My mom started fooling around with my hair last night, and now I have an honest-to-goodness pony tail. The ex had a bit of a freak out about it, but that's to be expected.

I kinda like it, though.

In a few weeks I go for my first appointment for HRT. I am anxious about it, but feel that it needs to be done. My therapist is under the theory that I won't know what my next step after HRT is until I am actually on hormones and I'm inclined to agree with him. There are a lot of hindrances in my journey, mostly my concern about how other people will view me and if I'll be labeled a freak. But it is still a step.

think I've reached a point in my journey where I feel confident enough to try out different looks to see what one suits me best. For example, I've been wearing a very subtle plum shade of nail color, and today I decided to try a bold red instead. I'm also looking at hairstyles, to see what I can do with that as well, although I still have a bit of thinness at the front that I would like to cover over as much as it can be.

I think a good step forward for me, and kinda fun besides.

I'd like to say a really big thank you to all the people that took the time to read, comment and Kudos on my 'To Make A Wish' story. I have been busy writing new stories, and one will be replacing 'To Make a Wish', so sadly you won't be getting much of a break from my writing (please feel free to run away screaming now)
I'd also like to say a super big thank you to SamanthaK for putting up with me and my writing, as without her help, I would have given up on my writing more times than I can count. Thank you Sammi *big Hug*

Why do I still struggle with my identity? Well, there are a few reasons why. First, because there is nothing feminine in my body - no intersex condition, no lack of testosterone, none of that, which keeps me wondering where does this fem thing come from?

Second, because of my rape and other nasty events in my life, I would be a good candidate for gender issues if environment plays any role at all, so the question becomes, "Would I feel the same if I had been blessed with some positive male role models?"

It has been months I think since I last heard from Beth. I haven't seen her on and know that she was having some health challenges, but appeared to be improving.

Has anyone heard from her?

Gwendolyn

I just watched the last approx. 50 min. of Blade Runner, The Final Cut (2007), which I'd not seen before. I thought it was much longer the the original US theatrical version, but I looked it up; it's only one minute longer, 117 min. vs 116 min.

In the last part of the film, everything was happening more slowly and dramatically. The ending, with Deckard (Ford) and Rachael (Sean Young) driving north on the Pacific Coast Highway, was cut. There may have been other scene missing to give more time to the slower action.

I just got out of counseling. I am one week closer to going on HRT (July 12th or something like that). The question that keeps being asked, and one that I don't have an answer to, is what is the end result of my transitioning.

I just noticed my Kudos count was 73337, which I think constitutes a full house in poker, not that I play it of course.

Thank you for all who contributed.

Angharad

I ecently blogged I was willing to let another author work on my unfinished stories. Somme one suggested I hold on to them and when I felt better complete them. Today I opened one of my stories and spent some time following the them I am writing about and within two hours I felt better and my story is close to completion.
It was nice to have that cathartic feelng of accomplishing an endeavor.

When I first wrote this, I was afraid to put the name of the town down for some reason I can't recall anymore. Now, almost a year later I don't have that issue. For those wondering where Through the years takes place, Tracy's current home is halfway between Palermo CA and Oroville CA.

Conservative Right get something correct, for once.

Suze Orman Is a economic expert from Chicago and one of her expertises is women and their money.

Suze Orman show today on CNBC News channel, had a long feature on the Money worries of gay and to a lesser extent "other" marriages. I think if you are going to have a life partner type of relationship or have one, you need to see this...

(Maybe some thing for USA only but good advice for most)

Today is Alan Turing's 100th birthday. He's the man who helped crack the German ciphers in WWII and pretty much invented the basics of computer science.

The venerable American comic strip doesn't seem as popular, or as influential, as it had been when people hung on every word of Dick Tracy, L'il Abner, and Pogo. This led some to make gloomy pronouncements about the end of that art form. Is the real problem, though, not that the medium itself is dated, but that its policies regarding appropriate content are stuck in 1953?

I'm inclined toward the latter view.