it's tax time. Apparently the scammers are sending out an email that appears to be from officials concerning filing your taxes online. In the email are the usual nasties, malware/viruses, that steal your pertinent information. Please be very careful. Bad guys are out there so what your butts my sisters and brothers. See link below.

http://money.cnn.com/2015/01/23/pf/taxes/phishing-tax-scams/...

Here are two songs about positive responses to being bullied:

https://youtu.be/aR8X6VZ1RnQ

https://youtu.be/Mv9fN0-062k

And one song about understanding someone who is different:

https://youtu.be/te6BttysQG8

In the last week or so, I corresponded with someone who is teaching school in Saudi Arabia, Maths I think. Was that someone here? I had hoped to talk with them further. I worry that accessing BCTS from KSA is very high risk and hope they are OK.

I'm taking a lot of pain meds right now, so my memory is a bit foggy. I want to say this now in case things go badly. I have felt loved and accepted here like never before in my life. NO drama, OK? I'll probably live but I just wanted to make sure I did not leave anything unsaid.

Gwen

There is a new chapter of Gaby up today but you will have to wait a fortnight most likely until the next as I'm away next weekend.

Book 15 is going quite well, the next segment should be complete early March - lots of adventuresome stuff is lined up!

ttfn

Mads

First of all thanks to everyone who responded to my last blog. It helped me come to a decision on what my next story will be. Of course I plan on doing both but I decided that it might be a little less time consuming to tackle the alien one first partially because it will be a one off more than likely. I've started to write it now, hopefully I'll have the first few chapters done in a couple of days.

A part of the bagage I carry around where the comments my Ma made and one of her actions since the first time she found out I dressed (think I was about 8 years old at the time but it was going on from age 4 although I didn't life with her at that time). The action was the fact that there where no more hugs or any other comforting physical action. That hurt but it's the comments that screwed my up more. She basically told me I would end up only being good for working the streets in one way or another and she did this for about 7 years every time she caught me.

So here I am, blogging on a transgender story website, where I'm hopeless addicted to reading a story and becoming addicted to writing a story. I guess there are worse things to be a addicted too, like shopping.

http://www.usatoday.com/story/news/nation-now/2016/02/17/tra...

Weeeeeeeeeeeell shit. We all knew someone was going to try it sooner or later. I'm going to be watching the fallout from this fairly closely.

1.) If we didn't have BC where would the authors post their stories? There are other sites, but none as welcoming and as author-friendly as BC.

2.) If we didn't have BC where would readers find stories? There are other sites, but none offer the quality of BC. Why? See 1.).

3.) If we didn't have BC where would bloggers post their thoughts? There are other sites, but are bloggers on other sites able to post with confidence that their thoughts will be appreciated and handled with respect.

Ok first of all, yes I'm still alive and kicking, just been taking the whole writing thing pretty slow as of late. I'm trying to get all my ducks in a row with it actually. Which of course brings me to this blog. I thought I'd ask you---the readers---what you wanted. So here's the question:

SUPERHEROES OR ALIENS?

Please reply if you can, I'm really torn on what to do next :(

EOF

I am attempting to remember the name of Author and Story
Title has the word 'WISDOM' in it

Story may be in Whateley Universe or Morfs Universe, but definitely a mutation story

Boy on road trip with father/grandfather
He is terminally ill, but unlike most stories he is hiding that he is tg, until mutation kicks in, so when mutation changes her it's the best result.

Just wanted everyone to know that I'm trying my best to work on the next chapter of "Mercy", but had a massive PTSD attack Thursday, and still kinda shaky.

Sorry.

For Australian readers who missed it, there is a new program 'Hatch, Match and Dispatch' on ABC1 television, on Thursdays at 8pm. It comprises stories from the New South Wales registry of Births, Marriages and Deaths, and in Episode 2 broadcast on Thursday 18th February, it features a ballet dancer called Julia who is transgender and comes to change her name. It is joyful but painfully sad since her parents won't recognise her any more. Thank goodness she has a dog, and as we know they give unconditional love. If you missed it you can catch it on iview.

Bronwen

I'm off South in the morning to the town where I spent twenty years of my working, and married, life. I have some great friends there and some happy memories. Both of my children were born there and my daughter will be going with me so she can see her nan. It's also entirely possible her mother will make an appearance.

I no longer have any communication with the ex and am unlikely to see her even if my daughter does. For legal reasons that meeting will be supervised to ensure my daughter's safety.

Well, I made it to school with only about 4 hours sleep.*yeuh*

I guess I'm not alone. Most of my own needs tinkering before I'm ready to post it, other than a usual proofing and checking for errors. The tinkering I refer to is where a section needs rewriting because of continuity. What's happened over the past few days goes beyond that.

Usually I don't cut and past from facebook, but this bothers me.

http://www.washingtontimes.com/news/2016/feb/16/south-dakota...

While in Illinois there is legislation to allow birth certificate changes without surgery, in South Dakota they want to force student TGs to use the bathroom of their biological gender.

Fat Cats on a Diet: Will They Still Love You? from the New York Times.

I believe I read "Peaches" the first time when it was just out. I was likely in the middle of my own very traumatic emergence and likely did not enjoy it as much as I should have.

So, yesterday I downloaded it to my PC Kindle and read it again. It is a lovely and uplifting story and I enjoyed it very much indeed.

Pretty good article in the New York Times.

I went to see Pride and Prejudice and Zombies today, and it was an excellent movie. At turns action-packed, romantic, and actually a lot of humor.

But I believe it will be the last film I see in the theater.

Its not just the expense, or the urge to buy snacks both costly and bad for me, but the experience - I found I hated being alone watching the movie.

Story of my life, really - not really good at people skills, yet I have come to hate being alone ...

Ah, well. At most, only 30 -40 years of loneliness to go ...

http://progressillinois.com/quick-hits/content/2016/02/15/st...

It's a start.

...transgender and intersex people in Illinois could correct their birth certificate if they receive a declaration by a physician stating they have "undergone treatment that is clinically appropriate for that individual for the purpose of gender transition, based on contemporary medical standards, or that the individual has an intersex condition,"

Just a little note to those that might be wondering...

Good news! I'm making the final edits to chapters 14-18 of Battle for Earth: Liberation along with the epilogue. So you can expect chapters 14-18 sometime this week and the epilogue sometime next week.

And there was much rejoicing...

Well, I may not have found a snuggle partner this Valentine's, but apparently, my dog did - in the form of a rabbit in the next door neighbor's yard.

The two of them approached the fence cautiously, then the rabbit gave a quick sniffy kiss on my dog's nose through the fence, and hopped away.

My dog was clearly smitten, not wanting to come back in, and stayed as close to the fence as possible, waiting for her new friend to come back over - which she did, gave my dog another sniff-kiss, and hopped away again.

My apologies for the lack of Testing Times yesterday. Unfortunately I arrived home too late to do the final proof / edit.

Hopefully chapter 30 will make an appearance later today.

Shiraz

Found this game from Steam. It's called "High School Romance". a familiar situation where a boy gets into a fancy school not realizing that it's a all girls school. there are several endings that you can experience. It's about $10 to buy.

http://store.steampowered.com/app/398100/

I'm going to see if I can find it somewhere for free. I may not be easy but I'm still cheap. lol
This does look pretty good. Here is a link for a youtube video about it.

I want to be first in wishing all the writers and readers here a happy valentine's day. Some have romance, some wish for it, some write for it and some read of it. I've made friends here and love them with all my heart. Hugs and kisses for all that want, double for those that need. My regards to those you hold dear.

Hiya!

Ok, I was sitting with a friend watching a k-drama (see blog 1) when I was hit with a craving for ice cream. I asked my friend if she wanted to go out for some. It being a balmy 16 degrees Fahrenheit she looked at me like I was crazy. She does this quite often but to be fair I look at her in the same way quite often.

I, personally, think she just didn't want to get out of her pjs. She said no but I could bring her back a hot fudge sundae. I had splurged for lunch (Chinese) so I might as well buy dessert too.

I had the strangest dream last night.

I dreamed that I was in Elementary school, and learned that a disease was going to turn me into a girl.

Even though I wanted to be a girl, i was scared in the dream, mostly because I was worried about the pain of the transformation.

Then, the time came, and I didn't transform, and I was devastated.

Ah, well.

Wow, so as I mentioned before I've been reading Gaby books in my spare time pretty much nonstop since I came across them a couple weeks ago. I'm not really a very emotional person, but try as I might I'm not Vulcan. My whole life I've always considered emotional expression kind of pathetic, I mean that's even what the word means, Pathos from Greek. I try hard to hide emotions most of the time. My wife is the opposite. I'm sure some of that is biological, but I'm also quite sure that I'm just acting as I've been trained and expected to act as a male.

I dont usually push my own stories, but I think I might be on to something special with my latest story "Mercy".

See, if there is a theme that runs through a lot of my work, it's about what happens after a person has been damaged.

I've explored ideas of healing, of looking for justice, and the power of forgiveness vs the allure of vengeance.

But in my latest, I think I have really hit the jackpot in terms of making the case for Mercy as the best choice.

Or at least that's my hope. Only the readers will decide if I am succeeding.

I would like to offer a heart felt thank you, I've been for the most part lurking in the shadows, and I've finally worked up enough courage to post something kin to a welcoming post. First allow me to thank all the wonderful authors out there who share there pieces of creativity. You guys are beyond amazing and have awaken in me a need and a want. You have also given me ideas and indirectly you guys have made me a better writer. And that's about it right now, I'm to shy to say anything about myself. And to quote a popular anime, one I can not name, I will conclude this bog by saying.

Going through my portable hard drive to clear some of the rubbish we tend to accumulate and found a chapter of a story that Angel asked me to edit for her.
The problem now is what to do with the story, do I just delete it or is there somewhere or someone that is holding Angel's stories.
It seems a shame just to delete the chapter and I do remember her telling me that her stories were being held by somebody

The series is fully written and complete up chapter 17... however, I neglected to let Stickmaker know about not posting more than one story part per day or so, so the multiple posts today are my fault, not his. Since I was the one who asked him to post here, it was my responsibility to let him know of the unwritten rules here. Mea Culpa.

I hope you all are enjoying the series.

Catherine Linda Michel

...a faceless man, in a long dark coat. He stole silently into where she was sleeping, and carried her away.

It's not like we didn't know this day was coming. There is no recovery from the dementia, no going back to being the vibrant woman that she was when she was healthy. I'm slowly coming to terms with it.

I had a friend comment that he couldn't imagine what I was going through. I replied with this:

The Family Girl Blogs (aka "The New Working Girl Blogs") Blog #75: An Announcement: Something Coming Up! To see all of Bobbie's Family Girl Blogs, click on this link: http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/book/28818/family-girl-blogs

I’m putting up an announcement.

And that announcement is: after over a three-year absence from writing stories here in BCTS, I’m finally putting up another one. Yayyy!

Ummm… yayyy?

Sorry folks, not feeling very well so taking an early night. I have managed to do some work on the new story which stands at 4000 words so far. I hope normal service will be resumed tomorrow.

Angharad

It seems crystalhall.org is currently a mirror of BigCloset. I know they have moved hosts a few months back but I had thought they were not done porting content from the old site. Did something happen?