I started sneaking birth control pills around the late 90s since I was too stupid to realize that an abusive wife was likely the root of my bad self image. I should have had a divorce instead. It would have been much easier to simply be a crossdresser, and straight. Even Post op, I have not had vaginal intercourse, and it is not likely that I will. Cor, I could have bought a nice car for what I spent.

Gwen

Well, it will be re-pubbed soon. Kindle sometimes takes a day or two.

If you've already bought this book, Kindle should allow you to update your copy with the new text.

If you haven't bought it yet, now's your chance! Uh, well, wait till tomorrow morning probably is best. There were only a few typos we fixed, so if you are okay with that go ahead. :)

Hugs,
Erin

well technically no, not until later in the month but it is the summer term in Euro schools.

It seems to me, that if comments are turned off then kudos should also be turned off at the same time. If they don't want reader feedback, then they should get none.

I noticed this in the "Did you know" section of the Wikipedia home page this morning. (It has now disappeared. Typical. I had to look in the archives.)

...that during a renovation of 4 Park Avenue workers found a sealed room with women's clothes and shoes that was not in the building's blueprints?

This is asking for a story to be written but I have no time to do it. Any takers out there?

Sorry about the late notice for this Sunday's zoom meeting. I was in the hospital Thursday, Friday and Saturday morning, due to a leg infection that was getting the upper hand on me.

I have just "upgraded" one of my laptops to windows 11. It seems fine at the moment.

The laptop has a non upgradable 64gig SSD. Should I delete the Window.old folder. Or do you think I'll be wanting to go back to the safety of Windows 10?

latest chapter of TTSD is up:

https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/94317/ttsd-5-dot-hunting

Jacob Stone rode his bike off a mountain and into a new world...

There are two more parts to this story left to be published.

Marjorie Taylor Greene gives us the scoop on the plot to replace
all straight cisgender people with gay or trans or whatever:
===> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=by9z0pWWIW0
She blames this looming apocalypse
on LGBTQ-inclusive sex educators,
who she called "trans terrorists."

Okay, so yesterday we got the keys to the new place, and discovered a few problems.

The first gut-punch came when we found out the $175 parking fee doesn't give us a dedicated spot in the parkade, and the only time non-residents are not allowed to park in there is overnight.

This means its entirely possible we will come home from getting groceries or whatever, and not be able to find a place to park.

With the whole discussion regarding unfinished works, I felt that perhaps a status update for book 5 of the Heaven's Light Saga should be put up for anyone curious. It's been a wacky year so far between more work changes and things with family (such as my mom being in and out of the hospital five times since Christmas), so the book hasn't made as much progress as I'd hoped. However Part 1 is almost drafted, needing just one fae party scene (whee!) to finish it out, and the framework for the rest of the major beats through to the ending are mostly figured out.

I posted "Just being me." on a few other sites. The story is about a trans woman that waits until later in life to start transitioning and meets a man who accepts her for what and who she is.

I got two private messages today about the story. These were readers from Literotica.

One said

" I read several of your stories and wish I could find happiness as well. I'm still stuck in my life of discretion and confusion in some ways. I want someone to love me. I can definitely relate to her, in your story."

It is now a week since I had the stroke and all things considered, I have been quite lucky, it could have been much worse. Thank you for the well wishes and concerns about my health, I do appreciate them. Whizz and I will do our best to continue to clutter up the site for a long time yet and I will try and post something this week. I hope you are all well.

Best wishes to all,

Angharad.

Or what i done this week.

Here we are another Friday and it is time for me to set up send out the invitations for this Sunday. At 4:00 PM Texas time I will be sponsoring yet another zoom meeting for trans women only. You need not present as a woman to be invited just understanding the need is enough. This will be the last meeting for this month. To get an invitation you have but to ask, just PM me.

How many of you take nitroglycerin pills? How many carry your prescription with you? If my experience is any indicator, you'd better start.

I went out to eat yesterday, secure in the knowledge that I had my Nitro Pills with me, in case of angina.

Later on I happened to notice they were no longer in my purse, so I started backtracking. Knowing they were in a shiny aluminum case made me sure they would be spotted.

After being humiliated in the halls of Wilson High School, Ethan wants everyone to forget he ever existed. Who knew he'd get his wish?

Invisible 1
by Leslie Moore

Why must ballet force dancers into one kind of movement or another, based on assigned gender?

I watched Ricky Gervias latest standup on Netflix last night. He made a few jokes about women, wealth, fat people and trans.

There are some people upset about this. If you have seen any of his Golden Globs award hosting stuff. You know his jokes can cause offence. A lot of comedy works like this. Is this offensive?

“I love the new women. The new ones we’ve been seeing lately. The ones with beards and cocks. They’re as good as gold, I love ’em. No, it’s the old-fashioned ones, they go,

"Oh, they want to use our toilets.’

So we are just getting the horrific details about another school shooting, this one in an elementary school in Ulvade, Texas.

So far, 14 elementary students and 1 teacher are confirmed dead, but the suggestion is that count may increase.

The shooter, an 18 yr old high school student that attended Ulvade High School is also dead, apparently shot by law enforcement.

First, just to shut some people up, THIS is why we have police.

“What am I, a refrigerator?”

I have had stroke. ill post when i feel up to it

AKA The life and times of Madeline Anafrid

Ten days left in May, and we're still trying to raise money for April. I've been covering some bills from my own accounts. We have currently less than $200 total in all company accounts.

Mid-month bills are due. Money from advertisers and other sources will come in at the end of the month but we need to get there.

Please, if you can help, it would be greatly appreciated. Thanks.

Hugs,
Erin, Piper, Cat, Amy, Jamie and the elves.

Okay for some reason, this morning I was thinking about how when I was a kid I had a very specific routine when it came to being dressed.
It occurred to me the routine was what would be approprate for wearing some more feminine clothing - underwear, socks, then bottoms and then top being reasonable if you replace the socks with pantyhose.

It seems that I was pretending to dress more feminine as a way to cope with my dysphoria, which would make sense.

not sure what figuring that out now gets me, but knowledge is power, I guess.

He was struggling with the lymphoma he had in the gut and I thought I needed to do something, so I took him to the vet and an hour later I buried him in the garden, so I brought him home.

I shall miss him dreadfully, I'd had him for nearly 17 years but it was awful to watch the cancer eatng him away.

So rest in peace little fellow, you know I loved you.

still sick, just not suffering so much. Thank you all for your kind words.

Dragon's Fang returns!

I just got over being sick, and I'm sick again. Not Covid, thank God, but I am absolutely miserable - fever just short of 102, coughing, congested and lung just don't feel right. Hurt from head to toe. The big problem, though, is it triggers me since I was deathly ill for most of my childhood, I would get sick and then when I got over that one, I would get sick again days later. What would really upset me is I would cry, which helped me deal with it as it was a good release for all my troubles.

okay so today I got a bottle run done, and then took a load to Goodwill and a load to the Eco Station (the dump).

I am totes burned out now.

I came across this on youtube.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nWu44AqF0iI

The Experiment: Are you sure you don't gender-stereotype children in the toys you choose for them?

Men, (apparently) have better spacial awareness than women. I know my spouse and my mother are useless when it comes to knowing where we are, and directions etc. My mother drives and has got lost a few times. Women are better at emotional related issues and empathy etc.

So I updated the chapter in question, here on BCTS.

I just realized, however, that the evidence in question wasn't discussed. At least not out loud. Bill and Sylvia had copied everything they had found and presumably highlighted certain sections.

Interestingly, one of the two in the office revealed something unexpected to me while I was writing the update, forcing me to update the next chapter as well. Sigh. This is what I get for letting my characters have a certain amount of autonomy, I suppose.

Wendy Marsden is inviting you to a Zoom meeting this Sunday May 15, 2022 @ 4:00 PM Texas time. As always this for Trans woman only. You need not present as female to attend, but no one will care if you don't. If you have an invitation please feel free to share it with other T women.To get an invitation you have but to ask , just PM me.

https://www.time.gov/

Not to offend atheists', I don't care about your beliefs. Those who know me think I am nominally Christian, but in reality my beliefs are radically more wide than that and I am more Muslim than anything. I don't normally bring that up, but in this case the surprise I just received may make a difference. I always thought that Saudi Arabia was the center of Sunni Islam, but according to several sources, its Egypt. There 2 years of counselling, and if Doctors agree, Sexual Reassignment surgery may be performed, both ways.

So, I use the Brave browser when I only want to check for what's new on BC in a quicker fashion (there is a lot higher lag when one is logged in unfortunately) which seems to do a pretty good job of blocking tracking by websites.

Now I am getting this whole recapcha thing which I dislike since I am providing a free service to google to train their AI in image recognition. It also defeats the purpose of my desire to check quickly.

Is BC being that inundated with bots that this is really necessary?

so far this week.

Lately I'm having a sort of cognitive disconnect that is frightening. I've understood and grown accustomed to my rough drafts being embarrassing. Perhaps it would simply be easier to stroke out and die? Mostly I've enjoyed it despite the painful times. Thank you for being part of it. This is not a suicide note.

Gwen

so according to my account, I've been a member here for 13 years and 1 day.

I wish I could feel like celebrating, because I'm super grateful for this place, but I'm struggling with depression.

I have begun the process of trying to figure out what I can take with me to the new place.

Its a bit smaller than what I currently have, so the more I can give away is better, but I'm finding it hard.

Ah, well.

I came out to my mother last night. I'm am currently on holiday with her and her "boyfriend". She's 84 and he's 88!

He has had his driving license taken away, she will only drive very short distances. My brother won't take them as they can be frustrating to say the least. We spent most of yesterday trying to get second hand walking sticks as they had left their's at home.

And guest-starring in the role of

It is Friday again, and there will be another zoom meeting this Sunday, Texas time. This meeting is for trans women only. You need not present as female, but it is a good excuse if you are still in the closet. I always include the government time standard so that you can compare with the world time standard and know when it is on your time zone. Last week we had a popular BCTS writer not including myself, and one European Big Closet user. This is a chance to have a trans meeting without ever leaving your house.

https://www.time.gov/

new chapter of Tinker, Tailor, Soldier, Dot is up!

https://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/94023/tinker-tailor-s...