To everyone that I have your e-mail address. If you have gotten SPAM E-mail with my address as where it came from, I'm sorry as some how and it is not only my address but someone has gotten into MSN's web site and has stolen these addresses off their site as this info is on their site not my computer. I've had this address almost ten years now and I have complain to Microsoft several times about this but it seems to go nowhere with them. I know I've had several friends that have said they have had to drop their addresses and start new ones because of this! Richard

It's the perfect song for her and just had to share it with anyone who wants to check it out. It completely says how I think and feel about my Jonelle.

It's "Just the way you are." By Bruno Mars.

http://news.cincinnati.com/article/20101026/NEWS010702/10270...

Sixteen-year-old Rufus Bowman was looking for an easy victim, but he picked the wrong one during a July 13 incident.

Bowman was in the 200 block of West McMicken Avenue in Over-the-Rhine when, Assistant Hamilton County Prosecutor Ryan Nelson said, he approached Joshua Bumpus.

"Mr. Bumpus is a transvestite prostitute," Nelson said. "He goes 6-(foot)-3, 280 (pounds) and was wearing a pink halter top and pumps."

The Huffington Post did an article about this and references the In The Life documentary that will be showing in various markets.

This article has a link to the documentary. Caution, have kleenex ready.

Transgender Issues: The Additional Challenges of LBGT Aging

Here's a direct link to the documentary.

In the Life

Much love to all,

Connie

I have been looking over the dozens of my story ideas stored on my computer, some of them years old and never likely to be started, never mind finished, and trying to work out why I never took them any further.

Most of them show the protagonist getting into an interesting, complex (and almost believable!) situation. But I now realise one particular fault is shared by many of them. In future, I'm going to rigorously ensure I don't fall into the trap again by applying "Charlotte's Test".

Well, busy again, but thankfully I am two weeks in advance of where I need to be with editing. Granted the chapter after that is new and I have to write the whole thing, but hopefully after that I should be good for a while.

I am not sure if I have mentioned it, but I am now on anti-depression medication. The funny thing is that this doctor has never seen me in male clothing. Its still a little strange to be in a public waiting room dressed, but so far, nobody has made a big deal of it. I think that's good news, right?

Angela has posted an absolutely amazing piece today, The Woman Who Corrupted Diddleyburg.

It is a very clever title, because it is a play on the Mark Twain classic, The Man That Corrupted Hadleyburg. And Angela plays so well with Twain's plot. You really need to read the original version to understand just how excellent her story is. Click here to read Twain's version:

The Man That Corrupted Hadleyburg

I just want to congratulate my SF Giants for winning the World Series. After seeing the disgusting Tshirts the Texans composed "Steers vs Queers" I have to laugh. Our group of mutts weren't suposed to have a chance against the power of the steers, but pitching will always beat hitting and the last two games proved that. I only hope they can do it again next year, Arecee

Today while web surfing I ran across this story, "QED." It appears to be a "Zerophilia" fanfic. It is by Jon Buck and is hosted at the site. Warning it is still incomplete, but I found it interesting anyways. Since it was just posted there is more to come.

The story link is http://shifti.org/wiki/User:JonBuck/QED

The site link is http://shifti.org/wiki/Main_Page

Shifti has stories about all kinds of transformations, many of them about furries. However, there is a section that is just TG. It is set up in a wiki format so it can take some exploring to find what you're looking for.

So you aren't hanging about waiting i thought i'd post a quick note.

I shan't be posting anything new here for the foreseeable although visitors to my site, maddybell.com might well find something from time to time.

1. From feedback i have had @ 30% of the readers don't like my stories
2. I don't have anything to post
3. i'm too busy with other stuff to write
4. I can't be bothered

The situation could change at any time - i'll keep you posted

Ok, so last week, I did some major deep tissue damage to my back and shoulders. This means that doing my homework (math this semester) is a pain in the neck, literally, let alone sitting for the four hours a day I need for writing my stories. Did I mention that I already spend eight hours a day at work doing typing?

Add to that the fact that I got both LEGO Universe (early) and The Lost Hero (book, unexpected) this weekend.

On top of that, I had my daughter's birthday to take care of on Saturday. Yes, she was a Halloween baby.

Nina Kanagassingham, the woman accused of the murder of cross-dressing human rights lawyer, Sonia Burgess, turns out to be a transitioning transexual.*

More details here: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-1325544/Woman-accuse...

Gabi

* Sorry if this seems like a sensational “tabloid rag lead-in”, but I used to be a newspaper journalist and old habits die hard, so I hope you will forgive me. :)

The Scrabble championships don't normally attract a lot of media attention, in much the same way as chess championships don't.

But that's been blown apart by the winner of this year's contest...

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-11662754

(N.B. That BBC article is one of the few referring to Mikki using feminine pronouns)

Check out the announcement at Stardust; assuming your DNS cache has caught up, you should see a blog post labeled, "New Road to the Stars".

Hugs,
Erin

Just finished a German exam over a mobile telephone. Hard to hear the examiner, and for some reason I was nervous as all hell. I speak German, for gods' sakes.
That's it, though, my last exam for the foreseeable future. Do I care about the result? Course I do!

Well its my 25th birthday today - so no rising dawn today. But will have the halloween episode up soon

Musetta' Waltz was an experiment that I guarantee you I will never venture into again. I wanted to write a story about the transgendered prisoner that Richard O'Donnell fell in love with and eventually married. The problem was she was a three time loser, and that was the reason she was there in the first place. As I said somewhere before, I was painted into a corner, after all pleasant events, supportive family, acceptance are not going to get someone in jail. In defense of Musetta's Waltz, it does get better, a lot better for her.

I am concerned about the portrayal of TG in the media recently. For example, a Canadian Colonel has recently pled guilty of a escalating series of crimes that ended with the rape and murder of two women. But the image that has made the rounds is the man dressed in woman's underwear that he had stolen from women and girls, and his cross-dressing has been played up. Even my mother wondered if he was like me.... It would be wonderful if we could get someone from our community who does something wonderful, that we can show as positive role models. Ah well.

South Carolina’s first car-free Bicycle City is about to become a reality. The new Bicycle City will be located in South Carolina’s central midlands region near downtown Columbia, home to eight colleges and universities and the convergence of three rivers. We have begun building miles of hiking and biking trails and will hold an exciting ground breaking event on December 11. Bicycle City has been covered by Bicycling magazine and Next American City magazine and will be featured in Outside magazine’s December issue.

Sometimes, it feels like every bloody day is Halloween for me. I am forced to wear a costume and a mask each and every day. Some days that's okay. I find within me enough masculinity to keep up appearances, and I play my role well. Other days, that mask gets uncomfortable, that costume difficult, and it's all I can do to endure, and pray that someday I will be permitted to be free. Ah, well.

Well should i post more Rising Dawn chapters

My muse is on overdrive at the moment

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-england-london-11639505

I tried posting this up when it happened, but something went wrong in the process. I am surprised I have not seen it here already. I was rather angry with the initial press coverage, which seemed to put the death of a fellow human behind such things as "MAN IN A DRESS!!!!!" and "Delays for Passengers"

I was musing as I worked today, while also preparing for a language exam and nursing sore LH fingertips from a session last night. I started submittng stuff here two and a half months ago, or so, and I have ended up doing a bit of self analysis.How do I write? Oh shut up at the back, yes, I tap buttons on a keyboard, but...
Apart from a deliberate change for a horror story, all my central characters are TS.
Everything is first person.
I like to drop hand grenades into the plot.
There are set-piece events,like PBP and the rugby in StD.

Lately many icons of my youth have passed on. I did not know of this man but because of his characters I spent many hours giggling at the TV in my youth.

Alexander Anderson, Jr.

What is going on, i posted Rising dawn chapter 1 12 hours ago

I thought I might give a sneak peek at an upcoming story I am working on. It takes place in the "Wild Cards" universe. For those who may not know what that is, it is a "Shared universe" series, created and edited by George R.R. Martin. The idea of the series is that a virus comes to earth, turning people into either superheroes or monsters. I am just getting started, so its going to take a bit.

Well i have come to a decision my Duelist of Time Story will be put on hold for now - im not getting enough inspiration to continue it at the moment, it may get a re-write at some point seeing its my first effort.

But i wont stop writing, i have another story idea in my head.

Although the problem with it, its Anime esq/Superhero Story. This means with all of the superhero stories on the site its just going to be another one.

Despite having a tough day at work, mostly frustration over being given a job but not given the tools to do it, and being asked to do several jobs not actually part of what my assignment is supposed to be, then criticized for taking longer than expected (which was darn short even if I could have focused on the one task), I actually feel better. I focused on the fact I was able to go out as Dorothy to a restaurant on Sunday for brunch with other TS girls, and giggled listening to stories about some of the more humorous comments made to some of the girls.

Don’t sweat the small stuff.

It's a piece of advice my drama teacher gave me when I was in High School, and for years I had trouble following it. What she literally meant is that little things aren’t worth being upset over, but a lot of little things can pile up if you let them.

I've been doing a lot of thinking recently though, and between the advice of my no-longer perspective therapist (more on that after the break :-)) and advice I’ve received from friends and concerned community members here, I’ve come to a conclusion.

Embrace the small stuff too!

I have already talked to Erin about this, and I am determined to learn how to post my own stories on this site. I am about to post the first chapter of a story I have been working on for a long time, but anticipate some problems trying to work out how to do the picture, the header, the story explanation, and the body of the story so that it looks the way I want it to.

Last week, I bought a wig, and I think the experience symbolizes everything I struggle with trying to be female. Having virtually no money, I bought a Halloween wig from the discount bin at my work. Like buying my makeup at the dollar store, it was about getting my feet wet and trying to keep moving forward, but because of the fact I had to buy the lowest end items, the end result falls far short of what it would take for me to look half-way presentable, much less "pretty".

I was just over at TG Comics and they have posted a new story I thought it was excellent. http://tgcomics.com/cover.php If you don't have a member ship, they are easy to get. The mature stuff is restricted as well as the Premium stuff, but there is no charge unless you elect to download a premium item, if you have never been there.
It is titled The Right Man by Commotion 22, and is one of the neater stories I have seen recently.

I thought in honor of Halloween, I would share the lyrics of one of my favorite Halloween songs,

Howl at the moon (By Klaatu)

She was a sleek and slender enchantress
I'd met in the Casbah
When her green eyes first met mine
I was overwhelmed with awe

Well we dance all night to the tango
And she lured me with her charms
As the band played how I prayed
I'd awaken in her arms

(Chorus)

But when I howled at the moon
I know something was wrong
She had me in a spell
And I knew it wouldn't be too long
Before I'd end up
Before I'd end up here in a prison cell

I'm baaack. Wait, you say you didn't know I was gone?

My wife and I have been together for 13 years now, she is very supportive and even manages not to laugh at me - something amazing considering how a 6'1" bearded pseudo-woman must look to an outsider. Oddly enough, she has seen me dressed innumerable times but this morning was the first time she has seen me getting dressed. Since I wake up far faster than she does, I am always completely dressed before she gets out of the shower.

My biggest problem with this life is that I have to deal with Mirrors.

Mirrors are purported to show the real you.

Unfortunately I have never been able to look into any mirror and see myself. I see some fictional Male that everyone tells me happens to be who I am. I however have always known that mirrors are terrible liers. My one wish is that before I die I could see my real self in a mirror just one time.

I really do not think that is asking for too much.

Do you?

I watched "Sleepless in Seattle" tonight, all the way through. I've tried to watch it before but it hurt too much and I had to stop. Tonight I managed to finish it. Maybe I am getting over it.

Gwendolyn

I rode out yesterday to do my weekly shop at the supermarket, and being a sad tart I did my usual trawl through the cheapo DVDs. I came across one called "Freebird", which is a British biker flick. People go to the Black Mountains ('Cold Feet' visits the Black Mountain, a different place)where Welsh is spoken by two boys, one of whom is clearly a Gog (North Walian) and the other clearly either speaks Welsh as a second language or has worked hard at learning his lines, but sounds like a Sais.

Here's something I ran across today in my daily surfing. Seems like someone has leaked some plot notes from the proposed Alien: Prequel movie in the works. In the Spoilers are details that sound like the script writers have been reading TG fiction. Here's the link with the Spoiler warning. Personally I'm guessing this isn't the real thing, but amusing at least to me.

http://blastr.com/2010/10/major-spoilers-ridley-sco.php

Hugs!

Grover

This is pure gold, imho.

It's either useful or humorous (or maybe both), depending on your needs at the moment.

The Female Stereotype Flowchart [link].

I could stare at it for hours... giggling.

I thought that I had forgotten the family; put them away; given it up as a lost cause, but I just found out, through the Grapevine, that my youngest Daughter has had a baby. I don't know when she had it or the gender. She is full blooded Korean and he is Caucasian, so the child is apt to be quite lovely.

This thing has once again brought the longing for a reconciliation with my family to the front. I wonder if it is but a vain hope? This time, a Christian pastor has offered help, and I am wondering how far I am willing to compromise my own beliefs in order that progress can be made.

I fear i cannot keep simply drifting along, just letting my life happen. Writing my latest piece "choices", has really brought things to a head. Instead of being a release, it has opened up a Pandora's box of feelings, and I don't know how to survive it's contents. And yet, no matter what course I chart, I will suffer losses so large I can barely cope with contemplating them, much less face the reality. I am breaking in pieces, and i have no idea if i can survive long enough to glue them back together again. If you are of the praying kind, a prayer for me would be appreciated.

Visitors have been abusing the comment mechanism today leaving spam and other undesirable items while hiding behind anonymity.

I don't have time to deal with that.

Hugs,
Erin

Tried to make a book for out of morning but didn't see how? Tall keep changing things.