Several people from different compartments of my life have asked me to write my autobiography and I am finally feeling well enough to take on such a task. It will be a transgender (inter-sex) story, and it will also include every aspect of my life, including my success, failures and embarrassing moments. It will include all aspects of my spiritual journey.

I still have a lot to think about, but I think if it has to be sugar coated to avoid offending someone, then it is not worth the effort. It will include it all both smelly and fragrant.

Vaccinated!

Now that I've finished The Madonna Of The Future, I finally feel free. It's the last of what I considered my backlog from 2008.

Discovered while leafing through a copy of Web User, a free website which analyses a chunk of text (ideally 200+ words) and reports back on various technical aspects of your writing:

Can you believe that Gaby first appeared over 9 years ago and that the first printed editions came out in 2005? Me neither.

Over the years, many people have contacted me about inconsistences, bad spelling and so on and finally I've done something about it! From today you can get Gaby - The Anime Days 2nd edition which has been reformatted, re-edited (with help from Angharad, thanks again A)and a new cover treatment produced. I hope that overall its a bit slicker and this version will become the definitive one.

http://jalopnik.com/5895012/firefighters-in-drag-hitch-up-sk...

At a recent St. Patrick's Day parade a fire broke out, fortunately the volunteer fire department was on the scene, unfortunately they weren't dressed for the fire. That didn't stop them.

I am soooooo frustrated right now. On April 8th, 2011 my employer of 21 years decided to liquidate the company and me and about 30 other coworkers were basically shown the door. We knew it wouldn't be good when we got word they were 23 million in debt. I'm trying to do the right thing and have sent out countless resume's as well as fill out applications but no one...NO ONE...is calling back. I think in the entire year I have only had 2 interviews...just 2...ugh!

Ok, so this is little old me with my brand new butch haircut :) which, according to some guys I know, makes me look cute. This way you peepz know who you are talking with ;p

PS Why is it always guys that call me cute???? Have never been able to figure that one out .... go figure

Hi everyone I'm back! I got out of the hospital yesterday, and I've been reading some of the stories and commenting, but I'm having a few issues finding time to do everything. I do have the next chapter of Wild Magic, I'm just doing some editing and polishing before I post it. I'll have it up today.

Today, life gave me a little reminder. I remember now that it does not matter how hard you try, how hard you work, how much you want something or how much you need something. No matter what, it will never be enough. I would like to thank Life for giving me this reminder. I really needed it. I was actually starting to feel good about myself and the direction my life has been going. I have never been one for alcohol but today I could use a stiff drink.

Jessica Marie

When I was bringing my mom to the trainstation (ok with 2 stop in between, getting petfood for the cats and one very long one in the café :d) I had a GP passing by from the external health service of my employer. Checking up on me. Ok that's twice in not even a week that I had a check-up. What are they going to do??? Contradict their own firm/collegues??? >first one confirmed my leave from work till the summer which is officially sick leave while I'm NOT sick)< Grmbl so here I am.

One of the biggest improvements I've noticed is with my hair. Not only is it softer than its been in years (feels like silk to the touch, no lie), but its now long enough that I can actually feel it move. I'll be walking along, and I can feel my hair bounce, and it feels so feminine and just ... right. Like something I hadnt even realized was missing has been returned to me.

Now, if I could only do something about the bald spot in the front....

C’est á¨crit

Elle te fera changer
La course des nuages
Balayer tes projets
Vieillir bien avant l’á¢ge
Tu la perdras cent fois
Dans les vapeurs des ports
C’est écrit…..

Et ses ombres qu'elle te
Dessine autour des yeux
Et ces ombres qu’elle te
Dessine autour des yeux

I should write more, but for some reason I'm finding it hard to actually do it. I want to improve my writing skill, do something creative and constructive instead of just consuming the stories here, but I've always put it off because I've felt that I can't live up to my own expectations or that I can't match the intricate and clever plots of the authors here or other silly excuses. Maybe I should just write from the heart.

I settled down to reread some of my stuff, partly to keep a consistency in the characters I am writing. In 'Ride On' I refer to a Vanessa Redgrave film, 'Second Serve', and as a bear of little brain I had never looked it up.
It is on You tube.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mgYxHYJ5H80

Well, I managed to slip in the parking lot at work and landed on my back. Got a bit of a headache, now.
Sigh.