It's me again. In my blog from yesturday I talked about my car accident. I want to make it clear that it was my moms car that I was using while my own car was getting a oil change and a brake line fixed.

That's right. I did it again. What did I do, you ask? Well I fell asleep at the wheel again today. I Sleept yesturday morning after getting home from working a double shift. I sleep from a little after 8am untill 1pm. Then I fell asleep a little after midnight and woke up at 4 am today so that I could go to work. To day was a very rough day and There was no chance for lunch. On my way home I was having trouble staying awake. I turned off the heat and cracked a window hopeing the cold air would wake me up.

I don't generally scare easily, within the bounds of realistic need to take threats seriously. However, last night gave me a sinking feeling. I hoped that the threat to BC was a temporary one, because the trauma to me personally, would be enormous, were it to close.

Hi All,

I'm not mad at anyone. I don't think this whole thing had much to do with anyone else's actions.

The site was down temporarily here because I needed to cool off from a temper tantrum. In the last two weeks, I have put in more than forty hours a week in running BC to the neglect of many other aspects of my life. Count in Bob's time during that span and we're talking more than 130 hours that in a just world could be billed at $115 an hour to someone (yes, that's what I used to bill). About $15,000.

STANMAN63: She is 15 years old and has never wrote before until she came up on a hook and wanted people to read her first "OK" as she says, story.

I am astonished - well all right then, surprised, that there are some hardy souls who are prepared to start with episode one of bike. I read it through just under a year ago, which means there's about three hundred more episodes than there was then. It took me a couple of days or more. To read 463 episodes, is a major undertaking. I wish them luck, when I was last informed it was about 600,000 words and longer than Tolkien or Tolstoy.

I was reading over my short story Brandy again, because some of the comments I had gotten, said that the SRU wizard never changes his M.O. Hmmm, yet he is a wizard with a sense of humor, sardonic as it is, and does do good for people with genuine hearts.

Okay so, the interaction of the wizard is what makes him loveable, and his attire is a conversation starter, and he always does buisness in his little shop that crops up here and there every now and then. BUT.....

I downloaded and paid for "Shannon's Course" from the lulu store for here.

I'm going to be talking about the plot, so if you haven't read it, don't come in here and read the rest.

How many of ME are there? I ask this question because I've read several stories and comments of 'us girls' that separate our male and female selves. The most recent that comes to mind as an example is Nancy's excellent "A Different Kind of Courage." There Amanda is coming to terms with Lance Corporal Newly her alpha male protector.

Tonight my beautiful wife Katie gave birth to our third child, a healthy baby boy of 8lbs 14oz named Owen. he's such a cutie!!

Fires in Los Angeles and Orange County may interrupt power to our downtown LA server for BCTS. If so, we'll be down and no knowing for how long. A less serious consequence might be rolling blackouts with intermittent outages lasting hours unless the server farm has to just shut down to protect equipment from surges. More news as it becomes available.

I'm 50 miles east of the fires, so don't worry about me, personally.

Hugs,
Erin

Tuckerspawn has been moved off of the classic BC server onto the Fictioneer server. The new URL is http://tuckerspawn.fictioneer.org. Please update your bookmarks.

Hugs,
Erin

Well that was a bit of a dark patch. Just about all the way through this latest relapse, though it does seem that my left leg isn't going to get back all its function and I will need to carry a cane from now on (I can walk, but if I stay on my feet for more than 15 minutes my leg gets very tired and difficult to move).

Apropos of nothing, or maybe of the upcoming Transgender Day of Remembrance, I tripped over this today, and it speaks to me:

I would like to invite everyone to drop by the Nova Party Line on Thursday, November 20th, 2008, between the hours of 5PM and 11PM PST (8PM and 2AM EST) for an online gathering in honor of the Transgender Day of Remembrance.

I want to apologize to any one that I may have unintentionally insulted when I wrote my story 'Berdache'. I used the internet to research the subject and to help select the best word to describe my character. I have since found out that the word I chose is not as accepted as I first thought. I am sorry for any insult. I do thank you for reading my stories, though.

Unless someone enters another post while I'm typing this, this blog marks post #10000 on BigCloset.

I am wondering where she is. She has not logged on in quite a while.
I have a simple question to ask her, but I can't if she does not show up.

As an author, it's nice to get comments for my work.

It shows that people care enough to take time out of their busy lives to respond to a story.

The main things are:

1. Always use the same pattern.

Thank you all for your comments. They're very generous and I love reading them.

I'm in the local library. This is the first time since I posted that Websense isn't running. TopShelf and the other main TG sites have always been blocked, but lately there has been a random dropping of the guard. The odd thing is Stardust, Beverly's Balcony, Tuck, TG Comics and Stories and various other sites are always available.

I wish to thank Stanman for his excellent editing prowess on the remaining stories from Mellissa (prairie_girl_64. The time and patience upon which Stan dedicated his time to do a wonderful job is gratefully appreciated. In the jouney these past few moths since her passing, I have become accutely aware of her strong devotion to sharing her story. I am also aware of her ability to describe in detail her struggles and pain. Mellissa has noted in her journal(s) that she was/is not the best editor in the world.

Hello all! I'm finally getting back to the Mia novel. I had some paid writing work to get done over the summer (Boring technical junk) but now, things are back to normal and I can squeeze in some writing I actually enjoy. :) Anyway, I have posted a new chapter of Mia, I hope you like it.

I was thinking while I was writing that I should include some links to some of the things I mention in the story. Mainly, so you can see what I'm talking about, and to give you insight into Mia's world.

Was perusing the vast intartbes and came across an interesting concept:

http://lab.drwicked.com/writeordie.html

90 years ago today the Armistice was signed, ending the Great War. It was carnage on a scale not known before, where over a million British Servicemen and women perished, many in the mud of the Somme. It is perhaps beyond our imaginations to realise how awful this must have been, dealing with daily shelling, the cold or heat, constant sniper fire, poor food, lice, disease and boredom. Then if you cracked under the stress of it all, your own side would shoot you as a coward.

A security change in the BC software on Sunday has caused login problems for a few members. The solution is to make sure your cache is clear. Browser caches can be cleared by holding down shift (or control or alt, depending on browser) and hitting the reload button on the browser. ISP cache's are more problematical but this will also clear those in many cases. Some browsers have a cache-clear button in the preferences pane or edit menu. It may be called clear history. You might also need to discard cookies, though waiting a day or so will usually expire any stale cookies.

I wrote that and used it to get a lot of crap off my chest. Yes, most of it is true. I do come from a broken home, my father did leave at 15, I was considered the man of the family (raised Mormon, so any male is automatically better than mere girls), so on.

I was in home ec. I could sew and cook, and I loved the gingham apron. I was one of three boys in there.

I did have to conform. I was in Scouts, I did play things like Army with them. I had Action Figures and cars.

*mumble* *grumble* I should have known this would happen. *mumble*...

and I'm kind of melancholy because of it. It got some stuff out, but there's no solution.

It's called "One Sissy's Story" and should be on the front page.

Go rip it to shreds. I'm ready.

I have to tell you all, I hate writing dialog. Really. I don't mind writing, but the back and forth between people, the conversation and the "" marks really makes me go nuts.

...and I'm still up. So tired.

I'm not entirely sure what to make of this column. Julie has an unfortunate habit of upsetting transsexuals, and I'm not sure she breaks it with this one. See link below:

I caught this today while surfing.

This is a very funny look at getting breast implants. http://www.ifge.org/Article63.phtml

Huggles 'n stuff from,
Catherine Linda Michel

I am working on Second sight and think I have a way forward.

Traffic on BC is up. Way up. Like 20% above last week's record traffic. I have to assume this is due to FM being down.

Erin, please don't unpub this, I promise I'll be good! K?

This is not intended to be political as such. I just think the people of the U.S.A. should be congratulated on choosing the first black President. That will show the world that America is a different country to what many of them thought,
Joanne

Just in case readers are confused by which dormouse is which:

I've suspended google ads on BC until after the election due to offensive and misleading political ads.

Hugs,
Erin

So, I've officially passed the goal of 50,000 words on day 3. Heh.

Sometime recently, the old printer friendly pages stopped working.

I've installed new printer friendly pages which work slightly differently but do work.

Bob helped. :)

Hugs,
Erin

Top banana Lewis Hamilton has just won the F1 drivers championship to become World Champion in only his second season.

We set a record for the month of October and now, a new daily record! The joint is jumping!

Hugs,
Erin

It doesn't matter that I've been a hypocrite? It doesn't matter that no one really knows me (except maybe Ray)?

I've left comments that encouraged authors to write for themselves; write the stories they want to tell and not care if their stories are popular. What hogwash. I couldn't follow my own advice. I wish I could but I can't. That makes me a hypocrite. So be it.

Sending a private message to an author, just to say how much you dislike them, is a pretty shitty thing to do.

This has nothing whatsoever to do with transgenderism, but if you click on the link below, hopefully you'll learn about one of the mysteries of the human body.

Angharad (holding her nose).