Been struggling with a feeling of impending doom the last couple of days, which is why I wrote "Five years gone". Not sure why, but it might have to do with the stress at work and getting some negative feedback over my speed there from my supervisor. I hope I can get through this feeling, but much more importantly, I hope the doom doesnt happen.

Yes, today you can now get the complete Book 9 - More Changes from the usual sources and as it has an ISBN - 978-1-4710-2194-7, it will soon be available at Amazon etc too!

http://www.lulu.com/content/hardcover-book/gaby---more-chang...
http://www.lulu.com/content/paperback-book/gaby---more-chang...
http://www.lulu.com/content/e-book/gaby---more-changes/12336394

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Mads

and don't forget your Gaby calendar too

http://www.lulu.com/content/legacy-lulustudio-calendar/gaby-...

Hi everyone

for the impatient here's part 4 of the current Gaby cycle!

http://www.lulu.com/content/e-book/gaby---more-changes-part-...
http://www.lulu.com/product/paperback/gaby---more-changes-pa...

enjoy!

Maddy

I am still here, just dealing with a case of the bah humbugs, have the next one almost ready, was adding some things and now I'm in bed. The other day my back was sore, now I can barely walk. Hurts to sit up. So when I can do it, hopefully I'll finish it tonight and get it off to be edited.

Yes, look out for some exciting news and new postings this week!

Make a date to visit www.maddybell.com on the 21st to make sure you don't miss anything!

Mads

About four years ago I suddenly realized that I am female, even if my body disagrees.

The decades before I just thought I was a little different than the other boys, more sensitive, emotional, softer.
More empathetic, I was told that I'm a good listener.

I never got his competitiveness, "I'm better/stronger/more whatever than you" which was going on between the other boys.

Fortunately I grew up in a very caring and (positively) sheltered environment, in a loving family without any real conflicts. (At least I don't remember any.)

The Family Girl Blogs (aka "The New Working Girl Blogs") Blog #17: Flying Back Home. Again. To see all of Bobbie's Family Girl Blogs, click on this link: http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/book/28818/family-girl-blogs

It's 5AM here in Manila, and I'm all packed, waiting for the front desk to call me for my short ride to the   airport. I'm going home.   After all of twenty-one hours here... This is getting old real quick...

Sorry...my mouse went into spasms.
Tanya

I haven't seen this appear anywhere here yet, so I don't think that the word has spread here yet....

Spread the word to attempt to halt ABC's ill advised comedy "Work it". This show, if it makes it to Air, will poke fun at the real issues that Trasngender people face in gaining acceptance in life. This show needs to be stopped before it goes any further...

http://www.hrc.org/callitout

http://ca.sports.yahoo.com/highschool/blog/prep_rally/post/M...

This is wrong. I could understand it if there was a male cheerleading sport, or if colleges separated cheerleading into two groups. I hope the family and school sues the MSHAA and wins.

The Family Girl Blogs (aka "The New Working Girl Blogs") Blog #16: back in Manila. Again. To see all of Bobbie's Family Girl Blogs, click on this link: http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/book/28818/family-girl-blogs

Hi.   Just arrived in Manila, checked in, and Stinky Bobbie just had a looong hot shower, a nice meal, and is resting up.

A little birdie tells me it's John in Wawawawawawawawa's birthday.

Happy Birthday, kiddo, it's one closer to retirement.

hugs,

Angharad :), Bonzi & Izzy (the feline psychos).

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JhwuXNv8fJM&feature=g-all-u&c...

This is very important, the government is trying to gain the power of corporate censorship. Everything, even BC could be shut down, RAISE AWARENESS!!!!!

As ever with Lulu, any excuse to put on an offer... :)

This time, there'll be a different offer each day for the next eight days (it's day four today, they didn't send an email for the previous days). As this set of offers started on 14th, which was also when the previous offer ended, it's likely there'll be a new year sale when this one ends...

http://www.lulu.com/holiday_coupons

I had an interesting moment at work. A customer was waiting for service at the jewelry counter, so I paged for a cashier person to come over. As I was walking away, his wife came up, and said she had had no luck finding someone to help them. Then the man pointed at me and said, "She paged for us."

"She."

This was no sales person hoping for my business, nor even a co-worker with an obligation to be tolerant, but a customer, a stranger.

The Family Girl Blogs (aka "The New Working Girl Blogs") Blog #15: Flying is fun? Hah! To see all of Bobbie's Family Girl Blogs, click on this link: http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/book/28818/family-girl-blogs

I am leaving for Manila at 8:30 this morning.   It's for work, not fun.   I'm arriving in Manila thirty-eight hours later, or Monday 10:30AM Manila time.   And I'm flying back Tuesday 8AM Manila time, and arriving in Reagan twenty-five or so hours later, or Tuesday, 8PM Eastern Standard.   Sixty-three hours, or more than two-and-a-half days of flying time, for all of twenty-one hours in Manila.   and much of that would be time on the road, getting ready, or whatever.   I'd probably just have eight hours with the office guys... yeesh...  

Well, my latest story took a lot out of me. Its total fiction, but I cried writing it. I hope you guys like it.

I notice people have been reading my storybut leaving no comments. I agree with Enemyoffun about comments, please leave some so I know if my story has been enjoyed.

I bought a 3 dvd set of Jim Henson movies: The dark crystal, Labyrinth, and Mirrormask. They are incredible, and its interesting that two of the films have teen girls as the lead characters. Its also kinda interesting how much I could identify with these two girls, and how much I learned from them. Just one of those things, I guess.

Yup, today's the day I take another step further into old-gitness.

I'm fifty-one for fuck's sake, I never imagined reaching twenty-one and after a really odd year, I look back in wonder as whilst some of this year has totally overshadowed the rest - the car accident and all - I've now got a house in France, published my first book and wonder what fifty-one's going to be like.

Dear friends:

An early Happy Chanukah, Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year.

G-d willing, I will be flying to Israel tomorrow with my wife, and will be lighting my Chanukah Menorah in Jerusalem on December 20. My first visit to Israel. Will be there until December 29.

Best wishes to all

Rami

Here I sit in Sue Towers, quill pen in hand - well it's a keyboard, but what's poetic about a lump of plastic.?

Outside it is dark and the wind is coming up, (too many curries). My typing finger is wearing down to the bone as the story just gets longer and longer.

First I thought that I could do the story in one, easy to manage and digest lump. Then it got too long and as I know that some readers have a short attention span and anything over one thousand words might cause a brain freeze (that's an ironic joke by the way as I am exactly like that) I decided to do it in two parts.

Hi folks

more Gaby over at www.maddybell.com and the first update in my christmas markets pages - the gluhwein mug museum!

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Mads

I came across this on AOL/Huffington post about Janet Mock telling her boyfriend I WAS BORN A BOY
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/janet-mock/transgender-coming-...
I Don't know how to post link so copy & paste the address - HUGS RICHIE2

Just thought this might bring a smile to your faces.

http://biertijd.com/mediaplayer/?itemid=30018
Click on.

Bev.

HRC's published the 2012 edition of the CEI, and I'm happy to see that my employer is finally rated at 100%! :-) It's been 95% for the last several years (the hold up was trans benefits... They had them, but they were provided on a case-by-case basis despite the exclusion in insurance. The exclusion is no longer in the insurance policies and benefits are awesome!).

Thanks to everyone who left help and support here.

I finally bit the bullet and went through Amazon's copyright process and was able (without using more than my nom-de-plume) demonstrate that it was my story, or at least, that it was not the purported author's story, and they removed it.

Although I did provide the same data for Karen Elizabeth L.'s story, evidently since I did not claim it, they did not remove it.

I am very proud to announce my new novel, Reclamation, is now available at Amazon for the Kindle. It has a transgendered main character but is much more in the form of a mainstream thriller. Worked darn hard on the thing, too! It’s exclusively at Amazon for purchase and as part of their “Kindle Lending Library” for 90 days. The link is: Karin Bishop's Reclamation

Well, last night went much more smoothly, despite my being in some physical pain. But the topper was when I had to tell a co-worker (who is always rather silent around me) that he had to take a pile of pallets outside. He dropped them in the freezer section of the store instead, and then shook his head, Once I got out of range of him, I started giggling, because it occurred to me to wonder if he was being sexist - he just didnt want to take an order from a girl. Wouldn't that be a hoot?

So there I was, Sunday morning club rides and I'm turned up in the normal Welsh drizzle expecting a nice 28 mile amble with the group fours; only to find no other group fours or even group threes had turned up. I'm debating taking off on my own and enjoying a nice pleasurable ride at my own pace all nice and regular like but oooooh nooo!

"No Bev", says Les the club secretary, "come on out with the group twos, we'll take it easy for you."

"Yeah!!!!!" Says I as I look pointedly up into the rain sodden clouds and the 'unsolvable porcine equasions of flight' refuse to leave my head.

We got a phone call from my aunt Pat last night, saying that her eldest son has cancer. Apparently, he had some before, and was cured, but the new one isnt the same as the old. I guess he is estranged from his dad, and Pat is angry that the boy's father cant put aside their differences because he's sick. It reminded me of the rest of my family, who have taken the ability to hold a grudge and perfected it into an art form. One of these days I should find a way to come out to them, but as they are not part of my life much, if they reject me, I dont lose much. Ah, well.

http://bostonglobe.com/metro/2011/12/11/led-child-who-simply...

This is a good article on a family in Maine that are dealing with a transgender kid who is part of a set of identical twins. One is a son, the other a daughter, but biologically/genetically should be about the same.

It would be interesting to see the results of a genetic study and fMRI scan on the two of them. I think it is studies of identical twoins that would be most useful to learn about the sources of being TS, eh?

Meh today I feel like crap. Having cramps that come and go and pretty much exhaust me. No its not the runs/trots/diarrhea. Id take that its not as painful and exhausting. Nor would I be swollen like a frigging balloon either. Wanted to work on my stories but im just so out of it half the time ill skip for today.

There is little girl and her name is Maggie. To everyone that knows her, it is Kitten. They named her that because of the way she is. Full of energy that she uses up in a hurry sharing her love, joy and happiness with everyone and everything around her.

For those who said that I should let my hair grow out and straighten it, I can do that. I have tried to straighten it out and nothing keeps it straight at all. It just keeps curling up on me after dries out. Since I grew up in the military family, I have gotten use to having my hair short. I have a wig that is red and long, so I can wear that if I want to go out. I was thinking along that line right now.

Joshlyn Amanda

Well, last night I was starting to feel a wave a grief coming on, and I got to wondering what I could do to endure it better. Just when things started to look bleak, the song "The only girl in the world" came on over our intercom. Somehow, the song got me out of my rut and made me feel better again. Neat trick, that. I'll have to remember it the next time.

The Family Girl Blogs (aka "The New Working Girl Blogs") Blog #14: Being Mr. Heckles To see all of Bobbie's Family Girl Blogs, click on this link: http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/book/28818/family-girl-blogs

this was supposed to be a comment, a piece of unsolicited advice, actually, for dorothycolleen, in her blogpost, "Disassociation" -

http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/blog/32731/disassociation

i originally wanted to post it as a comment, but looking at how involved i got in writing it, i thought i'd make it a blog instead. so, i think you'd best read her blog first, so this one will make some sense.

SAN ANTONIO -- A local college student says she was fired from her job for refusing to allow a transgender woman into the women's dressing room. Now she's speaking out, saying her religion conflicts with the store's transgender policy.

Liberty Counsel, a religious advocacy group, is representing 27-year-old Natalie Johnson after she was fired over the Nov. 30 confrontation. Johnson said she was never aware of Macy's transgender policy, but now that she is, she doesn't agree with it.

Of all the aspects of myself that give me trouble, (which are many, and profound) the one that is on my mind at the moment is my ongoing internal narration. I seem to have an author within, recording and commenting on my thoughts and actions from a third person perspective.

I believe the medical term for this is disassociation.

Why is it that every pair of male slacks that I own seem to have a hole in the crotch? I mean, they just come apart at the seams...

Sorry, I'm just ranting and confused by this...

Samantha

I was having look on flickr yesterday seeing what sort of pictures cross dressers post on there when I came across a picture with a copy of one of my stories below it. There were some very complimentery remarks which was nice, and the phot was good and one might have chosen.

My question is. Should I be offended or flattered?

Also without opening yet another e mail account, this time with yahoo does anyone know how to contact folk on flickr?

I more than understand that the things that I write are not for everyone. I tend to deal with harsh subject matter in a pretty straight-forward way that not everyone is comfortable. I get that. But know this about me, I enjoy writing what I do (not that I get some kind of perverse pleasure out of pain and suffering, but the exploring of dark emotional places that few dare to tread gives me a certain strength that allows me to confront the shit in my own life).

Ladies,

If you haven't seen this and live in the UK might I suggest that you take a few moments to review the links below?

Killers of transgender people to get longer sentences A Link to the BBC story which covers the change.

Home Office Transgender equality strategy

I post these without comment:

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2011/12/08/gender-reassignment...

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2011/12/07/macys-employee-fire...

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2011/12/08/michigan-legislatur...

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2011/12/05/brooke-fantelli-cal...

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-16089715

shalimar

I'm having trouble figuring out my ex. Yesterday, after the Christmas do at my brother's, I took my daughter home, and since I didn't have to work, I came into my ex's house for a bit. While I'm there, my ex starts playing with my hair, complimenting me on its softness and length, and making suggestions to help cover up my bald spot. Then today, when I was dropping off my daughter, she noticed I now have pink gloves, and gave me the third degree for their color. Like I said, she confuses me.