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unpublishing a story

Quite some time ago, I started a story called "the secret of M.Y.T.H.", and had high hopes for it. unfortunately I got blocked on the story, and it fell to the bottom of my stories in progress pile. Now, at last, I think I can do something with it, but rather than simply carrying on from the point where it has been sitting, I think it would be better to unpublish the unfinished version and then publish the complete one. So how can I remove the old version of the story?

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Tricks or ????

This economic collapse is destroying hundreds of thousands of small businesses. The girls guiding BCTS are struggling like everyone else. It seems donations have been in lockstep with the economy. Dwindling to a trickle in other words.
I remember Erin talking about turning tricks to survive.

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Missing collaborator

Has anyone heard from Dawn Jehs (author of Stick-Her-Shock and Stick-Her-Shock 2)? She's been collaborating / co-authoring a lengthy novel I'm in the middle of. A couple of months ago, she said she wasn't feeling well, Since then, I haven't gotten any response to e-mails. I'm worried - not for her contributions / collaboration, but for her personally. With the pandemic, it's a little more worrisome than normal. If you've heard from her, please let me know.

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What kind of idiot???

There are times I think I should have been born with a much lighter hair color (before anyone gets up in arms, did I say blond?) rather than the bright red I had as a child. Yes, it darkened into a nice auburn when I was a teenager, and then went boring brown as I got older.

I mean, what kind of idiot eats ghost chili potato chips, then (even after washing hands and using alcohol wipes) checks blood sugar levels, then injects insulin?

Ow ow ow!

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For Want of a Comma-Tommy's uniform

For those who have been following my story, For Want of a Comma, below is a picture of how I sorta imagine Tommy looks after changing into his uniform. Except for the shoes, I created the uniform from scratch, imported them into Second Life, then took a photo there.

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I'm so tired of being a fuck-up

so, my car's windshield wiper fluid distributor seems to be on the fritz, and my check engine light is on. which means bye bye more of my emergency money..

I'm pretty sure whatever is wrong happened when I accidently went over a high sidewalk, so it's nobody's fault but mine.

Sighs, I'm seriously tired of being a fuck-up, and right now I'm struggling with feeling like everybody around me would be better off without me.

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Birthday Blues

Hey everyone,

So it's that day again and I'm feeling bleh. Things still aren't going great in my life and I'm in the middle of another insomnia/nightmares cycle again so I get maybe two or three solid hours a night once I finally drift off and then I wake terrified from nightmares, ptsd flashbacks, or a mix of both that are so realistic and terrifying that it takes me a good hour to shake them off and realize what reality actually is.

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FOY inc -2- Ride in Truck - now on Patreon for everyone

Gordon found the girl on the beach, naked and confused. She doesn't remember who she is so he calls her Bridget. For her part, she's fascinated by big, powerful Gordon. And even more confused because she does remember one thing: she's a middle-aged businessman, not a delicate beauty with purple-painted nails.

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Previous episode here: FOY inc -1- Found on Beach

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Everythings Sunny with Sarah is now on Amazon!!

Hey guys you can now get a published version of Everythings sunny with Sarah on amazon!
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B08GX4CZJX/ref=sr_1_1?dchild=1&key...

If you cant patreon, but like to support us, buy our books! Or hey just send us a thank you :) *whisper* But buy our books *whisper*

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sorry to post again so soon

I'm sorry to post again so soon, but I had unfun day, as I got two different moments I could have done without. First, I discovered I have a rather odd PSTD reaction to pain in my leg. It not only sets off my anxiety, I have this terrible sensation that if I looked down at it, it would be a ruin. Then, later I had what I'm gonna refer to as a spontaneous male reaction. If you have (or had) male equipment, you know what I mean. Those always hit me a number of ways - they set off my dysphoria, they set off my PTSD, and they're bloody painful to boot.

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the struggle between justice, vengence, and mercy

For some reason, one of my old stories popped into my head last night. It's called "Payback House" and its a pretty typical example of themes that run through a lot of my work, the theme of the struggle between justice, vengence, and mercy. Its here if you wanna read it: https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/44335/payback-house

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Hot Peppers

When I was a child, I didn't like spicy food. The nearest I can figure is I had wimpy taste buds. At about fifteen or so, I had some hot ribs, and I realized that the flavor was wonderful.

Now, being young and dumb, like a lot of fifteen years olds are, I thought that eating spicy food would make me more 'masculine'. All I can say to that, is it hasn't worked yet.

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Two Months In

This blog was originally posted on my website, but I thought I'd share it with you gals (and guys).

Wow, has it really been two months since my revelatory little blog? Geesh my how the time flies! I just wanted to again thank all the ladies who've reached out to me and offered their support, it really has helped me pull through what has been some really challenging times.

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Lazy fur baby

Mya being lazy.jpgNot exactly sure why the picture turned sideways, but my phone does that to me at times. It really can't decide which way it's going to take a picture.

Saw my girl, Mya, laying on the floor. It's a lazy day for both of us. Nothing really happening, so she's laying on the hardwood floor.

I've tried getting her a bed to sleep on, as other of my dogs have had.

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Hello there. Remember me?

Hello again, for those who recall. Yes it is Raff. Back yet again. I actually have gotten to do some writing since I've been unable to work. Keep in mind not much because dealing with family and everything else, I've been busier than when I was at work 40 hours a week. Plus all our forest fires out here. I just had to move back to California.

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Stolen! -8- Closet - on Patreon, Patrons Only

Bonnie said, "I thought you might like to go to the bathroom. You know, before I lock you in the closet." She nodded toward the door with the padlock.

I stared in that direction. "What-what happened to Moose's last girlfriend?" I suddenly asked.

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Sexuality I don't understand.

With the recent disclosure of Paris Hilton, I begin to suspect that lots of people have severe trauma in their lives, yet somehow manage to hide it and pull together a reasonable life. I'm no exception. The mistake I made was to marry a severely damaged partner and eventually our lives caved in. She was an Alcoholic and I changed male to female.

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When you have nothing but time on your hands

So I spent a bit of time last night in the emergency room. At such times, my mind begins to wander... or is it wonder?

For example, What exactly is the Tooth Ferry for? Where does it cross. I thought there was a bridge there.

Do you leave positive or negative feedback when you purchase batteries online?

In Greek mythology, was Chiron known as the Centaur for Disease Control?

Is Irony truely the opposite of wrinkley?

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Cannot send message

I just tried to send a message to someone, and got a message that the attempt to send the message failed, and to contact my site administrator. When I tried to send a message to erin about this, got the same fail message.

So now I am doing a blog entry, as a way to contact my administrator. My apologies for wasting everyone else's time.

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Moving pain

So the other day, I had an ultrasound in a place where I have had a pain in my abdomen since I was 17 years old. At that starting point, it makes it well over thirty years that the pain has been on and off.

They did find one. There are a couple of problems I have here, however. I drove truck for many years, and I pulled double flatbeds. This means that I lifted 100 to 150 lb tarps onto the front and back of two trailers each day. Once, five feet to the deck,and once six to eight feet to the top of the load. How did I not aggravate the hernia?

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frozen by fear

so one of the few things my brother and sister-in-law have asked me to do around here is trim the grass in the summer.

But about a month ago, while I was using the electric trimmer, our neighbor swore through his window at me for apparently waking him up. since then, I've been terrified of trimming the lawn, and found all kinds of excuses not to do it.

The lawn now looks like crap, but I feel worse. sighs ….

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Cuddles is gone

I took Cuddles to the vet this morning and got the bad news. The confusion, walking in circles, weakness in the hind legs: possible brain tumor.

And a fair-sized bill to find out if anything could be done -- or not. She was at least 14 and maybe as old as 16, she hadn't seemed happy in at least a year.

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sorry, no stories from me for a bit

I'm sorry to say I'm probably 2 weeks away from having anything new up. A number of events in real life have drained my writing spoons, just when I was making some progress on several ideas.

I hope I will still have readers by the time I have something for them to read ...

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In Limbo

Spending today in limbo. My mom, who was in the hospital a couple weeks ago due to severe stomach pains (ulcers as if turned out) went back in last Friday as she'd become non responsive. Dad called my sister yesterday to let her now and for her to call me. They think Mom has pneumonia, and her lung function was already horrid due to her many other health issues. She's been on oxygen and bedridden now for too many years.

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Looking for a story

I am looking for a story from the Whately universe.
Story concerns a young boy conscripted into a villains army, becomes a shidhe female seductress/spy type, co-opts a group of the villains enhanced followers led by a character called Blackstar?, and escapes to Whately.

If anyone can help point me in the right direction, I would appreciate it greatly.

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Does anyone know what happened to Elsbeth?

Elsbeth was posting every week with Freyja's Daughters and The Lost Queen, two posts a week, then in the second week of April this year she just disappeared. I loved her DarkRealm Universe stories that she wrote six or seven years ago and was thrilled to see her return. These new stories were developing into her best yet, and then.....poof! Does anyone know if she is okay?

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New Chapter of Rairy Contrary is out.

Hello out there,

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A new Chapter of Rairy Contrary just dropped!

Thanks everyone for your interest in this story. It's been a while since I've written anything for it but I sat down last week and advanced the story a bit.

I've been spending most of my time working on Adrianne (The second book to Adrian) and I've made some really great strides on it. I'm 40k words in!

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Setting: The Rule of Three Senses

On alternate Wednesdays, I run a little writers' group sharing insights and critiques with other writers. I'm the most experienced there, though not the only one who has made a living as a writer, so often I am leading the discussions and providing some of the things I have learned.

The group is called "Taking Pains" as a reminder that being a writer is a craft that requires attention to detail, and too, an ability to stand up to constructive criticism. Which we try to do a lot of, and as little of the other kind as can be managed.

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Another short

Just put up another short story, one rather lighter and not as 'noir' or heavy as the one from last week (Raquiel). This short can also fit in the Light saga - which I am totally now tempted to start calling 'Dawn of Light' as coined by Nyssa! It may even have a hint of future issues for poor Jordan to deal with... ;)

Hopefully folks enjoy this one! As always, thanks for reading - and especially for any comments!!

- Erisian

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Am I correct

in thinking that the size of tasters or adverts for books are getting bigger - except mine of course and one or two others, and is this fair because it appears that one or two of them would take up half a page of broadsheet and certainly pretty well fill my screen as I scroll down them.

Perhaps I'm getting old and crabby, but it doesn't encourage me to want to post much at all.

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a dream of searching, anger, and something beyond

Last night's dream was … interesting. It started with me in a crowed building, that seemed a combination of a school and recreation center complete with a wave pool. I wanted to get to the water, which I could see behind glass, But I was unable to do so, and asking the crowd of people didn't help. Finally Ieft frustrated, and instead of just asking, I began swearing at people.

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Blame it on age

I’m getting forgetful, I can’t believe it, but it’s true.

I forgot that there’s a “kudos” button here. For at least a year I suspect.

Everyone who has posted a story since last summer please give yourself a point to make up my laxity.

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Bad Idea

In Masks XVIII there's the following:

"Scaring someone to trigger their latent powers is the stupidest..." said Tiger, as Middleton sat, further startling him. He leaned forward, aura flickering. "Didn't you idiots learn anything from Tokyo in 1983?!"

This was a reference to a sequence in the Japanese animated feature Harmageddon. For those who may not have seen the movie, I made a music video of this several years ago, and it can be found here:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zsqv6tboIbg

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Big storm hits Davenport Iowa

We had a big storm roll through Monday just after noon. No tornadoes but wind speeds equal to one. Severe lightning, torrential rains and all that come with a bad storm.

I happened to be home when it hit, having taken the morning off for a doctor's appointment and returned home to have lunch. Watching the wind and rain outside reminded me of hurricanes when I still lived in Florida.

The good part was it left as fast as it came in and within two hours the sky was clear. Although it left broken trees, power poles and over 100,000 without power.

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Barney Miller circa 1975

Those of us who are of a certain age will remember the sit com, Barney Miller. It's about the 12th Precinct detectives. I was watching it late last night and the 1975 episode, Vigilante came on. It features an arrest of a cross-dressing teamster, for an "unclassified misdemeanor." We're all used to seeing cross-dressers in comedy being the brunt of the gag. In this case the cross-dresser was treated with respect and the comedy lines were all about the "unclassified misdemeanor" and the others reaction to him.

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Stolen! -7- on Patreon, Patrons Only

"Try to whimper a little," Bonnie advised.

"You're kidding, aren't you?" I asked, knowing that tears were already running down my face...

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Bonnie and Dolly try to fool Earl about just how much of a helpless captive Dolly really is.

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Gender Stereotyping CNN Article

https://www.cnn.com/2020/08/11/health/tomboys-lisa-selin-dav...

I am angered by the ignorance in this CNN Article. It's all about it being OK for girls to be Tomboys, and just goes on and on. Yet, if a boy tends to be effeminate, many of us know there is hell to pay.

It is amazing that they had the cheek to publish this article.

Gwen

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Kindle reviews

Yesterday Last week was Erin’s birthday.

She has often said that what she would really love to receive is financial stability for Big Closet.

There is a way you can help!

Almost everyone on this site lives hand-to-mouth. It was stated in a story on ABC News in May of 2019 that 40% of Americans have less than $400 in an emergency fund for unexpected expenses. That was pre-Covid. Clearly that number would be much worse today.

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Floria - Sorry for the Confusion

Several folks commented or messaged that the ending of Floria confused them. Were they dead or were they alive, and if they were, how did they pull it off. Perhaps I was being a bit to obscure. Let me assure you, Geno, Andy, and Floria were quite dead The answer was the name of the establishment where they were going for dinner: The Elysian Bar and Grill. These are Italians, remember.

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NEW ...Vantier a Whateley Tale is up!

Vantier a Whateley Tale chapter 20: encroaching shadows!

Well someone on here blogged about my Vantier stories (Sammi! grin!) and I noticed when some other reader psoted a coment that I ahd not done a chapter in a year!

so 2 years late (my bad!) I post a new chapter for you all to enjoy

and what shadowy danger grows in this chapter!......muhahahahahahaha!

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A Step Too Far

Everyone probably already knows. Trump finalizes rule defining gender as a person's biological sex. Like Deuteronomy 22:5, many are using Harry Benjamin's illogical and so stupidly wrong, rules defining trans. Have I let everyone know in plain enough English how much I hate what that man did to all transsexuals? Thank you Benjamin for all the lives you complicated and those you destroyed for your "Standards of Care". I pray you receive your just reward in Hell. I think Dr. Grazie Pozo Christie, policy adviser for The Catholic Association put it very succulently, transgender are insane.

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Rairy Contrary Cover

Hello out there,

I ended up playing around in Canva a little bit and created a couple covers!

The first one is your standard book cover.

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The next one is pretty much the same thing but smaller for instagram.

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I like how they turned out. I just wanted to share that with you.

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Wouldn't it be nice?

It's the only holiday in August, my birthday. :) I'm 72.

I'm thankful for a lot of things in my life and one of those is BigCloset which I have been operating, with the help of friends, for almost 21 years.

It's fun and I'm convinced it helps keep me young, despite the occasional stress. :)

I'm kind of passed the age at which I expect birthday presents, but if there is anyone out there who would like to know that they made me smile, they can send a gift through the Hatbox via the links in the right-hand column of this page.

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Pastor Dot?

Once a month, my church hosts a special evening service called "Haven" for individuals on the LGBT spectrum and their allies. Well, the young man who normally runs the service has asked if I would like to lead it for the september service. Thanks to Covid, we'll stream me speaking, so no crowd to get nervous about, but still, something I've never tried before.

Wish me luck, and assuming the service will be available afterward, I'll drop a link.

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Just a thought

I was just surfing around checking old dead links to remove when one popped up for me finally. http://www.oocities.org/b_dewinter/hotter3.html?20186 If I may suggest so boldly, check for stories you haven't seen before cause the link didn't work for quite a while...….nothing new, unless you have not been around since the dawn of time, like me

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I wonder how the pheonix feels when rising from the ashes?

Some are aware that I drop in from time to time, read a bunch of stories, answer some messages. I have been very quiet over the last number of years, I am truly amazed at just how long that has been. I never left though, I just never managed to pull my muse back together or perhaps it has found a new expression in art. I spend a lot of time painting or doing digital art, it's quite relaxing. However, I still read a lot and there are so many capable writers here.

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A milestone for me

August 4, 2020

I'm pleased to see that there has been 5000 views of my February 2018 story "A Woman-less Beauty Pageant: It was the Zipper’s Fault 1".

As a first effort story I'm extremely pleased about so many hits but at less then 850 words I wish I had waited and combined ALL the "A Woman-less Beauty Pageant" chapters into a single longer story. Perhaps someday I will.

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I'm back (I hope) and being bumped

well, my new computer seems to be working, so I'm gonna give that a tentitive yay. But on the boo side, because how prolific we've all been this last couple of days, my latest story has dropped way down, and its at least possible some of you who would have normally checked it out have missed it. so just in case, here is a link: https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/86208/tinker-tailor-s...

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